So, I was in the mood to blog. It's one of those moments. I was, for a moment, asking myself if anyone actually reads this old blog of mine and considered not even writing, however it occurred to me that I read it and although the original thought of it was for others to keep up with my life, it's turned into a memory bank more so for my benefit, therefore I write.

I had the need the other night to watch "The Pursuit of Happiness". It had a greater effect on me than I imagined. I just wanted to watch the movie. Turns out it actually meant more to me, especially during this time of year, than I thought.

Seems like Thanksgiving is always the time to review what you are thankful for. And I do it on this blog every year. However, this year in particular, it seems more important to not just say how thankful you are, but to show it in your actions. I haven't been doing that so well so far, but I'm a work in progress, that's for sure.

I have been so blessed. More than words can describe. And I think about it in those times where I'm down on myself or one thing in my life becomes challenging and I say to myself all of the amazing things and people I have in my life. Then, I try to move on.

I love where I live. I honestly and truly am blessed with my work. I have a small supportive and incredible group of friends. I have an amazing music community that surrounds me (and have become really great friends as well). My family, although very stubborn, have always been there for me. I've never gone without food, shelter or love. I'm truly blessed.

My love for music has continued to grow and fills my heart with happiness. It's amazing how music can affect me in such a positive way. Every new song I hear that I enjoy is the best gift! Thank you to all the amazing musicians who make me so happy everyday!

So, I got done with the Food and Wine Event, moved straight into the last Super Soap Event at Disney. Bittersweet. I loved hosting Eden and Brandon, respectively, however the event is pretty exhausting, I think everyone agrees on that. But, it was sad that it was the last one regardless. I think it was a successful tour, although I was feeling crummy throughout the long hours. I have sense recovered, thankfully.

I was fortunate enough to fall into a very fun and rewarding tour with a group of three bros. They will be on The Rock Boat that I go to every year, so I'm stoked to be seeing them again. Great group and awesome kids...most amazingly original names ever!

Had a great span of amazing shows, most at The Social, which made me the happiest ever! Augustana, Jack's Mannequin, Matt Nathanson, Zac Brown Band, Tony Lucca, All American Rejects (2 nights in a row!), etc. Was quite amazing for all!

Saw Bolt! and I'm in love with Rhino...that is all on that! *grin*

Isn't it interesting how everyone has a different perspective. And because everyone is so different. Different ways of communicating, understanding, comprehending things. It's amazing to me. I have learned that, although I'm no perfect person, that people have some pretty messed up ways of dealing with situations. Denial, lies, excuses. Anything to protect them. It's like a really crazed individualistic way of hiding the truth. I know that my perspective is that of my very own, so obviously biased as well, but I *think* I have the gift of compromise and seeing things through putting myself in other's shoes as well. Regardless, it doesn't help the fact that my trust in people has weakened, yet again. I'm still not able to deal with it well, however I take it day by day. I just can't get caught up in drama, however I'm also not going to compromise what I believe is to be right by me.

I have always said that time cures all. It's true. I believe that's it's already cured quite a few of my past challenges. I'm constantly reminded of certain things that once made me upset and now make me kinda sad. It's funny how time change your feelings over certain situations. Now I miss some of the good things that came with all the challenges. In the long run though, you know it's not worth it. It's not worth trying to make anything good out of what the time has given you, but it's a good thing that at least you aren't upset anymore.

I have a very exciting weekend coming up. Yep, I will be working. And it's a great thing! Three years in a row! I'm stoked!

CCMaD took a bit of a break to re-collect our ideas and goals. We are booking a show at Central Station's Rock Bar on Friday, December 12th with Dirty Shannon, James Roquemore and Robbie Hazen. I'm super excited to now be booking at a Downtown venue and to put together this amazing show! Come support local music! We are also working on our next charity event, Go MaD! Over Cystic Fibrosis in honor of our good friend Kasey on Saturday, March 21st! More details to follow! Couldn't be happier with our current opportunities and growth!

"I've been sleeping in the place that you left me, do you regret me? Did you forget me?" Tony Lucca's "Pretty things"