Things are messed up

I look out the window,
See the bright sky outside,
I feel as if I can�t go out,
I�m afraid to go out there.

Too much has happened to me,
Too many bad thoughts there are,
All because of you and your ways,
Or is it because of my ways?

Its hard to tell at times,
Who�s fault it truly is,
But I bet its always been my fault,
And you�ve just been afraid to say.

I feel that times are changing,
Changing at a fast rate,
Why is it going so fast?
Before I know it I�ll be dead.

And when I�m dead,
I wont be able to apologise,
To tell you how sorry I am,
For all of my bull shitting.

Am I seeing things?

A blank page, or a blank mind?
Its hard to tell which it is,
Don�t think there is a way to tell,
It�s probably just my mind.

Images I think I see,
Things I think take place,
Whispers I think are about me,
People I think are laughing at me.

I need to get away from it,
Get away from the paranoia,
Take a new look at things,
I need to not lash out.

Images I think I see,
Things I think take place,
Whispers I think are about me,
People I think are laughing at me.

I�ve learnt this the hard way,
But never again will it happen,
If it happens again I will be sorry,
I don�t want to hurt people.

Images I think I see,
Things I think take place,
Whispers I think are about me,
People I think are laughing at me.

Haunting thoughts

In a way am I going crazy?
In my mind tricking myself,
Not knowing anything for real,
Just the shadow of the past.

Things haunt me that shouldn�t,
Thoughts haunt me all the time,
I don�t know how to get away from them,
I want to get away from them.

Give me a means to forget,
And I would happily forget,
I�m sick of remembering things,
Things I don�t need to remember.

Stupid thoughts are in my head,
Ones I can�t get away from,
I try and drown them out,
I want to drown them out.

ways.

Look what you did

Back away from that place,
I know you don�t want to go there,
I can sense it in your voice,
I can see you shivering.

Why did you go there?
How stupid can you be?
I warned you not to go,
Look what you went and did.

Back away from the edge,
Come towards me,
Come to where you�ll be safe,
Safe from the pain of reality.

Why did you go there?
How stupid can you be?
I warned you not to go,
Look what you went and did.

Reality is a big pain,
A pain you don�t want to feel,
But you must feel it,
There�s no way to get away.

Why did you go there?
How stupid can you be?
I warned you not to go,
Look what you went and did.

Away from it all

A dark corner to call my own,
All by myself with no one else,
Free from the views of other people,
No one to tell me its wrong.

Freedom is here,
Here is nowhere,
Here is alone,
Away from it all.

Say what ever I want,
I wont be judged in this place,
This is my place of comfort,
Away from the preying eyes.

Freedom is here,
Here is nowhere,
Here is alone,
Away from it all.

Bring on the worries of the world,
Here I can�t hear any of it,
No pain will make it to me,
I shall not be hurt here.

Freedom is here,
Here is nowhere,
Here is alone,
Away from it all.

Back to those days

Waiting here for you to come,
Come back to this place we love,
Where we first met, long ago,
And talked for days on end.

Come back to me,
Come back to this place,
Come back to the memories,
Go back to those days.

Whatever happened between us?
Where did the anger come from?
How did we end up this way?
Why do you still ignore me?

Come back to me,
Come back to this place,
Come back to the memories,
Go back to those days.

Why are you not listening?
You've done it again,
You've decided you hate me,
Sounds about right for you.

Come back to me,
Come back to this place,
Come back to the memories,
Go back to those days.

Dark days are these

I need help from someone,
Before I do something I regret,
Before the bad thoughts come back,
Before I start to feel pain.

Dark days are these,
Too many bad thoughts,
Too many questions unanswered,
To little is known.

Pain is supposed to be an answer,
I don't want that to be the answer,
There must be a different way,
I shall find a different way.

Dark days are these,
Too many bad thoughts,
Too many questions unanswered,
To little is known.

These thoughts haunt me,
They even taunt me,
Not letting me sleep at night,
Giving me vivid nightmares.

Dark days are these,
Too many bad thoughts,
Too many questions unanswered,
To little is known.

Aches from lack of sleep

What should I do?
How should I go about it?
I'm past knowing what to do,
I need someone to help me.

My head aches,
Ache from lack of sleep,
Sleep that I crave,
I think I need help.

My craving is annoying,
It gets to me everyday,
My head keeps buzzing,
My body wants to sleep.

My head aches,
Ache from lack of sleep,
Sleep that I crave,
I think I need help.

Hit me over the head with something,
Make me unconscious,
Make me sleep the time away,
I want to sleep for once.

My head aches,
Ache from lack of sleep,
Sleep that I crave,
I think I need help.

Things are complicated

I've started to think about you,
Think about you a lot,
Maybe more than I should,
I don't want to tell you that I do.

Things are complicated,
Too much to think about,
Not enough time to think,
I need more time.

I thought of the first time,
The time when I was down,
How long it took me to recover,
How long I'll have to wait this time.

Things are complicated,
Too much to think about,
Not enough time to think,
I need more time.

I want to get away from this,
Go back to a simple live,
Way from the pain,
They pain that you caused me.

Things are complicated,
Too much to think about,
Not enough time to think,
I need more time.

Pain never seems to leave
The pain is returning to me,
All because of these problems,
I know that its all my fault,
Me and all my selfishness.

 Leave me here all alone,
To wallow in self pity,
To see how stupid I really am,
Maybe I can try to change my ways.

Take everything away from me,
I don't need any of it,
I want to be completely alone,
Away from everything imaginable.

Keep all of my possessions,
I don't need them as an obsession,
My obsession is myself alone,
Alone in a dark corner of the earth.

A corner that no one can find,
Where I can't get away,
No one will be hurt by me,
No pain is to be suffered again.

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