For some reason when I am in class I get the urge to write songs...of course this isn't DURING class, but just before class starts when I am sitting quietly in my corner of the room watching people come into the classroom. Everyone is quiet and I start writing. SO....I wrote another song. It's called Changing Places. Let me know what you think.

I have one more class to go then I am free for the day. I have to write an analysis paper for tomorrow, then study some more. It is a never-ending process, but at least I keep learning.

The The Fifth Year Crush Yahoo Club has a poll so go sign up and let FYC know what you think!

Just finishing up my new page on the band I-4....putting some pics up...I can never get the sizes just right...annoying. So check it out...I-4 and let me know what you think! The pics are either fuzzy or still kinda big...ugh. Picture problems all the time. Ah well.

Okay, I just got back from seeing "Sweet Home Alabama." What a cute movie! Total chick flick, but I enjoyed it greatly. Only sad thing is there wasn't really a bad guy to choose. Like, you tend to fall in love with both so it was hard to pick a favorite, but I will let ya'll try. Eventually of course I had a favorite by the end of the film, but it was still a tough choice! I hope I never have that problem...I would never want to choose. Course I really don't think I will, I am having trouble having one, let alone a choice among two or more. <.giggle> Kinda sad, but whatever!

It was so cool to see Cornbread in the movie. They showed mostly just Keni Thomas and the girls, but they showed them a few times playing so that was good! Of course they played "Sweet Home Alabama" and a couple of their southern-type songs. It was cool to see them on the big screen after seeing them at The Loft. FYC opened for them in Columbus, GA last month when I got to see them for the first time. Tonya said they were like the Dave Matthews of Columbus and had a large following. They really are great! It was cool! Keni will be preforming acoustically with FYC and Amanda Garrigues on October 6th at the Gainesville Community Playhouse in Florida. That should be an awesome show. Wish I could go....

Tonight I am planning on studying and hanging out...maybe watching "A Walk to Remember" I love that movie. Might turn out to be another "Hollywood Ending" kind of evening, we shall see. It always kind of turns out that way. <.giggle>

A lot of guests were frightened to leave the arena after the show. They had to park farther away because there was a football game at the dome and parking was quite full, so I had to explain to guests that it really isn't *that* scary walking back to their car as long as they go in their group (4 people). I had to convince them that most crimes do occur during the day and not to be scared. I mean these were adults, like in their 50s scared of Atlanta. I told them that I walk in Atlanta at night all the time and not to worry. This is odd to me, but to each it's own. Also, people were saying they HATE driving in Atlanta and they ONLY do it once a year to come see the Gaithers....hee hee <.grin> To each it's own. I guess maybe that will be me when I am 60...going to see *NSYNC. <.giggle>

So I was at the Guest Service Center tonight and we did about 37 wheelchair runs! It was in high demand, but it was fun cause we got to spend quality time with the guests. And a few *tried* to tip me, but of course I kindly declined. Only bad side of the night was that it went on and on and on. They sing forever! I know that the guests enjoy it, but it really is a long working night for us, but it was fun cause I love the people I work with and working with the guests is fun too most of the time, and for events like this, it is some good times!

So tomorrow I am gonna see "Sweet Home Alabama" with Steph and study some. Then back to school on Monday! Dang, weekends go by SO fast!

John F. Kennedy was shot? (Nov. 22, 1963)
Man landed on the moon? (July 20, 1969)
Chris Kirkpatrick was born? (October 17, 1971)
America celebrated its Bicentennial? (July 4, 1976)
JC Chasez was born? (August 8, 1976)
Joey Fatone was born? (January 28, 1977)
Elvis died? (August 17, 1977)
Lance Bass was born? (May 4, 1979)
Unfortantely, I was not born for any of the events listed above, and for the first time in awhile I am beginning to feel more young, than old. But I am sure that will change about now....

Justin Timberlake was born? (January 31, 1981)
FINALLY, a question I can answer, kind of anyways. At least I was born. I was almost a year old when Justin was born. I was born February 11th, 1980 so I was about to celebrate my first year!

Challenger exploded? (January 28, 1986)
I would have been about to turn six years old and in Kindergarten still I imagine so I honestly don't remember knowing then about the situation. I don't think I was told in detail at the time.

The stock market dropped 508.32 points (Black Monday)? (October 19, 1987)
I was seven years old and probably had no care about this event. I don't remember it at all. Now, I really am feeling quite young still, nice!

The Federal Building in Oklahoma City was bombed? (April 19, 1995)
Now I remember hearing about this, but not realizing the importance of it till later. I think even though I was in High School by this time, I still was not interested in events that didn't happen to me, selfish I know, but for some reason it didn't hit me as hard as it should have.

Princess Diana died in a car accident? (August 30, 1997)
I remember where I was vividly. I was on vacation with my parents in Savannah Georgia and we were sitting in our hotel room while I was flipping channels on the television and we saw the news brief that she was in an accident. We just kind of stopped and watched, not believing that she was dead.

*NSYNC first appeared on MTV? (April 15, 1998)
I didn't hear about *NSYNC until about June of 1998 so I was alittle behind on this. I remember seeing their video "I want you back" on television prior to their Disney concert in June or July, but I didn't really know of them until that special. I have seen the episode though and fully enjoy their silly outfits (big pants and matching Blues Clues shirts-dorks)

Students and teachers were shot in Columbine HS, Littleton, Colorado? (April 20, 1999)
I was in my dorm room studying and I heard my roommate yelling at me to come watch the tv with her. She was sitting on her bed just gasping at the tv. Watching those kids run out of the building. It was really sad. We imagined it could be a situation that could happen to us...very sad day.

America was attacked? (September 11, 2001)
Obviously this is the event that I most remember and will never forget. I can remember exactly where I was when I first heard what was happening. I never listen to the radio in the morning cause it is mostly talk radio and I would rather listen to my cds, so when I got to my Families and Society class, my classmate told me that she heard that a plane hit the World Trade Center in NY. When my teacher came in the classroom, she pulled up CNN.com and showed us a very current picture of the first plane hitting the building. She had been crying. She said that she heard on the radio that people were jumping out of the building's windows. A girl in my class ran out of the classroom crying, afraid that one of her relatives were hurt. We still had class that day. After class, I headed off to my World Politics class and the teacher said we didn't have class today, that the University was closing due to high alert in the city (My school is right by the CNN center) but that he would hang around if we wanted to talk about the event. That was the first time I had actually heard of Osama Bin Laden. It was scary. I went home and watched the news all day. And all week. And quite awhile after that. Very sad day!

Then, I splurged again. Oops. Okay so I went a *little* overboard. But I really been wanting the following items for quite awhile now, so that is how I justify it. AND I saved 5% on EACH item so that added up in savings! <.giggle> My justification doesn't help me much, but ah well. I also bought Avril Laveign's (spelling?) Cd, Nellyville, and the Disney Mania cd featuring *NSYNC's version of "When you wish upon a star" then in addition to my "Crossroads" DVD, I also got "A Walk to Remember" Yay! Me a very happy shopper!

I really loved buying the variety that I did. Yes, I had the pre-teeny bop purchases of Mandy Moore and Britney Spears related material, but I also was purchasing the cool rap creation of Nelly, not to mention the Rock/Punk genius lyrical newage stuff of Avril's, upon the addition of cutsy Disney remakes...I was happy with all my purchases...okay had to add that in...more justification I guess.

Very exciting cause I went shopping at the Best Buy that I used to work at...like a LONG time ago. I think I quit January of 2000 to leave for my Disney Internship. And even though I go there every once in awhile, it certainly is not my all time favorite hangout place. The turnover rate is pretty high there, cause I only recognized a very limited number of employees, but this one guy (I didn't even really know him well when I *was* working there) came up to me and was like, "Hey, how are you? How is your new job?" Cool! He remembered me. So we chatted. Nice guy turns out. Wish I had talked to him more when I was there. It is nice to be remembered ya know? I like the feeling!

So then I was driving home and my oil light began to flash. I panicked cause this has NEVER happened before and I honestly do NOT know where to put oil in my car if it was low. BUT I made it home safely and Dad put oil in my car. Whew, almost could have had a major problem there.

So that was my day in a nutshell. Didn't do anything real productive except work on this blog here, watch "Crossroads," and make copies of my cds...that was about it!

Okay so I have been thinking...I really need to start doing some preparation for my future. I am so sick and tired of my family pressuring me to make some hard core decisions. But I really kinda need to. I hate not knowing what I am gonna do next, but just knowing that I am gonna be in Orlando doing whatever it is, is enough for me, for now. Although all my friends who are graduating this December as well are all stressing out and I feel like maybe I should be too, but then again, I am not so how can I when I don't feel it necessary. Does that make sense? Anyway, just thought I would share.

Ya know, it's so funny. My major is Journalism right? I LOVE writing. I write about everything and enjoy it when I do, however I hate hate hate the whole concept of being a reporter or being a journalist in other words. The whole idea of politics involved with it, plus the stressfulness of it all, and the whole interviewing process makes me sick to my stomach. Plus, I am really bad at being aggressive and you kind of have to be to be a reporter and get the story. I am just not that way. It's not my personality.

So this brings up the question of why I picked the major that I did. I wanted to avoid math and science at ALL costs. I didn't realize sociology was there or what it entailed even until my junior year. And I wanted to write. Simple as that. Just write, not report, not editorialize...just write. But didn't want English because it was too history based, and I can't do history either. Funny I make all A's in my major and minor courses (English and Sociology), but made B's and C's in all my core classes. So I am really glad that I chose the major that I did, but I really don't want to do what I chose. I think my dream job would be to write for Rolling Stone Magazine, but I want nothing to do with interviewing, isn't that odd? Like how can I get a credible story without interviewing? I can't. I just want to write opinion pieces, but I know to do opinion pieces you have to be backed by fact, and I could SO do the research, but I am not interested in the "live" research of interviewing. Sorry, I guess I am just thinking out loud here, but it helps me organize my thoughts...funny writing helps me, see I was right. I do love writing. Just not the job of writing.

I would really love to do something with music. I love music. I am not good at making it, not good at singing it, not good at producing it, but I am really good at listening to it. I wish I could be a groupie and get paid for it. Not like a real "groupie" just a fan who gets paid for promoting...I think I could promote okay. But not a PR job, geez what am I gonna do. No radio jobs cause those are way too political, can you tell I hate politics? UGH! Kate! You are getting me too stressed out about my future! AHHHH!

Payday is tomorrow, WHOO HOO! So looking forward to that. I have been wanting to get a couple things and I may splurg this weekend. I really want to buy "Crossroads" and Avril Lavenign's (I know I just butchered her name, but you get what I mean) CD. I heard it's really good. I need to buy blank CDs as well, so I have to go shopping tomorrow no doubt. Fun stuff!

Tonight I am gonna just relax and have a "Hollywood Ending" kind of night I think. I finally don't have too much to complete this weekend so I am excited.

So yea, the films were cool. Some more cool than others. Best part was that they were all filmed around campus and town so I was like, "Oooh I know where that is" or even "I know who that is" because half of my classmates were starring in the films. Pretty cool. One at the end called "Cold Feet" was really shot well. Seemed almost like a "real" movie. Very neat to see what the students of our film department are doing and how talented they are.

We wanted to wait around until the band played (Ok Go) but we are old ladies and decided to call it a night. It was ONLY 11 and we were tired...we are SO old. Ah well. I heard they are a good band though. Our bad.

Tomorrow, I got classes like normal. Then a weekend of relaxation...almost. I do have to work on Saturday for the Gaither's Homecoming...how much fun will that NOT be....ah well. Work is work. Then I am gonna go see "Sweet Home Alabama" with Steph. That movie looks so cute! I can't wait!

So today Emily tells me that she is gonna try to interview FYC! YAY! Makes me very happy! Tonya and Allison are considering coming to their next show in L'ville! That should be mega-fun!

So I wrote a song today....<.giggle>! Unintentional. Let me know what you think! You can also read more of My Thoughts as well!

Tonight I am gonna meet Jessica and we are gonna go see some GSU independent films over at the Echo Lounge. It should be fun. They are showing lots of films and they are all shorts so it will be very interesting and rather artsy of me. I am excited.

I got my schedule for work, so I am working American Idol, Rush, and the dreaded Korn, what a hectic that night is gonna be. I am fearing for my life already. Wish me luck when that comes around.

Okay off to study a bit then go to the "movies" or short independent film screening if you wanna call it that. Later

So then I met Jessica, and poor Jessica having four tests today back to back. I definitely felt for her, especially after the test I had just taken. So then after lunch we went to the poster sale and stuff, then had my editorial class. When I was trying to start my car, it decided to be evil to me and not start. I think it was mad cause I came back to ATL instead of just staying in Orlando like it wanted me too. UGH. So Jessica and I took MARTA and walked back to her place to get her car. On the way there we got frozen chicken pot pies. <.giggle> They were handing them off on the street for some promotion, weird huh? Chicken pot pies of all things, but it was cool so we got one. Then finally got back to the parking garage and fixed my car. Then headed home. What a day.

Now I have a paper to write and stuff to study for (as always). I am still tired from my trip, but it was so worth it that I went. I talked to Amy Jo today about moving down there...we are so gonna have a blast! I can't wait! Okay got to go study, ugh! I cannot wait until December...

I arrived at Joaquin and Marcus' about 11ish and talked to Wok until about 1AM till we couldn't keep our eyes open any longer and poor Wok had to wake up at 2AM to go to work. Jen, Lisa, and Michelle all went to see I-4 on Thursday. They didn't win, but I was told they should have. I agree! I am sorry that I missed them, but it was kinda late when I got in to Joaquin's. Ah well. Next time!

The next morning, I woke up around 8AM and headed off to work. It was just like yesterday walking into Blizzard Beach although it was slower than Molasses. Only TWO cars were in the parking lot, verus the hundreds I would see on a normal basis during the summer. So strange. It was SO great to see everyone again! After getting the shocked second look, people were recognizing me and saying "Where have you been?" and "What are you doing here?" It was so great to see everyone! I worked 10-4 and it was fun! I missed it and everyone!

After work, Joaquin made us spagetti (SO GOOD-thanks Wok) Then I headed off to Margaritaville! IT was SO much fun. Jen, Lisa, and Michelle came and brought all their friends. We had like nine people there. SO much fun! It wasn't the same without our regular group (Amy, Heather, Kate, etc!) BUT it was like they were there, cause every chance we got, Michelle and I were reminising. When "Sweet Home Alabama" came on, we clapped like Heather and began getting sad. When Default came on, we got quiet for Amy (Dave cut his hair, he looked hot, thought you would like that Amy Jo!) and when Michael brought out the fiddle, I knew Kate would be happy....we missed you gals! VERY MUCH SO!

When John saw me, he was in complete shock I think. It was cute! It was good to see him again. He even sat us in his section. It was fun to hang out again at good ole Jimmy Buffets. I was standing talking to Jen and Lisa when we first got there and AJ was walking up and before I saw him, I caught him smiling at me. He came over and gave me a big hug and was like, "I LOVE your shirt" <.giggle> It was a frilly type shirt and he really liked it, he kept saying, "Where did you get your shirt?" He was so nice. He was like, "How are you?" I told him that I came this weekend JUST to see them again. After the first break he was telling me about his car problems and he has to get a new bass so that makes money scarce for helping to go into the studio...so Amy Jo we might be waiting a little bit longer for that BSC CD...ah well. It was so cool that AJ cared to see me again! YAY!

After that said goodbye to everyone. I talked to Nick and David, they are both doing good. It was so good to be in Orlando again and seeing people everywhere! I SO miss that. Saturday I left Joaquin's in search of the fam. While I waited for them to call me saying they were in town, I headed off to Downtown Disney. I went to the new toy store, Once Upon a Toy, very cute! I got stuck in the Christmas store FOREVER, I wonder if it's new or if I just always missed it cause it is towards the back. But I LOVE that store, I so want to work in it year around. With the Christmas/Disney music in the background I was in love! Just an addition of *NSYNC and it would be the perfect job for me!

Richie and family didn't get there till about 3ish. They left ATL later than planned, but hung out with them and then I took them to Margaritaville. They LOVED it. It was my sis-in-law Jen's birthday so we embarrassed her with a balloon lady (giggle.) and we sang to her. Fun stuff. I got my bro a shirt and my sis-in-law a Mickey candle (holder and all) and a Mickey American key ring. It was fun! Seany and Evan liked the Volcano. Everyone got some type of "Cheeseburger in Paradise" but myself and Erby (we were the cool ones) Just kidding.

It was hard to leave Margaritaville the second time, but we did. Then went back to the hotel to sleep before my trip back, but Evan wasn't feeling well. He has bad allergies and seemed to have a cold as well, so I went to show my bro where the 24 hour *NSYNC Walmart was at 3AM in the morning, and once I was up, I was up. So I left Orlando around 4 in the AM, making it home to ATL about 11AM, crashed for five hours and now just in completely laziness writing this and thinking about how much I miss Orlando already. UGH. How can a place do this to me? So now I have to officially wake up and unpack, do laundry, study for my test tomorrow and all that good stuff. I hope I can get through it all. It was a great weekend and I am SO glad that I went! I needed my Orlando kick.

After classes we went outside to get some air, literally. Jessica and I ran into Michelle, yay! Fun stuff. Chatted...went to another class then came home. I have been working on my papers all night. I finished both. I did my "how to" story on How to Increase Your Chances of Getting Great Seats For Your Favorite Concert. It is for my feature writing class and we were suppose to write it with a scene so of course in using my own wonderful experiences, I wrote from that. Only thing is I imply a couple of times what concert I actually camped out for, but I don't admit it. I wouldn't want my audience to think that I (the journalist-if it were ever to be printed) actually camped out for a "teeny-bopper" concert. <.giggle> My other paper was on regulation of the media, interesting stuff I tell ya. I enjoy knowing that three companies basically own all of our media market.....it's HORRIBLE. I kinda wish I wasn't informed, cause then I wouldn't feel so stupid believing and having faith that everything I hear is objective and the truth...grrr media and conglomerations...grrr

I called Blizzard Beach today to see if Rick added me on the schedule like he said he would. He wasn't there, but a new manager said to come in at 10, so I guess it's all set up. Oh who knows. Guess I will just figure it out when I get there. It will be exciting to go back and see everyone, just hope the job hasn't changed much. We shall see.

So tomorrow I got to three classes. Then I go to ORLANDO. SO excited! Already have plans for after work on Friday to head to Margaritville! Can't Wait! Then my bro and fam come into town there on Saturday and I get to go to the parks with my neice and nephew for the first time! That will be fun! So I will be back after to discuss all the cool happenings!

Then went to my other classes and watched videos...kinda tiring cause of the heat, but all is good, got through them. Then onto work...

Today is Stephanie's b-day...Happy B-day Steph! I think she had a good one. Elton John and Billy Joel concert was tonight. I was on the floor and was put in the corner. Not so bad, I liked being there cause I got to help with the VIP people and send them in the right direction, help seat people, help give directions, help with the drunks in telling them where to exit, help other ushers find the supervisors, and walk around...so I was pretty happy. Mike and Reggie were the bomb supervisors as usual. They are fun and get the job done as well so I appreciate them. Mike asked me why I didn't apply for supervisor...he is nice! Willie said that no matter what color I am outside, he KNOWS what color I am inside and he said that I would be the only white girl he would miss when I am gone in January....he's so sweet. He even told me that one of these days he is gonna miss and kiss me on the mouth, hee hee, I told him to lay one on me....cute man!

Elton and Billy were really good. I enjoyed their laid back preformance. I had a couple of problems, but nothing I couldn't handle, which I really liked. I just had some complaints of other guests standing up while EVERYONE else in the section was sitting down, so when I asked them to sit, they did and all was well for a minute anyways. Then I had this one drunk who Reggie already had to tell to leave once, then he came back, so Mike told him to leave, then he came back and they BOTH escorted him out of the building. Then a drunk guy jumped over the barricade and Mike was right there so he caught him and brought him back up to his correct seat. Night full of surprises, but we (or my supervisors mostly) handled them all so it was all good.

My favorite parts of listening to the concert (cause I couldn't really watch it-I was watching the fans the whole time) was hearing "Candle in the wind," Tiny Dancer" (favorite song of Elton's), "This Train don't stop here anymore," and finally I enjoyed Billy's "You may be right" even though the song is unfortunate.... It was a good evening though. I had lots of people thank me (which does NOT happen often) normally I am the BAD guy...but lots of guests thanked me for my help and actually appreciated my job, it felt nice. Yay! I helped! Whoo hoo...cause that is what I am there for....

Tomorrow I have TONS to do..homework wise and getting ready for ORLANDO! I can't wait! YAY! Well it's 12:32 AM and I have been up since about 8 in the AM, so me tired, going to bed. Later!

Tomorrow I have my three classes, then off to work the Billy Joel/Elton John concert. It shall be an event to say the least. I really hope all goes well. It is a sold-out crowd so that is good because it is less problems of people trying to move up in seats, but it's bad cause that is more people to try and watch and control. Ugh...hope it goes okay. We shall see.

So now, I have to work on major homework and pray that I don't get sleepy like I have the past couple of nights...going to bed around 9 is just not fun, I wake up several times during the night and still feel sleepy in the morning, ugh. Oh well. This week will be so stressful in getting out all these papers and such, but at least I know on Thursday after classes I will be heading down to ORLANDO. YAY!

Some great things happened today to make me feel like a great employee so I was happy. One of the head supervisors, Bert, brought me to the side and asked me if I had applied to be a supervisor and when I told him that I hadn't, he was like, "why, I wanted to recommend you" so that was really nice of him to say...esp coming from a head supervisor and a great guy like Bert. Then, one of the BOA staff who is very well known for being a great employee was working with me today on and off, and he said that I should be working as an assistant to Talie (my manager-and she is looking for an assistant) because he thought I did a great job and could handle it well. Even better, I was talking to Talie and a different BOA staff employee about the issues I had yesterday and Talie said I was the nicest employee they had and Jackie said I was the nicest person she met. How cute are they? I thought that was really nice. These people are so nice! Poor Talie though, I know she was having a bad day with guest issues. It's amazing how you can have a great day one day, and the next just want to fall apart.

Well tonight I have to write a couple papers...work on homework, do some graduation preparation stuff (YAY!), then I work tomorrow (pretty much all day-ugh!) so it shall be a busy one still. BUT on Thursday I am off to Orlando, WHOO HOO! I can't wait!

I made a mistake and allowed a family to take a picture in front of the stage after they had come out onto the floor (when they only had tickets for the 100 section and should not have been on the floor). I made a mistake. I was corrected. Reggie said no more of that. I said okay. Then, a family started to come down again and I had to tell them that unless they had a floor ticket, I could not allow them to take pictures in front of the stage cause then everyone would want to do it. Apparently they had seen me allow the other family to do so (my mistake) and the woman blantently alledged that it was a race issue by saying, "you let those WHITE babies take a picture." So I apologized and told her that I did make a mistake and I was corrected and that I was trying to do right by my mistake by not allowing any more people from the 100 section onto the floor period. Well she stood by her argument, stating it again, then walked past me, got her picture, then went to her seat. Then, of course before I could tell Reggie, she did. He told me that she told him that I let the "white babies take a picture" and he said for me not to get bothered by it cause she doesn't know me, but I can't help but be bothered by it. I can't stand it that I did something (a mistake no doubt) that lead someone to believe that I was racist. I am mad at myself at it, even though it may be her problem, I still feel that I egged it on. So that was my morning...it didn't end there. I also got called a liar. Whatever....grrrr.....

Upon all those bad experiences I had this morning, I also had some good ones. A man who just bought a balloon said to me that he remembered me from the circus...I was like, "good memory, maybe I will see you at our Disney on Ice as well?" and he was really nice...then in trying to remember him (cause he did look famillar) I noticed his daughter who was sitting with her mother. This little girl I remember SO well. They had seats right next to where I was at post and at the end of the circus she came over to me (LITTLE girl, must have been around two in February) and put her arms out to me for me to pick her up. Her mother gasped and was like, "She never does that to strangers" and it was so sweet. I went up to her today after I remembered her and said, "I remember you from the Circus, how are you?" and she just kinda smiled...but it was cute that her dad remembered me and maybe for that reason you know? I thought that was cute...maybe I made a tiny difference in her experience at Philips. Although I know I made a difference in that other woman's experience at Philips, I just wish it wasn't such a bad one.

I talked to my Willie and Jean about it and they both told me not to worry about it, but I do. I can't help it. It's something that I have never been told before, or aluded to...and I didn't like it one bit. Makes me sick to my stomach that someone out there thinks that of me. And I feel like I can't do anything to prove it to her otherwise. Not good.

SO yea. That was my morning. At least the kids were a little better about staying in their seats. They didn't rush me at the end, so that was good. Reggie took me on a "tour" of the building citing out all the emergency exits and quizzing me on the zones for our Emergency drills and such. I think I aced it..not like it was graded, but I answered all his informal questions right, yea he was impressed <.giggle> Said that I *must* be in college. Dork <.grin> but it made me smile a little in not thinking about the guests.

So yea, that was my day. Then I found out that if you search my name in Google, you can find my archives of this website...I thought I had to put my name on it to be found, but I guess not. Kinda cool, my momma doesn't think it's cool, but I don't mind. Just my thoughts, not a big deal to me who reads them. Not like many people do anyways. I am too boring.

Went to work. Oh the night job. I was right by the stage....totally got rushed by a bunch of kids. I mean USUALLY the parents are really good about keeping their kids in their seats, or at least holding them back from the characters...forget THAT! These parents were actually letting their children go and pushing them up to the characters...NOT GOOD. Big Bird even TELLS the parents at the beginning of the show that the kids should stay in their seats the entire time! AHHHH! What is wrong with these parents? Do they NOT follow rules? So at the end when the characters are dancing and singing goodbye, the kids run up and I try to hold them back, OH goodness, won't work with the parents trying to PUSH through me to get to the characters, WHAT were they thinkin? AHHHH! Okay so that was my night. I don't want to be by the stage tomorrow.....

Cool thing though was my supervisor came up to me and asked if I had applied for the supervisor position cause he thought I should...wasn't that sweet? Makes me feel good...like I do something right ya know? Awww! <.grin>

So after work, I went to meet Jess and we went to the Echo Lounge in East Atlanta. Cool vibe...small, but cool. It was a GSU thing, so saw a couple buds from school. Fun stuff. We saw a couple of bands play. I liked one in particular. A cool band thing with a trumpet and all, but then like four guys on stage with the band, rapping. So weird, and yet it worked. I enjoyed them!

So now I am SO tired...just got home and it's 1 in the AM....and tomorrow I have to wake up at 6 in the AM to get to work in time for the morning show of Sesame Street...oh please do not let me be by the stage, ugh! I hate kids...

It didn't really just hit me till a few minutes ago that all that happened one year ago today. I mean, I knew it, but didn't feel it till I began watching this special on ABC. Diane Sawyer was with 60 mothers..(widows) and 63 babies born after September 11th...all who's daddies died. Yea, so I was crying for awhile there...that is when it hit me. No daddies for these babies.

So I have a test tomorrow in Intimate Violence. Wish me luck. Should be okay, I hope! Then I have two more classes, then onto working. Sesame Street starts tomorrow and goes all weekend. EXCITMENT! I love Sesame Street-they were great last year! So then Jess and I are gonna head out to the ECHO LOUNGE to hang with some GSU peeps so she can meet some new people and so I can get to know the ATL music crowd better. Should be fun!

This weekend shall be fun. Sesame Street all weekend, then I have my Deviant Behavior paper due on Monday...need to get crackin on that one! Should be fun though...so wish me luck.

Okay so I get this email from Fifth Year Crush saying they want to make CJ's Landing their Atlanta home, which makes me happy cause they want a "home" in Atlanta-yay, so everyone who reads this (and lives in the Atlanta area-sorry Kate)...and I know there are at least FIVE of you-you NEED to go to CJ's Landing next Thursday, September 19th to see a rockin band...Fifth Year Crush! Sadly enough, I will be unable to attend, although I pride myself on being their BIGGEST ATL fan...I will be in Orlando, soaking up the sun and working at Blizzard Beach with the ole pals. Sorry guys, wish I could be there (I will be there in spirit), but Mickey calls!

Okay Okay Okay enough promoting I guess...I do it a lot..I know...but anyways. Tomorrow is September 11th. Strange huh? Been a year. With so many threats and craziness in our heads about what tomorrow might bring, makes it a little scary. Although I know that if someone were to do something stupid they can pick ANY day they want, they don't have to wait until September 11th to do it....so I am not worried. What happens will happen. All I know is it's gonna be a sad day in just remembering what happened and where we all were when it happened. Sad memories. Strange day...and I have class. One of my classes decided to have a "research day," but my other one is still meeting. Might be good though, to get my mind off the saddness of the day. We shall see.

SO evil GSU Docuweb won't let me get on and download the article I need for class, ugh...evil school. Oh well, I am bound to make today a good day. I keep seeing the "Remember 9-11" signs everywhere telling us what activites are going on tomorrow at school and whatnot, and it just makes me sad. Tomorrow is gonna be hard to relive and remember. I was in class when it happened, but thankfully I don't have any morning classes tomorrow, just one in the afternoon. Makes you kinda nervous though if any other sickos have any of their own "remembering" rituals of their own. <.shivers> I pray not!

Well, off to class, wish me luck!

I have been studying mostly for Intimate Violence today, I do have a test in there on Thursday, and it is amazing to me how horrible some people can be. We are discussing very specific and detailed accounts of what people will do to their supposedly "loved" ones....it's HORRIBLE. Makes me sad just reading about it, imagine living it. One woman actually made her 6 year old daughter eat her own feces, dragged her head around on the floor using her hair as a mop, then threw her against a cement wall, after which she died. Can you imagine? UGH! All I know is I am very blessed in my childhood, home, and family...as well as friends. <.grin>

Supposedly, Justin's video is gonna be on (rerun thank goodness for those who missed out the first time <.raises hand-ME>) tonight very soon, so I am gonna try to catch that then come back for what? MORE STUDYING, never ends does it? Oh and I figure I will never be caught up...not till I walk across that stage and get that beautiful piece of paper I have been working so hard to get for 5 years...then I will be ALL caught up!

So this week is gonna be grueling no doubt. I have to make some decisions for my paper topics and whatnot....that is the hardest part, finding the perfect topic. After I find the perfect topic, writing it is not a problem...just have to find a perfect deviant website for my Deviant Behavior class and then have to find an intimate violence website for my Intimate Violence class...see how that works...topics that deal with my classes, who'd a thunk it?

Okay so I am confused, still...just thought I would mention it.

Talked to Joaq last night! Very excited to go back to Orlando, even if just for the weekend! I can't wait to see all my buds, go back to Margaritville to see BlueStone Circle, hang with the fam at the parks, gonna be a blast!

Today I have been cleaning, studying, and reminising about Florida. I got this SPECIAL gift in the mail today, but I can't go into detail about it, cause it would ruin the surprise for other recipents..so I have to be good. But I will explain later, it was SUCH a great surprise! Thanks-you know who you are!

Today I got my Fifth Year Crush pics back and some of them turned out pretty good, so I have been trying to set up a page for them on here, but I am having trouble sizing my pics, so as of now they are extremely large, but I will work on resizing them as soon as I can.

I also am working on a page for BlueStone Circle as well here, but the pics are still huge as well...but I will work on it, I promise!

So the rest of the weekend is committed to catching up on studying and preparing myself for all my soon-to-be tests and whatnot! Can't wait, let me tell ya! <.giggle>

Okay so B and I are finalizing our plans for tomorrow night's Latin Night at the Riveria...Denita, Rachel, B, and I are trying to get together to see Domingo there-he is suppose to be working the door.

Yea so...did I mention that boys confuse me?

This weekend I am all about studying. I have to read a LOT! It's gonna be catching up time for me. As well, I get to pick up my pictures from the FYC aka Fifth Year Crush concerts, hopefully they come out better than the digital ones I took with their camera (sorry bout that), but then I can scan them and send them in email at least...maybe.

Okay so now I am officially a season ticket holder (for the five games-three of which are home games) of the "CLUB" GSU football team! YAY! And good for Ben cause he got the AJC to cover it and it ended up on the FRONT page, very nice! Ben is the man at promoting!

So I had lunch today with Jessica. She brought me a present...<.giggle> Thanks Jess-always lookin out for me. She wasn't feeling too well. Join the crowd. Not good. My parents are both sick, Jessica, me, don't know what it is.

So the training wasn't too bad at all. Talie and LaVerne both got up and told us some drastic changes that were to occur. Sounded a whole lot more Disneyfied, which is a good thing in some ways. Talie made us "model preformers" stand up in front of everyone, which was sweet of her to recognize us (three of us there), but I felt strange cause I didn't want everyone to think bad of me. I mean, I have only been there for one season and a LOT of them had been there since the beginning and I felt bad...but good at the same time cause Talie was being so nice!

Afterwards, Stephanie and I went up to tell Talie and LaVerne that it was a nice presentation and LaVerne said the nicest thing. When I commented on how Disneyfied the rules and regulations were (which was a compliment), LaVerne asked me if I was going back to Disney and Talie and I said at the same time "It's always a possibility" and LaVerne said very geniunely, "Aww now we can't have that, Talie can't we promote her or something to keep her here." Awww that was really nice of her to say. Those kinds of praises don't come around too often. Very nice compliment from her!

So, tonight American Idol. Well, I must say that the best singer won in my opinion and it was quite emotional when she sang, "A moment like this" and she broke up a few times. It meant more to me that she expressed her feelings in that way then even if she had hit every single note and not broken down. I loved seeing the raw and surprised emotion come out. It was great. Although I kept thinking, "WHY is a show like this SUCH a big deal to society?" and "WHY am I glued to the television just to see who won?" Also what got me was the commericals that starred all the American Idol finalists. Give me a break. Ford, Coke, and other sponsers....ugh...advertising...hate it!

Now <.giggle> I thought this was funny. At The Loft on friday when T and I went to see Fifth Year Crush, I was named band photographer for the night again (which was probably a mistake, again <.giggle>), but either way, and T and I thought it would be fun to take a picture of ourselves with their camera (we thought we were being cute) so we did..I took it...and then when I gave the camera back to Jason he decided to look over the pics that I had taken...so he saw the one of T and I and I said, "You can just delete that fun one". Well low and behold I was checkin out their website today and guess what pic he put on it. Oops, remind me to never take my OWN picture again, check out the double chin, ugh Click on PICS then IN THE CROWD and you will find me! Oh well, guess I deserved it! <.giggle> Still fun!

So boys confuse me. Just thought I would mention it!

Today for some reason I wasn't feeling too well. As I have said before, I haven't been eating well or sleeping well (except that nice nap I took when I got home today). I don't know what is up, hmmmm.

Tomorrow I have two classes and then head off to my training session at Philips for the year. Should be exciting and full of fun things that Talie has planned for us.

I watched American Idol tonight. I really hope that Kelly wins. No offense to Justin, but something in his voice doesn't do it for me, just doesn't make me feel anything like Kelly's singing does. But I do think both will do well. So yay for them!

I was really impressed with Cornbread as well, however they kept playing songs that BlueStone Circle played which made me really miss Orlando even more. They even played songs that were the soundtrack of my life years ago like "Blister in the Sun" and the unfortunate "You may be right" and more...

I really liked being able to hang out with Jason more this time around. Kevin's friend Donovan was visiting and he was really cool too. Tom was having fun flirting with Tonya while Guy was so intent on watching Cornbread preform. They are a bunch of great guys. I enjoy them!

So Saturday, T showed me around Columbus, it was good times, shopping and catching up. Then I came home and slept for a bit. I was worn out...two concerts in a row was kinda tiring, although since I have been back from Columbus I haven't really been sleeping well, or eating well, or feeling well...I think I might have "caught" something while at those concerts, hmmm...anyone guess what it could have been? <.giggle> Anyways FYC is coming back to ATL in September, but they are coming when I am visiting Orlando so I have to wait until October, makes me very sad! Ah well, such is life-unfair!