In this page, you will get to explore the mind, events and feelings of a Chun Jui... ok, fine, judging from the past 23 years, my life is far from what you call "eventful" (in fact, "dull" might the be more appropriate adjective) but I'll try to keep my entries interesting!
Friday, February 13, 2004
Ah, Valentine's Day... Maybe it's due to my maturing as an adult or maybe I've become immune to it but I no longer dread it. In fact, I actually kinda like it now (I've always had deep down) even though I have no special someone to celebrate it with me. I just feel awkward when others feel embarrassed for me. Like, when a coupled-person would water down their special plans that they have for tomorrow when talking to me so as to not make me feel bad that I don't have someone... E.g. "Oh, no, we're doing anything really special, just dinner together... nothing much" (or something to that effect). Honestly, while I do appreciate their tactfulness, it really isn't necessary. Because, in a way, it makes me feel even worse because their trying to play down their "coupleness" so as to save my feelings makes me think that there really is something wrong with being single on Valentine's Day. It took a lot of soul-searching for me to reach this stage of self-acceptance and self-assuredness, so it really doesn't matter to me as much anymore that I don't have a date for the big V-Day. It doesn't mean I'm boycotting V-Day and starting a hate parade for V-Day either because like I mentioned before I DO like Valentine's Day. I think it's a great day for people to celebrate overtly their love for their partners, family, and friends. I may not have a special someone right now but I certainly do have the latter two. And why shouldn't couples celebrate their love for one another on this special day? I mean, as many of you know, it's really not that easy to find that special love. I haven't found *him* yet... Valentine's Day is just like Mother's Day to me: I don't hate it but it's just not applicable to me right now (I mean, I DO celebrate Mother's Day with my mom but I'm not the person BEING celebrated). So, one day when I have that special someone, I will celebrate Valentine's Day. Just not this year.
I mean, what is the point of bashing Valentine's Day and feeling sorry for yourself just because you don't have a date? Pitying yourself and sulking will only make it worse because you're making a conscious effort in reminding yourself over and over again that you should be miserable because you don't have a date. By accepting that Valentine's Day is "N/A" for now and then continuing on with your day, you will be much happier. And I say all of this even though for the past many years, even if I did have a date for Valentine's Day, it was never with someone who I truly wanted it to be.
And although V-Day haters always justify their hatred by claiming that V-Day is an overly commercialized, "Hallmark" day, I think that it doesn't have to be that way. You don't have to do all the hearts and doilies and chocolates and Hallmark cards and roses if you don't want to. Just look at it as an opportunity to think about the people you love (friends, family) and be appreciative that they're their in your life. I guarantee that you would feel much better that way and hopefully, realize how much love you already have even when "sans" romance. :) Happy Valentine's Day everyone!
P.S. Most recently read book and HIGHLY recommend: Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom. I started and finished the book in about two days (it's not long at all and an easy read but also very inspirational, which makes it hard to put down once you've started reading it!).
Friday, February 6, 2004
I now know yet ANOTHER person who is engaged!! Everybody seems to be getting married! First there's Liz, then my brother next year, then three of my classmates! The "single gals club" is shrinking everyday, and sadly(?), I am still a very prominent member of that club. I think I'm on my way to becoming a VIP member of that club! :P
Have you ever felt like something that seems over and done with, isn't really finished? Maybe it's wishful thinking or another fragment of my fantastical world but I still get the feeling that we're not quite over yet...
Lastly, Happy Belated Chinese Valentine's Day! May everybody find their soulmates soon!
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