Everything likes to change

Things are hard to understand,
I wonder  why this is,
Is life just a way to test me?
To see if I deserve to be here?

Everything is changing,
Changing in different ways,
Ways that are good,
And also ways that are bad.

I wonder how my life could be different,
How things could be better,
But is that really what I want?
Do I really want a different life?

Everything is changing,
Changing in different ways,
Ways that are good,
And also ways that are bad.

I want to break away from some things,
Yet keep other things really close,
To be like this is strange to some,
But to me it's normal.

Everything is changing,
Changing in different ways,
Ways that are good,
And also ways that are bad.

Broken Down

To be alone, would be like a haven,
No one here to shout at me,
My mind would feel at peace,
My soul would feel free.

Broken down family,
Bitching everyday,
Never any peace,
Always dragging me in.

Drag me back to reality,
Back to the shouting,
Back to the backstabbing,
Back to all that I left behind.

Broken down family,
Bitching everyday,
Never any peace,
Always dragging me in.

I see it coming now,
I'm ready to hear it all,
All the things I don't want to hear,
All the things you make me hear.

Broken down family,
Bitching everyday,
Never any peace,
Always dragging me in.

Do as you will

I see you watching me,
Saying things I cannot hear,
I wonder what you say,
I think it may be bad.

Laugh at me as you will,
You seem to enjoy that,
Makes you feel better,
Make yourself feel bigger.

I wish you'd say it to my face,
Tell me all the insults,
Tell me how much you hate me,
Then see how much I care.

Laugh at me as you will,
You seem to enjoy that,
Makes you feel better,
Make yourself feel bigger.

Be straight with me,
Stop with the whispering,
I can guess what you're saying,
Even if I can't hear you.

Laugh at me as you will,
You seem to enjoy that,
Makes you feel better,
Make yourself feel bigger.

Safe from the world

Let me think things over,
Get back to you in a while,
Be away from others thoughts,
Just me and my thoughts.

I wish I was alone,
Back in a little hole,
Safe from the world,
Just me on my own.

I don't care anymore,
Let me be on my own,
I don't want to hear poisoned words,
Just me here to think.

I wish I was alone,
Back in a little hole,
Safe from the world,
Just me on my own.

Dark days come sometimes,
I hit them head on,
I figure ways to get away,
To just know what I want.

I wish I was alone,
Back in a little hole,
Safe from the world,
Just me on my own.

Why is nothing clear?

I wish you were here,
Right by my side,
Telling me everything will be fine,
Telling me never to give up.

I wish for once I knew,
Knew what I wanted to know,
Why I did what I did,
Why my life is such a mess.

I wish for once things were clear,
Clear as glass,
So I could see what I wanted,
Know what I wanted as well.

Things used to be so clear to me,
Now I see that nothing is clear,
Everything is messed up,
Nothing is how it used to be.

Never getting better

I asked you to be straight with me,
You replied you were being straight,
Yet I could tell you were lying,
Never really making much sense.

Broken down are things,
Never the way they should be,
Never getting better,
Always getting worse.

I wish you would be clear,
Laid in front of me,
There to help me,
There to show me the way.

Broken down are things,
Never the way they should be,
Never getting better,
Always getting worse.

I search for ever,
But each search fails,
Will my search ever be successful?
Will I ever just know?

Broken down are things,
Never the way they should be,
Never getting better,
Always getting worse.

To be free

I told you to look away from me,
I told you it didn't matter,
I said everything was fine,
Really I had broken down.

I want to be free,
Free from the pain,
Free from the anger,
Free from the heartbreak.

I didn't want to see you suffer,
I wanted you to be happy,
For you to forget it all,
For you not to worry.

I want to be free,
Free from the pain,
Free from the anger,
Free from the heartbreak.

I didn't mean to hurt you,
I didn't mean for things to be this way,
I just wanted everyone to be happy,
Yet I see that no one is happy.

I want to be free,
Free from the pain,
Free from the anger,
Free from the heartbreak.

to keep to myself

I like it all to be with me,
Letting no one else hear,
To be alone and on my own,
My thoughts, and mine alone.

I think of so much,
I wonder about a lot,
I don't tell anyone so though,
I keep it all to myself.

I want to know it all,
I'm afraid to tell you,
keeping to myself a lot,
Shutting myself off from the world.

I think of so much,
I wonder about a lot,
I don't tell anyone so though,
I keep it all to myself.

I wonder about a lot of things,
Puzzled by simple things,
muddled by the smallest things,
Wondering why I live on.

I think of so much,
I wonder about a lot,
I don't tell anyone so though,
I keep it all to myself.

be away from here

Leave it all behind,
Take a new step forward,
Forget what happened,
Have a new view on the world.

Be away from here,
Start over,
Without me there,
Without my bad judgments.

Remember only those good things,
Forget all the hurtful ones,
I didn't mean those things,
Nothing should have been that way.

Be away from here,
Start over,
Without me there,
Without my bad judgments.

I'm sorry for those things I did,
I didn't mean to hurt you,
Just forget it and forget me,
Will you do that?

Be away from here,
Start over,
Without me there,
Without my bad judgments.

I wonder

Things are always changing,
Not always for the best,
Sometimes just change,
Forever it shall be this way.

I wonder about some things,
I wonder why they are,
I wonder why they happen,
I wonder why me.

You got at me for no reason,
Broke me down,
Made me feel worthless,
Made me feel as if I was nothing.

I wonder about some things,
I wonder why they are,
I wonder why they happen,
I wonder why me.

You put me down,
Made me feel like shit,
Went on about caring,
Yet never once did it seem that way.

I wonder about some things,
I wonder why they are,
I wonder why they happen,
I wonder why me.

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