My clown who kisses, kissed me again today at the beginning of the day-he's so cute...I wish he was that cute without his clown makeup on, but he's not, hee hee I saw the pics of them without their clowness on, hee hee

So, all day on the floor, I get to talk to my crew guy friends that I have made since like a week ago-started talking to a couple new ones today, met Joseph and Miquel, other people didn't share their names, but were equally enjoyable to talk with. They would come sit with me during their down time while the circus was going on (they would set up the acts, etc.) So, at the end of the night Miguel is asking to take me out dancing tonight and Joesph brought me a present...Joesph said "I have a present for you" and handed me a coarse strand of what seemed to be like hard, old, and dark hay, so I said, "gee thanks....umm...what is it?" and he goes "it's a strand of elephant hair" and I said "awww, thanks" he told me it was actually pretty valuable since not a whole lot of random people get to have elephants hair <.G> so I thought it was sweet of him, although if you are wondering where the hair came from, it's from the elephants tale, which yea is not the most sanitary area of the elephant, and it smells like the elephant (obviously), but I thought the thought was the cutest and most important part, cause you know no one has ever gotten me elephant's hair for a gift before <.g> so I was very flattered.

Also, equally flattering was when today I got asked TWICE (not just ONCE) but TWICE by ADULTS for my autograph (how cute is that) the first guy was 24 (he claimed) and drunk as a skunk (before the circus even started) and was collecting autographs from everyone including me and the cotton candy gal, and the second was from a very sweet woman and her two daughters who, I think, were just being sweet to me and wanting it to make me feel special. THEN, a little girl (less than two years old) came up and hugged me and said "I love you" while patting my back <.G> I was so please -how cute is that? This same little girl asked for a picture with me at the end of the circus, she wanted me to pick her up and when I did, she put her cheek next to mine and hugged me real tight and her momma took the picture, how cute is she? AWW, THEN another little girl next to me who was less than two years old, and really quiet, had been really sweet the whole time, came up to me at intermission and put her arms up to be picked up, and her mom gasped and claimed "she never does that, honestly, she just doesn't go to anyone" -Could have been the sweetest thing <.G> And so because of that I picked her up and said "Aww that's so cute!" Can you believe the love I received today, all in ONE shift, I felt love. That was the most rewarding thing ever, I so felt that my job was special because of all those reasons! Every usher had seemed to be complaining to Tally about the awlful day they had had, so before the last shift I went up to her and said all the things that happened and she said, "they probably thought you were a clown" so that is why they wanted my autograph, picture with me, and want me to pick them up-ha ha ha Tally, SO not funny

So, since I was on the floor, Bello came up my aisle to say goodbye to the guests each show I LOVE HIM, so I got to see him upclose all THREE shows, I adore the clown...but also it was cute cause the first time he did it, he pointed at me slightly not so anyone else could really catch it, but I DID, oh I love him.

SO then night comes, UGH, bad NIGHT, everyone was in the WRONG seat and problems problems, grrrr, but it wasn't TOO terrible, so I lived....It's just annoying when guests think that it's ok to sit in a seat JUST because it's empty and not because they have a ticket for that particular seat. AHHH! Could have tore my hair out, but the afternoon show made me smile all day, so it was all good. The cotton candy guy had seen me in the morning and said "If I gave you a clown nose, would you wear it? I wanna see how gutsy you are" and I said "heck yea" and so he brought me one and I wore it and one little girl outta all the people I saw did NOT like my nose, so I took it off, but she didn't cry-thank GOODNESS, I would have felt SO bad...

Reggie was my supervisor, and he told me Ted Turner was in the house, and he got to escort Turner's family around the arena and circus areas and he saw where the animals were kept and talked to Bello <.sigh> hee hee, so that was cool.

Unfortunately, tomorrow is the last day of the circus <.saddness> I am so gonna cry, at first I got sick of it, now I LOVE it and don't want it to go at all.

So then, I took a sex survey in my sex class which was more like an exam on my life then a survey, it was hard...but I got through it, and I got credit for a writing assignment so all is good, then my friend Tofu and I got together and did some major preparing for our midterm in POP so it was a good productive morning.

Then, I went and met up with Tony and Stephanie and we went to Jock and Jills for lunch, and we had a TERRIBLE waiter, he was HORRIBLE, like rude and everything so we didn't want to give him any tip cause he so didn't deserve anything, but Stephanie did leave him $1.25 and we RAN out of there so he wouldn't beat us up, we SO should have complained but we weren't in the mood. Then, we walk out into CNN where they were filming TALK BACK LIVE and this man/lady/it was in the audience and we laughed over it so badly, it was a man totally dressed up like an ugly woman-poor gal...hee hee

Tonight was really a great night! I worked BOA access doors at MARTA by myself...but it was cool cause Bello (the coolest clown EVER) came by me and said, "how are you today, miss?" and I said "good, how are you?" AHHH, BELLO TALKED TO ME! I about died...<.G> It wasn't too bad working at the access, everyone was pretty nice as a whole. I had Mike for my supervisor so it was all good.

Before work, Vincent (another supe) told me about his kind of music, Luther Vandross and such in making fun of my loving *NSYNC....he said "you seen the commercials for Darren's Dance Grooves?" and I said "I OWN it!" he was SO laughing at me <.g> I LOVE Vincent, he's such a fun guy, and makes me laugh.

Tomorrow, I work from 10 AM till 10 PM-kill me now, but I know that I will miss the circus when it's gone-LONG day tomorrow...ugh....hee hee

So then, I get to be next to the sound guys who are SO funny singing and dancing to the music that they hear every night for years...hee hee....then on last Sunday I worked all day on the floor-and everytime during a certain part of the circus-I had to move for like five minutes from where I was sitting, so that the crew of the circus could get the elephant stands onto a special place, and this one guy kept telling me when I could move and when I was "safe" to come back to my spot and sit again, well today I was in 104/105 and no where near the floor, but he came up and asked me why I wasn't down there by him, and I told him that I didn't have control over where I was. So, he stays by me and sits in MY chair and talks to me about the circus and stuff, and I am like "aren't you suppose to be working?" and then he is like "are you working this weekend?" and I said "yea, I work tomorrow, all day on Saturday, and all day on Sunday" and he goes, "you should try to get down there so I can tell you when you are safe" and I said "so that you can tell me to MOVE! <.g>" and he left...he's pretty cute, but he's the crew of the circus, hee hee that would go NOWHERE! LOL.

I met Bello's mom <.g> She was sitting in my section and she came up the stairs while I was telling everyone to remember to have their ticket with them, and she showed me her pass, and I have never seen one before so I was like "what is that?" (nicely asked) and she goes, "yea I am bello's mother, this is the laminated pass for the show" and I said "oh ok" but she was sweet!

Ok so before work, Stephanie and I are about to go to the steps to sit for briefing and Q (my best friend at work) comes up to me and is like "ya'll got congratulated last week at briefing but neither one of ya'll were here...Cindy has a gift for ya'll" and I was like "for what" and he goes "for being nice to the new people" So, me and Stephanie had been trainers for the new people a week or so ago, and they told Cindy and Tally that we had introduced ourselves and helped them out, so we went to sit down for briefing and Tally came out and said to everyone about me and Stephanie helping them out and everything and she threw us our gifts and looked at me and said LOUDLY "Sorry, they aren't *NSYNC tickets, but it's something" hee hee and I blushed SO bad, cause not EVERYONE knew that I LOVED them, until THEN! hee hee, so then I went up to Tally to thank her for the gift which was a Circus stuffed Tiger, a clown nose, and two tickets to a Hawks game of my choice, and I said thanks to Tally and she goes "yea, I would have liked to have given you *NSYNC tickets, but they aren't coming" and I said "I know, it sucks" and she goes you heard why they aren't coming right?" and told me again that it was the arena's fault, and I said "yea I know, its so not right that it was workplace's fault...but oh well, thanks anyways!" Then Tally goes on to say that her friend bought her the album and made her listen to it and tell her specifically what she thought about it, and I told her that Celebrity is NOT their best one, and that she should listen to the Christmas Album cause that is their best, and she said she wasn't sure about listening to it year around and I said, oh you can <.g>

So, then Q gives me a hard time about ushers thinking that we are "talking" which means in his words going together, and even HIS girlfriend thought I liked him when I met her, how odd is that, we are just friends, but whatever. Q is like my best friend at work and everyone thinks we are together because we are always together and hanging on each other because we are comfortable with that, he's so sweet and I link arms with him and hug him and stuff, but that doesn't mean anything, it's funny though what people assume.

My bro and family seemed to really like the circus which was good! AND I saw Bello without his clown makeup on when Stephanie and I were walking out, his hair was as high as it normally is and he was with his mom and family, so cute! So tomorrow, I go to class, and then study with Tofu, then onto another night of circus, this is the last weekend, so after this, I will probably miss the circus, hard to believe but it's possible! Later

So, yesterday was exciting-I bought a DVD player which brings me up with the times. I got Legally Blond for my first dvd purchase-cute movie! <.g> The only thing is it's silver...which makes my black electronics look funky...oh well, they don't have to match for me to like and use them so oh well.

ok so, I found out last night that *NSYNC is not coming to Atlanta because the stupid arena that I work for did not provide a date in time.....GRRR...makes me mad, but whatcha gonna do-at least it's not *NSYNC's fault, I guess...they do love me (they did want to visit me ) they just couldn't-grr job grr....but moving on-I have to work a LOT this weekend, so I will be circus-ed out and VERY tired....

I bought the Elton John cd, I really like it! It's pretty good! I love "This train don't stop there anymore"-the words are really cool, I enjoy that side of Elton! I wish I had tons of money to buy all the music cds and dvd movies in the world, wouldn't that be nice...I am watching CRIBS on MTV and these people have so much, it's just so amazing to me how they can be so fortunate just because of the career route that was chosen for them or that they chose...ya know?

DANA and JOAQUIN may come visit me! <.g> I am SO excited! Only thing is, I live with my parents, I wish I had my own apartment for when company comes, but what can I do? rent a hotel? that defeats the purpose of them staying with me to not have to spend money on housing, hee hee. Oh well, I am mucho excited-we can go ATL clubbing with Dana being 21-hee hee no fake ID problems THIS time.

I just want to take the time to thank my buddy Kate for helping me last night. I REALLY don't know how to thank you enough for your support and encouragement, I am very happy for the end results and I honestly don't think I could have done what I did, without your help, so I genuinely thank you again and again for making me smile again....cause I was seriously missing that happiness for awhile there, but now it's back <.g> THANKS K!

Kate has been sending me cute pics of the old skool *NSYNC. This one of Chris and Justin just makes me grin ear to ear. And the new skool of Chris is so cute too.

So, tomorrow I have a day off....kinda :) HEE HEE I have to study-BUT I also get to not have to do anything major tomorrow so that is why it's considered a day "off", I am going to run errands with my momma and go out to dinner to a nice chinese restaurant, so I am excited.

So, I spent the night at Stephanie's cause I was gonna pick her up early in the morning anyways to go to work (We carpool) so I just stayed over there, and we got up at 8am to get to work about 9ish, to work from 10AM till 10PM, oh my gosh, what a LONG day.

We had three shows of the circus, I SO do not wanna see the circus again, Too bad I have to see it Thursday, Friday, three times on Saturday, and two times on Sunday-THEN that is all....but I was on the floor all day today, in the BOA area, which was fun. Not too many problems, one guy cut his cheek after tripping over some wires, but he was ok, and then a little boy banged his lip into a wall and it bled, but he was okay too, so not TOO bad.

The circus has this thing where fans can come meet the clowns and people/animals before it actually begins and that is SO the worst part of the circus...cause we get bombarded by guests returning back to their seats, and we have to check their tickets so they are in the right spots and it's hectic-we HATE that part, hee hee.

The circus is just getting old very fast. I LOVE Bello (not Bell-A, as I claimed in my last post-my bad), and Bo (the elephant)-they MAKE the circus, they are too cute and so much fun. But I love the other clowns too cause they are sweet to me. There is one who has a sign that says "kisses $0.50" and he is the cutest, and he came and kissed me, hee hee, then this "older" clown who acts like he can hardly walk, always needs my help up the stairs, how cute is he? They are all very funny. Only problem working this is that it STANKS, hee hee and we come out smelling like the elephants/llamas/zebras/tigers/etc...it's bad.

Now, I have to wake up SO early tomorrow to get in more studying before my two midterms-UGH-it's GONNA BE BAD. Wish me luck, later.

Then, I met up with Steph and Tony, we went to Jocks and Jills and had a great meal :) I got a sex on the beach-good stuff! So, then Steph left and Tony and I hung out in which I start talking about how boys suck. He agreed, hee hee. Then, I got to get real close to the elephants taking up our entire parking lot, they were eating hay and I got to stand right outside of their feeding area, they are just so cute (Dumbo) looking :)

I was at 102/103 BOA which was a nice place to be, next to two trainees again (one on each side) and they were both really nice. I enjoyed them, they thanked me for helping them which is really nice of them. It's funny today, I got two compliments from a co-worker. They both made me think. The first is that he thought I had learned everything I needed and that I was ready to teach now, and gonna be the next supervisor. I told him that I still had a LOT to learn, yet he was real sweet in claiming I didn't. Then, the second compliment, which I take as a compliment but made me think again is, "Ya know Carolyn, what I have learned about you?" and I said "What is that?" and he said "That you aren't prejudice." and I said "well, I try not to be" and he said "you know, people ask me, since I lived during that time, how people could treat you like that, and I just say, 'I don't know, it was the times'" and I said "Well, I am trying to make up for it" and I hugged him. But, it was something to make me think, cause I can't make up for it, and it's one of those things that is still questionable, where he obviously still assumes people are ya know...otherwise he wouldn't tell me that I wasn't...does that make sense?

The circus wasn't all that great-I mean it was ok. I liked the clown, Bella, and the elephant Bo (Bella's sidekick). They were funny and I love funny people, so there you go. I get to see it SEVERAL more times, so it will get worse I am sure. Singing circus songs in my sleep I am SURE....so tomorrow I have to study for my two midterms on Monday, and then I work ALL day Sunday, school on Monday and it con'ds from there.

Today was a fairly unproductive day! I went to the grocery store with my momma, and ran errands (got gas, went to the bank, went to get a battery for my watch) My *NSYNC watch is almost no more. It will do everything BUT make sounds (no sound) ITS SO SAD! I looked today to buy another one, but I couldn't find one anywhere where I had seen them before :( Major Saddness

Then, I came home and organized for my day tomorrow, full of class, studying, and work (the circus tomorrow) Whoo hoo. Also, Crossroads comes out tomorrow, I want to see it, we shall see when that will happen...who wants to go? hee hee.

All in all a relaxing day-hope that tomorrow is just as good :)

So, then I watched MY SO-CALLED LIFE in the library before my other classes, then went and watch another film in POP class, and law was ok today, so not too bad. Well, tomorrow is Valentine's Day....and it's so horrible how society causes you to feel bad about the day IF you don't have someone to share it with. (By "someone" I mean a romantically linked someone-not just a loved one-ya know?) and I refuse to buy into that, in fact I am not the least bit sad about not having someone....in fact, I think I am better by myself, even if I really want to be with someone eventually, I like my independent self.

I have two midterms on Monday-UGH, I have Media and Law-UGH and Media is all essay, Law is gonna be just as bad.....oh geez. So, I have to work the circus this weekend starting with Friday so tomorrow is my main day to study-grr and I have SO much to read, wish me luck, geez I always have something due, don't I? GRR SCHOOL!

I only had one trainee once I got there, because the other girl was moved (she had worked at Turner field-so she had experience) her to another spot, because of a no-show. SO, I just had one trainee....I tried my best to train her as well as I could....but she was really quiet so I couldn't tell if she thought I was full of crap or what....but she was nice...I hope that I helped her a little bit at least. But, we had fun and the night went by fast so it was all good!

I got my cds back from the co-worker I lent them too, and he said he thought that *NSYNC was alright...but not his thing, oh well, BUT then I was carrying the cds (Brian Mcknight, J-Lo, and *NSYNC) back to the car, and another co-worker saw that I had them and wanted to look at them, and he took the *NSYNC one out of my hands and kept it (out of the three-he CHOSE the *NSYNC one) and I said "You like *NSYNC?" and he goes "yep, Justin is my cousin" (he's a kidder) and I said "You like that cd?" (it's Celebrity) and he goes "yea, I don't have it though" and I said "You can keep it-I have mulitple copies" (Although remember, this is a COPY of the original) but he was so excited "really? I can HAVE it? thanks!" so I DID make someone a bigger fan with it the long run-I believe! HEE HEE. All in all a good day.. but now I am sleepy and I have to do some work for class tomorrow. Next event is the circus, it shall be fun! I hope! ugh, BUT there will be kids....oh well, I guess I can live...hee hee...later..

So, then onto my Crime (where I took my test) oh who knows...the questions were rather vague, but whatever. It's over...for now.

Ok, onto my most feared class of the day-I was pretty calm up to the time I had to go up to the front of the classroom, which was not normal, I usually get sweaty palms, and my heart won't stop pounding, but I kept breathing...and told myself it was no big deal, and when I went to go up there, it wasn't THAT bad, however, I kinda don't remember exactly how everything came out of my mouth, but I think it was ok, at least it was over. At the end of the class, a guy next to me (whom I sometimes talk to) told me I did good, which was surprisingly sweet!

So, then I get a phone call-from Wendy saying she wants to meet for lunch, so I meet with her, and she "detains" me which I didn't know that was what she was doing, until Beth and Tonya showed up :) YAY! They brought me cupcakes, presents, and they sang "Happy Birthday" to me in the college cafeteria-with people around LOL how embarrassing, but SO sweet! AND what a surprise, I had no idea! Rachel and Beth got me the Disney Trivia Game II (The Sequel) and we played it in the middle of the cafeteria hee hee laughing and kinda being loud-oops LOL. Tonya got me this sweet friendship card and it said "and you know what you get for being such a good friend..." and then on the present, it had another card and it said "...the World." and she got me the World...a globe...how sweet is that. It was so "While you were sleeping" hee hee.

SO, while we were playing and having a good time, being kinda loud, I looked at the table next to us (well two away from us actually) and it was Sarah's crush, hee hee. He is a cutie...but he shaved off his chin hair, so he looks older...coughcoughteachercoughcough, but Sarah loves him anyways, and I think he knows me cause I always giggle around him cause he's Sarah's crush, and he saw me telling T that he was there, and he left, LOL oops, Sarah is mad at me now, but oh well, it was funny.

Then, I attended my two classes, POP (watched a documentary today-exciting stuff) and Law (sucked BIG time) and T and B were outside of my class waiting to take me to dinner-how sweet are they? So, we went to The Vortex-GOOD food, I had a chicken salad sandwiche-it was huge hee hee, and it was fun! It was good to see them again, I don't get to see them that much at all anymore, and it was sweet of them to make my day special :)

Then, I get home and I have mail! :) AWW! Thank you Kate for the coolest gifts-and I LOVE the cards! I am definitely starting the Chi-town fund with your headstart! And Emily got me the best *NSYNC book and left little comments in it-hee hee next to Lance (a VERY ancient Lance pic) she wrote "I *thought* this was suppose to be an all boy-band, he he he" LOL it was a girly pic of him, :) Thanks Miggie for the shoutout! And thank you Shelley for the sweet note! Ya'll are all so nice to think of me! It made me smile! What a good day it turned out to be, all thanks to you guys! WHOO HOO! I am 22!

So then, my fam came over. YAY! I love seein the fam. We all played in the backyard with Honey (my doggie) and had my favorite meal, Tacos, and my mom made a Deeee-licious Red Velvet Cake but with Chocolate Icing, SO GOOD! I took two of my three nephews (ages 8 and 4), and my neice (will be 2 in March) up to my room, cause for some reason they all LOVE to go see my room, I think it's all the visuals...I have pictures everywhere, and bright, fun *NSYNC stuff everywhere...so they like that I think. Anyways, we came up to my room and listened to music and played. I got to open my gifts....I got $85 to go towards a DVD player that I really want, a face plate for my cellphone-it's Yellow and very ME :) and I got two books: Maus II and The Bad Beginning Four Book in a series. :) Very good birthday party!

Tomorrow, I have my dreaded day, even though it's my birthday-I have to give my first of many oral presentations as well as turn in my six-page paper (which I finished an hour ago-and it's pretty good I think), and take my first Crime exam...it's gonna be a LONG day! Wish me luck.

So then, Stephanie wants the soundtrack and we have time to kill before we head down to work, so we go to the Target at Lenox and she buys the soundtrack-which is pretty darn good. We were driving along down I-85 singing and dancing to "Dancing in the moonlight" when we looked up at a guy in a van driving next to us laughing at us, so we waved and went on our merry way.

Driving up to the back of Philips Arena, we got stopped by a train and this stupid train was practically never-ending-AHHH! We sat there for like twenty minutes...I got a lot of my aggression out yellin at the stupid train to stop holding us up (we weren't late or anything, I just got impatient-like always)

So then, I find out I am working with Tony, hee hee whom I call, <.in a singing voice.> Tony, Tony, Tony, TO-NAY, TO-NAY, like that money song...hee hee, anyways he is hilarious so we had a good time, working Bob Dylan in portal three which is BUSY, BUSY, BUSY cause all the floor people come down that way as well. I got kissed on the cheek by two guys and one chick-the guys weren't half bad-they were pretty good lookin in fact, however the chick I could have lived without-and lived better actually, number one she was nasty and she grabbed me very spontatnously and went for my mouth but I quickly moved my face and gave me a sloppy kiss, EWW, and Tony just stood their laughing his butt off, grrrr My supervisor came over and I told him my kissing record of the night and he said, say away from those girlies...ha ha ha Vincent :) hee hee he's a nut. I had a good time with our group tonight though, they are all hilarious and fun! :)

I let one of my co-workers borrow some cds tonight cause he wanted to hear some new music so I made him take my *NSYNC "Celebrity" extra copy that I take everywhere and made him promise to listen to at least three different songs...hee hee, I hope he does, I may have made another *NSYNC fan :) We will see on Tuesday...which is the next time I work-and it's a Hawks game...back to basketball!

So, tomorrow I am gonna have a par-tay! Hopefully have enough time to work on my school stuff too though- I HOPE! Later....

I also have my crime exam due on Monday so I have that to study for as well...oh will things ever get better? Nope...well after I was in the library literally wearing out my already problematic eyes...I went and met my work buddies at Centinnel Park and ate my lunch with them. Tony, Stephanie, and Jesse were there hanging out between work shifts..they worked early afternoon and had to work the Thrashers game tonight so I talked with them for while, it was nice. I had fun! Those guys are crazy.

So tomorrow, Stephanie and I are gonna go see A Walk To Remember, which I am SO happy about, I finally found someone who will go see chick flicks with me-HA! whoo hoo! So, after that we go and work the Bob Dylan concert, which will be all good, I HOPE-I figure people will be all smoked up BEFORE they come so they can be easy going all night long, PLEASE! hee hee, no problems I hope.

On Sunday, the fam is coming over and hanging out to celebrate my mom and I's birthdays so that will be rewarding and yet time consuming at the same time, cause I have SO much to study for all the events on my actual birthday-AHHH! Please let me get through this...stress is not good..and I don't handle it well.. later...

I got my sex exam grade back...I got a 92%! WHOO HOO! How pleased am I? :) Very, I love that class, and adore my teacher, I enjoy the class and it shows in my grades, that is perfection. I wish all my classes could be like that...

So anyways I am watching the True Life: Plastic Surgery show on MTV, and it is absolutely absurb. These people have NO reason to get "fixed", I understand that people would want it for health reasons, but just to be "perfect" is unbelievable, it's not worth the trouble, the money, the pain, and the addiction or anything. The guy who wanted calves, PLEASE they look the exact same, and no one is noticing, dork. I just don't like him AT ALL. I mean, I like the fact that people feel better about themselves, but I think they need to work on the inside and not the outside, just my opinion though....

Later.

I went to crime and B visited me :) that was a nice surprise...I had a pop quiz in crime which I did ok on, but not a 100%-he was vague on his questions so....like for example he asked what are some "behaviors" that go with status offenders? and by behaviors I did't assume he wanted examples, but he wanted examples, when I told him behaviors of the people who might commit status offenses.

So then, I went to the HELL class, excuse my language, but this class made my day HORRIBLE, and I cannot stress that enough. Ok, remember I said that in my media class we have to have focus groups, where like five people from the class do essays on the chapter for that day that we will be covering and it's their responsibility to bring up class discussion and make it so that the class time runs smoothly...well, guess who didn't show up? No, I was there, it was the other FOUR people in MY focus group that left me stranded....so my wonderful teacher expressed to the ENTIRE class that me, yea, SPECIFICALLY me, Carolyn would have to hold it down, and do it all, THAT IS SO UNFAIR! Why punish ME when I came to class and did my essay, WHY should I have to be the one to do all the work.....grrr....so anyways he said "Feel free to chime in anytime" in which I said "Ok" so...he goes along and asks extremely vague questions to the CLASS....and no responses, meaning NO one else read, BUT ME, so then I have to ask....WHY DOES IT ALL HAVE TO BE ON ME? Anyways, I am just venting...it gets worse...so he asks vague questions and I don't really understand what he is looking for so I don't "chime in" as of yet...and he goes "I know at least one of you knows, because I read your essay on it earlier today" so everyone in the class KNOWS he is referring to me, but I still don't know what he is looking for in an answer and now being humliated I don't care too much to chat...so I wait then I "chime in" and say my piece (which was pretty good, I think) and then when he is done with the lecture, he says and I quote "those who are silent, don't know the information" GRRR Don't call me stupid, I knew the information, I DID MY work, I just didn't understand what you wanted me to say, AHHHH-he basically told the entire class that I was stupid, and incompetent, I am sorry, but SOME people just like to listen and observe and LEARN that way, not EVERYONE likes to share what they know, why can't people just accept this. Anyways, I have a six page paper due on MY BIRTHDAY (monday) along with an oral presentation in that class (UGH!) among other things due that day...I have to worry about that, I swear I have an ucler...

So then, I get back to myself slightly when I get to go to the most interesting class, my wondeful POP class, which I seriously adore! Thank goodness I have at least one this semester, otherwise I would die. So, we talked about the Madonna video "Vogue" and how the dance/theme was adapted from the African American Gay community which was portrayed in the video "Paris Is Burning" that we watched in class about their culture that they basically made theirs alone. It was a very interesting class, like usual, I love it!

Then onto Law, UGH! Just bad...bad...but more boring than anything else...so...that was that.

Today was SO cold and rainy ALL day long. I come home at 9pm from being gone from home since 7:30am-when I get home, my parents can sympathize but certainly don't understand my pain of my day so I come upstairs still trying to defrost when my parents don't even keep the heater on hardly at all (to cut costs) so I turn my individual heater on to thaw out, when my mother comes upstairs and says "I am gonna take a shower" which is code for "turn your heater off cause I HAVE to turn MY heater on WHILE I take a shower, and if we BOTH have the heater on then it will blow a fuse" SO I huff and puff, cause I am COLD and she is gonna have HOT water pouring on her steaming up the bathroom-WHY does she need her heater, I am the frostbitten one....so then my dad goes, "Are you online" grr I JUST got online, do you want me to get off, when you had all day to get on and I just get home and want to vent online to my friends and BLOG my horrible day and you ask me if I am online? AHHHHH! I am seriously not having a good day-everything is starting to irritate me-BIG TIME! ok ok ok I will take a DEEP BREATH and let it out SLLLLLLOOOOOOWWWWWLLLLYYYY!

I have decided that I NEED to decide on my topic. I emailed Friedman to ask what he thought...he said he thought it was a good idea (which makes me happy) but I am not sure still....I really am interested in the Elton John idea, BUT I also feel like since I am YET to be an expert on Elton John that I should consider other options, of course I can LEARN things on him to become close to an expert, but hmm what do I want to do? LOL Decisions, decisions....

Ok so what else? This guy in my class wrote this story about *NSYNC not being in the Star Wars Movie

I heard *NSYNC's new remix of "Girlfriend" with Nelly and it's *N credible, SO much better than without Nelly, makes me like the song so much more, since I really didn't like it to begin with, although the video helped. Also, I got a copy of "Gone" en espanol, how come music is just better in a language that you don't understand...instead of saying "GONE" they sing "NO....no....NO.....no....no estas" its so cute....the translation is different I am sure, I will need B or Rach to help decifer it, but it's just SO pretty!

Ok this blog is done, I can't think of anything else to say...tomorrow is gonna be SO LONG....and so productive though, lol I just need to get stuff done before then....wish me luck.

1. Have to do improv presentation on Monday
2. Focus group on Wednesday (participation-ahh)
3. Have to decide topic for presentation for POP by Wednesday (pressure, ahhh)
4. Sex exam on Wednesday (hope I pass, LOL)
5. Crime exam on Monday
6. Six pages of my Scholarly paper due Monday
7. POP quiz in Crime on Wednesday
TOO MUCH TO DO! AHHH!

Plus, on top of all of that, I have to work on Saturday (Bob Dylan) and my mom's birthday is on Friday (celebration) MY birthday is on Monday so we are doing a family celebration on Sunday night (I don't have time to celebrate my birthday in reality-I should be studying my butt off).

I found out today that one of my friends (new from this semester) is not who I thought he was, which is so weird, cause it's not that he is a different person or anything, he is just someone who knows someone that I once knew and it's strange, like I see him in a different light, but not bad, he's really cool and I shouldn't take this as a problem or anything...I am not making sense I know, I will stop now.

Ok so in POP class today it was SO funny! Friedman was telling us about our presentations and the fact that we are experts on stuff he probably doesn't know much about so we should teach him lots of new subjects and he was giving examples of students who he knew that seemed to be experts in certain areas when he said "I know one person in here likes *NSYNC" and totally grinned at me, which in return I grin back at him while simultaneously, the four people that I talk to in that class all TURN around (really obvious) and giggle at me...how embarrassing....but I took it, I was pleased that now the whole class KNOWS I love *NSYNC and probably EXPECT me to do something on them for my presentation, but I don't know what I can cover that Friedman didn't already cover...so we will see...I need a topic before Wednesday though so any other pop culture ideas, let me know...I was considering Madonna vs. Britney and the effect of the audience's critique on them, or Online fan fic and why people do it, but I don't know...any other ideas..please leave me any..:)

Ok so I will be on tomorrow still deciding what to do...I will give updates then! Later.

Today is my parent's 23rd anniversary-yay! Go them! We had our own little superbowl "party" basically just lounging out in front of the tv with chips and dip, watching the national anthem and the coin toss, then me hibernating till my studies were done :)

I went out to do something that I promised I would never do....I bought the O-town cd. Oh I know, what is wrong with me? Well, I told myself I would NEVER purchase it, but "We Fit Together" has been stuck in my head for like a month, so I HAD to buy it or just die. So, I went in Best Buy to JUST purchase O-town and OF COURSE, I came out with FOUR cds. O-Town, then Meredith Edwards (GOOD CD), ya know she is off Lance's label but totally country, then I had to buy Alan Jackson's Drive, cause he's got the number one spot on the billboard chart and with his "where were you when the world stop turning" song, I just had to buy it. Then, another stupid purchase for Carolyn in one day...I saw this cd.."A Tribute To NSYNC" and curiousity overcame me and I had to see if these guys sounded ok singing NSYNC's songs, and they so SUCK, so don't buy it if you see this cd. SO HORRIBLE. Only $10 though, but still.

I vow not to go cd shopping for awhile due to those horrible cd choices listed above hee hee, I will wait till I can afford them again. Tomorrow I have classes all day long, hope I can get through it, then an exam on Wednesday and classes, one class on Friday, then I don't have to work till Bob Dylan on Saturday night, so I need to use all the free time this week to catch up on my projects that will be due very soon! UGH! oh well, till later gators

I was in BOA Club area. Only problems were the fact that on all the season ticket holder's tickets, the time said 8:00pm, well they CHANGED the time to 7:00pm (don't ask me why-something to do with the media?) anyways, so they were arriving an hour late, after the game started-NOT HAPPY SEASON TICKET HOLDERS....They know it's not MY fault, but I get to be the lucky one to tell them that they are an hour late.....so that wasn't fun, but oh well, no one gave ME crap about it, just kinda yelled bad words around, but not towards me, so that was that.

The game was off to a slow start with the Los Angeles Clippers, but we soon prevailed winning by seven points, WHOO HOO! We done good! After the game, I have to go down the section and get all the people out of the seating area so I can leave, well there is a big group of people down cluttered at the bottom of the stairs, and I look and ask who people are getting autographs from and it's MYA-like Lady Marmalade-MYA and she was so cute talking to everyone and signing autographs-it was cool that she was there, but it took more effort to get people out of my area....oh well we did it finally.

That was my day, tomorrow I have to finish my essay and watch my superbowl commericals and that is it :) whoo hoo! Later

Then, I went into the library and stared at interesting yet hard-to-read microfilm for two hours and got tired so came home. I started reading to do my essay, finished reading just like an hour ago, and need to finish my essay, but it's hard to concentrate when I keep watching tv and listen to my new Ron Irizarry cd, plus surfing the web, gosh too many interferences, lol.

Kate where are you? You aren't around anymore-I am sad, you leave me then you say you have tickets but don't know where they are at....ahhhh you can't just leave me hanging like that...by the way I got a card from Chris, he said you got a card from JC, lol aren't we the coolest EVER? :) hee hee

Shelley and Miggie: I LOVE the cow bye bye bye thing, how cute was that? LOL Although, it is outdated, HELLO, Chris doesn't have braids anymore, get with it cows, hee hee, loved the laugh, thanks :)

<.starts singing.> HERE WE GOOOOOOOO.....(so JC-like if you ask me-hee hee)
*DISCLAIMER: This will be quite boring cause I can tell you now that I am very blessed to not have any of these problems-hee hee-go me!*

1. Have you ever had braces? Any other teeth trauma?
*umm No braces, but I guess I could tell you that I had a tooth growing OVER another one of my teeth and had to get it removed-quite exciting. That was as exciting as it got though, except now I am boycotting the dentist (I know, I know) because three years ago, my dentist told me the next time I came in, we had to schedule a time to remove ALL FOUR wisdom teeth. hee hee, so guess who didn't make another appointment-oops. It's all good, my aunt is a dental hygentist and I am still living-I am good to go for now, hee hee, for now.

2. Ever broken any bones?
*NOPE, thank goodness, I don't think I could handle the pain! I have always been extra careful in everything I have done even though I am also VERY competitive and would fight to the end in Soccer and softball (I have been hit in the head by balls several times though-no permanant damage done-I don't think so anyways)

3. Ever had stitches?
*nope, and I don't want to ever count getting my wisdom teeth removed as those, cause I don't want them removed-they are apart of me :)

4. What are the stories behind some of your [physical] scars?
*umm I don't have many physical scars, I think I have more scars from the chicken pox then anything else (and I don't even have much of those), oh wait, I do have a scar on the side of my tummy (above my hips) where I THINK that is the spot where my sister had nailed me in the side with a diaper pin (she has recalled and mentioned this story at every family event to make me angry at her-hee hee). She was babysitting me and was changing my diaper and back when my mom used reuseable diapers and diaper pins (sharp ones) she turned her head and missed the diaper cloth but went INTO my skin and I was crying and she told me to shush not realizing I was in PAIN, and then finally took it out to try again, and saw blood, DUH SHANNON! :( stupid sister, oh well, she didn't want me born anyways, she loves me now though, or so she claims, hee hee :) It's ok I forgive her, but I think that is where that scar came from (I thought it COULD be a birthmark, but maybe it's just the birthmark SHE gave me, hee hee)

5. How do you plan to spend your weekend?
*Umm gotta finish my essay tonight, work tomorrow for the Hawks vs. Clippers-hopefully won't be THAT busy, then Sunday watch the Superbowl COMMERCIALS and halftime show (of course it won't be as good as when *NSYNC did it) hee hee, and it's also my mom and dad's 23rd anniversary so we are gonna have a picnic in front of the television and chat. Those are my plans :) whoo hoo!