Well I have been closing the help desk for the past three nights. This schedule is not so bad sometimes. I get to see my roomies and friends late at night and sleep in the morning before heading off to work again. Nice. Work has been pretty slow and good lately. Good times.

Been going through some struggle lately with someone, but I think we got a lot of it talked through last night. Four and a half hours later, I feel better about it. Thank you for caring enough.

Got up this morning to get ready to head over to Cali's for lunch when I decided to tune into FYC's radio interview. Geez...I would have stepped out of that situation had I known it was gonna be a political debate. It seemed the radio wanted to focus on arguing about personal feelings and beliefs on politics versus the actual point of FYC being there, which, to me, was to promote them supporting the Music For America campaign to get information out to people to vote with informed minds and how music assists with that. Geez...I almost couldn't listen to the djs "Then why are you here?" Not a big fan.

Got over to Cali's and she told me to use my key....got honked at by the mail man to come sign for something. Already taking over household duties...I like. Let myself in and delivered the package to the lady of the house. NEO! *grin* Ate some yummy pasta, which reminded me of my momma's Mount St. Helen's dish...I miss my family.

Had some good chats and finished up lunch to move onto learning the basics on "How to take care of Neo". Can't wait..starts tomorrow and I will be playing "bachelorette house" (but no, not like that! Just me and Neo...and Geoff "whateva" Ha!)

Ian...things will get better I promise...communication is the key...work with me people. It's true...it really is *grin*

Carla...time will heal all...but I know what you are going through and I am *so* sorry. Wish I could do something more..

I need to get back in touch with my friends on a more consistent basis....T, B, Joc, Jessica, etc...I miss you all and will talk to you soon! I realize it even more now...

Food and Wine Festival has begun...who wants to come to Epcot and eat and drink with me? Expensive? nah....cheap....it's all good! Let's just go.

So when I got to work, Brad told me that my tour had been written about...oh dear. *grin* I got nervous all of a sudden, but really it wasn't too bad. You can read about my tour here if you want. "I also note that Carolyn was an excellent and enthusiastic guide." How sweet! I remember the gentleman who wrote this and he was really cool. Very excited about the tour so that was cool. Thanks for the review Jol!

"We'll fly away..." I miss Joe Firstman...

I wish I understood why I feel the way I do sometimes...I try to be consistent, but it's true that things do change and people change. I want to be changing for the better and become more of a person that can distinguish between right and wrong, in the general sense, instead of choosing what I *want* to do.

"My heart may never mend, And you�ll never get to love me, again.....Sadness has me at the end of the line, helpless watched you break this heart of mine, and loneliness only wants you back here with me...common sense knows that you�re not good enough for me.....Wish like hell I could go back in time, maybe then I could see how...forgiveness says that I should give you one more try"

I have faith things will get better...for me and my life. Things are already looking up. You can't change everything in one day. You can't change things in one week....it takes time and I'm gonna learn to be patient.

On another note...I hate money issues. Geez. This sucks...ugh....How am I even living at all?

Hoping life gets easier...

Wow I need to go back quite a bit, but before I do....Happy Birthday for real to Courtney! Hope you have a great day!

Day Three:

This was Friday, which meant Leslie was coming into town. Yay! Leslie got here about 5ish and we bonded while she did her hair...got ready and headed out to meet up with Fish, Cali and Courtney at Kobe's Steakhouse for some awesome japanese!

"aww...so you like Japanese white sauce....I call you later..." OH dear. I simply requested him to leave the ginger sauce out and add extra white sauce and the chef placed the entire jug of white sauce in front of my plate. I love that man. I was the official white sauce server for the night. It was good times. K came back for more quite a lot. *grin*

Enjoyed a wonderful meal and headed out to Cali's for hanging out time before the show. Leslie, Cali, Courtney, Valerie and I all huddled in Cali's huge bathroom and almost forgot the pre-party materials...what were we thinking? All I know is we aren't leaving until Cali says the time..."8:20PM" hee hee.

Hair got ironed and Neo got petted..."Get on your knees....bend down lower!" That was good times....

Started to make our way to PI and had good talks and laughs in the car...that was a full car of crazy girls. Probably a good thing Nick was running late. *grin* Got to the RRBC and started the rounds. Good days! "I got next...I got next...I got next!" Played some basketball and kicked K's butt! Nice!

Did lots of dancing and jumping....had more focus on not spilling...and when spilling...cleaning up. *grin* Too many party fouls...."I got next..." No need for pacing...we are already there...I think Leslie had a great first show. She rocked it and we all had a great time with her. So glad she came out!

Got nachos and fries, but didn't have time to finish them cause it was *already* time to dance and sing again....somehow the time inbetween the sets somehow shortened...

Courtney lost her phone and thanked "Kevin" everytime she saw him for it...he was like "It's really ok!" Everytime!

Got the depressing news that PI was probably gonna be closed for the rest of the weekend due to the hurricane so FYC was gonna have to take all of their stuff out just in case so we stuck around to assist in bringing the gear to the van. I opted for the two guitars, but Cali wanted something lighter than what was left, so I got stuck with the amp and some other heavy object....thankfully that other object was taken away from me. Whew...but I was all about the amp. "Two tickets to the gun show" *Grin* "I am NOT gonna drop your amp..." I got some major muscles for that crap...good times!

Made it to the van and then said "Okay Guy...you can have it now!" Sweet...Figured out what the plan was and headed out. Headed home to Cali's and hung out for a bit while K and Leslie went to crash at my place. I had ridden with Cali so it was easier this way. Watched the boys play some Playstation and hung out. Around 4:30 or so in the morning people started getting tired so we all decided to hit the sack.

I wasn't all that tired, amazingly enough so I was gonna just hang out downstairs and watch some TV, but I was convinced by Cali to go upstairs and watch it with them.....a bit disappointed...I waited until Cali began to snore and Valerie was already in Z-land before I headed on down the stairs and out to my car. It was too heavy inside and I couldn't sleep.

Got home in hopes that the door would be unlocked...no such luck so I called K and finally got a hold of him.....crashed and woke up about an hour later for work.

Ironic...

Had kinda a tough morning..."And I have to remind myself to breathe in and out everyday"....why is the world suddenly in only black and white? Why is the floor so close to my face? Why is the shower pounding on my back and I can't move? Don't forget to turn the fan on so they can't hear. What is it that I have to do?

I get in my car and the song that comes on is Daniel's. Why that song? Why that moment? Why in my car. Why with that person walking by. Why do I have to respond to it like I did?

I drove to work...not sure I remember much of that. Got to work and worked. Not sure I remember much of that. It became a blur. "Are you okay?" I can't see. "Lost your voice? Another show last night? Fifth Year Crush, no doubt?" They know me too well. Took an extended break to get gas (thanks Cindy) and dropped by the house to see if K was okay, but really it was for me.

"Let's go get you a Segway and go to the window and gateway" Okay. OKelly you rock sometimes. "You wrote about the white sauce! I love it too" *grin* Flying through the park (onstage and backstage) always makes me feel better...I appreciate the effort and the offer.

Got home and got it out. Got ready and headed over to Cali's with K to celebrate and go into cover. Met up with the rest of the crew and Julie and Jenny joined in on the celebration as well. I spent most of my time baking the cake and having Valerie decorate it! Thanks my creative force! *grin*

Ate some good dogs thanks to J and created a unique way of blowing out "candles" in the forms of matches with friends all involved. It worked out well from just a random idea....good times! I think she liked her pink star hat...

The SDG girls gave the boys their "Dirty" teddy and I took photos for the beginnings of their plans...Cali was really cute in including me in it...she had told me all about it and made sure the "giggle...giggle" was included for their biggest fan...you are adorable!

Got to play some Playstation myself and this is where the addiction began. It was nice to have something to focus on. I want to make a shirt that states "Everything I learned about Tony Hawk, I learned from Guy" What a patient person...he taught me how to do the coolest tricks and how to grind the crap out of the ramps. GOOD TIMES!

Apparently I had gotten "too confident" and J needed me to take out my "aggression" on him. So we wrestled and he kicked my arse, but I like to think I tried to put up a good fight...Neo did get in my way by kissing me and getting me all riled up. *grin* Was exhausted and gave up at the moment, but already called a rematch for later on.

Had a nice break by chilling out and just chatting. Got up the strength again and "confidence" to tear J up...so I basically demanded a rematch even with Neo quite in the way. I wasn't holding anything back....and had I more time I would have sufficently kicked his butt on my own, but Cali came to support and jumped on J just in time for me to use my legs effectively and bring him down. Once Cali got in the mix, Valerie and Neo stepped in as well. Neo did his job by sitting J, Valerie had his legs, Cali was behind me holding on for dear life, while my arms were aching keeping his down. Who won J? Who won? Bout time.

"Bruises fading away...I can see the colors now they're fading...they're fading away" Hmm...are they? "How's that heroin addiction going?" Going well Guy...I have lots of locations to choose from. Hope I don't get fired from my job. Ha!

Watched more of David Copperfield....love the flying! He rocks my socks off, and it was good to watch it while I wasn't extremely exhausted for once. Got tired pretty quickly and everyone went to crash..another late night at Cali's. K and I got Fish's room and he woke me up at 7AM to look outside and watch the wind blow, trees bend, rain explode and the hurricane attack. The walls shook a bit and it was crazy to see we still how power and were still functioning okay. Watched the tree branch lying next to my car wavering back and forth and me praying that the lightpost not swing back and land on my car sitting in the driveway. Went back to sleep and woke up around noon with all the other girls already getting ready in Cali's room. The boys kept sleeping.

Ran downstairs and with one mention of Tony Hawk, we began our day with our routine and order of winner against the alphabetical order. Courtney kicked our butts the majority of the time...we were getting louder and louder..."It's two twelve in the afternoon" Hmm.

It was a hurricane day. Didn't notice Guy come into the room because the game was being played. "I'm really not a people person" After he made a noise or two of some sort you could tell he was a bit disappointed...he would have to fight for his spot behind the controller now. *giggle* You taught us well sensei. "No touching....okay touch...no touching...okay touch" So funny!

The day consisted of lots of yummy food, good times, Tony Hawk "I'm stuck in the hole....I wanna grind...give me a pole!" I think Guy thought it was funny that I loved the grinding function...it rocked though!

Fish had called me early in the morning and left me a message asking me if they were closed. Umm...yea...so Cali called him back for me and we told him soundcheck was at 5:30...in her living room. So...we let the guys know they would be getting out their equipment and playing for us in the "wrestling area" so that we could get our PI fill in for the night. Courtney was to wear her pink hat (that matches Fish's shoes!) and we were gonna rock it out. It took some time but we made the set list and developed our own soundtrack for the night...so the boys could preform without really preforming...we preformed if for them. K was like "so THAT is what you were doing" *grin* It's amazing how a Playstation game can keep someone so out of the loop.

"DO IT!" Thanks Guy!

Soundcheck ran a bit late, but the preformance was right on time. Tried to make J smile, but that wasn't happening...Guy stayed through the entire CD..thank you. Wish you would have stayed longer, but glad to know that you were safe. Have a request to preform for the guys....not gonna happen, but perhaps you will get a copy of our version of the in-between songs commentary...now that would be a "good time".

Said our goodbyes to our hurricane ride out crew and discovered the weather doesn't keep people down. Worried for quite awhile while getting several updates along the way. Finally got the "we're home" call and could finally calmly con't our night. Played Playstation where I finally kicked a bunch of arse. Guy would have been proud. K did get me a couple of times though, but he had a shirtless dude that had no fear.

Everyone started to fade away from the craziness of this weekend. Still had no power at my place, but K and I decided to sleep there anyways to avoid waking up too early for my work time and his driving back time...so we headed back to my place.

Showed K some secrets and made his night...no telling! *grin* Lit candles and forgot about everything. Went to bed only to wake up to a very sore body. My arms feel like they are pieces of achy lead that I can't lift up for anything...my bruises were commented on several times...got lots of heroin ones...very funny, but the bruises are battle scars of a fight I haven't even touched yet...totally worth every color.

"Go on and close the curtains...all we need is candlelight...you and me and a bottle of wine...wanna hold you 2nite" That song couldn't get out of my head...it beat until I was red.

I'm done.

Went to work anticipating the Segway tour....and it was cancelled. Went to work anticipating that *if* the Segway tour was cancelled to do DRC. DRC was closed. So I did a van run, preordered the window, made magic for two separate guests and made them smile big! Happiness...and I did a whole lotta nothing for a bit. Went to lunch with Traci, Stacey and Randy. I love Tim House..let me just tell you and thank you Chris May for being so great!

Got home early and crashed. Napping never felt so good! Woke up to JHey's call...so good to hear from you my roomie. We have power back! YAY! Talked to Cali and decided dinner out would be a nice change of plans and got ready for the evening's activities.

Cali came up and we tried to figure out my computer and put it on hold for food. Went to LoneStar and saw Grace. YAY! Got an awesome meal...basically the same as Cali (we were identical minus the extra butter and butter only on her baked potatoe where I had cheese and regular butter). Had some much needed and good chats with her. I'm glad we could do that and that we did. Makes me feel better!

Thank you Cali!

After dragging on our dinner all the way through desert we finally made our way out and visited her old working store, Le gormet Chef and visited with her friend....while looking in awe at all the things we wanted to buy. Left there and came back home where Mark helped try to fix my computer via the phone and I love him for it. Thanks for the effort and assistance...finally figured it out and I am happy...as happy as I can be.

Libby Jones came over and we all decided to go see Wimbleton...Cali and I met up with Jhey, Libby and Ian over at the AMC...got our kids meals and headed on in to discover more insight into the game of tennis and love and what happens when it mixes. Cool movie.

Came back home to watch Spinal Tap where I got to see where the award winning preformance that Guy put on originally came from...awesome stuff!

Now I am about to crash but so glad I finally got through this weekend so that you guys can be caught up in the crazy life of Carolyn...

Day Two:

K and I ate a huge breakfast/lunch and crawled into the shower (separately of course) to get ready for the day. The plan was to meet up with Cali and go do some shopping, but since we took *so* long...we didn't get there til later than planned so Cali and I just went to the grocery store to get some much needed items for dinner and then headed back to cook.

Cali made some great pasta and I cut the bread. I did assist with the no-burning of the cookies *grin* Nice! I am learning...Good stuff!

It's funny how I try so hard to not create drama for myself, but just to try to assist others with their own (and I don't mind that at all for the most part), but sometimes it ends up coming out like I am trying to create drama...and I don't care for that. I am not trying to tangle up any webs...just trying to understand why they aren't so connected in the way that I feel they should or could be. But maybe they can't be. Right now I am not so sure.

I love Neo. Random but true.

Chatted with Cali before heading out to the show. "I LOVE YOUR BATHROOM!" I had never gotten the full tour of her room before and it is SO nice in there! The toliet has it's OWN room! Rock on!

Got to the club and started the night. LON was the DJ and how happy was I to see him there? I adore that kid. Such a good guy and *SO* good at what he does. You can tell he enjoys it. Funny though I don't remember him actually knowing my name...or really *knowing* or *remembering* the fact that I love Wheatus and that he usually plays it when he is working....but he said "Wheatus is coming up so hang in there Carolyn!" Hmmm....so he comes up to me and says "Sorry I haven't played it yet but it was too mellow for the time, it's coming though!" and I asked him "How did you know I love that song?" and he said "Cause you always request it" Funny how I don't remember always requesting it...am I always not in the right mind set when I'm at PI? *grin* Oops....so then later on I hear "This is a request for Carolyn from Jason, he wanted to tell you "NP"!" and then Wheatus comes on. Oh J....real funny kid...real funny. Thank you...I think. *grin*

To be cont...must go take shower and meet Cali and Courtney for lunch....

Okay back....Let's see...

Basically, Ian and Sarah came along with my A Bonds for a bit. It was great that they came out to show their support. Every song Ian would say "Can I tell you how much I love this song...can I tell you how much I love this band...this is my new favorite band....I LOVE HOLLYWOOD ENDING!" I love you Ian! You rock! Becca and Jerry came, Leslie and her friends (loved Joel when he would dance with me!), Lisa was there along with Gianina. Good times as usual!

Random thing though...when Cali and I first got to the club, this woman behind us in line said "Can I ask you a question?" to me and I said sure..."Is your boyfriend in the band that is playing tonight" Umm no just friends. She had been to the previous show and came back cause she loved the band so much! YAY! But then...later on she came up to me and asked me who the "backup singer" was....no worries Guy...I said you were more than just a backup singer "You mean the guitar player?" *grin* She wanted me to tell him that she was his biggest fan...and when I did, apparently he already knew...*giggle* I love Guy!

Didn't feel so good when we were leaving...just something in the air. Got back and chatted with K as he ate his long-awaited Taco Bell. *grin* Watched a bit more David Copperfield before falling into bed and crashing hard. Sorry I wasn't too coherent K....I was still there though!

Got up today to Courtney's text saying she was on the road to O-Town! Yay! Got up and worked on some stuff before getting ready for lunch. Met up with Cali, Mark and Courtney at The Olive Garden for lunch. Yummy! Mark was fun...kept interrupting but all in good time! *grin* Courtney brought me presents! YAY! I got a bracelet on my menu! YAY! Thank you!!! And more presents after lunch. We went to her car and she had a copy of new Curve music for me AND after she found it...another bracelet...."SDG FAN!" SO cute! We died laughing! "You get two hugs for that!" Thank you Courtney!

Got done with lunch and headed on out. Had to run an errand and that took a bit of time to find the perfect thing....I found one close enough! Thanks to all those who assisted!

Got back and found K on the couch working away on my laptop. Chatted and now getting ready for tonight!

Onto Day Three...voice is almost gone....

So yesterday I did the Segway tour which went *really* well and I was excited about that cause we had two media guests and a cast member on the tour specifically rating the tour. All the guests had a great time and did really well! It was an awesome tour! Did DRC for the rest of the day and suffered my way though it...but it was good times with Theresa, Lisa, Linda Owen, Chiyako, Robert (who kept making me laugh) and Chris May. Good times!

Got done with work and called Cali to see what the plans were. Went to the grocery store and got ready for the night's activities when Cali came by and she was my guinea pig for the dinner I was trying to perfect for K as a surprise. We always end up spending more money while he is here, eating more unhealthy (i.e. Taco Bell) and feeling yucky afterwards cause it's so late, so I was trying to change that this time and so I made a special meal (even though I am not usually the best cook and it turned out fantastic!). Cali loved it and so I knew K would as well! We ate and chatted...good times.

Headed over to PI and thank goodness we were early. Couldn't find a parking spot for nothing due to Latin Nights at PI. Craziness I tell ya. Couldn't even walk near the WES. Finally made our way to the RRBC and began the night...

"51 and counting..."

Day One:

It wasn't such a big crowd at first, but got much heavier and crazier at night. Made it more fun. Called Amy J during Brian Wilson and she goes "I didn't know they were playing!" umm "How could you *not* get my memo?" So she and Grace booked it to the show! YAY!

Had lots of random pole moments. Fish became a pretty darn good pole, until he started to move....poles don't move Fish....*grin* We even got Edward to dance. He started dancing by himself onto a pole so we asked him to be ours and he did. Funny stuff. Then by the end of the night he was booting dancing with us...wonder if he can do that while he is working, if so I totally want his job!

"Kevin's mom has got it goin on!" HA! Good times...I wish Robin had been there to hear that! So cute! :) There was an obnoxious guy in the crowd last night who was taunting the band and being extrememly loud and annoying so when he *tried* to do a back flip and almost landed on his face we were all in shock...but even more so in shock when J upstaged him and did a perfect olympic-like back flip on stage. Pretty amazing. Cali missed it..."Do it AGAIN!" He just smiled in achievement...and in spite of himself. It was cute..good job J.

"Eden's Crush!"

Grabbed K and he dropped off Cali at her car. Asked if he needed to go anywhere before we headed home and he said "YES, TACO BELL!" and I said "NOPE..got a surprise" He needs to learn to trust me on these things...he seemed a bit apprehensive at first...like he always needs to be reassured that I am after his best interest.

So we get home and he tells me about the gift that the guys had given me at the last show....you really have no idea K...you have no idea how much it means to me.

Finally I get to start heating up the surprise....so I make him find something productive to do and he sees noodles so assumes it's Italian...nice. Through him off a bit. *grin* I put it on the table and he comes out...sees that it's "real food" and gets a bit excited...then I bring out THE WHITE SAUCE. The heavenly, quite popular, orgasmic white sauce that K and all of us adore from Kobe Steakhouse (that you can BUY) and he literally had to hold himself. "That is the closest I have ever gotten to s****** in my pants!" Literally his reaction was worth a thousand words! SO FUNNY! I think it was definitely a great surprise and worth it. I done good!

We watched a bit of David Copperfield and then I was so tired I was about to fall asleep right then and there (4:30AM at the time) so we took a break from it and crashed. Oh that bed never felt so darn good!

Got lots of plans in the making for today...shall be good times once we figure them all out...

Onto Day Two people...let's get it started!

First of all Happy Belated Birthday to Shannon (yesterday) and Happy Birthday to Jen (today) YAY! I miss you gals and love you both very much!

Yesterday was quite a day. I got up at the break of dawn to do the UFW tour for Bonnie. It went really well. I even got two hugs at the end of it..and a kiss. Very sweet people! It poured on us at the very end though and I ended up looking like a sad, wet rat in a very white shirt. Crazy.

Got done with the tour and went to lunch with Sarah and Chris. Fun kids they are. I enjoy them!

Got done and came home. Got a call from Cali and headed over to her place. Forgot to call Nick to tell him I got off early so heard the wrath of it when he got over to Cali's...oops *grin* Sorry my friend. We ate Mac and cheese with beer. Great combo I thought!

Nick brought me a star button...how cute is he? I LOVE IT!

Headed out to The Social to see FYC rock it out. Ran into Melissa and Michael on the way, but had to excuse ourselves cause we had to pee *SO BAD* and practically ran over everyone in The Social just to get to the restroom.

Came back and saw everyone. Lots of people were there and it was good to see everyone again. There turned out to be a pretty nice crowd there specifically to see FYC so that was nice!

Cali, Valerie, Nick and I danced the night away and enjoyed ourselves in the front row. We tried to spread the love by making sure Guy had some fans near him and we, of course, sang some backup vocals with him. Good times as usual.

Then the boys had to humilate me....bastards. Gotta love em though. I told Kevin in passing that the next show (which was gonna be the Tampa show but we missed it, then the Gainesville acoustic show, but it was cancelled, then the Vinyl show, but it was cancelled, so it defaulted to last night's show back at The Social) was gonna be my 50th show. It wasn't like I was anticipating that night or anything, I just counted one day and noticed that was gonna be occuring. *SO* should have not told Kevin...

I didn't catch on when J was asking the crowd if it was there first FYC show....didn't catch on when J asked if it was the second one....but definitely caught on when he asked if it was anyone's fifthy show. I chose to bite and hide behind Nick and hope that he wouldn't move. Of course he did. Ugh. *grin* And everyone left me and I was all by myself. Thanks.

So of course J has to call me out....so I flick him off *grin* cause that is the only thing I can do at the time....I am not a big fan of attention. Then all of a sudden I actually look up and see Kevin with something in his hands and he swings it around and it's a framed collage of FYC CDS, tickets, CD sleeves, passes, a copy of BITTER which I want to take out and try to listen to SO badly (but he said he scratched it up on purpose so I couldn't, ugh!), a star wristband, etc. With a very nice inscription and stating from The Social July 11th, 2002 until The Social September 20th, 2004 (the 50th show). Those kids are something else. K..you have no idea.

It was probably the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me and they really shouldn't have...but then it got even better.

The member of the next band told me I could store it behind the merch table so it didn't get broken so when I was walking it up there, I recognized the song they began to play.....how did you know? They played "Bring down the stars" which they haven't played in forever and it's my favorite song of theirs....of all time. And they played it SO well. Poor Fish had to learn it....and I know they probably didn't enjoy playing it....but it rocked. I think I was maybe one of two people that actually knew what the song was...and to be honest I was so out of it and hadn't heard it in awhile that even I forgot some of the words, but I enjoyed every moment of it. Thank you.

Couldn't believe they went to all that trouble...but I really appreciate it...just the song was incredible enough...

The rest of the night just got better and crazier. All I have to say is...when you come with people...you come with those same people. So funny. These two guys kept coming up to the bar ordering stuff and I was talking with them. One had on an interesting shirt, so I asked him if he liked that sorta thing and told him to watch. Funny stuff. There were cherries and limes all around. Got a couple of refreshments out of it and a lot of "whoa's" *giggle* Nick was a real sport to say the least.

Got hungry and headed out to Denny's where the staff thought we were nuts..and we were. Got tired really fast and dropped everyone off and headed home to crash. Not such a pleasing sleep.

Got up and met our new manager over at Cast Services. Got to take him around for a fun day of exploring and meeting people, touring around the different Guest Relations areas and just having a relaxing time for his first day of entrance into the department. He's a fun guy so we had a good time just talking to people all day. Got to spend some extra time with A Bonds, Andy, OKelly and Kimmie Sue.

Was presented with my one-year pin today (which was a few months late, but hey...better late than never) and Kimmie Sue put it on for me. I love my Steamboat Willie...good times!

Went over to DSA and spent a lot of time over there chatting with the coordinators. They are so much fun and it was Scott's favorite part of the tour. Good times!

Got back to work and clocked out. Headed home exhausted from the day and chatted for awhile then just watched TV with JHey. Babysat Cody for awhile until he bit me to death and I couldn't take it anymore...then I gave him back.

Got really tired and not so happy really quickly.

Yesterday was a "long day....always ain't that right" *grin*

Got into DRC at 9:45am and stayed closing gateway until 9:30pm. It was a good day. No big issues and lots of good times with good cast. Steve Harvey and Tracy McGrady were in the park yesterday and we got to see their tour buses behind the gateway. Some kid on the bus said he saw Steve walking to the bus right before we got on ours. Random.

Finished up and met up with JHey to head on home. Got picked up by Cali and Valerie in my "chariot" and headed to the AMC. Got kids meals where you don't have to be a kid to get em, right Cali? *grin* and tried to feed popcorn to Valerie...sorry not very good at that. *giggle*

"Cellular" was chosen by putting numbers in a hat and boy was it an awesome movie! I was so entralled in the movie that I forgot to look for Joey Boone (sorry my friend) and was sitting in the middle of the girls hugging my legs so tight and gasping every five minutes. That movie was pretty darn intense...a bit too intense for me. My heart wouldn't stop racing. Good times. I think Valerie kicked the seat in front of her a bit too many times..I thought that guy was gonna come across the seat and hit her. I am hardly ever loud during movies, but this one kinda took me by surprise and I was finding myself not caring about the random gasps and screeches (sorry Cali!). It was fun times!

Got home and watched previous videos. FUNNY! "Get up here Mari and shake it!" and Valerie dancing like a mad woman..."wind her up!" Stayed up quite late just chatting and laughing at our previous intoxication moments with The Curve and FYC shows. Glad I have that stuff on tape...good memories...good times.

Everything seems to be working out for me at the moment. My schedule changed for tomorrow making it easier for me to make it to the FYC show. I am doing the UFW tour tomorrow instead of mid help desk. Good times. I fixed my next week's schedule for a special event and I am happy about that. Thanks to Kimmie, Torrey and Traci...you girls rock my world! Switchfoot plans are in the making...dinner first and then a grand ole show! Let me know if anyone else wants to join in...I can't wait!

Tomorrow is FYC at The Social around 9pm so be there or be square!

O'Kelly claims a "we'll see" about this week...uh huh we shall see I am sure...and Tom Strunk still thinks I should cut down on the chocolate...yea right. Glad my health is important to you my friend....*giggle*

So yesterday was good times. Went and met up with Joey Boone and friends along with Traci for drinks, food, memories, and plans. Hooters was busy as usual and our waitress was adorable (did you expect anything less?). Got done in good time and Traci and I went to "stalk" JeffFilko...come to find out it was the wrong Dominos...oops. *grin* We need to get better at the stalking.

Got done in perfect timing to head over to the airport to pick up JHey. Only had to circle once...yay. Picked him up and heard all about the Harvard excitement. Had plans to head over to Margaritaville with Amy J and Grace, but was trying to bow out respectively cause I wasn't really feeling up to it, but I was shot down and basically peer pressured to go, but I was glad that I did.

Got to Margaritaville and paid my $5 cover charge in quarters...yea I am *that* broke. Sat in one of our corners ("no one puts baby in a corner" *giggle*) and we watch our boys, whom we had not seen in what seems like FOREVA! AJ finally sees us and gives us a big grin and a head nod...he's too cute! Michael and AJ were in rare form. They have gone WIRELESS...and a bit on the crazy side as well. They both came out into the crowd mulitiple times.

At one point while they were in the crowd, Michael gives me a nod like he's coming over so I tried to move over to make room for him and his guitar. Much to my surprise he stops right in front of me and sits ON ME! How happy was I? *grin* Michael...you made my evening! There are very few moments in my musical experiences that I can say I was extremely excited to where I could not speak well afterwards...but this is one of them. I was flushed to say the least...good times. I was a bit gutsy and patted his rump a couple of times...it's all good. We are in good like that. *grin* Rock on Michael...thanks for a magical moment!

AJ "got it on" for us and that was majorally appreciated! *grin* His face when he saw the note was priceless...and a couple songs later we got what we wanted. "I've been really tryin', baby...Tryin' to hold back this feeling for so long.." GOOD TIMES!

Got home and crashed hard core. I was exhausted. Woke up extremely sleepy this morning...I think my overtime schedule is finally catching up with me. Was in at 9:45AM for more DRC overtime and now at Gateway until 9:30PM...good times. Not doing too much today but work...shall be productive to say the least!

So it's been a crazy work week so far. I have been picking up overtime every chance I could with DRC...why you ask? Cause I am BROKE...or in debt I guess you could say. This sucks, but thank goodness for DRC overtime. Good timing. So yesterday was suppose to be one of my days off, but I went in at 6:45AM and worked a full eight hours overtime. Sweet!

Got to participate in the Health and Wellness Fair from a very supporting group of individuals. Thanks Tom, Cindy and Theresa. I seem to be pretty normal...all except the 1.0 fat body index that I am over from the "normal" rate of people in my height range. Didn't make me happy so I will be working harder on reducing that.

Got off work around 3:45 and ran some errands before coming home and seeing JJanis, Jane Wong, Libby, Tye and Ting. Hung out for a bit before realizing my computer was completely messed up from the stupid Weatherbug that was eating all of my memory and not allowing me to do ANYTHING! I hate Weatherbug. So I had to completely reinstall Windows and EVERYTHING again. Took me most of last night and today to complete it and I am still not finished. Ugh. So sad that I am used to do this and it's become second nature, but still irritates me to no end.

Went over to Cali's last night for dinner and a chick flick. Ate her yummy authentic Mexican meal (SOOOO good) and watched "The Prince and Me" which was a really cute movie. Definite chick flick! Just wished they would REALLY kiss instead of just smooshing their faces together...looked so weird!

Got to hang out with Neo...he missed me *grin*...so much that he actually nibbled on me...in a very strange area. Yea...he nibbled on my butt. I love that dog, but that was kinda inappropriate *giggle* Gotta love him.

Tried to stop by the grocery store but got there as it closed, so stopped by Walgreens instead. Chatted with Amy J and Karen. Got a page from my parents late telling me that Richie's house almost got flooded cause of the storm. Not cool! Got home and worked on the computer and tried to figure out my finances as best I could. Went to bed late and slept in this morning. So nice!

Went today and got my oil changed finally. Good times! Did laundry, cleaned and caught up on household duties....Still working on downloading music and stuff on my computer, but overall very happy that I can use it again....weatherbug SUCKS!

In the process of finding my music that I had on my computer, I found a new band that I am IN LOVE with...Elcodrive and they sing a song called "Tonight" that I can't stop playing..

Great song! You can listen to it from their website...so go now!

About to go meet up with Joey Boone for his goodbye dinner at Hooters. He was here patching up his house for the hurricane and now he's heading back to Hollywood...will be missed yet again! Come back with cornrolls my friend. *grin* Then gonna go pick up JHey at the airport. Nice to have a day off and be requested to hang...good times!

Today I got up early to do the Segway tour. It went fairly well. I was the only tour guide for the majority of it and I did have one guest that made me fairly nervous when he got on the segway. I kept a close eye, but it was still a nervous trip through the World Showcase. He did okay in the end though...thank goodness. Wade gave me a kiss *giggle* and Ted helped me out in World Showcase...what a decent guy!

So how much can I describe my adoring feelings toward the U2 DVD that K is letting me borrow? I can't remove it from my player...I am in love. The Edge drives me crazy with every backup harmonizing note he sings...so moving....Every song...every beat...every lyric. Ugh...I am "stuck in this moment" forever...

After the tour today I headed up to DRC and tried to make the best of it. Even ended up signing up for overtime up there on one of my days off. That is how hard up I am for cash. I just keep thinking...it will be great when I get my paycheck...it will be, but I have to earn it and the only way I can get overtime right now is DRC. It will be okay...it will be. I am thankful for it at least.

Got to spend some time with O'Kelly and Dontrich today. Good times...met Todd...such a sweet puppy...sweet face...love her already.

The day went by pretty fast. Got done and came home to find out I wasn't completely in debt...good to know, so I went to the grocery store. Ran into Sean's friend and ran around looking for veggie hot dogs that I had a craving for. He was a good help, but still no cigar until I asked the "seafood guy" who said he would be in the seafood department if I ever needed him. Hmm..not so much, but he did help me find my veggie Hot Dogs...yum. I had a craving! I got some much needed items and came home to cook. Make some Japanese food (or cooked veggies mind you) for my lunch tomorrow and enjoyed my veggie dog. Did you know Kobe sells the "white sauce"...yep I found that out today...Good times!

Been watching U2 all night...again stuck in that moment...and just hanging out. JHey is back at Harvard for the week to hang out and Tye is still at work. I picked up overtime tomorrow and then will be closing the help desk. Gonna be a long day, but shall be exciting I am sure, to say the least. Haven't been too busy in the parks lately with the weather scare and all so that is a plus. I can get some projects done. Sadness will hit though tomorrow cause it's the International's last day at work and I will cry. I don't want to see them go. They were my first group of Internationals that I got to train. I will miss you Clarissa, Daigo, Cheiko and Tomomi...don't leave!

Oh and on a side note....Ian you crack me up with your text messages...can't wait to nibble on you soon. *grin* You are too funny! "Don't even get me started!"

My computer is driving me insane....it's getting molassly slow on me and I have no idea why AND it won't let me upload any of my digital pics...not happy with it at the moment....grrr.

Chatted with B and T today...I miss you my friends...it's been too long.

I am being quite random now...I shall stop...for now...

Today has been a very good day. Started off a bit rocky though. I was not in the best of moods when I got to work this morning. I think it was due to the fact that I had to wake up at the break of dawn for the tour, but who knows. Got done with my mood and got ready for my tour.

Met up with my very large group for the UFW Tour and started the day. It was a really productive and probably one of my best tours as far as the spiel and activity parts went. It was one of those days where I had what I call a "good talking day" for me, where I can actually formulate words that make sense in a story type manner. Good times.

There were a couple of surprises that had never occurred on one of my UFW tours before and was quite exciting for me and I hope for my guests as well. While we were in the Living Seas, a scuba diver came up and waved to everyone for starters. Could have been an intern or a guest in the divequest program, but either way, very cool of them. And then...at Mission:Space, Mickey and Goofy walked right through my guests randomly to get to their area. Very cool and again...random. I enjoyed that. One of the convos with one of my guests randomly brought about the subject of writing and we somehow got into the fact that I had an online journal so if you found it...HEY! *waves*

Got done with the tour extremely satisfied and went to finish my paperwork and chat with Sarah at the help desk. Got to spend some time chatting about our previous NOJ tours and that was good times. Got a page from Bryan and got to talk to him again. He's so nice. Glad they had a good trip home!

Left work pretty satisifed....good times. Got home and finished doing some chores while catching up on internet type stuff. Been kinda in a mood since I got home though. Took a nap and ruined my sleeping schedule. I napped for about four hours and unfortunately I have an early schedule again tomorrow, so hopefully I will be ready to crash again soon here in a bit, but that is highly unlikely knowing myself.

Hanging out with JHey and Tye (the roomies) and chattin. Kinda watching "The Next Best Thing" but not really getting into it...not a fan...might be switching to "American Pie" pretty quickly here though in a moment. It's nice to have roomies to borrow movies from...nice library collection. Sweet...

I do the Segway tour tomorrow. Wish I was doing the first one with Wade though. I miss him. We do the Segway tour really well together. Good times, but oh well...shall be a good time either way I am sure.

Guess who is coming back to Orlando? Oh yea my friends....Switchfoot! YAY! I cannot wait! Gonna be time to "worship" very soon...*giggle*

A bunch of FYC shows are coming up this next week so I am stoked. Good times. Monday at The Social and then Wednesday through Saturday at PI. Can't wait for crazy times as usual with those kids. Awesome times...

It's funny how you try to know people and some of them you feel like you can't seem to get through at all. You think you are making a bit of headway and then it's like you don't know them at all. Is it me just not understanding or making a bigger deal out of things than it needs to be, or is it real and I am just someone who is here when it's convienent. Like a fairweathered friend? I am not sure I like that feeling. It's too strange for me to comprehend, but it just might be true. Hmm.

"UPDATE!"

Okay okay....sorry people. *grin* I guess I should be glad people care, but I have been going crazy...with no time to blog, but here we go. Hang on tight, it's gonna be a bumpy and crazy ride!

Let's go back to Wednesday night. I got off work around 6pm and started really feeling bad. It really hurt to swallow and Advil was not being my friend, but I was also going stir crazy just hanging out in room from all the previous hurricane drama. So, when I got the most random call from Mikey of all people asking if I wanted to go to the Alterbridge show I said yea pretty quickly.

Met up with Mikey at the House of Blues. Let's just say anything with Mikey is gonna be good times. That kid cracks me up. But lots of not so cool things regarding the hurricane's damages that it provided...sorry my friend. He said he saw Edge walk into the venue...rock on, but we didn't see him once we got in. We did ,however, run into Ellen right when we walked in. Yay! "I should have known you'd be here" She's so cute!

Rocked out to Alterbridge, who blew me away. I knew I had heard of them before, but I forgot that it was the "new" Creed and I was just in amazement. Myles (the new singer) was incredible. I felt ever word and could not take my eyes off of him. The songs were amazing along with the stage presence that they had. Just AMAZING!

Starved after the show, we went to House of Blues (the restaurant part) and got waited on by the nicest person ever. She rocked my socks off. Had some good chats and then headed back to the cars where I got to hear some awesome new tracks and cannot wait for them to be released! YAY! I am so excited! All in all good times with Mikey as usual. Yay for the tootsie pop! *grin*

Got home at a reasonable hour and headed to bed. Woke up the next day to start the Night of Joy wonderful craziness! What a blast.

I was the second tour guide on a wonderful NOJ act for this weekend's Magic Kingdom Event and it was the best tour I think I have ever had. I loved the event itself, the fact that it was a music event and the people, who were absolutely amazing!

I can't even explain fully the experience that I had. The fact that this was entirely around music made my adrenaline run wild. I could have gone all night...and boy did I ever. We picked up some of the group around noon at the airport, where I got to meet Billy (the guitarist, reguarly in a band called Fusebox), Dave and Kevin (brothers who play guitar and drums), Charmaine (the backup singer and who also has her own stuff out apparently), Bryan (the tour/merch manager), Becca (Bryan's assistant), Steve (the bassist), Bryce (the piano player) and take them back to the resort. I had all their gear in my van while Susan took them in hers. Yea..bitter party of one. *grin*

Went to Quizno's to eat and they actually ran into their bus driver. How random is that? Being from Nashville, you wouldn't think they would run into random people they know that much in Orlando, but yep it happens people. Got a kick out of the Quizno worker who was pimpin it...good times.

Headed to the resort and let them check in before giving them some time to get ready to hit the parks for FUN! Bonded with Billy while we waited. Carried "my" guitar for him, showed him I could be a rock star too. Good times! He was an awesome guy to be the first to bond with. Very outgoing and a very nice guy! Can't wait to see more about his band!

Gathered up Bryan, Becca, Bryce and Charmaine to go play. We went to Disney-MGM Studios and Magic Kingdom before hitting Epcot for the evening. Picked up some kids along the way. Adam (who was from Atlanta believe it or not) came and hung out with Billy. He was playing in S. C. Chapman's band and was a cool guy. Dispersed at Epcot so everyone could get what they wanted for dinner. Bryan convinced me of Chinese earlier in the day and got me in the mood for it, and once Chinese is mentioned, I can't get out of my head, so that is where we headed while the others went all around the world.

Bryan is one of the coolest guys I have met. Very cool and relaxed, easy to talk to and very professional. I was very fortunate to spend some individual time with most of the group to get to know them more on a personal level and enjoy their company. Good times and good chinese food.

Rained a bit and Illuminations was about to begin so we rushed through a few countries and headed to Italy. Dropped some of them off there and went back to meet up with Billy/Adam to take them back to the resort. Headed back to Epcot and collected everyone after hunting down Bryce in the UK. I love these kids. Everything was a fun adventure with them and no one seemed annoyed at anything and I loved it all!

Headed back to the resort to freshen up and drop them off for a bit while I went to the airport to pick up Ralph, but found a Marcus in addition. Funny stuff. Marcus was apart of Warren's crew and we picked him up a long the way. Good guy. Ralph was fun and very nice! We chatted the entire way back and then met up with everyone back at the resort and got prepared for a night of "staying up with the boys" to keep them entertained until their sound check at 4am. It was great! I was so wired, I could have gone forever with them. We headed to the only place that would actually be open at 12:30AM...PI.

Kinda was in a rush due to the fact that they wanted to catch the last show at The Comedy Warehouse. We made it. YAY! They watched it while I tooled around meeting up with Tom, Clive and other bartender friends, Edward (my fake accented friend), Jay (Jason, who runs the sound at RRBC) and LON! (who played Wheatus' "Teenage Dirtbag") GOOD TIMES! "What are you doing here, FYC isn't playing tonight" was all I heard...so funny! Ran into a bunch of people and it was strange to be there in my costume, but good times all around.

Met up with the kids after the show and showed them around the rest of the area before it closed and began to kick us out. We knew we wanted food so after a long contemplation, they decided on McDonalds. They rocked. It was one LONG order and they managed to do pretty darn good (minus the absence of some chicken selects). Dropped the girls and Bryan off at the resort and headed with the boys to go "stalk" Stryper, who was with Sarah, Les and Brian Johnson. They were good kids about everything cause my band LOVED their band. So cute!

Our band wanted to see them soundcheck so they did, while Susan and I met up with each other and I finally got to meet the main talent and her wonderful family. They were all amazing. Rebecca, David, Helen, Daniel, Luke, Joel, Ben, Josh, and Libby are the most adorable Australians that I have ever met and their love for each other was mind blowing. They are all so close and you could tell. Amazing to watch and I was very fortunate to be shown that kind of closeness and support for all that they do. Everyone had a job and took it seriously and seemed to love it. That is awesome!

The event was such a blast to be apart of. I loved the soundcheck, I loved watching the kids do their stuff from side stage, I loved all the drama involved with everything and all the excitement. This is what I want to do. I want to be apart of the band scene somehow in someway. This was where I felt at home. Can't sing, can't play, but will support and do anything else. Awesome feeling!

Got done with the soundcheck at a seemingly reasonable amount of time due to the fact that Ralph didn't have all of his equipment yet and took them back to the resort to get some sleep. I got home around 7AM having done 21 hours straight with those fun kids and felt so tired, but so happy at the same time and I couldn't wait to see them all again the next day and do it all again.

Got home and began to feel like crap again. Lack of sleep, not so heathly food and stress I think finally took control so around noon I headed to the doctor. Got some majorally needed meds and felt 100% again shortly after that. Cost me an arm and a leg, but it was totally and completely worth it. Thanks for the support O'Kelly and Carla...couldn't ask for better friends.

Headed to meet with Becca, Charmaine, Bryce and pick them up from the parks along with Billy and Luke. Came back to the resort to gather up the others for load in. They preformed that night so we got them to the venue, an additional soundcheck was needed (with the equipment missing the night before) and they ate like rockstars (kinda...). Hung out a lot with the event staff, all of which rocked my socks off and were so incredibly supportive, and loved every moment of the event with them. Stress and all.

Took Helen back to get Libby's school work and then rested while the guys got ready to preform. Watched some of both sets from the side stage (not the best sound quality from there) and from the crowd (way too crowded to say the least...hot!) and enjoyed every moment of it. It was so fun to watch these kids who we got to know, put on a great show for so many people and rock it out. They were awesome! Loved the aftermath of the show and their positive attitudes, I adore them!

Got the whole "after the show, Josh wants you to ride Space Mtn with you" I love Bryan...so slick. *grin* After the show, I took Billy back to the resort and came back to play with the other group. Took about ten of them on rides, over and over again. Had a great time playing in the park at night with all the kids around for the event and hardly any problems at all.

It got late so headed back after doing Buzz two more times with Libby (she beat me SO bad!) and met with everyone at the van. Most of the group headed back while Bryan and Becca stayed behind and Charmaine, Steve, Bryce, Dave and Kevin watched Stryper like the biggest fans that they really are. I adore that! Took Bryan and Becca back to the resort after a quick stop at the Hess Station and the long decision on breakfast. So cute!

Got a call from Sarah telling me the boys were wondering where I was. "On my way my friend..." and picked up the boys with the confusion on if we had all the equipment and trying to find Bryce and Sharmane. Finally located them and off we were to I-hop, following Stryper's every move. So funny.

Had the BEST waitress at I-Hop ever! She was quick and fun. Very cool and a refreshing addition to the I-Hop world. She cared and that rocked. Bryce's friends came and we lost him shortly after that. Had good talks with the kids about "fluff", bums and how if Kevin became one, what his plan would be, the fact that they all had "moments" with Stryper during their preformance and that made their life! *grin* Great kids, no doubt. I can't say nicer things about them. They all make me love what I do.

Dropped them off (Charmaine totally ran up and gave me this huge hug for no reason at all...made my night. So sweet!) and headed home, another late night getting home around 4AM, when Susan was getting up to go take Ralph to the airport (she played the morning person while I was the night owl, good mix for us!)

Picked most of the band guys up for the first airport run. "We have to get a photo with you Carolyn" Aww...I love them! Hugs all around...didn't want them to leave. So much fun! Bye boys.

Went back to the office and got ready for my next airport run. Found an article in the People Magazine about Gov. Huckabee and was so taken about that I was randomly flipping through a magazine and recognized someone I KNEW first off...from a tour. Craziness feeling. They were fun! Nice flashback in my touring past.

Headed back to the resort for the last time to collect the rest of the kids for the last airport run. Thinking they were already in the resort I questioned why I recognized this hot guy and beautiful girl driving up next to me. It finally hit me with Joel stepped out and said "HEY CAROLYN!" The family brought Bryan, Van and Becca back to the resort after playing in the parks. Said their goodbyes, they went inside to get their luggage and as they were driving away, I hear a loud scream of "BYE CAROLYN!" in the cutest Australian accent EVER! I love them!

Got them all together and had a nice chat to the airport. Again "We have to take a photo with you..." I love these people! *grin* HUGS! Got a photo and they were too sweet to give us some posters and they left. Had a great time with them and after three days and 35 hours with them, I did not want to see them leave. "We will see you soon!" I hope so...I hope so!

Left feeling so happy that the event and weekend AND tour went incredibly well and that I was feeling better with WONDERFUL meds and that life was good, but sad to know that I might not ever get to hear from those kids again, but blessed that I was fortunate enough to spend that limited amount of time with them.

Got back to the office and did some catch up work. Headed home and cleaned. I had a lot of catching up to do on household activities. I was WIRED to say the least and so I went to the store and got some MUCH craved veggies so I could TRY to recreate a japanese veggie platter and boy did I do good if I say so myself. All I needed was Kobe's white sauce and I would be in business...K would be *so* proud!

Got a call from JHey saying he and Clarissa needed a ride so I went and got them. Got ready for Benningans to say goodbye to Diago, Hana, Cheiko, Tomomi, and Clarissa. I don't want to see them go! So sad. Everyone was there...got to nibble on my three "nibbling" boys...good times! But I had to leave early thanks to O'Kelly and his genius idea of making all of NOJ tour guides work at 7AM in DRC. Nice. Still love ya...

Got some devastating news that took me back a bit and I am not happy about it, but it's not in my control...it just sucks. If you are reading this...I am sorry and I miss you already. Please keep in touch.

Got home and crashed yet again only to wake up at the bright early time of 5:30AM and collected Libby to go to work. Worked DRC with Sarah, Stacey, Libby and Torrey...with added additions of JHey and Ian later! I love those kids. So much fun! Made DRC as fun as it could possibly be. Saw Tom Strunk, whom I love although he was cutting me down pretty good today, but all in love I know. Got to catch up on some Rolling Stone issues, LOVE YOU DONTRICH!

Just got home and not sure what to do. Hanging out for now, but I need to review my tour stuff for tomorrows UFW tour. 13 people...wow. Too early. *grin* Lots of crazy early shifts this week, not so excited about the morning thing, but ah well. Have a pretty steady schedule that I can't complain about for the following week as well...good times.

Lots of crazy things going on as usual. Ivan is a coming and people won't stop talking about it. Asked to be on the ride-out crew if it comes this way. Need the money. Money. What another issue. Did I mention I have none. I hate being sick and having to pay for things like that. I hate having been stupid and making a mistake costing me an arm and a leg AND I hate it that I don't save money like I should have in my past and should currently and in my future. I am such a retard. Ugh...I hate the need for money and I hate having to worry about it. I'm done...sorry.

Got kind of an upset reaction from my friend...I feel stupid and unliked at the moment and that isn't cool. We may have solved it, but I still feel lonely about it with the person. Wish it would go back to normal.

Going to do something else productive now...and see about possibly making it to the softball game tonight...not sure if it's a good idea with my throat and all...we shall see.

Thanks for sticking with me. Ya'll rock! Hope it didn't bore you people too bad!

Oh geez. I'm done. This was our second hurricane in two weeks. This was not in my welcome package to Florida. If one more person calls me to tell me what I need to do for this I am gonna scream. I understand people's need to give me advice and information, but it's just too much. I can only do all that I have done. Regardless...Frances seems to be done now. It ended up being like a tropical storm, but successfully scared the entire state.

Disney actually closed for two days. Never before in history has that occurred. And amazingly enough, it probably didn't really even have to. I sometimes wonder if the news just blows things out of proportion for fun...and to see who can buy the most groceries, etc. It's so stupid. This is why I didn't freak out for Charley, granted I should have for that one, but this is why.

Courtney probably got the worst of all of us being in West Palm and she kept us all updated throughout the entire storm. Oddly enough we never lost power or water here (although we did loose power during Charley), but Gainesville did and they are even more north than we are. Guess we were very fortunate yet again.

The fact that I do have power and water should help allevate the bored factor, you would think, wouldn't you? But no. I am still bored out of my mind. I have watched and rewatched movies and concerts on DVD. I have been frustrated over and over again by these projects I am taking on via Dreamweaver and I am eating myself out of house and home with no where to go and nothing to do. Ugh. This sucks.

And if you'd think that was all....you were wrong. I am stressed beyond belief for several reasons, but all mostly surrounding the money issue. I believe this is what is causing me to feel sick. I slept practically all day today and still feel like crap ran over. Tomorrow I am scheduled to work and train. Not sure that is such a great idea. The rest of the week I am pulled for tours, but doubtful any of them will actually occur, but who knows. I definitely could use the money...work would be nice right about now. Disney knows how to make things happen amazingly enough...and magically enough.

Going back to rest...I hope to shake off this sickness of stress and boredom somehow..

To quote Cali..."There were episodes" *giggle* And were they ever. Got up Thursday morning to run some errands and meet up with Cali over on her side of town. Played with Neo while we waited and waited for the UPS guy to bring her a package. Finally came, right on time actually and we headed on out. Got a bite to eat and discussed the problems that we gonna come along with Frances. Discovered Cali thinks K and I were siblings in a different life. Hadn't heard that one before. Ha!

Got on the road and started our "episodes". We hit traffic very early on in the game and got irriated very quickly. People were driving stupidly and making us mad. We could see an open road ten cars ahead of us a lot of the time, but for some reason all the cars con't to go snail-like slow keeping us away from the free road. When we finally did get a break and got to go at a reasonable speed....a dump truck that was parked on the lefthand side median decided to randomly go into the fast lane without even looking so that was a close one to say the least.

"I will follow!"

After being stuck behind more morons, we got another break and as I sped up to catch up on time we had lost...I got caught by a cop. Dang it. He was very nice and gave me my options and told me what he was gonna do. Yea tickets suck.

Got back on the road and slow-tailed it all the way to Tampa. Got to the campus and rolled our windows down in hopes to hear any kind of music. No one knew where it was being held and so we popped a squat on my car trunk while parked in the Eye/Entertainment Parking Only area. Good times.

Met up with the boys at Dairy Queen shortly after sunbathing for a bit. We couldn't stop laughing. The entire trip was so ridiculus. Can't believe I missed what would have been my 50th show. Ah well. Not meant to be, right K? *grin*

Got yummy ice cream and got to watch Kevin grab J's butt. That was good times for all...including the older couple to our left who knew that "those two are together" *grin* Then enforced the idea when they shared a "utopia" of an ice cream sundae.

Guy found out I like to watch certain kinds of movies...oops. "Wait, you've seen it?" umm "No...." Found out the acoustic show was cancelled. "I am totally not kidding, but..." Sadness!

K and I headed out towards Gainesville, J and Guy behind us and Cali on her way back to Orlando. It was a grueling five hour drive, which should have only been about two hours long. Everyone was getting out of Orlando and creating major traffic delays for all of us. It got really hot in my car and we both were extremely uncomfortable. My right butt cheek hurt so bad from the angle and for driving/sitting for so long that in the middle of a traffic halt, we switched seats and he drove the rest of the way. Ahh..thanks K!

Some dude in front of us kept looking back and smiling asking us if we had been drinking...weirdo. Strange things occur on I-75.

Got to Gainesville the scenic way (yay!) with beautiful large trees (in which I kept thinking the entire time about how the hurricane may effect them) and some parts of the UF campus which was really nice. Finally got to Guy's house and waited outside for them to meet up with us.

Got to meet CJ...who eats acorns. Such a sweet and big dog.

Followed K to the video store and stocked up. I was *so* thirsty and K knew it so at a stop light he starts pouring water outside his car door while grinning uncontrollably. Grrr. Stopped by the gas station, got a drink *YAY*, and then we were on our way to his place.

He gives me "the tour" via text messaging "This is my town, look quick cause that's it" *grin* Turned onto a long paved road and then I see him pull off to the side of the road and get out. Crap, more car problems? Nope. He tells me to get out of my car and just put in in park in the middle of the street. Umm ok. Good thing I trust this kid.

"Look up, this is the best place to look at the stars" What a beautiful HUGE view of the sky. No one in sight on this road. Only cows in the fields on either side and no large trees or phone lines to block the view. I can only imagine. How cool was that? Very.

Got back in route and turned onto a dirt road. Uh oh. Kept driving and driving and driving....got deeper in the woods. This is where I started doubting my friendship with K and sent him a text "Is this the part where you get out and kill me, leaving me in a ditch somewhere?" Ha! Got to his house and saw his mom. Yay, Robin! Met Happy...what a sweet doggy. Got the grand tour and made myself at home.

Looked at K's pictures with Robin and laughed at his mullet days. Saw pics of Dave and K that were adorable. Watched a bit of the Rush DVD when K got "the conference call of all conference calls" and I settled in to watch the backstage parts of the dvd. I really began to enjoy Rush more while trying to get to know their personalities. "I mean, I'm not Justin Timberlake" Ha!

Started the U2 DVD and fell asleep while K still "talked" *grin*

Woke up briefly to watch the "With or without you" part of the DVD and then went back to sleep until K woke me up to take me to bed. Got to meet Leslie. She's adorable! Woke up enough to bond with her and chat with K and listen to some "business" and started "Dirty Rotten Scoundrels" to which I fell asleep immediately again.

Woke up after a dream that convinced me being home seems like the best option for me during this hurricane stuff. So I watched the weather, looked at more baby/youngin pics, laughed at more pics (giggle), got the run-down of my trip from K (ha!) and got ready to head out of G-ville.

Took me no time at all to get back home. Went to the grocery store and came home. So that was the past couple of days. Very eventful and there were many "episodes" but all good experiences and definitely learned some valuable lessons!

Home and actively waiting for this storm to hit and then be gone. I have off tomorrow and may have off on Sunday because of the storm.

This money situation is heavily weighing on me like something fierce, but what can I do? This sucks.

And I have figured out that although I clearly am not wanting a relationship at this point in my life, I have found some incredible qualities that I would love to find in "the perfect guy for me" and if I could combine two certain individuals that I know....I would have that perfect person. Why can't I mold my own boy? That would rock....maybe one day I will find that guy that is already molded for me...you think? Not that I am looking...but it would be nice if it found me...

Going to prepare...

Monday was pretty much catch up and recovery day for me. Although it was more of a "ugh I don't feel so good" day for K and I as we lounged around the apartment. Leisurely woke up and watched movies...watched "50 First Dates" and laughed our arses off. Good times.

Went to the store and got stuff for Cali's birthday extravanganza! Got her a drool napkin type-o-card and giggled at myself. Made her an unforgettable cake. Come to find out, extremely yummy, but very poorly decorated by yours truly, although K tried to improve it by his awesome star additions, but there was no hope. Ah well.

Started to not feel too well and just laid down for the majority of the evening. Picked up JHey at work and tried to find an open hardware store with no luck, then went to get JHey some dinner.

Got home and crashed in preparation of the next day's activities....moving on.

Woke up at the break of dawn to help Rob and Bob Pattee pick up fast passes for their tour later on in the day. Things worked out well. Met up to train Carla at the window. She's such a doll. I love her. Felt so bad for her though cause after lunch she wasn't feeling so well so I took her home early and came back to finish our shift at the window with JHey!

Spent a good majority of the day playing around with Cali *and* Courtney about who or what the "surprise" was and it could not have been more perfect with all their guessing and assumptions...good times. Made me giggle, I really am better than I thought I was at that game. Ha!

Got hounded by Scott Pitts, Ryan Hoskins, Ted, Tom Strunk AND Cindy about not being at the game....John Dontrich had a meeting with me about some upcoming information. He's such a good kid. I enjoy him. Makes me laugh! "You can answer it...I don't mind" I adore you kid!

Got changed and headed over to meet Cali's "surprise". Found Tye back with all of his pencils (yep, even the larger than life one) and blow up Mickey chair, dear goodness. Saw Ting and Sean. Got everything together (except I forgot the strawberries, oops) and headed out to meet Cali at Kobe's for dinner. (sorry K!)

Cali was definitely surprised at her "surprise" and we finally got seated as the last table and we had it all to ourselves. We even had the "head chef" and he was funny. "You! Japanese Happy Meal?" The jokes just never get old...I am still trying to understand them all...I will con't to work at it too. "Yum, white sauce!"

Almost set Cali's hair on fire....threw a shrimp tail at me (not quite a fan) but it was cute, and just chatted and ate with friends. By the end of the meal, our chef was cleaning up and it was definitely almost closing time cause there was hardly anyone left in the restaurant. We were all three munching down on our food when we noticed a guy reaching over our table to shake our chef's hand and say hello when all of our jaws dropped "in sync" and I looked over at Cali and J and said "That's a Walberg" and their faces were still in shock. J was like "That's Marky Mark" and we just couldn't believe it.

Random.

He seemed really cool and had been at the table next to us the entire time, the other party members at that table just then decided to say something and he was really friendly and chatted with them while we watched in shock. Craziness.

Left and headed over for a beer run and to Cali's house for some good time drinks."I can't get it to go down!" *giggle* "That is your new quote!" Had some cake and Margaritas (whew bartender...that is some strong stuff!) "You are CRUNK!" umm "Did you just say I was CRUNK?" *giggle*

"Can I get a to-go cup?"

Got to hang out for a bit and play with Neo. I love that dog. Got a bit tired and since work was in the plan for the following day, we headed out after getting a bit "crunk". J drove and was doing a pretty good job "10 and 2 baby, 10 and 2" *grin* until we hit the curb...ha ha ha! Good times.

"What are you doing down there?" Oh God. *giggle*

Woke up to "Devastated" *giggle* I am *so* funny! and snoozed three times...made breakfast (with strawberries *grin*) and went back to bed for a bit. Woke up and chatted with the roomies. It's been awhile since we had all been home and were able to catch up a little.

Headed to work and finished up leftovers from last night. Yum. Been sittin at Gateway catching up on things that I need to remember to do and complete. Why is it that when you think everything is good, suddenly you are not caught up on anything and it is very overwelming?

Another hurricane is a-coming and it's not looking good. We are sketching plans to escape. Should work out better, but makes me a little afraid to not be near all my stuff while the hurricane happens. We shall see what is going on.

It's raining...I love listening to the storm....let it rain all day.