Open Soul

I see your face staring at me,
But why are you staring at me?
Is it because you hate me that much?
Or are you not looking at me at all?

An open window or an open soul?
It makes me wonder which it is,
Is that breeze I feel, one of wind or thought?
Will I ever know which one it is?

If I had the choice to see my soul,
I would jump at seeing it,
I want to know what goes on inside me,
what all the meanings of things mean.

An open window or an open soul?
It makes me wonder which it is,
Is that breeze I feel, one of wind or thought?
Will I ever know which one it is?

I thought back to a happy time,
When you and I were getting along,
Before you fucked up my life,
Before I slammed the door in your face.

An open window or an open soul?
It makes me wonder which it is,
Is that breeze I feel, one of wind or thought?
Will I ever know which one it is?

Changes

Down the hill of my life,
Back to when I was but young,
When we were both so full of ourselves,
When you used to laugh at me.

You threw me out into the world,
Told me to go and get a life,
To do everything on my own,
For me to be in charge of myself.

You told me I needed to be alone,
That I was to try and get by,
To be the one who was to be a great person,
With no help from anyone else.

I drown my sorrow of being alone,
I drink to my old life,
The one where I wasn't alone,
Where you were there to help me.

You fucked up my life,
You made me alone and depressed,
You left me to die alone,
Without telling me your reason why!

Respect

You've done it to me for the last time,
You've bull shitted me for the final time,
I'm not taking any more of your shit,
Your constant deceiving ness towards me.

But you didn't care,
You just wanted attention,
You don't really respect me,
Your using me for your own entertainment.

I told you things I hadn't told anyone else,
What did you do with this information?
You told other people when you could tell no one else knew,
You knew I hadn't even told my closest friends.

But you didn't care,
You just wanted attention,
You don't really respect me,
Your using me for your own entertainment.

I thought you'd be respectful,
Turns out I was completely wrong,
Your just a bastard who doesn't care,
You're just like the others.

But you didn't care,
You just wanted attention,
You don't really respect me,
Your using me for your own entertainment.

Why did I think you cared?
Why did I trust you like a close friend?
Why did I tell you stuff I didn't tell others?
Why did I want to believe you?

But you didn't care,
You just wanted attention,
You don't really respect me,
Your using me for your own entertainment.

One friend down

Every time I look I'm one friend down,
I wonder who to talk to,
Just because your not there anymore,
I used to really respect you,
Until you did it to me one to many times.

I really cared for you,
I even in my heart loved you,
But now I really hate you,
I just never want to hear from you again.

Deep dark secrets I told you,
And you went and told them to people,
Things I should've kept to myself,
Things you didn't need to know,
But I thought you wouldn't tell anyone.

I really cared for you,
I even in my heart loved you,
But now I really hate you,
I just never want to hear from you again.

My secrets you told to anyone who'd listen,
You told them just to get attention,
Attention that you craved,
You want attention more that showing me respect,
That's why you are no longer my friend.

I really cared for you,
I even in my heart loved you,
But now I really hate you,
I just never want to hear from you again.

Do I Know you?

Try and communicate with me all you want,
Write to me and try to apologise,
I wont forgive you though,
I will never forgive you,
After what you did,
I never want to speak to you again.

May I help you?
Do you need help?
Do I even know you?
Oh wait your the one I hate.

If I ever see you again,
I think I might be sick,
You disobeyed my trust,
You used me one too many times,
You lied to me for the last time,
Do you even know what I went through?

May I help you?
Do you need help?
Do I even know you?
Oh wait your the one I hate.

Do you have any clue what you did to me?
Do you even know what you did wrong?
I bet you don't even know,
It's typical of you to act this way,
I should've guessed you'd act this way,
After all it's the way you've always been.

May I help you?
Do you need help?
Do I even know you?
Oh wait your the one I hate.

Separation

My knowledge is limited to what I can see,
I must trust this to carry me,
But I must also believe in new things,
I must see as I haven't seen before.

The pathways that we take,
Leads us to separate,
To leave behind all that we knew,
To find new meanings to our lives.

We used to be so close,
I used to tell you everything,
But now I tell you nothing,
I keep all my information away from you.

The pathways that we take,
Leads us to separate,
To leave behind all that we knew,
To find new meanings to our lives.

I sometimes miss our conversations,
When we used to spend hours talking,
Never really knowing what we were talking about,
Just having a good old laugh.

The pathways that we take,
Leads us to separate,
To leave behind all that we knew,
To find new meanings to our lives.

Thrown out into the world

The sun shines through a window,
A window into a place,
That was abandoned long ago,
Back when people used to care.

I go to this place sometimes,
Just to remember the good times,
When nothing could harm me,
When you were there to protect me.

I'm out on my own now,
Trying to find a way to get by,
Never quite knowing the answer,
I just want to go back in time.

Back to when you was here with me,
Here to take my hand,
When you used to show me the way,
And I only had to follow in your footsteps.

Then one day I found myself alone,
Thrown to the side like a discarded bone,
No love was shown towards me,
I was simply shown the door.

Just let me go

Do I need your permission to leave this place?
Do you need to be with me always?
Do you have to overpower me all the time?
Can you let me be free and on my own?
Or do I always have to be here?

I feel like I'm on a leash,
Not being able to escape,
Trapped here in a place of regret,
To dwell on thoughts I have.

Freedom is the one thing I crave,
The one thing I shall never have,
You hold me down and tell me not to go,
Pull the strings you hold on me,
Keep me close for as long as you want.

I feel like I'm on a leash,
Not being able to escape,
Trapped here in a place of regret,
To dwell on thoughts I have.

But I'll tell you now,
If I ever get away,  I shall not be back,
I will run as far as I can go,
I wont even tell you where I went,
I will simply be gone from this place.

I feel like I'm on a leash,
Not being able to escape,
Trapped here in a place of regret,
To dwell on thoughts I have.

I've gone passed the point of caring

I did it once I'll do it again,
I'm not afraid to hurt you,
You hurt me, so I'll hurt you,
I've gone past the point of caring,
I don't even like you anymore,
I just want to be far away from you.

I used to care for you too much,
And you just abused that fact,
Used it as a means of revenge,
Used it for your own gain,
I told you things I shouldn't have,
I regret that the most.

If I could go back in time,
I think I'd change it so I never met you,
So then I would be much happier,
Too long did I take the abuse,
Let you get away with things,
Not anymore that's for sure.

Don't even think about talking to me,
I wont respond to you at any rate,
I don't want to hear from you anymore,
I've taken your bull shit for way to long,
I'm just shutting you out of my life now,
So all I say to you now is Goodbye.

Torment me all you want

I don't appreciate the way you tease,
The way you think your the best,
Because I know that your not,
Get your head out of your arse,
Look out and see the truth.

Stick a dagger through my soul,
Have a kick out of my pain,
Laugh at me all you want,
And when you notice I'm gone,
You'll realise what you did.

Make yourself feel bigger,
Give your self the satisfaction,
Tell yourself that everything is alright,
Don't worry I wont blame you,
I know its just the way you are.

Stick a dagger through my soul,
Have a kick out of my pain,
Laugh at me all you want,
And when you notice I'm gone,
You'll realise what you did.

Use me as a means to make yourself feel better,
Ridicule and laugh at me,
I really wouldn't give a shit,
 I just see you need the pity,
You crave attention so much.

Stick a dagger through my soul,
Have a kick out of my pain,
Laugh at me all you want,
And when you notice I'm gone,
You'll realise what you did.

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