Keep me on these strings

You make me feel so small,
Like I am so little and insignificant,
As if I will never amount to nothing,
Let here to die alone,
While you go on living.

control me,
Tell me what to do,
Never let me be free,
Keep me on these strings.

You were so mad at me,
Got at me so much,
You said you were annoyed,
That you didn't like what I'd done,
You seemed to disappointed in me.

control me,
Tell me what to do,
Never let me be free,
Keep me on these strings.

Maybe I should do as you want,
Stop talking to people you disapprove of,
Only have the friends you set for me,
Keep me under your control,
Make sure I'm as you want me to be.

control me,
Tell me what to do,
Never let me be free,
Keep me on these strings.

I feel as if I have no control,
I can't talk to who I want,
I can't befriend who I want,
I have to only have who you say,
Be under your mind control.

control me,
Tell me what to do,
Never let me be free,
Keep me on these strings.

Some things make no sense

Sometimes I feel so small,
As if I don't exist,
As if the world doesn't need me,
As if I am just a faded person,
With no real point.

I think about all I've done,
How my life has been,
How stupid I've been,
Wondering the same things,
Never really knowing.

I guess the answers,
Make up my own conclusions,
Judge the way I want to,
To be independant,
I don't need your help anymore.

I feel as if I might fade,
Every time I feel like fading,
You're there to bring me back,
To show me not to fade,
To show me my errors.

I'd be lost without you,
Without all of you,
I need you all so much,
I just never know how,
How to tell you how much.

I feel lost without you,
I need your help,
You're always there for me,
You're all so close to me,
I need you all near me.

Silent Answer

I feel trapped at times,
As if there is no exit,
As if I am trapped here,
I always look for a way out,
Yet I know there isn't one.

I look to you for the answers,
Ask you so many questions,
Yet you never answer,
Always staying silent,
Your like the silent answer. 

I look to you,
Hoping for your help,
Yet never asking for it,
You seem to see this,
You seem to understand this.

I think at times I was mean to you,
 I didn't respect you enough,
Never really thanked you,
Always took you for granted,
Never again will this happen.

I want you to know,
I'm here for you,
Even if it doesn't seem that way,
Just look for me,
And I'll be there for you.

Stuck here
I sit and wonder,
Wonder about simple things,
Things I know the answer to,
Yet I still puzzle over them,
Wanting to know everything.

Everything seems so complicated,
As if it will never unravel,
Tied so tight,
Tighter than ever before,
Slowly chocking me.

I feel stuck,
As if I'm being suffocated,
Your hands are around my neck,
Punishing me for my mistakes,
Showing me all my mistakes.

Proving that you're in control,
Making me do things,
Pushing me around,
Using me as a slave,
Stamping me down, always.

Never really looking at me,
Always talking about me,
As if I don't exist,
Just as if I'm a mere shadow,
To follow you everywhere.

Chains make me stay

It's hard to understand,
To understand these things,
Everything has become to complex,
The answers seem so far away,
I want them to be in the palm of my hand.

I don't want to search anymore,
I want to just be happy,
To enjoy what's around me,
To feel completely free,
To lose these chains from around me.

The chains make me stay,
Stay in a place I want to leave,
I've been craving to leave,
Craving for so long,
Hoping to find a way out.

You've told me so many lies,
Lies that hurt me,
Lies that destroyed me,
They ripped me apart,
Yet you never understood this.

You wanted to hurt me,
tear me apart,
Shatter my life into pieces,
Make me feel so low,
Male me feel broken and alone.

I used to look up to you,
Look to you as a friend,
Not anymore,
I hate you now, 
I never want to hear from you again.

Easily being crushed

I feel as if I am so small,
Stamped and stepped on so many times,
Made to feel like shit,
Just to make people feel better,
Just to make you feel better.

I feel like a bug,
I can easily be crushed,
Crushed by the smallest of things,
It may not seem that way,
But its the way it is.

I feel as if people judge me,
Judge me before they know me,
Come to their own conclusions,
Never really understanding,
Just simply judging.

You really don't understand,
Will you ever get a clue?
Will you ever just leave me be?
Do you need a say in everything?
Are you really that much of a control freak?

I wish you'd just leave,
Close the door behind you,
Never open the door again,
I don't want to see you again,
You hurt me for the last time.

I feel like shouting out
Sometimes I just don't understand,
I feel as if I'm in a daze,
Slowly looking out of the window,
Looking out on the world,
Pondering over small things.

I feel like shouting out,
Just so you'll notice me,
Just so you'll look at me,
Just so I wont be alone,
Just so I'll feel better.

You look at me so strangely,
As if I am so wrong,
As if I am merely nothing,
Nothing in the eyes of most.

I feel like shouting out,
Just so you'll notice me,
Just so you'll look at me,
Just so I wont be alone,
Just so I'll feel better.

I curl up into a ball,
Protect myself from the world,
Hidden from everything,
Like a small little secret,
That must go on being alone.

I feel like shouting out,
Just so you'll notice me,
Just so you'll look at me,
Just so I wont be alone,
Just so I'll feel better.

Forgiveness

Look at me here,
Here for you yet again,
Even though I said I wouldn't,
I feel like a fool,
As if I really shouldn't have.

Why do I have to forgive you?
Why do I always forgive?
Am I just nice?
Or can I just not refuse?

I feel so confused,
As if I am in a weird world,
Where I don't fit in,
Where I am made to look different,
Always being looked at.

Why do I have to forgive you?
Why do I always forgive?
Am I just nice?
Or can I just not refuse?

You look at me,
And give me weird looks,
As if I am just nothingness,
Left here to die,
Slowly and painfully.

Why do I have to forgive you?
Why do I always forgive?
Am I just nice?
Or can I just not refuse?

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