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Apr 2009
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Sui Generis
11th May
nobody has tagged on my tagboard for a MONTH! arghz. so disappointed, make some noise leh! i've decided to take full time jap
class which is on mon-friday from 2.30 - 5.30pm for the next 5 weeks and
also the Saturday basic class. Cos i still have 5 Basic classes which i
have yet to complete, so i'm hoping to do both simultaneously in the next
1 month and complete my intermediate I. then i can continue intermediate
II and take my JLPT 3 this yr~woo! i'll be sooo happy if i can get my JLPT
3 cos it's been like a dream since primary 6 to do japanese. once I get
it, next year can take JLPT 2 prep class all the way (provided that i can
cope with my studies)
is good to jus nua at home, haha, rainy day today oso.
Yi Nan Wang is on the tv in the living room. chatting on msn, listening to
Lisa Levie and on Facebook. my lecturer just said hi and he received a
call from PSC. erm. arghz, see... i shouldn't have let them know cos
they're pinning their hopes liaoz. noooo~! i told him about SNCF offer but
i have yet to sign the paper yet, so anything goes u know.
8th May
This should be
last post on this blog layout, cos geocities will be closing down soon. I
would be migrating my content onto another server or something, i'll
figure it out. Came just about time when I going to ord and it's good to
change a bit as i enter a new phrase of life. geocities has faithfully
been hosting my blog, so it should have a peaceful retirement, haha. as
for the website address, i'll try to keep it and redirect it to the new
server. so no worries there. so next week this time, you should see a
brand new layout! haha.
n i've passed the $30,000 interview~! Mr CEO who rolled
his eyes at me actually accepted me and i'm on a scholarship! hehex,
means i dun hav to worry about my tuition fees which is about 7k a year! i
was so troubled yesterday cos i was figuring out if i should go for the
PSC scholarship. I have to reply to ulu organization by 12th and the psc
board interview is on 18th. so if i wanna gamble for the psc one, i have
to reject ulu org. and the munee from psc is also about the same. jus that
psc is really all about the prestige and how they'll groom me to be future
ministry leaders. NYP never have a psc scholar and from cat high, only 1
psc scholar from my batch. it's THAT hard to get... and they only give out
2 to poly students and last year, the TPCO president who got it was a 4-
pointer from dunman high who studies busines and scored 4.00~ out of 30
modules, he had 29 distinctions and 1 A. of course NYPCO is much much much
better than TPCO lah, at TP its jus a normal cca. they dun even have suona
for one thing, we have 5 members and 2 incoming freshies? but his studies
is Zai~
i know some ppl will say i should gamble n cheong for the psc one... but im a naturally bad gambler, haha, i dun dare to gamble n lose the money. second is i dun wan my dad to pay so much... or me under debts and loans from the bank... 8.88% is a lot u know~ SNCF is ulu really but they're covering my tuition fee, giving me 3k for laptop and 3.5k each year for allowance and hostel fees... which is really almost the same as what psc can offer. and i was impressed by sncf's first interview cos they had 5 interviewers, one from board of trustee. the 2nd interview had the CEO... so unlike LTA which only had director and SPH who gave a lousy GP essay... SNCF put in more effort bah... and this is the 2nd yr they're recruiting scholars and i believe they have NO IDEA where to put us yet. PSC would have a standard training grooming path...and everyone would be scholar, still muz compete. the idea of having NO IDEA is quite exciting haha. im speculating lah but since i'll be the early batches (actually if i get exemption, i'll graduate same time as the pioneer batch) den it's more experimenting and trying out new stuff and having a choice to see what i wanna do during the bond period. Flashback to the days where i was on the phone talking to danielpoh. whether i should give up VJC and go poly, something so unknown and i know nothing about. VJ would be the standard path to uni~ but doing A lvl, i may get a max of 3 As and GP is very hard to say de. maybe i wouldn't be able to get into NTU mass comm at all. rather... poly with lesser competition, gave me more exposure and more opportunities for attachment, seminars, conferences, travel~!!! when our CO was young and had No Idea... we came up with lots of idea. When my diploma is new and have No Idea, we came up with lots of idea ala BAD DAY~ lolx. somehow i always pioneer something, so haha. 5 more
days!
3rd May
Tomorrow will
be my $305,000 interview and if i can pass, i can get a macbook pro~ YAY!
haha. cos i wont have to worry about paying for my tuition fees and they
give laptop allowance, i NEED it and i MUST get it, haha. To know myself
better, I did the MBTI personality test and it's really
accurate!
Portrait of an ENFJ - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling
Judging
(Extraverted Feeling with Introverted Intuition) The Giver As an ENFJ, you're primary mode of living is focused externally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is internal, where you take things in primarily via your intuition. ENFJs are people-focused individuals. They live in the
world of people possibilities. More so than any other type, they have
excellent people skills. They understand and care about people, and have a
special talent for bringing out the best in others. ENFJ's main interest
in life is giving love, support, and a good time to other people. They are
focused on understanding, supporting, and encouraging others. They make
things happen for people, and get their best personal satisfaction from
this.
Yes... that's why im the student facilitator of poly forum and the minister mentor of CO... haha, my junior hippos can vouch for that. i like grooming leaders. Because ENFJ's people skills are so extraordinary, they
have the ability to make people do exactly what they want them to do. They
get under people's skins and get the reactions that they are seeking.
ENFJ's motives are usually unselfish, but ENFJs who have developed less
than ideally have been known to use their power over people to manipulate
them.
ENFJ's are so externally focused that it's especially
important for them to spend time alone. This can be difficult for some
ENFJs, because they have the tendency to be hard on themselves and turn to
dark thoughts when alone. Consequently, ENFJs might avoid being alone, and
fill their lives with activities involving other people. ENFJs tend to
define their life's direction and priorities according to other people's
needs, and may not be aware of their own needs. It's natural to their
personality type that they will tend to place other people's needs above
their own, but they need to stay aware of their own needs so that they
don't sacrifice themselves in their drive to help others.
true again, someone once told me to
take care of my own needs first but hmm... when i thought about my own
need, i dun really know what i need! jus helping other people is my need.
i dun like to be alone, especially during meal times and staying at home
and being online, nobody ask me out. i'll tend to think that i have no
frens if im stuck at home for a long period of time. Definiing my priority
according to other people's need, yah... primary goal is for NYPCO as of
now, as it has always been.
ENFJ's tend to be more reserved about exposing
themselves than other extraverted types. Although they may have
strongly-felt beliefs, they're likely to refrain from expressing them if
doing so would interfere with bringing out the best in others. Because
their strongest interest lies in being a catalyst of change in other
people, they're likely to interact with others on their own level, in a
chameleon-like manner, rather than as individuals.
this part, erm, not sure what it's
talking about. yah i guess if it says about me changing in tone and
content when talking to different people. to ah bengs i tok different
things, to intellectual ppl sometimes i can talk about politics and
philosophies, so yah, if it's trying to say that.
Which is not to say that the ENFJ does not have
opinions. ENFJs have definite values and opinions which they're able to
express clearly and succinctly. These beliefs will be expressed as long as
they're not too personal. ENFJ is in many ways expressive and open, but is
more focused on being responsive and supportive of others. When faced with
a conflict between a strongly-held value and serving another person's
need, they are highly likely to value the other person's needs.
hmm... value and another person's
needs... that's hard. i never encounter such a situation before.
The ENFJ may feel quite lonely even when surrounded by
people. This feeling of aloneness may be exacerbated by the tendency to
not reveal their true selves.
People love ENFJs. They are fun to be with, and truly
understand and love people. They are typically very straight-forward and
honest. Usually ENFJs exude a lot of self-confidence, and have a great
amount of ability to do many different things. They are generally bright,
full of potential, energetic and fast-paced. They are usually good at
anything which captures their interest. ENFJs like for things to be
well-organized, and will work hard at maintaining structure and resolving
ambiguity. They have a tendency to be fussy, especially with their home
environments.
straight forward and honest, ya lo,
i just say what i think. im good at whatever capture my interest, if im
not interested, like MATH, den no no. haha. fussy, hmm. my table is still
quite messy and my brother still makes it messy leh, but sometimes i tell
him off lah, does that consider fussy? haha. next time hav my own home den
yah, i want it to be what i want it to be. got dream home u know.
In the work place, ENFJs do well in positions where
they deal with people. They are naturals for the social committee. Their
uncanny ability to understand people and say just what needs to be said to
make them happy makes them naturals for counseling. They enjoy being the
center of attention, and do very well in situations where they can inspire
and lead others, such as teaching.
teaching?! no way... haha. i dun
like to mark papers. counselling yes, i wanna be public speaker like Adam
Khoo and Andrew Matthews. give talks about tapping into your potential and
all, whoahaha. if can earn $200 per hour jus by talking, why not?! maybe
next time will have Alex Shieh Learning Centre. haha.
ENFJs do not like dealing with impersonal reasoning.
They don't understand or appreciate its merit, and will be unhappy in
situations where they're forced to deal with logic and facts without any
connection to a human element. Living in the world of people
possibilities, they enjoy their plans more than their achievements. They
get excited about possibilities for the future, but may become easily
bored and restless with the present.
not really understand this part. ya
la, i get excited with possibilities for the future den can keep working
mah.
ENFJs have a special gift with people, and are
basically happy people when they can use that gift to help others. They
get their best satisfaction from serving others. Their genuine interest in
Humankind and their exceptional intuitive awareness of people makes them
able to draw out even the most reserved individuals.
ENFJs have a strong need for close, intimate
relationships, and will put forth a lot of effort in creating and
maintaining these relationships. They're very loyal and trustworthy once
involved in a relationship.
SO true, yah i'm very zhuan yi de.
*que the song - When I fall in love.... it will be forever~
An ENFJ who has not developed their Feeling side may
have difficulty making good decisions, and may rely heavily on other
people in decision-making processes. If they have not developed their
Intuition, they may not be able to see possibilities, and will judge
things too quickly based on established value systems or social rules,
without really understanding the current situation. An ENFJ who has not
found their place in the world is likely to be extremely sensitive to
criticism, and to have the tendency to worry excessively and feel guilty.
They are also likely to be very manipulative and controling with others.
In general, ENFJs are charming, warm, gracious,
creative and diverse individuals with richly developed insights into what
makes other people tick. This special ability to see growth potential in
others combined with a genuine drive to help people makes the ENFJ a truly
valued individual. As giving and caring as the ENFJ is, they need to
remember to value their own needs as well as the needs of others.
ok the bad points, worry
excessively~ yup yup, feel guilty yup yup~ manipulative... whoahah i watch
survivor leh, wat u think leh. Intuition, hmm... i trust my gut instinct a
lot, hehe. ok i shall be more aware of my own needs than that of others.
meaning - I WANT A MACBOOK, NEW SPECS, HANDPHONE! and a SCHOLARSHIP!
2nd May
went for the 4.5 hours PSC scholarship psychological interview where they asked about my family, relationships with my family members, my cca, times when it was stressful, times when i had to go against my beliefs, side a friend over another. i'm a non-conformist becos i dun like rules most of the times. so they asked why i want to work in the public sector if i dun like rules, den i say...er... change it? like the very irritating GeBiz system, haha and they nodded in agreement. the psc selection board interview is on 18th may, i really cannot imagine if i'm a psc scholar... it's too out of me. but on this coming monday, i have the SNCF interview and it's the final one also. higher chance and i have a better gut instinct with SNCF even though its smaller and leaner. if SNCF offers me before i go for the PSC interview, i most probably be accepting SNCF. i dun wan to wait and later lose both. the idea of being a psc scholar is really... so tempting haha. im so so flattered and surprised i made it so far. ok ok im thinking too far, they must accept me first before i can even make a choice. PLS let me get a scholarship so that i dun hav to pay for my school fees~! then i can buy a macbook white, new specs, E63 handphone. haha, those are the immediate essentials now, especially the macbook. it's proven to be useful for my brother so i MUST get one before school starts. waiting for the june IT show for the price of the handphone to drop, hopefully! haha. In need of work now... can't find
leh, maybe i shld just be a full time mahjong player. i need income! haha,
thursday i was playing with zhi ren and gang. and i won~! haha even though
i was really losing all the way at first, i started to win more and more
towards the end, like i usually do. i dunno why leh, the starting two
winds i always lose a lot de. very long nv go party world le... ok
actually not that long but longer than usual. 10 more days! |
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