Stop Confusing me

I just felt so guilty,
I didn't mean to laugh,
I just didn't expect you to say that,
In fact it really scared me.

 I feel really mean,
I really shouldn't have laughed,
I just saw it as a big old laugh,
But I soon figured out you were not.

You said you really meant it,
And what I said hurt you,
But I still don't know,
Whether you were telling the truth.

 I feel really mean,
I really shouldn't have laughed,
I just saw it as a big old laugh,
But I soon figured out you were not.

Did you do it all as a big laugh?
Just to see how I'd react?
I need to know if you meant it,
I want to know the truth.

 I feel really mean,
I really shouldn't have laughed,
I just saw it as a big old laugh,
But I soon figured out you were not.

You've made me so confused,
I just don't know what to do,
Will you tell me if you mean it?
So that I know how to reply.

 I feel really mean,
I really shouldn't have laughed,
I just saw it as a big old laugh,
But I soon figured out you were not.

Back to the way it was

I thought back to when I first met you,
How much I really like you,
I told you my feelings that one day,
Too bad that made things worse.

That day you said you hated me,
It made me feel so bad,
It made me feel like a fool,
Yet you never knew it did.

You said you didn't mean it,
That you were only in a mood,
But I took it very seriously,
It seemed to be the down fall.

From then on I talked to you less,
You lied to me more,
I knew you were lying to me,
About things you shouldn't lie about.

The other day I decided to talk to you,
I wanted things to go back to how they were before,
Where you were my close friend,
When I felt I could talk to you about anything.

Stupidity rules again

I feel really stupid now,
I feel like I was a fool,
I just acted as I normally did,
With my normal respect for you.

I hope you will forgive me,
I'm just trying to be more open,
Sometimes that backfires,
It makes me feel worse.

I hope you don't hate me,
I never meant to be so mean,
It was just the way I was feeling,
A feeling I sometimes get.

Don't be in a mood with me,
Please don't hate me,
I feel so weak right now,
I bet you could crush me in one go.

It makes me scared to think,
You could see me in that way,
How could anyone feel that way?
This is me we're talking about.

Leave me alone!

You send me into a rage,
You anger me at times,
You set my blood boiling,
I think I might be sick!

Close the windows,
Lock the doors,
Be a way from me,
I don't want to see you.

I told you last time,
I'll tell you one more time,
I hate you so much,
I just want you to let me be.

Close the windows,
Lock the doors,
Be a way from me,
I don't want to see you.

Why do I let you back?
Why do I talk to you?
Every time you seem to get at me,
Will you ever let me be?

Close the windows,
Lock the doors,
Be a way from me,
I don't want to see you.

I want you away from me

You've stolen from me for the last time,
You've ruined my life,
I hope your really happy,
You and all your kind.

I watched you the other day,
I followed you everywhere,
I now know what you get up to,
And how much you've lied to me.

I would've been happy,
If you'd told me the truth,
I would've forgiven you,
But I will not now.

You do so much to me,
You're never sorry for your mistakes,
you just blame them on me,
Not anymore though.

Let me leave

You told me I could go,
Turns out it was another of your lies,
Please let me go from this place,
It really quite upsets me.

Break down this wall,
Let me go and be free,
I really want to get away,
I don't want to be here.

The same old damp walls,
Same scary pictures hung on the wall,
I really don't like the pictures,
They remind me of the devil.

Break down this wall,
Let me go and be free,
I really want to get away,
I don't want to be here.

The faces of the past,
People who lived here long ago,
Who still haunt these hallways,
Still they linger in my dreams.

Break down this wall,
Let me go and be free,
I really want to get away,
I don't want to be here.

I can't sleep because of it,
Let me get away from it,
Why wont you let me leave?
I really want to leave.

Break down this wall,
Let me go and be free,
I really want to get away,
I don't want to be here.

You should be more open

I see into your eyes,
I can see all your troubles,
Troubles you keep locked away,
Keeping them all to yourself,
Not letting me try and help you.

I want to help you,
I feel that I need to help you,
I don't want to see you upset,
I want to see you happy again,
Back to the old smiling you.

Please let me help you,
I really want to help you,
Why do you not want my help?
Is it because your afraid of my reaction?
I wont over react what ever the problem.

Open up yourself to me,
Just be as open as I am to you,
I don't mind telling you things,
It makes me feel better to tell you,
It makes it easier to move on.

You need to tell someone,
You can't let it eat at you,
You have to let your feelings out,
Show the world what your made of,
Whatever you do don't keep your feelings in.

Keeping you away from me

Once too often have I laid my eyes on you,
I used you for my selfish gain,
Just for me to feel better,
I didn't care about your feelings.

Dig a hole in the ground,
Put them all in there,
Hide them from me forever,
I don't want to see them again.

I place you away from me,
No longer will you haunt me,
I've had enough of you,
I just really want to be free.

Dig a hole in the ground,
Put them all in there,
Hide them from me forever,
I don't want to see them again.

My eyes keep searching for you,
My brain tells me no!
I don't want you anymore,
I put you were I wont go!

Dig a hole in the ground,
Put them all in there,
Hide them from me forever,
I don't want to see them again.

My corner of safety

I go there for safety,
To get away from things,
Things that scare me,
It's like my safety blanket.

Back away from that corner,
keep way from that corner,
That's my corner,
I don't want you in my corner.

I don't like it when you go there,
I feel as if your invading my mind,
Taking over my thoughts,
Reading things you shouldn't.

Back away from that corner,
keep way from that corner,
That's my corner,
I don't want you in my corner.

I really wish you wouldn't,
Do you have to go in there?
I don't want you to go there,
I feel like its my place, and mine alone.

Back away from that corner,
keep way from that corner,
That's my corner,
I don't want you in my corner.

Slowly slipping into madness

I silently rock back and forth,
Silently going insane,
With you watching me,
Giving me your evil stare.

Stop  suffocating me,
I need room to breathe,
To be free from you,
To be away from you.

Not letting me out of your sight,
Having people follow me,
Can I ever go somewhere alone?
You really do scare me.

Stop  suffocating me,
I need room to breathe,
To be free from you,
To be away from you.

I stare out of the window,
I see people who run their own lives,
It seems that I don't run mine,
You want to do everything in my life.

Stop  suffocating me,
I need room to breathe,
To be free from you,
To be away from you.

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