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Sunday July 17, 2005

Song: "What's left to lose, you've done enough and if you've failed, then you've failed" By The Format
Mood: Sleepy
Time: 6:56PM
Weather: Raining...lovin it...

I am sitting in a very uncomfortable chair watching the rain slowly drip off of the covering in front of me. It's been a good and long day. Met up with my family yesterday at Epcot. It was great to see them again. It was Richie, Jen, Julie and my Seany and Evan. We had a good day. I think everyone was tired, but we all had a very productive and good day. Richie brought me my new GA tag and fittingly enough the first three letters are "AGH", yep...I second that. I hate having a GA tag, but thankful that I have a great brother and family to help me out and fix my interest problem. Mitsubishi cannot be trusted. Know that.

You know what I find funny? I wrote that huge blog right before this one, catching up on all the stuff I had been doing, and I left out the coolest thing ever. I was invited by a friend to attend a party on July 4th, interestingly enough it was at CK's house. So I got the CK/Yellowcard crew together who was at the last party, K, Cali and Dave Moore joined us this time. We were driving up and were told to park at the Barnes and Noble and that a "shuttle" would come and get us. We were hesititate at first, but then followed directions and sure enough when we parked there was a 15 passenger van parked and labeled "shuttle". The gentleman driver got out of his van to greet us and open the door. There were other guests doing the same thing so we felt better about the entire situation and hopped in the van. He took us straight through to CK's and the first person I saw walking in was him. Moment of stark whiteness on my part and then I calmed myself and looked for some familiar faces, which I found pretty soon after. Eric was there, Gino, a friend from Buzz, the antiqua guy, one of Kate's friends, Pete who remembered me as a "fan club" girl. Hmm, interesting. It was a crazy experience and very fun. We utilized the bar quite a few times and enjoyed the atmosphere. CK barbequed and smoked a cuban cigar and we played fooz ball and laughed at ourselves. Met Gino's bro Danny who entertained us most of the evening and then we headed out to attend Big 10-4's show.

It was good to see our friends, but I was tanked and not feeling so hot. We saw our Matty Matt, Corey, John Frank and friends, the Big 10-4 boys of course, Rick, Miquel, Kelly and lots of our Winter Park peeps. It was a good time to hang around! Met up with Gianina and we rocked out until heading over to the Blue Martini for my 100th FYC show. We got there in time for about three songs, but it was a good show or seemed to be at least. Met up with Jenna and Jenny :) my 867, it had been too long. Got home and crashed after a long and productive day.

to be con'd

August 4, 2005: Picking up where I left off....it's now another day and more craziness has occurred. Funny how I don't even have time to finish a blog or let alone actually post it. Things have con't to be crazy and full. I cannot possibly fit more in a day than I have been. I can't even explain it. So strange how I am keeping myself way too busy....can only be one reason for it. I can't shut my mind off, so I might as well keep it busy right?

Been trying to change things. Make things better. In many ways. It's been going great so far. I have good reason for it so I am gonna keep that in my head.

It seems that me picking up overtime everyweek is only allowing me to scrap by, how crazy is that? I love my job, love the flexibility, the variety, the opportunities, but at the same time, I don't enjoy the lack of money, but guess I can't change that much.

Let's see...what have I been up to? Lots actually. Cali, Katrina and I made a trip up to Gville to catch the Time/Curve show, but before hitting up Common Grounds, we met up with Mike from Agent 99 and Berg at Harrys. What a nice restaurant! Our waiter seemed nervous for some reason....our crowd did keep growing. Randy came a bit later and he was a crack up. Totally loved meeting him. After our "dinner meeting" we all were invited to check out the new "Abbey Road"! What a hot new club! We got a tour of the entire place, including the VIP rooms, which were amazing and included "Ocean Ave". I cannot wait to see it hopping. Gonna be a great hot spot. If I lived in Gville, that would be my new favorite hangout, by far!

Before heading over to the show, I met up with K and Gino at MSP. Got some good chatting time in and relaxed a bit. Got like four calls that the show was starting and we all headed over to CG. The Time/Curve show was amazing. It's great to have so many friends everywhere we go. Got to see a bunch of familiar faces and hang out with good people! Valerie and I were the only ones rocking out to The Curve in the front for awhile, but Danielle joined in for a bit. I love live shows that I can really get into. Saw Mark from Big Sky there and he was adorable as usual. Dave Moore came to support. Great fun!

A couple of days ago, DLB and Margaret hosted a "Listening Party" for DLBs and Dax's creation. Such an amazing cd. They did a great job perfecting the songs! We all gave our opinions and tried to figure out what the best ones were off the cd to put on a demo. All I can say is that I have my favorite songs and I can't wait to get my own copy of the cd. Amazing lyrics and great songs! I'm so proud!

Kinda crazy. Most of the bands that I know well are going through lots of drama lately. The most recent is Honestly. I am so sad. I am not quite sure what has sparked the change, but I am gonna be supportive of whatever it is that is making them have this change of mind. It's hard, but what can I do? The really depressing part is knowing that I am never gonna see them preform together again. I have tried and tried to work around my schedule to see them at one of their scheduled dates, but it's not gonna happen. It sucks big time.

"I'm trying to find truth in words, in rhymes, in notes, in all the things i wish I'd wrote..." The Format. They write the lyrics to my life...like many of the bands I adore *coughBig10-4cough* and *coughHonestlycough*

I'm stopping at that point....I'll be back to catch up later on.

posted by Carolyn Ohme

Thursday July 14, 2005

Song: "I wish we'd always wake up new..." By The Format
Mood: Still here...
Time: 2:29PM
Weather: Hot and sticky and gross

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY J!

"I wish we'd always wake up new, refreshed and born again with nothing left to lose, but we dream too much and who needs a crutch, pull off the bandage, there's no wound so please just leave, you don't mean that much to me give back the ring, keep all those summers with your friends cause you know you need them as for me its nothing new just another two years that I'm here losing sleep.."
-"Sore Thumb" By The Format

I've been working out a lot lately. Been running on the treadmill. Doing a lot of punching of the air. I find that I only get the urge to workout when I am full of anger, frustration and confusion. Isn't that strange? Other people work out to release other kinds of energy, but I use that kind. I find that interesting. I love my Ipod. It rocks my world. I have it set for "On the Go" and it has all my "angry" songs on it. Good times to work out to. Cali and I are gonna play tennis today. I can't wait.

It feels like the more I work out the more I sweat off and let things go, or the more I try to anyways.

It's been awhile since I have blogged anything. I have forgotten most of the past. Isn't that weird? I know that lots has occurred and most of it has been exciting and wonderful in my life, but I don't even know where I could begin to explain it to everyone. I had started a blog awhile back and the following is some of it.

Again...it's been awhile. I am slowly trying to make my way back up to the surface and catch some air. Been doing a lot of working lately. Mostly because of my new car, but also always trying to stay ahead of the game and live life to the fullest. In doing that though I find myself more lost than I was prepared to be. In doing so much, fulfilling so many opportunities and trying to be there for everyone, I find I am not there for myself as much as I probably should be, but it's a good thing I think that it means more to me to do what I have been doing. It's been a crazy ride, but I am just thankful that I am able to hang on.

Yes, I am alive for those of you who do care *grin* Thanks Horrocks. It's just been really crazy lately. I wouldn't even know where to start. Been pulling a *lot* of overtime due to my new Lance and trying to keep up with the money flo so I can live. I haven't had a real day off in quite awhile, but we all know that it makes me happy to keep busy so I really shouldn't complain. Who needs time for sleep anyways?

Lance took his second big road trip to the ATL with Cali, G and Valerie to support The Rock Van concept and support our good friends in my hometown. It was a fun trip, needless to say, and I got to see family and friends. All together, four girls from Florida, brought in eighteen people to the event. We were impressed with ourselves and our promotional skills. Berg was happy as well and that made me happy. Got to hang out with Cris Williams, our friends in The Curve and Berg of course, with Lisa and Michael. We learned a lot that trip about our company and experiences. Ben from Big Sky was a huge influence and an awesome friend to chat with more than before. T and B came out and how good it was to see them! Cali bought shots and had Valerie, G and myself getting down on our knees and beggin "PLEASE!" so that was fun. My family was there as well. I was loving the homecoming. Totally worth the drive as well.

Got to shadow Bob at DU and had a fun day of assisting and learning about the classes we help coordinate. It was good times, I may be doing some more stuff with them in the future. Had some wonderful tours with a great featherweight boxer and his family. Sami and Adam are my new favorite brits! *grin* Enjoyed two memorable days with them "On your birthday we will make up..." Also got to tour my German David Letterman around as well. It was just a great as the year before. Good times!

One of my friend's had gotten hit by a drunk driver and I was, thankfully, able to visit her a few times, it's amazing when something like that happens and opens your eyes to how short life really is and how important it is. Granted I am also the type of person to say, well when my time comes, it comes and that's it, but also to think and not take life for granted. Cause where do we go from here? She's an amazing person and I can only imagine being her right now and going through the pain and everything. Everyday I think about her and the impact it has had just on my life alone, even when I barely know her. I wish I could do more.

We had our big show at Austin's with DLB and Dax, Lauren Lapointe and Upward Trend (used to be known as 5 Jones) and had an amazing turnout. Matty Matt, Big 10-4 and Cory showed up to support. Love those kids. Went back and partied with them at Matty's house and had a great private show starring Dan and Matty Matt. "AND I AM....doo doo doo do do do do" I heart them both. "Any requests?" SMELL OF FAMILIAR! I am a lucky girl!

Been teaching a lot of the Global classes and meeting our wonderful new Internationals and new Advanced Interns. They are a trip. Good peeps and all of them are beautiful...how did that happen? *grin* So much fun too...always have smiles on their faces...Love them and loved teaching them the Guest Relations ways. It's kinda cool to be that person in their life that helps shape their minds, who knew teaching could be this rewarding?

Whirlwind of Carolyn's life coming up.

Attended Gianina's birthday for June 22nd celebrations....went to Perkins and celebrated with 100 of her closest friends *grin* and then partied at PI to make her "happy" "I'm happy! Happy! But that ain't good enough for you" and had a great time! Went to John Frank's show with Katrina and made some incredible connections. It was good times! Got to hang out with the Big 10-4 boys and Matty Matt, Pete Woj and Cory. They are cool kats. They are basically the Winter Park crew...and fun times always!

Went to a BBQ over at Jody's and Ray's to celebrate July 4th a bit early. Cowboy Mark was there along with the Del Cid and family. It was amazing to go next door and see all of Jack's paintings. That man is so extremely talented. Amazing! We watched Live Eight and enjoyed Keane, etc. on the big screen. Met up with a lot of Ashley's friends and they tried to teach me Dance Revolution to where I didn't do too bad. I tried at least! They are adorable!

Proceeded onto David's birthday celebration and rocked it out at a Mexican joint with Katrina, Gianina, K and Fish. It was an initmate but worthy crowd and good times. We thought we kept seeing Matt Mackelcan, weird things happening...then headed onto The Roxy where drinks were free and Carolyn was a bit too happy. Way too much fun at that location. I even got on stage to dance with Fish and give K a drink....random, yes...probably the one and ONLY time I will ever get on stage with FYC. Fine with me.

Dax rocks my socks off. He invited us CCMaD girls into his studio to watch DLB and him do some magic. It was an awesome experience. First of all, his couch is wonderful. I didn't and COULDN'T get off it. We ate pizza, drank soda, watched Family Guy, got a tour, and watched a performance in action in the studio. Good times and very surreal. Thank you for that guys!

Had the "crazy Cubans" with Frank McIntoish. Good times. I love it that the family wore "Jon Secada" hats...so funny. Moved slower than most groups, but had fun and it was great to meet and hang out with them. They were fun! Good experience. Very nice family!

Dax's friend's in Adamas were playing at the AKA Lounge so I went for support and watched a really good band play their hearts out. That night I came to a realization and it was very affective in getting something through to me. I appreciated that night for what it did. It was also fun to just be with friends and hang out. DLB, Margaret, Gianina, Katrina and Dax were all there. They had a song called "Goodbye" and Dax was wonderful enough to get me the lyrics. You rock my friend!

"Good Bye" �2005 Adamas
This is the last time you'll hear me say that I love you before I walk away
I'm leaving now for your own sake and I just had to say in my own way
'cause we both are living separate lives and though it hurts me deep inside
but I cannot stand to see you cry so I just have to say good bye good bye, good bye
I can honestly say that I tried, I tried don't cry, don't cry
'cause you're better off without me in your life
good bye, good bye don't cry, don't cry good bye, good bye

We first met back in the day our paths crossed
but we weren't even headed the same way for years we tried to make it work somehow, some way
but you and I weren't even on the same page you tried to make a better man out of me
but I am too far down in my own misery I'm sorry that I locked you down in this cage
but now you're free baby, so you can fly away good bye, good bye
I can honestly say that I tried, I tried don't cry, don't cry 'cause you're better off without me in your life

the spark is gone, we've fought enough, the past is gone,
we can't go on we can't go on can't go on living this way good bye, good bye
I can honestly say that I tried, I tried don't cry, don't cry
'cause you're better off without me in your life
good bye, good bye don't cry, don't cry good bye, good bye
this is the last time you'll hear me say that I love you before I walk away

Got to finally hang out with JJanis again. It had been too long my friend. He called and we were amazingly enough, both free for a few hours. Got an incredible lunch made by JJanis, of course, got back from a day of no tour, and laid out and swam with my friend. It was good to just catch up again and have it be like the old days. It's amazing how less I see him when he is just across the street from me. So sad.

Jhey is back in Alaska visiting and I miss him already....how is my Jhey?

I just got finished making up my new wish list for the tour office. I have kept Switchfoot and Matchbox Twenty, but I added Chris (of *NSYNC) don't laugh, and Kelly Clarkson....who knows...maybe I will get one of my wish list people one day. You never know, right?

So I am stoked cause work is going really well, and I am able to pick up some more overtime, which I badly am in need of. I am being trained as a Relief Coordinator at DSA, just got honored with the Quarterly Award (that I *so* do not deserve, but do appreciate), gonna spend two days a week over at Disney University with Bob and all of these experiences are gonna do me some good. I am stoked!

Today is Amy J's birthday, tomorrow's is DLB's and Libby's. JJanis's was June 27th, it's been a lot of celebrating lately! Good times ahead. Tonight after Tennis, Cali and I are going to celebrate with Amy J at Chili's, then tomorrow to Gville for a Big Sky (kinda reunion) show at Purple Porpoise and spend some time with Danielle. Saturday my brother and fam are coming into town to play with me at the parks. Good times ahead.

Be prepared that it might not be until another few months until you hear from me again...it's few and far between these days. No computer, no time, nothing really worth getting too indepth about....nothing people are really interested in, so who knows.