So, it's been awhile since I've written yet again. Life has been somewhat of a blur lately. Not in a bad way, but I've just been super busy. My life has consisted of waking up super early, working with hardly any days off at all, coming home for less than an hour, then heading out to either CCMaD Events, shows or events of some kind. Not that I am complaining at all. I love my life. I love my job. I love my friends. But I need a break. I need a break from my life for just a moment to catch my breath.

Finally, I have been able to just rest tonight. My mind, my body and my soul need the rest. Also needing to sorta get back on track with things that I need to work on in my life. It's so weird how I have these random moments where I look back on the blur that has been my life as of lately and wonder how it got to be such a blur. Then, somehow I get all caught up in the everyday schedule and start the entire process over again. Not that I don't learn from my mistakes. But I think I get a bit caught up sometimes.

Do you ever think that someone is trying to tell you something with the continuous messages you get through different venues. Through tv, radio, friends, family, news columns. I feel like I've been getting a contiunous message to just slow down in general. I think it's a positive move, but I just need the willpower to enforce it. That's what I lack. I certainly don't have a huge support system for it either which isn't cool, but it needs to be all about me. Not about everyone else.

I've become obsessed with reading again. I go through cycles where I don't read for awhile, then all of a sudden I want to read all the books in the world. I finished "How to Kill a Rockstar" by Tiffanie Debartolo recently and fell in love with this book. It's just plain amazing! I now want to read every book that could possibly be associated with it, including all the other books that Tiffanie has written. It moved me almost as much as music does.

Everything's been going really well with our CCMaD Events and I have never felt as much support from our friends and the artists than I do right now. I smile every time I think of it. Christian Wilson has been a major part of that and I thank Ellen everyday for introducing me to him and his music. CCMaD has been an amazing journey and I'm very proud to have started it and gone though all the things we have to make it to this point. Chachos always...

I have also been craving new music like it's going out of style as of late. I don't think I've ever bought this much music consistently in my life. But it's great!