30 Entries total here...

April 2, 2001 - 10:28am: "numero uno: anonymity and honesty"
(first entry ever, on the internet and honesty and personal integrity)
April 3, 2001 - 11:53am: "abusive rant. very personal and painful"
(reflections on "uncle" Ed, the man who molested me when i was a kid)
April 5, 2001 - 9:21am: "we need a new american revolution"
(reflections on race and current events in the US)
April 7, 2001 - 10:06am: "absinthine dreams"
(telling of a couple absinthe related dreams i had)
April 11, 2001 - 6:24pm: "fresh veggies and anti-choice vandalism"
(reflection on economic segregation in oakland and recent vandalism towards the clinic)
April 11, 2001 - 9:18pm: "palimpsest: rebirth of the cool"
(applying the word "palimpsest" to my life)
April 12, 2001 - 8:57am: "men are scum rant"
(reaction to something that happened 'in the boat' when mel was out the night before)
April 18, 2001 - 10:55am: "breathing again... sadly ;-)"
(geeky story of fixing my computer lol)
April 19, 2001 - 10:13am: "blah"
(long reflection erased by lost connection... short version: addicted to sadness)
April 23, 2001 - 10:57am: "letting go... goodbye grandma"
(reflections and goodbye to my dead grandmother)
April 26, 2001 - 10:15am: "precious sacks of flesh"
(on prejudice, specifically sex and sexuality)
April 27, 2001 - 11:16am: "elvish baby, yeah"
(Liv Tyler on Conan O'Brien... mmm...)

May 3, 2001 - 9:04am: "of terrible wind and alien invaders"
(reflections on the wind storms, funny analogy)
May 7, 2001 - 12:40pm: "abuse revelations..."
(refelctions on 'uncle' Ed and patterns i've found dealing with men)
May 8, 2001 - 9:09am: "bay arean heat"
(reflections on hot weather... comparisons, etc.)
May 21, 2001 - 10:40am: "cleaning house... siobhan"
(reflections on Siobhan, bisexuality, etc...)
May 22, 2001 - 10:03am: "temple ruins"
(ruins can be a noun or verb here... reflections on friends lost and Temple, destroyer of worlds...)
May 23, 2001 - 9:10am: "digging in the dirt"
(feelings about the diary, opening old wounds)
May 31, 2001 - 8:46am: "undertow"
(story of my fear of water, why i don't swim)

June 13, 2001 - 12:46pm: "paint it black"
(reflections on abortion, choice, and working in the clinic)
June 18, 2001 - 10:00am: "pop's day"
(on father's day, missing pops, and family in general)

July 5, 2001 - 9:32am: "jaded"
(on falling in love... or lack of... what keeps me back)

August 28, 2001 - 9:20am: "digging..."
(on cleaning house, old journals, new office, scars...)

April 9, 2003 - 12:10am: "ups and downs"
(on my emotional state having gone through illness, injury, bankruptcy, and divorce...)
April 14, 2003 - 9:02pm: "numb"
(reflections on mel, getting ready to move my things home, after she told me she'd been seeing someone)
April 15, 2003 - 9:31pm: "sometimes it's hard being a dreamer"
(more on dealing with mel and moving on)
April 18, 2003 - 9:29pm: "just a day"
(on moving my things home)
April 23, 2003 - 7:26pm: "moving on..."
(on being back)

May 10, 2003 - 4:19pm: "keepin on"
(on moving on and finding myself)
May 12, 2003 - 10:56pm: "mortality"
(on death and dying and my uncle Armi)