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| Well well well...what to write ^^;; so much to say and so little..space? Well my friend megan has been at my house since friday night (its now monday night). >_> she needed moral support, while driving late at night she began to see smoke coming from her car...she pulled over and BAM a fire ^^;; luckly she was okai..shaken but okai. so friday after work she came over to my house, saturday came by XD and as planned we went to this party (quicenera...or when a girl turns 15) there was a live bad ass band, lots of dancing and a hell of a lot more boys. XD lets just say megan began to feel a whole lot better. ^^;; sadly i wasnt asked to dance ( well someone asked my mom to ask me to dance with him but..being me i told her i wouldnt dance unless asked face to face) megan was hit on by a 30 something old man XD and we were being eyed by the singer (o_O but...mexican men tend to do that a lot so no biggy). Then sunday night came around and we were invited to another party (XD yes!) once again we dressed up all "sexy" like (*cough cough* megan says that) basically the party was like the first, tons of men, bad ass music, dancing o_O and gawking. i even saw the guy that wanted to ask me to dance and..if it werent for me running to the "bathroom" (* cough* hidding) when seeing him come to ask me to dance >_> i might have danced with him that night. Anyways i think that was mostly it..other then missing someone dearly -_- i wish i could tell him how much i want to be with him ^^;; i might...hint it to him in the next letter i write him..or perhaps on his graduation Y_Y either way..wish me luck okai? 5.5.03 BTW happy fucking cinco de mayo! *holds up a margarita* |
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| EEp! im sorry i didnt realize how long its been since i've written x_X Its quite funny actually, remember that guy that asked Megan to dance? He ended up really liking her and megan XD she liked him just as much. Anyways on to other things,....oh wait there isnt much to say. -_- yea maybe thats why i havent written in forever... hmm last night i had a dream of o-o zombies. for those of you who know me that might make a lot of sense, for those who dont...let me take the time to explain Zombies=Bad there all said and done. LOL no really i have a fear that the dead will rise o_O dont ask me where i got it but its kinda a tradition, each year or every other year i pick something that i (want to say "want" here but thats not really the word im looking for) to fear o_O and well...i do to >_> and with a vengense. A few years back it was the fear of being skitzo but >_>;; i think i proved that theory wrong..or was it right? well i think thats it...x-x till next time whenever that may be 5.14.03 |
| Well once again i've abondoned you guys, and again i feel guilty about it. This past week i've been playing match maker with my friend megan and her crush "paco" i also played the minor roles of cab driver, translator and party goer? o_< not sure if this is making any sense so let me explain. Paco (also known as Fransico) likes megan very much the only problem...o_< is he doesnt speak english as well as he'd like to. Me, being able to understand spanish , speak it (very poorly but still) and being megans friend entitles them to use me as their translator x_x bwee for me! Actually i kind of enjoy it, i got to practice my spanish while teasing my best friend at the same time. Its good to see her happy again..im glad she has someone to look forward to. you should see how her face lights up when we speak of him, this also makes me the only single "gal" in the household x_x jealous...sad....angry? no..actually im neither, i've grown acustomed to being alone and i find that it doesnt bother me as much as it used to. i have hope that one day i'll have the strength to tell the one i like how much i care for him ( yes i know "alma you have crushes almost as often as you change your underwear"..well grrr um fuck you?). I'll finally be able to see him face to face within the week, his mission is nearly done....which only brings up more questions to be answered. I'm so very worried...not for me..well its hard to explain. Everyone thinks he likes me (mom, sis, megan) and have built up this event so much that..im afraid their expectations wont be met and if he doesnt react like they hope he does...they'll think im hurt which will only make them feel sorry for me..which will hurt me. My mom and megan surprised me by telling me the same thing (on different occasions) "if you dont hug him i'll kick your ass" hug him....like its so easy to do that. Call me old fashioned but..wouldnt that be considered "slutty" if you do it infront of ppl in church? eh..perhaps i'll just dedicate a whole post to him and hope he'll come across it sometime soon. o_< oh god...if in the near future you do read this (*directing this to crush*) um..imvery o-O embarassed by this..if you dont feel the same i totally understand x_X just kill me now *hides* annnyways what do you think i should do? hug or no hug? simple hand shake okai? come on let your voice be heard x_X contact me and tell me what i should do! I'll still have some contact with him later on, i have his home address and email address meaning i couldwrite him later on but...x_x do i take this chance to show him i care? o_O oh god..someone shoot me already 5.21.03 |