Give me some space

I wish you would leave me alone,
Give me back the space I deserve,
I think you owe that to me,
After all the pain you caused me.

I'm sick of this,
Sick of the waiting,
Sick of the faces,
Sick of no space.

I hate not having my own space,
Not being able to get away from you,
Having your constant nagging in my ear,
Never giving me a chance to breathe.

I'm sick of this,
Sick of the waiting,
Sick of the faces,
Sick of no space.

You don't even understand me,
You try and guess stuff about me,
But you are just so far off,
You really don't have a clue.

I'm sick of this,
Sick of the waiting,
Sick of the faces,
Sick of no space.

I wish you would understand me,
Maybe even get to know me,
You've known me my whole life,
Yet you never seem to notice me.

I'm sick of this,
Sick of the waiting,
Sick of the faces,
Sick of no space.

I want...

I want to be happy for once,
I see you enjoying your life,
I'd love to have your life,
I see you abuse your life though.

I want things to be easy,
I want things to be simple,
I want things to be normal,
I want things to be different.

Why is it I'm always down,
Nothing seems to cheer me up,
I feel I'm bringing others down,
Just because my life is hell.

I want things to be easy,
I want things to be simple,
I want things to be normal,
I want things to be different.

I tried to cheer up for the sake of you,
But my heart told me I couldn't cheer up,
My life is just so fucking messed up at the moment,
I don't know what to do anymore.

I want things to be easy,
I want things to be simple,
I want things to be normal,
I want things to be different.

Evil thoughts, Bad memories

Those thoughts are coming back,
Ones of me hurting myself again,
Trying to end my life,
I don't think I want to end it though.

Evil thoughts, Bad memories,
Filling my head, 
All because of this,
Why did it take place?

I think about hurting myself,
Quite seriously at times,
I haven't hurt myself yet,
I look at places where I want to be hurt.

Evil thoughts, Bad memories,
Filling my head, 
All because of this,
Why did it take place?

I wouldn't care if someone hurt me,
If I was to die a horrible death,
Just to die all alone somewhere,
Bleed all over the clean floor.

Evil thoughts, Bad memories,
Filling my head, 
All because of this,
Why did it take place?

Tears that I cry

I'm sick of the way you treat me,
I feel like, I'm a caged animal,
Stuck here as my punishment,
Never getting away from you.

Tears roll down my face,
Tears not of joy or happiness,
But tears of sadness,
Sadness and pain you caused.

I wish I was away from here,
Maybe in a hole or ditch somewhere,
It doesn't matter where I am,
As long as I am alone.

Tears roll down my face,
Tears not of joy or happiness,
But tears of sadness,
Sadness and pain you caused.

I can't see me away from here,
That makes me very upset,
I want to get the hell away,
But I have no where to go.

Tears roll down my face,
Tears not of joy or happiness,
But tears of sadness,
Sadness and pain you caused.

I liked the pain

I don't know what I've done,
My arm it now aches,
I feel like I'm in pain,
I think I really am in pain.

I liked the pain though,
I enjoyed looking at the cuts,
Knowing that I did that,
It made me forget my worries.

The marks on my arm I look at,
I see what I did to myself,
I wonder why I did it,
How could I have been so stupid.

I liked the pain though,
I enjoyed looking at the cuts,
Knowing that I did that,
It made me forget my worries.

I feel so stupid now,
Now that I actually went and did it,
Why did I have to cut myself?
Why was I being so stupid?

I liked the pain though,
I enjoyed looking at the cuts,
Knowing that I did that,
It made me forget my worries.

Mixed feelings

Look away from me now,
I don't want to be looked at,
Don't pay me any attention,
Forget all about me for once.

I want to be alone,
I don't want you here,
I don't want to hurt you,
I don't want to hurt myself.

I don't want any help,
Yet at times I crave for some help,
I really just want to sort things out,
And move away from this place.

I want to be alone,
I don't want you here,
I don't want to hurt you,
I don't want to hurt myself.

Please leave me here alone,
I feel guilty enough already,
Without you being here,
Here watching me for ages.

I want to be alone,
I don't want you here,
I don't want to hurt you,
I don't want to hurt myself.

Damn my mind

These thoughts fill my mind,
I really want to get away,
To escape through a back door,
And be free from it all.

Damn you stupid fucked up mind,
 That wants me to hurt myself damn you,
I shall not hurt myself today,
Not for you at any rate.

I shouldn't of done it once,
Let alone done it a second time,
I wont do it a third time,
I shall stop myself from doing it again.

Damn you stupid fucked up mind,
 That wants me to hurt myself damn you,
I shall not hurt myself today,
Not for you at any rate.

Thinking now brings me pain,
Pain I don't want to feel,
Why did I do that,
Why on earth did I do it?

Damn you stupid fucked up mind,
 That wants me to hurt myself damn you,
I shall not hurt myself today,
Not for you at any rate.

I did it again

My arm is in pain,
I look at the marks on it,
I know that I did that,
I did that to myself.

I did it again,
I don't know why,
I just did it,
I really shouldn't have though.

The blood red marks,
They show up bright,
Anyone could see them,
If I didn't cover them.

I did it again,
I don't know why,
I just did it,
I really shouldn't have though.

It's hard to keep it covered,
It keeps slipping down,
It keeps wanting to be shown,
I don't want it to be shown though.

I did it again,
I don't know why,
I just did it,
I really shouldn't have though.

I cover it right up,
Keep it out of sight,
I don't want asking any questions,
I wish I hadn't done it.

I did it again,
I don't know why,
I just did it,
I really shouldn't have though.

Too much to know

Few people know how I feel,
Know what goes on inside me,
Know how I think about things,
In fact no one really knows.

I don't know how I think,
Things are too complicated,
Things are too messed up,
I fucking hate the way I'm feeling.

I want a simple little life,
Away from pain and suffering,
In a small corner of the earth,
Where I can be alone at times.

I feel like I'm watched all the time,
If you were to find out everything,
I would never be alone,
I hope that you never find out.

I'm trying to keep it a secret,
I don't want you to find out,
It would only upset you,
And make you get at me.

Forget the past

Please look away from me,
I don't want to be looked at,
I don't want to be here,
I want you to forget about me.

I want to forget the past,
And look out onto the future,
To forget all that is bad,
And think about what is good.

I hope you don't look at me differently,
Please just treat me the same way,
Forget what I said to you,
Just move on past that.

I want to forget the past,
And look out onto the future,
To forget all that is bad,
And think about what is good.

I hope you don't mind I feel that way,
I need to forget all that has hurt me,
I need to be free from it all,
And just start over new.

I want to forget the past,
And look out onto the future,
To forget all that is bad,
And think about what is good.

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