I want you by me

Everything reminds me of you,
I can't stop myself from thinking about you,
I think a lot more now,
Time seems to be flying by.

I want you by me,
Every step of the way,
There to guide me,
To help me see the way.

I've known you for such a short time,
Yet it feels like I've known you forever,
Longer than some of my closest friends,
Its a strange feeling.

I want you by me,
Every step of the way,
There to guide me,
To help me see the way.

I wait for the day we can meet,
So I can be close to you,
To say what I need to say to you,
Just to be near to you.

I want you by me,
Every step of the way,
There to guide me,
To help me see the way.

Everyday I live

Dark days come and go,
Through them we must go,
To see the wonders of the world,
Before our time here is spent.

Everyday I live,
I wonder about,
How things have changed,
How they are different.

I wonder how things could be different,
If I was here all alone,
Away from all that I know,
Would I even like that?

Everyday I live,
I wonder about,
How things have changed,
How they are different.

I crave to be alone at times,
When I'm alone,
I do not want to be alone,
Is there no way to be happy?

Everyday I live,
I wonder about,
How things have changed,
How they are different.

Every new day

I sometimes think too much,
About things I shouldn't think of,
I can't stop myself from thinking,
Its like a disease to think.

Every new day,
Brings me new worries,
New things to think about,
New worries creep into me.

I thought of you again,
I spent hours thinking of you,
I know that I shouldn't have,
But I couldn't help myself.

Every new day,
Brings me new worries,
New things to think about,
New worries creep into me.

Nothing is truly right,
There's always something wrong,
I just never seem to figure it out,
I'm always one step behind.

Every new day,
Brings me new worries,
New things to think about,
New worries creep into me.

Suffocation

I want to get away from it all,
Go to a place to find myself,
To understand things better,
To find out new things.

I feel suffocated,
never given breathing room,
Sheltered from the outside world,
Left here to find my own way.

I try and break away from it,
But it's hard to break away,
I'm getting held back,
Like I'm tied to a post.

I feel suffocated,
never given breathing room,
Sheltered from the outside world,
Left here to find my own way.

I tried to get away once,
It ended up going real bad,
Me stuck here until the end of days,
To try and discover the meaning.

I feel suffocated,
never given breathing room,
Sheltered from the outside world,
Left here to find my own way.

I know now

I cut to destroy my body,
Make it look worse than it is,
I hate my body,
Wounds help me to stop thinking about it.

I know now why I did it,
Why I hurt myself,
Why I screwed up,
Just as I always do.

My body is imperfect,
I hate every aspect of it,
I want to destroy it,
Pass me back the blade.

I know now why I did it,
Why I hurt myself,
Why I screwed up,
Just as I always do.

Wounds to help cover it,
Help me stop thinking of it,
Maybe help destroy it,
Maybe even end my life.

I know now why I did it,
Why I hurt myself,
Why I screwed up,
Just as I always do.

Again or not

Pass back the blade,
I want to finish what I  started,
To make myself more imperfect,
Let me have the wounds I want.

I've done it before,
I'll do it again,
I know that I will,
I just don't know when.

Please hold me back,
Make it so I wont ,
Tie my hands together,
Make it so I can't.

I've done it before,
I'll do it again,
I know that I will,
I just don't know when.

Pain I feel is vital,
Yet do I really want it?
Could I really handle it?
I don't want know anymore.

I've done it before,
I'll do it again,
I know that I will,
I just don't know when.

Dreams are my life

Dreams are the only place I meet you,
I crave to just sleep and dream,
So I can be with you again,
To have a good time for once.

Away from it all,
No discrimination,
No criticism,
Everything as I want it.

I wish the day away,
To sleep for a long time,
So I'm away from reality,
Away from society.

Away from it all,
No discrimination,
No criticism,
Everything as I want it.

I want to be alone,
I hate the staring,
Constant name calling,
All because of my looks.

Away from it all,
No discrimination,
No criticism,
Everything as I want it.

Leave me alone

Don't stare at me,
Act like I'm invisible,
Pay no attention to me,
I want to be alone.

I hate myself,
I hate myself,
I hate myself,
I really fucking hate myself,

Don't take my picture,
Leave no memory of me,
I don't want to be remembered,
I only want to be forgotten.

 hate myself,
I hate myself,
I hate myself,
I really fucking hate myself,

Burn my photos,
Destroy film of me,
Act like I don't exist,
I hate the fact I exist.

 hate myself,
I hate myself,
I hate myself,
I really fucking hate myself,

Missing something

I feel so alone,
Something is missing,
Something I feel I need,
To make me feel whole.

The thing I want,
I fear I shall never find,
Too much I fear,
Too little I hope.

I want you close to me,
But yet I don't,
I don't know how to feel,
I feel so messed up.

The thing I want,
I fear I shall never find,
Too much I fear,
Too little I hope.

I don't know how to explain,
How to tell you these things,
I don't understand them myself,
I really just don't know.

The thing I want,
I fear I shall never find,
Too much I fear,
Too little I hope.

I hate myself

I look into the mirror,
I hate what I see,
Why do I look this way?
I want to change it all!

Cut through my portrait,
Better it looks that way,
No one wants to see me this way,
Hide me from the world.

I hate the way I look,
I try and change,
It just leads to more pain,
Pain I've felt of so long.

Cut through my portrait,
Better it looks that way,
No one wants to see me this way,
Hide me from the world.

Look away from me now,
Don't look at me again,
I know you hate how I look too,
Who does like how I look?

Cut through my portrait,
Better it looks that way,
No one wants to see me this way,
Hide me from the world.

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