In this page, you will get to explore the mind, events and feelings of a Chun Jui... ok, fine, judging from the past 25 years, my life is far from what you call "eventful" (in fact, "dull" might the be more appropriate adjective) but I'll try to keep my entries interesting!
Thursday, November 17, 2005
*Sigh* Here I am, so content with my life and worrying and stressing about such little things, whereas a few members of my extended family are going through hell. My cousin Kelly was diagnosed with leukemia over a year ago and I just received news last night that she's losing the battle. At the age of 31, Kelly's life has been full of ups and downs, and soon, she'll be gone. For those of you who know, my mom's side of the family is huge, and so, I have got more than 30 first cousins! I've never met some of them, believe it or not, and I've only met Kelly three times my entire life. However, we connected the very first time we met when I was twelve. She had quickly become one of my favourite cousins, even though we don't keep in touch with one another. She is a very genuine, very nice, very gentle person. She's the kind of person you can just tell your whole life story to the very first time you meet her. She also had this aura about her that made men's heads turn everytime she walks by. I remember really looking up to her when I was twelve.
The heavens seem to be playing a cruel trick on her and her family. Kelly was a flight attendent and was supposed to have been working on one of the planes that was hijacked in 9/11. Fortunately for her, it was her day off that day. We all felt very lucky that she had narrowly escaped death. In a cruel twist of events, however, she was diagnosed with leukemia shortly afterwards. It was as if she escaped death the first time to only be faced with death again later.
Kelly is very feminine and loved to "beautify" herself. She was very envious of my hair because it was still shiny and smooth, unlike hers, which had been fried by bad perms. I remember her making me promise that I wouldn't go perm and ruin my hair (till this day, one of the big reasons why I didn't give into the temptation to colour or perm my hair was because of her!). Because of this, I'm sure the ravaging effects of chemo on her appearance including her hair, must have been devastating for her (among other things, of course).
I don't know if my wish for her to recover is in vain but if she is to really go, I only pray to God that He lets her go peacefully and painlessly. The family though, will always be heartbroken that Kelly never experienced marriage or motherhood.
My eldest aunt is also slipping away from us too. She too, has been battling cancer, and like Kelly, my aunt only has a few months left. Although we're all saddened and heartbroken by my aunt's illness, at least she can boast about living a very fruitful and relatively long life (she's old enough to be my grandmother!). She has been blessed with experiencing being a wife and grandmother--- this woman gave birth to NINE children! I pray that, if she is to go, that she will go peacefully and painlessly as well.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
There are some things in life where you just have to let go after a while. Food that's past their "Best before" date makes you sick, and so do relationships that's run their course. Friendships or any other bonds that were once strong can also expire. I got a wake up call today about one of those relationships. I tried and tried to keep up my end of the deal (i.e. "We'll always stay in touch!") but if after a year and that person still does not let you know if he/she is dead or alive, then, it's time to accept the reality. Today was the last straw because my email bounced back to me IMMEDIATELY with the message that the receiving email account has been discontinued. That was a sign: like the email account, our friendship has also discontinued.
In other news, my dear Viv and her boyfriend made a whirlwind visit exactly one week ago! We had such a fun time and it was awesome to see a full house in such long time! See, Viv, see how you just draw in the crowds?? :P Anyway, Viv, we love you and miss you terribly! Do come visit soon again, ok?
Final and fandom thought: some things in life are meant to be taken lightly and are meant to be fun. I'm learning and getting used to that at this point in my life! :D
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