Chapter One: 13 Seasons in Hell

I decided to start my online journal over the summer of 2003. At the time I was incredibly depressed. I suppose the reasons for writing were twofold: First, it would help sort out the feelings of depression, perhaps allowing them to ground out into someplace positive where I could restart my life. Second, it gave me a chance to answer a question several people were then asking, without my having to go through the story over and over... the question was, "Mark, why don't you ever smile anymore?"

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Writings

06/28 Depression 06/30 Symptoms 07/01 Smoking 07/02 Integrity 07/03 Autumn 2000 07/08 Light at the End of the Tunnel? 07/09 Righteous 07/11 Points of Light 07/14 Setbacks 07/15 Something Smart... Something Stupid 07/16 Heaven Forbid! 07/18 The Height of Popularity 07/19 Insert 07/21 The Jones Laws 07/22 What in Hell? 07/23 Goddesses 07/24 Crash! 07/25 Impact 07/26 The Beginning of the End 07/28 A Strange Weekend 07/29 A New Beginning 07/30 July 2002 07/31 Vacation 08/01 Speaking of Vacating... 08/04 My Downfall 08/06 August 2002

08/08 Back to School 08/10 A Dream 08/11 Waking from a Dream... 08/16 ...and Realizing a Nightmare 08/19 Beautiful Women 08/20 October 2002 08/21 First Term Classes 08/22 The Playoffs 08/23 Meanwhile, Back at the Ranch... 08/25 Starting Anew at Harrah's 08/26 Euthyphro 08/27 Apology 08/29 Crito 08/30 Phaedo 09/02 Aftermath 09/03 The Black Hole 09/06 Light, Indeed 09/11 Spring 2003 09/13 People Who Care 09/25 Burning Bridges 09/29 Farewell, Renee 10/17 October 2003 10/18 Why it's Called a "Crush" 10/28 T-Minus Four Days and Counting... 10/29 "I Hope" 11/04 Parting Shots