Art is an expression of the self.
Tradition is an expression of the collective.

Tradition is a culturally accepted form of expression.

Root words: Tradition - from latin traditio (handing over)
Treason - from latin traditio (handing over)
Latin traditio comes from tradere (tra trans - dare to give)
Dare came from the greek didonai (to give) and is akin to the latin dos (gift)

Tradition is a treason against the individual visionary.
Art is a treason to the collective traditions.

An artist and a traditionalist. . .
Anarchist urban tribal artist and a traditional Native elder.

�Convenient enlightenment�
• -anarchists on welfare
• -leather-wearing animal rights activist
• -everybody drive over to celebrate Earth day and use disposable drink cups

leading an impeccable life requires awareness of one�s connections through actions.
Connections through actions: the effect one has on one�s surroundings through their actions.

The symbol for connections through actions would look like a dot with concentric circles emanating outwards. The representation of a group of people would look like rain upon a lake. Some �raindrops� make bigger ripples and have far reaching effects; in the human world that means having to be famous. To be famous for enlightenment one has to lead an impeccable life and have no contradictions. To have no contradictions, one has to walk their talk and talk their walk; say what they mean and mean what they say.

No contra (against) dictions (words)		means being honest with yourself.
(going against the Word)		(God)



there is a queen of swords
who dislikes being crossed by the uncertainty of living in the moment which to her is foolish.
She used to be a page of swords
and will not want to leave 8 inverted cups behind for she won�t want to remember.
She wants to change but the inverted Transition prevents her from transformation.
She is the Empress but the inversion prevents her from accepting the role.

She lets someone else navigate her six sworded boat
her world is four sworded and she �sleeps� the Truth away.
She hopes for a four wooded world of beauty and bounty but that same Earthiness scares her.
As usual, she ends up carrying the load of her hopes, all ten woods.

he rejoices under the rainbow with ten cups
his fun is crossed by his quest for meaning, leaving behind 8 cups.
He used to be a page of pentacles
(he will spill more than half his cups)
(he wants to be rich but hasn�t figured it out yet)
he is a page of wands but can�t seem to reach that intellectual goal

he sits on his �throne� like the king of pentacles
his world consists of industrious jobs and following the plans for the three pentacles.
(He�s afraid of showing weakness to a competing rival) (knight of swords)
he�ll wind up with inverted ace of swords.

first came Being
then along came the Feeling
that inspired the Word

the north american school curriculum: most high school shop classes have been designed as training ground for factory assembly line workers; the assignments for drafting involved following the pre-drawn plans supplied by the national school board. the students don�t get credit for inventing and designing new concoctions.

I have a theory of human mental energy being able to affect a particular location; the Bermuda Triangle was an area of pirate activity and over time the area acquired a notoriety. When enough people became aware of that �dangerous area� their combined �thought waves� began causing disturbances in which the survivors spread even more awareness of the area so it became a place of magnified weirdness. People are still aware of it but there is less and less belief which diminishes the paranormal activity.

Belief makes a world of difference. . . remember when the Ancestors spoke with the forest spirits that now hide? I hear them but, like a primitive phone, the connection is fuzzy and fades in and out.
�The question is not whether to let God work in your life, but to let your life work for God.�
Who�s God? Whoever you are and whoever you love.

People are milling about, conversing with one another. I ask someone standing near me about the one called Jesus to which she answers, �oh, he�s one of the best. I�ll tell you what though, I think he is the best. You know why? It �cause he�s so likeable.� she giggles and points to a handsome man carrying a goblet of wine and a piece of bread. �Look at �im! just makes you want to hug �im!� she sighed as she trailed off, �such a likeable fella. . .� she wandered in the crowd. I accosted a youth and asked him about Buddha. �He�s real easy to get along. . .� he paused to swallow the piece that he�d been chewing, then continued, �some people find him boring but not me, we get in great discussions for hours.� I thanked him and asked loudly so a number of people could hear me, �any others?� a few people looked at me puzzling over what I might be talking about when finally an old gruff voice answers, �lots. . .too many to count and why would you want to. . .none written. Nope. Just signs and symbols. They were the scientists and doctors and psychotherapists of our ancestors. They were the ones that knew and guided. They were remembered as long as the families held out.�
I thanked him and got off at my bus stop.

There�s a catharsis, a quickening, in the growth of human consciousness, that triggers the need for self-improvement. The loss of ego? After one loses the sense of self? When one feels like they are an infinitesimally small aspect of creation?

Human, biological and molecular interaction

T-cells: self or non-self (a reflection of human thinking?)
The best electron photo seen so far is a group of molecules enhanced by computer. It looks like a globular force field with a tiny white dot in the middle. (Like a teeny tiny sun!!!) T-cells release anti-body molecules to destroy that which is non-self.
Is energy motiveless, purposeless?
Chemical reactions release energy.
Atoms oscillate. They have a rhythm.

Smoke break: there�s a connection between a class like this which is about the physical construction of Life itself and my own experience of events. . . it makes no sense now as a sentence. Everybody seems to be friends with someone here already. I don�t want to speak in front of everybody to ask if anyone is going to Gibsons for a ride after the lecture. It�s funny how reluctant I am at conversating with people I�ve never met before but obviously have the same intellectual interests as far as this lecture goes.
The way humans interact might reflect the way atoms move, so what the hell am I? A renegade? A neutrino? I have a slow fusion time but my fission can happen real fast!
I� m afraid to speak up my ideas on the �cosmos� because I don�t have the words to describe what they know. I only have �cheap� words, that are easy for �regular� folks to understand.
At last the dreaded smoke break is over.

I have a question: �are the orbits of solar systems in the galaxy aligned with each other?�
I did not write the answer so I probably did not ask it.

Electromagnetic energy permeates the universe.
Humans burn glucose by thinking. We expend two thirds of our body weight/energy with brain activity. Humans will not rest until they have solved everything.
Electromagnetic wavelengths vary from angstroms (microscopic) to kilometers.
Visible light is .2 to .4 microns (one micron=1000 angstroms; 1000 microns=1 millimeter)

Jehovah�s Witnesses: convalescent food (boring recipes, trained chef required)
Roman Catholic: rich foods high in cholesterol (big secret recipes, specially trained chef required)
Christian: some is bland, some is spicy, some in between (recipe book and chef usually required)
Pagan: natural organic food (no recipe book required, anyone can learn)
Buddhist: natural organic vegetarian food (no recipe book required, anyone can learn)
corporate scum: yuppy food (small portions, over-priced and has to be prepared by a trendy chef)

what if Jesus was never crucified? Sure, He�d be dissed by the ruling class (rich pigs always hate free thinkers that fight for the people) but what if, instead of being killed publicly, simply said, �my job is done� and left.
Then the guys that wrote what they thought Jesus said had to come up with an ending; they didn�t want to just leave it with Him simply vanishing. They felt that they had to have a big bang ending; because, why? Did they think that He would be forgotten otherwise? Humans do seem to remember the outlandish & terrifying events whereas the benevolent and ordered events are taken for granted. They knew that they had to preserve the memory of their Master�s vision, so they concocted a most horrible event, the betrayal and crucifiction (Crucial-fiction).
Then again, we know of Martin Luther King Jr., Malcom X, Abe Lincoln, John Lennon and lots and lots of other �heretics� that were disposed of.

things to check out:
• -Coptic Church
• -Knights Templar and the Freemasons
• Re-read the Illuminati Papers by Anton Wilson

Monophysite: mono (one) physis (growth, nature) from greek phyein (to bring forth).
A monophysite believes that Jesus was not human but came from a divine source and merely had a human body that was born, lived and died.
What if all humans had a divine source, some more, some less? Jesus was a High and Lordly One or a Shining One. The dishonest rogue would be an imp.

Monad: an individual elementary substance that reflects the order of the world and from which things are made. (Atom, solar system, galaxy, Earth, the medicine wheel)

Momos: the Greek god of censure and mockery.
Mummery: a ridiculous, hypocritical, pretentious ceremony or performance.
Mummer: actor.

how�s this for funny? Christian-Pagan . . . or a Pagan-Christian . . .
I don�t like the cross per se, it�s got too much South energy; too much emotion and anger. All sides must be equal.
I believe that Jesus was sent (or He sent Himself as the monophysite would believe) to Teach and Remind. We should all be like Him. That was His point. Pagans �bring down the God/dess� into themselves; Christians get filled with Holy Spirit. Isn�t pure Holy Spirit hard to �capture�? Wouldn�t it be easier to think about an aspect of God to match what you�re feeling or needing? Like the God of agriculture to help fertilize the land and one�s mind, or the Great Goddess to inspire creativity.
Can one �bring down� Jesus? Is His spirit like the God of love and compassion? Because that�s how gods were �made�: a really cool human lives and dies then if everyone remembers for enough generations, that person�s memory becomes legend, and sometimes deified.

Jesus being crucified goes with the Euro-pagan notion of the yearly dying god. Every year he�s born, every year he dies. His actual death goes with the notion of human sacrifice. No wonder the Christ thing caught on in Europe. Another reason why Christianity caught on is because of the downtrodden wanting independence from the ruling class, which is what JC was about.
Christians and Pagans behave similarly; they hold out their hands to receive the Spirit, they sing about their deity and some Christians have the Trinity like the pagans have the triple Goddess.
Father, Son, Holy Ghost
Maiden, Mother, Crone
Christians don�t perceive the cross as the four directions like pagans do, but perhaps the crucifix was invented by the Celts and the symbolism lost it�s original meaning of wholeness and balance to become the symbol of death and martyrdom.
Does Jesus want us to remember Him? Or does He want us to remember what He said? No one wrote down what He said when He said it. Why didn�t He have a scribe? Did He? Did the scribe�s writings get destroyed thus JC�s life had to be reconstructed at a later date? Maybe humans got taken for a ride and it was a prank of cosmic proportions.

We went to a church dinner at a Baptist church and the food matched their spiritual style, healthy, lots of greens and down-home good. They didn�t recycle anything though. Tin pans and plastic containers went right in the garbage. I really wanted to say something but. . . it wasn�t our church.
I see such a connection between spirituality and food.

They are counterparts:
• physical food for the body; fresh, like God intended.
• Spiritual food for the mind; fresh, like God intended.

How do you remind people that God is within everyone of us, not in some old book. You are reading this book and don�t you dare go thinking God is in here!!!

As a child I read Asterix and emulated that time period during my play.
As a teen I read various fantasy and science fiction books, Anne Mc Caffrey, Issaac Asimov, Madeleine L'Engle, and teen books like Paul Zindel and Judy Blume.
Witches Bible Compleat (did not understand much then but was still interested)
Positive Magic by Marion Weinstein (best introductory book on wicca)
The Witch�s Way and The Life and Times of a Modern Witch by Janet & Stewart Farrar (�traditional� Wicca)
Clan of Cave Bear, Valley of Horses, Mammoth Hunters, Plains of Crossing by Jean Auel (the best description of pure Goddess spirituality)
People of the Wolf, People of the Fire, People of the Earth by Kathleen O�Neil Gear(ancient Native history)
Bringing Down the Moon by Margot Adler (directory of north american covens)
the Witch�s God by Janet and Stewart Farrar (excellent male deity reference)
The Eagle and the Raven (account of the roman takeover of Britain)
Mists of Avalon by Marion Zimmer Bradley (account of the Arthurian days from the women�s point of view)
Celtic Wisdom by Caitlin and John Matthews (legends and their explanations)
Fairy and Folk Tales of Irish Peasantry by Yeats (complete stories as summarized in the Celtic Wisdom book)
Cuchulain of Muirthemne by Lady Gregory (the epic hero story of the Celts)

He asked the old woman as she lay dying: �where will you go?�
She replied, �I will be found in the birdsong and the dappled sunlight upon the forest floor . . . the moist murmuring in a drop of life . . . I remember, for that is where I am from.�.
Her name was Whistling Bird Mother.

Why do I feel embarrassed to pray? I try to remember any instances of reprimands against that action but my parents just didn�t do anything spiritual.
I felt like there was no way I could voice my reverence, my feeling about God without being laughed at for being pious or whatever else my family deemed as silly. My parents didn�t seem to think, or believe, that a child can have serious thoughts.
I want someone to read what I� ve written but who? I don�t want the same reaction of laughing or worse, non-answer.
I think my shyness is from lack of self-belief. Not esteem, but belief. I know and have always known I am a talented artist and have good ideas, but I can�t seem to believe in myself enough to have the gumption to �push� my work into the world because I don�t feel that I have enough to show. Plain ideas, in my view of my culture, aren�t enough. I�m too poor to make my ideas reality - it�s always about money.
Poverty is a distraction, it keeps me struggling while all I really do is idle. Actually, it�s not even a struggle because that option is taken away by our economy. When you�re working at minimum wage supporting a family, you no longer �struggle�, you become a slave. To me, �struggling� means that, while it may be hard, there is a means to an end, such as a steady trickle into a savings account or an eventual advancement in the workplace. Slavery is when you work and work but there is no money saved up, no hope of higher wages while given bigger and bigger workloads.

I need. . . no, that�s not right; I� m not the only one. . . we need a miracle. I want to get to the space and time where/when I could worship just for being, not in hope of getting help. When I was a kid I� d pray thanks to all of Nature and Sun and Wind. Just because. Now I pray to get out of poverty and it feels shameful. It makes me cry.
I want to �worship� with people, but woe to me if I talk about the Goddess within a church of Christ. . . and ditto if I feel like loving Jesus with a bunch of Wiccans!
It seems no matter where I turn, I� m an outsider.
I need help but I don�t trust humans. So far, humans have either been undependable or too narrow. I need the help of the Faeries. They have to help me so I can help them in return. I� ve been silently calling them (even though it looks like I�m watching tv or looking out a window). Do I have to actually perform a ritual? I don�t have repeated rites and I� m not sure if I�ve had any real �supernatural� encounters (that I know of).
I keep an open mind (as much as I can perceive) and try to remain hopeful (even though I cry a lot) my partner doesn�t have the same angst about �fitting in�. It seems like he�d be happy living his whole life in idleness and casual chat with people we know.
He doesn�t seem to question, just accepts. . . everything except my tortured soul.

I feel that I cannot seek external human help for I think I would be confronted with something far worse than �fitting in�; something I might call �prozac� or worse, them devaluing my thoughts by not knowing what I� m talking about and covering their ignorance by telling me to go to the ministry of training's Job Clubs or something just as dumb. Our ministry�s idea of �training� is fast food.

In order to help others attain their potential, I need help in attaining my own potential, which is artistic.

Anything good and healthy the church called bad and what the church called good is actually evil.
Independence versus blind faith.

Another Jesus theory (not a nice one): maybe Mary was raped by a common roman soldier and gave birth to the bringer of Light . . . bet that would piss off a few people.

They got the good god of Light mixed up with their Aramaic adversary they called Shaitan. The job of the adversary was to get the biblical translators to forget and condemn the Dagda (Celtic Good God).
The adversary succeeded in the middle ages and dined on sacrificed souls. The priests of that time were their own devil�s pawns and unwittingly performed human sacrifices for the one they thought they were purging.
They fed their own demon with all their condemnations and the ruination of the Earth was the result.
People must realize by now that the adversary does not necessarily sport horns. In fact, the devil must look a lot more like a lawyer, if it has to look like anything.
Shaitan could have remained a small irritant, an annoying jinn of the Arabians, but no. . . They had to feed it and let it get too big for its britches.

Maybe the reason why Jesus is touted as being the One is because he�s pretty much the only one that everyone can agree that he was some sort of special guy. Pagans agree that he was a great healer.

Paul basically said, �I� ll do whatever it takes to get you on my side.�
Did he lose his integrity with all this disguising?
My personal opinion is that the Pentateuch could be shortened and the new testes be only what Jesus said. I wonder if the people who did most of the writing and compiling looked anything like lawyers. . .

the individual is composed of dualities that cannot be divided.
The two sides of the brain,
the polarities of the Earth,
the light and the shadow.
The awareness of one�s internal dialogue results in the organized chaos of expression.