In this page, you will get to explore the mind, events and feelings of a Chun Jui... ok, fine, judging from the past 25 years, my life is far from what you call "eventful" (in fact, "dull" might the be more appropriate adjective) but I'll try to keep my entries interesting!
Tuesday, December 6, 2005
As the days of 2005 are slowly coming an end, I can't help but look back the past year. Someone who I haven't talked to in awhile asked me how my year was and I was talking, I realized with satisfaction that this year has been quite transformational for me. Actually, the past few years have been transformational because I feel like I've grown up a lot. There have been many ups and downs but through it all, I stayed true to myself (sorry for the cliche!) and that's what I'm most proud of. I never lost sight of what my dream was since I was 4 (to be a teacher) and worked hard for it. Sure, my confidence wavered a bit for a while but I stuck to my guns, worked even harder and ended up pleasantly surprising myself.
I'm also proud of the fact that I actually DID learn from past mistakes and experiences. Things that set me back before actually did help me grow up and when I was faced with the same situation again, I was able to handle it maturely and wisely. I know I can take care of myself. I know that I am able to stand back up, albeit shakily at times, when I get knocked down. I really couldn't have said that about myself, say, maybe four years ago.
The most amazing part of growing up is that there are many people in my life who were there right from the beginning and watched me go through it all. It's even more amazing when I think that I was also part of their growing up. It amazes me that little me can actually have a signficant role in other people's lives--- I'm so easily influenced by other people that I often don't realize that I, too, can influence others. Coffee guy said it best: "Wow, think about how much you're influencing your students! I still remember my grade two teacher, don't you?"
I love my job. :)
"Happy Pessimist" is my new nickname (along with "Smartass"!).
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