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10.30.05 | Last Post For October
Okay, before anything else... thank you Ate Euri!!! XD
Yep, this would be my last for this month since my mom decided that we go to Bataan this afternoon... and I was forced to go there as well since there would be no one left in our house except Kuya Tiboy. Anyway, I just hope that we could go back home on November 4, 2005. I don't know why I would want to get back as soon as possible. I do miss my grandparents there, even my cousin, Fatima. I kinda miss the place too, the ambience and peace which is comforting. But...
I guess I'm going to miss a lot here too.
Okay, just call me a material girl. There's no cable there, no computer to write with and pout something about, no telephone -- uh, they do have a telephone, but the value is too expensive, so...nuh ah.
Uhm, so no updates? Yep. Not only from me, but from my friends as well. I mean, are they all right? Are they still living? Uhm, so maybe I was a bit exaggerated on that part. But hey, I'm going to miss them. The texts, the chats, even phone calls every night (you know who you are XP).
Oh well. I guess I am not really a people-person, but I do know how to treasure friends. ;)
I mean, whenever I'm down, they're the mediums sent by God in my life to help me stand up again. They're my source of strength, and they lift up my filthy little soul. They always want to paint my face with a smile. ^^
Uh, okay, so much for mushy talks. I'm feeling kinda creepy as well. :P
Anyway, like I said, I'm pretty much going to miss them -- especially my Mr. Telephone Guy. Hehehe... I'm really getting addicted to him lately, and I just don't know how to stop it. I mean, it's like my everyday life is simply incomplete without us talking to each other every night. :( Waaaa!!! I'm going to miss him so much!!!
Since I would be doing nothing there, might as well pack some books on my bag so as not to forget them later. Hmmm... Oh yeah, and always add a pen and paper. Hah! ^^
Guy Trouble
...yep. And I hate myself for letting it happen. Sheesh, why did my godmother had to know it too?? Ok lang sana kung totoo... pero hindi nga eh!!! Ang kulit talaga... Waaaa!!! I so so hate myself... X(
Oh yeah, maybe you're a bit confused about it. Like I said, and probably will be saying forever, I don't have a boyfriend. Got it?!
Programs
Oh, yeah, and since I would be gone here for a while, might as well share with you these programs from Raven Black's site. Hee hee, thanks to Computer World for this info. ;)
The Eye
Palette Spy
OI
'Happy Halloween!' Says Naruto
Found on Claude's Site
10.29.05 | Uh... A continuation?
Well, somebody asked me if I could continue the Prom night post, dated February 1, 2005. Uh, I said, OKAY, so here it is. @.@;;
7:30 pm.After dinner, the lights on the huge chandelier suddenly dimmed, and the first band started to play a sweet music...
It was the band of M.Y.M.P. My classmates and I were preparing for our class shoot at that time, and the line outside was just too long! So, we decided to just go back inside the hall, and I to my chair.
8:00 pm.Don was talking about whether we would dance together. I think he said it in a shy manner so I pretended not to hear it. :P Anyway, Anjo suddenly dragged me (not literally) to the dance floor and he (again!) was my first dance. I could still remember that it was he too whom I danced with (and only danced with!) last year. After a song, we went back and it was James's turn to dance with me. -_-;; So, okay... While dancing, we also chatted about how I am usually nervous and embarrassed with our positions and that. Anyway, I was more nervous with Anjo than James since James and I were somehow laughing and enjoying the chat together.
8:30 pm.We went back to our chairs again. Finally, there was no one else who is asking me for a dance! -.-;; After sighing a couple of times, I finally looked at Don who was so quiet since I left him (hahahah!). I was wondering if he would ask me again. Hmmmm... Finally, he spoke up. He was just thinking if he could, somehow, dance with Claude (Ahah!). He also said that he wanted Claude to be his first dance, but was still shy on asking her. So, I volunteered to accompany him to find Claude.
9:00 pm.Found her. With her friends. And they were all busy chatting together. Hmmm... I'm guessing they're waiting for the next band, which is South Border so they could have their pictures captured. Hehehe... we just greeted them and all, then Don and I went back to our seats. Slightly uncomposed, he was still feeling a bit shy towards Claude. Anyway, I asked him again that if he really wanted her to be his first dance, he should go alone there and ask her. So, there goes Don...
9:20 pm.He came back, smiling. So, okay, satisfied now?! I was just sitting there the whole time, with no one else asking me. Then he asked if he could dance with me. I was already hesitating at this time since I was in a bad mood at this time. Fine, if that's the way you want it, I won't force you. And anyway, why should I care about him?! Why should I be jealous, anyway? Don and Claude are fitted together, and that because the three of us are very close friends, it is only appropriate that I should be, at least, happy for them.
I reluctantly went with him to the dance floor, and I bothered not finishing the song at all because of dismay. After that, he didn't even accompany me in going back to our table!! Argh! XO
I hate him.
9:50 pm.I was feeling a bit depressed since I was the only one left in our table with no one to dance with. But I still said to myself not to cry anymore since I don't want to ruin my Prom night. Last year was a real mess, with me crying and wasting my make-up, but I don't want that to happen anymore.
10:20 pm.Still bored. I was just looking around with people busily chatting if not dancing. If not, I would be playing with my Dad's and Mom's cellphones, capturing a picture of the candles, the ceiling, the chandelier, the floor,... I was so not liking this night at all. Then, Iver and James came back, and sat for awhile. I think they're tired because of dancing and all. Then, Anjo came back as well, and invited the two to join him in dancing (btw, South Border's playing right now, and the slow dancing's over). I guess, someone suddenly pushed me to stand up and would want to go with them. So we all went together.
11:50 pm.I would never regret this!! I was so happy that I really stood up and danced wildly there. Not caring anymore if someone would see me since I wanted to take out all of my anger towards the former incident, I danced all by myself the whole night. I was shouting and singing and dancing there, with no partner, and just enjoying myself and the music. That was the time when I could finally say that I can be happy when I am alone. I can be independent. I do not need other people's help just so I could enjoy myself there and be happy. It's because it is only I who can make myself happy... if only I would let myself be happy... ^^
Anyway, our class were finally able to have our photo shoot, and I, of course, got mine. Although right now, all of my pictures were lost! Huhuhuhuhuhuhu... where did I put it anyway?!
12:15 am.Evening ended. Don and I talked outside, and I've decided. I don't care anymore. I'll let him do what he wants. But I won't let him make me destroy my night. I certainly won't let him. ^^
Mystery Unveiled Yesterday
Uh... do I really need to? Pfftt... okay. I just wanna share with you guys Reginald's offline messages yesterday. We also chatted after reading them all... I told him not to worry since I'm still the old Rosa. ^^;; Just shock. :P
Ewan ko kung mapapatawad mo pa ako.
As I used to you to myself: "You f**cking moron, you're hopeless as always"
Napaka tanga ko talaga (as always)
At kay jeira. May atraso ako sa kanya. Nainggit ako sa kanya dahil sa isang invalid reason.
At mas naging duwag ako dahil nagbigay ako ng indirect manner. Yung binigay sa iyo ni Fred. Kung d mo pa alam, ako ang nagpabigay. Isang araw na lang e naisipan ko na lang na ipabigay ko sa iyo.
Yea, may gusto ako sa iyo, at gaano ko ka-gusto na sabihin iyon sa iyo, nao-overcome ako ng pagka-duwag ko at pagka-torpe ko.
First of all, humihingi ako sa iyo ng patawad dahil naging tanga ako at masyadong ma-sikreto. At nagalit ako o na-inggit sa mga maling rason.
napakaduwag ko talaga, nagse-send ng message pag offline ka na. Wag mo na pansisnin ang susunod na message kung gusto mo. Ikaw ang bahala.
So yeah, he was the one who did give the necklace indirectly to me. :P Uh... yeah.
10.28.05 | Ooooppsss...
Okay, so today's not that great as I've expected it would be. Ang tagal ko nang gustong pumunta sa 168, but what happened?? Mom went with my brother instead! Argh!!
So, okay. It was my fault too. If only I had been early enough to go home so we could all go there and that I could finally buy something for myself... Haaayy... Anyway, where could I have gone to?
Morning. I slept too early (around 00:30) and woke up early (around 7:20) since I would get my grades from the Dean's Office and later on submit them to OSA. Because it was raining, I was feeling a bit lazy to go to school. So I waited for the drizzle to stop and the flood to submerge. But even if the rain did stop, I was still feeling a bit lazy to go. So I just waited for my mom to prepare herself so we could both go to 168 where I could finally buy some anime stuff... at a lower price. :P
But it was like waiting for... forever(?!) so I decided to just go to SM San Lazaro and withdraw first some money (tsk tsk). Still feeling a bit hesitant to get out of our house, JRa had visited, and well, we went together to kill some time.
At first, it was like, okay, talk to her while I'll stroll by myself. Anyway, I really don't care since I am already inside the mall. Just mind your own business and don't follow me. I don't know why, but I still hate myself for falling in love with him, and now I can't be jealous with the two just because he's not my boyfriend. Waaaaa. A happy sad life.
But because he's the leech type of guy, he wouldn't let me be separated from him. Uhm, okay. I quit. I was just self-pitying myself on how things had suddenly turned out, and that I just couldn't resist from it. Anyway, we went to Center Stage and KTV for an hour, with me singing most of the time.
I went outside for a while since I was not breathing very well (stupid colds!), and while I came back, there he was, so quiet that it was the first time I had seen him like that.
He was crying and still reminiscing his days with his greatest rival, who had just died from a car accident the day before. I comforted him while he just cried on my back. I guess he couldn't take it anymore and just burst it all out while I was away for a couple of seconds.
KTV was over and as we went outside, we met my sister and Errol. Meanwhile, JRa was still mourning and all so I had no choice but to let him hug me since I really don't know how to comfort him. Anyway, we strolled for some more and then headed towards UST Eng'g to get his grades from Ma'am Perreras, our Theology professor.
I think it's because of the drizzle that my head had suddenly ached... I couldn't barely open my eyes from the pain, and I really tried just to show him that I am okay. I don't want to trouble him anymore and kept on telling him to just go home and that I could walk back home all by myself. As always, he insisted... and as always, I quit arguing since it would only take his time with him just waiting for me to go home so he could accompany me. Haaay, naku, ang kulit.
I went home at around 16:00 and still didn't manage to get my grades (since I didn't go inside the office at all). When my mom came back (with my sister back as well), she suddenly opened about him and me being boyfriends and girlfriends and all. I denyingly said no, but she continued, "Eh bakit nakita ko siyang naka-akbay sa'yo?" @.@;; My head suddenly screamed, 'WHATT??!?' I said, "Wala lang iyon." Waaaa... why am I panicking so suddenly?! Why does this has to happen anyway?!? Why did she have to see it of all people?! Why did I let him in the first place, anyway?!? Why did my life suddenly turn like this?!? What's wrong with me?!? Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu... I hate it...
Kung sana talagang kami noh, aaminin ko talaga sa mom ko, pero... Argh!!! Okay, that would be the last time... >_<;;
Just an Add-on Mystery
Reginald, one of my classmates, suddenly texted me this message at around 00:09 this morning. I still don't have any load, so I couldn't reply to him yet. Anyway, here's his message:
"Maybe it's time n pra sbihin ko ang ktotohanan at pra mag sorry. Bgay k ng time n pwede kang mkipag-chat"
Uh... okay... what's he trying to confess here?!?
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