Saturday 28 June 2003
Consider the black hole. It is caused by the collapse of a star. Its gravity is immense. No light emits from it. Everything gets sucked into it (for lack of a more precise term from physics). An awesome force into which no one would ever want to be pulled.
Now, consider depression. It is caused by a collapse of a light force. The gravity and weight on one's shoulders are immense. No light or anything good is emitted from it. Everything good in one's life gets sucked into it.
An awesome force I would never wish upon another soul.
I begin writing this journal at the nadir of my life. There must be some way to dig from the depths of this very black hole. My only light and salvation is my daughter. When I'm with her I feel loved. Being near her is the only happiness I know.