I heart two albums currently the most. Randall Shreve's and Big 10-4. Can't get them out of my head....or out of my CD Player.

So I'm going through a massive change in my eating and exercise lifestyle...total change and it's definitely affecting my world around me. My focus is changed for the better. However, my level of trust for people in general is depleting second by second, day by day. It's amazing. I don't understand human nature sometimes. People are taught to be so self-individualized to where they only spend their time doing what's good for them and making up excuses defending whatever actions they chose to not blame themselves. If you screw up, apologize and do better, don't do it again and again intentionally not caring about other people and their requests. That sucks. People just suck in general. I'm bitter at the world.

Apart from people acting selfishly, I'm doing well. Work is going good. CCMaD is rocking my socks off, things seem to be going well on the outside. The Orlando music community is better than ever. The stresses in my life deal more on a social level and family drama that won't seem to stop, but that comes in everyday life. Nothing can be perfect all the time, right?

Things have been improving for the most part on all levels of my life and a lot of good things have been occuring that make me happy to be apart of it all. FMF 2006 was a good experience. We were fortunate enough to have been hired to help a few of the Orlando local talent to assist them with additional promotion and merchandise sales. It's always great to be apart of such a great Orlando music community and we always appreciate that. I think we learned a lot from it and came away stronger than ever before. It was really hard to balance the day job and CCMaD for me that weekend, but I have to say that the partnership worked for the most part and all you can do is the best that you can and give all your effort and learn from it.

A couple of fun things coming up is Cali and I's road trip to get out of town for a day and head down to West Palm Beach to see our friends in Five Star Iris (mucho excited about that!). They are opening up for Natasha Bedingfield for Clematis By Night on June 1st, if anyone wants to meet us down there!

Also, I am driving up to da ATL next weekend for a Girl Scout (aka SG *grin*) Reunion. I can't wait. Girl Scouts was such a huge part of my life and it's been so long since I've been back that it will be amazing, I'm sure. I get to see Jessica, Melissa and Deanna again for sure, which makes me happy in general so it should be a great visit home. I really need the extra time with my family as well. With all the drama that has been going on as of late, I need to be home and just have some happy times with them all. Also, as a bonus, Five Star Iris will be playing one of the nights that I'm home in the ATL. So happy. I get 5SI twice in two weeks, how lucky am I?

I've been torn about a few things going on lately that I can't really specify yet, but I need to write about it because that helps me try to figure things out the most. I just can't be specific, but have you ever felt like you weren't sure if your life was going in the right direction and you finally realize that you do have control over it, but how much of it can you really control when outside sources affect you in some ways? Does that make any sense whatsoever?

My calming moments have been when I've been running up and down Vineland Ave with my IPod carrying me through it all. I heart my IPod. It helps me more than anyone could ever know. I love the way music can help me breathe. Music is really an amazing affect on me.

I realize this blog seems completely random, but I guess that fits my mood as of now. I'm going to see Jack's Mannequin tomorrow night with Shannon, 867& Fish. Will be a fun night for sure! Oh happiness! I definitely need some Jack's Mannequin in my life!

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It's a good CD release day. I've decided. *grin* Go out to your nearest cd retail store and purchase the new BIG 10-4 CD "Testing The Atomosphere" It will rock your ever-loving world. BTW, that's a personal recommendation. Just in case you were confused.

So things have been crazy lately, per usual. Somehow I think I got lost in all the mess. Things have been on such a roll lately that I haven't stopped one bit to just sit. There is always something to do, something that's been left undone, something that has a deadline...always a "something".

Last Monday, Shannon and I met up to head to the House of Blues for the Needtobreathe and Train show, which was amazing! Ran into Melanie, Xavier and friends as well as Amy J, Brian and their crew. It was a great show. Needtobreathe rocked out as usual and we were the first to congragulate them on their success on getting on that tour. They are adorable. I heart those boys.

I facilitated one of Epcot's new managers on Tuesday and Wednesday for ATS training. Good times. I basically rode through the week pretty seamlessly doing some easy OT with tours for a graduation event and the VIP Tour Guide party. On Saturday, I got up early and walked to work for the first time in my life over to Mickey's Retreat (right across the street) to assist with setting up the party. It was a good day helping out and having fun with the coordinators. Headed home early afternoon to run some errands, get lobster burnt (racoon eyes and all) at the pool, swim for some exercise and then got ready for the party. Shannon met up with me and we walked over for the Luau themed event. It was really good times. Was coaxed into participating in the "games" but did pretty well in the coconut run and limbo contests even if my boobs hit the height stick before anyone else's did. Ah well. *grin*

PJ's hubby was running sound and began to play *NSYNC so of course I must do my dances *grin* and then he plays another song by *NSYNC....hmm. then another and a fourth one. By this time, I'm doing every dance while being filmed by Joey F.'s tour guide (Thanks Bob!) and doing dances with Luiz (heart you for knowing them!) and sweating up a storm. Little did I know, it was all for the cause of a joke that was about to open the show they were doing. Ha Ha!

Good times at the guide party, but Shannon and I had to leave early to get ready for our Big 10-4 CD Release party at The Social. We got there in perfect time for The Murphy Project. Got to see Cali and Company, Amy J and Brian, Julie and Company, Berg!!!!! (happiness, I wouldn't let him go!), Elizabeth, finally get to meet Robyn, etc. It was a great night, except this is when my "funk" started. Not sure why, but I was just feeling really down and out. Getting irritated at everything and everyone around me. This "funk" con't through my day off on Sunday, even though I successfully made it over to Amy J's place for a Sunday "dinner" and it was good times with Amy J, Leslie, Joel, Brian, Cali, Tony and Jill. Got home and finished my errands, but quickly got annoyed again at certain things in my life. General things. I'm not sure if it was the cause of many things or just one, but my quick change of diet, con't exercise plan, lack of drinking and chocolate intake, stress factor rising with every moment, family drama, etc. It just all must have accumulated because it felt like a breakdown was about to happen.

Thankfully, "I've got friends, la la la la, to help me get through" and communicating about my "funk" and apologizing for whatever it was I was feeling did help and admitting that I was in this "funk" and needed help getting out was my saving grace, I believe. I know that some people think that hanging out in their little black hole will solve all the world's problems, but having my friends there to get me out of my hole was the best thing ever. Thank you...you know who you are! So three days, later and I'm out of my funk...I'm pretty sure anyways. Back to good times.

Yesterday was our third MaD Monday! and it went off without a hitch. There was some drama going into it with a bit of mis-communication in some areas, but all was solved prior to the arrival time. Whew! We hosted The Upward Trend and Only After Five for an amazing night of great music. Both bands rocked it out and had a great crowd there! Morgan rocks my ever-loving world and I would work side by side him anyday at that door. I heart him big time! Derek is the ever-growning supporter and always there for us, which I appreciate to no end!

We had some surprise attendees for the night, which made me smile. Mr. Chris Martin came out on behalf of my myspace comment. How happy was I to see him at the door? *very* That meant a lot for him to come out to support us! Tony, Elizabeth and Shannon have con't to show their great support, which we appreciate more than they will ever know! We even had Rick, from PI come out! (YAY G!) It was cool to see the regulars who welcome us in everytime and get to enjoy the evening with our "community of friends". It just keeps getting better and better.

Have I mentioned how much I adore the boys of The Upward Trend? You guys rock!!!

We are on such a great rollercoaster ride with CCMaD and the fact that things are looking up every single day makes me so excited for what the future holds. I can foresee my office and doing nothing but booking shows, chatting with bands and promoters, getting things done on a bigger scale. All the things I am doing now, but more at one time and getting an income to support myself on it. It's coming....quicker than I think.

So onto today. Today is a good day. It's the first day of the beginning of my life. I love that statement. Something so simple and yet so true. Always something new. I have my date with Park Ave to pick up my copy of the BIG 10-4 CD "Testing the Atomosphere" get my FMF 2006 ticket and post posters for Kissing Karma's show at FMF. Then, onto my nutritional meeting that will feed into my CCMaD meeting. It's gonna be a very productive night and thankfully, a relaxing one after all my committments are ful-filled.

"Live your life with words unspoken, today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten" -Natasha Bedingfield

Chachos!

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What a great weekend. So much more fun and relaxing than last weekend with the crazies! First, let's go back to the beginning of the week. It started off great with Tom Sartori and good friends. I heart Fish :) He's too much fun. It was a long day, but a good night. Tuesday was a productive day at DU, then off to my meeting that night. Was successful and "bookmarked" as a good experience. Wednesday was another good DU day and a night full of meetings with Cali and Jae with Kissing Karma. Good times! Thursday was back at Epcot again with a closing help desk shift that went by really quickly, which rocked. Then, Friday started the fun again!

Friday, I started out the day with my eye appointment, which was quick and painless, thanks Dr. Lincoln! *grin* I was in DSA helping as a coordinator for the first part of the day until Melanie called and let me know she would need my help again with the FeFe kids so we figured that out and I was basically theirs for the evening. Hooked up with the tech boys and loaded in the gear around 5ish and then the good craziness began. It was so good to see those kids again, they were a sight for sore-eyes after the weekend I had before. I heart those kids. FeFe rocks, she's such a sweetheart and so down to earth. JP, Dan, Matt and Todd are amazing as well. The tech boys were super fun and I just enjoyed the entire experience. It was a great night...and a long one. We watched Simple Plan, because the band was looking forward to seeing them and it was a good time, they were much more respectable than FOB. It was a nice change to not have to hold my breath the entire show.

Got home about 4 or so in the morning and crashed. Thankfully, I had Saturday off because I was already committed to working the John Frank show that night, but I was sad to not be on the FeFe tour anymore. Basically, I had time to wake up, shop some at Target and then come home to quickly leave and pick up the materials from Cali and rush over to The Social by 6:30pm to set up merch, etc. Met up with the band, etc. and started working my arse off from that point on, organizing, setting up, rolling shirts, hanging up merch, making signs, etc. and the time for opening the doors came up a lot sooner than I had expected. All of a sudden it was 9pm and I was still struggling to finish setting up in time. The wonderful Stacey came to assist me and boy was I happy to have her help at that point. It was a lot more work than had been discussed and anticipated, but all in all it was a successful event and everything went really well.

The night was pretty busy, but inbetween sales, I was getting such sweet texts *thanks* from my FeFe boys. I heart them! Had a great time with all my band folks....thank goodness I had my merch groupie Rebekah and my supportive friends 867, Cali and G to support me. It was great! :) The show was a hit and everyone was there! It was a late night, but got home around 3:30am and was doing the text thing for awhile before I fell asleep only to wake up to more texts. *grin* & *sigh*

Went and picked up Shannon from the airport this morning. YAY, she's back! Went to lunch at Wendy's and chatted it up and caught up on everything. Then, rushed back home to make it just in time for work. Closing the help desk and everything's just grand. It's been a good and productive weekend for all aspects of my life :) *grin*

Good times...and Chachos!

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I heart Danilo. He was just commented on the dust flying around outside and he said "That must mean the plants are having sex" I love him. And in response to me stating how beautiful a day it is today and right now, he stated "It's a great day for pro-creation"

What a weekend! I am still recovering, but dear goodness it was crazy good times. All I have to say is beginning the weekend with FeFe Dobson and band was a great start. I loved them! So sweet and fun! The next day, I met up with the FOB boys. All I can say is those boys are all crazy. Emily and I had quite the experience. I was surprised at how much I adored Dirty. That kid cracked me up and was super nice and polite at the same time. There was only one tech guy that wasn't too nice to us, but karma is a great thing. The band was amazing and hilarious. I have so many highlights and so many stories, but the weekend with them was enough for me. Three nights staying up until 5am, only to start the next day over with the same craziness...it about wore me out.

I definitely enjoyed watching them play after getting to know them all personally, but it was also very strange. My Disney life and rockstar life have collided before, but no other time had it been so stressful and contradicting. With the amazing Jonas Brothers, great Yellowcard, awesome FeFe Dobson group, very cool Further Seems Forever, amazing Rebecca St. James and crew, etc things have always been great because they all seemed to have loved Disney in some way and appreciated and respected it....however so not the case with FOB. I don't think they even wanted to be here, so that made it more difficult to control. My Disney life was definitely being tested the entire time, but that's part of my job. The entire weekend seemed like a test and for that part of it, I am glad it's over, but either way it wasn't too bad.

I got home around 5am on Sunday morning and slept until about 2pm. It was so nice to rest, but I was feeling really crappy like I was coming down with something so I basically spent most of the day just hanging out, catching up on everything that I had let go for the weekend and laid out in the wonderful, soothing sun underneath the palm trees that tend to always sooth my soul. It was a good day off. Around 7ish, Cali came over and the boys got home from Key West so we chatted it up and then headed over to PI to catch them play. QSP rocked it out and it was fun! G, Gino, Tony, Cali, Nicole and I danced the night away and were the best fans, like always.

Got home late, of course, and crashed. Today was my first day back at Epcot and it's been a good day back so far. I've been sitting at Gateway with Danilo and he is making me laugh so hard. It's been great! Kevin and Chris are in the park so I got to visit with them a bit during my lunch. Funny kids they are.

So, my nutrition kick has been great so far. I'm happy and everything's great! Tonight is Tom Sartori at the Blue so good times with that. I will be getting off late tonight, but afterwards I am definitely heading that way. "One More Whiskey and I might fall in love..."

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