February 26 2006 | Sunday |
09:12pm
"UNFAIR ASSAULTS"
I've been busy all-day for non-sense CWTS feeling-Major-kung-umasta
works. Daig pa ang Journalism activities ko, aba. Bukod pa diyan, eh naiirita
ako sa hindi makatarungang pagbibilang ng oras ng pagpasok sa CWTS. I just
missed a single event, yet I lose whooping 12 hours. Buti sana kung may make-up
class, kaso hindi nagbigay ang facilitator. You might think I'm exaggerating
things. Perhaps yes but really, it's so unfair. I hope these things will get
fixed as days go by. Tomorrow, I'll go straight in the CWTS office. Har. It
really hypes my blood pressure. Feeling major talaga. Wala naman kaming
natututunan. Humanda sila sa pag-eevaluate ko sa CWTS Program.
Halos buong
araw din akong nakatutok sa TV. Grabe ah, pagulo na nang pagulo ang sitwasyon sa
gobyerno. Bumaligtad na ang Marines, pero hinuli ng gobyerno si Querubin [Marine
Chief]. This incident gave way for civilians to react again. Media have been
airing this. Napansin ko lang ah, masyado ng pinupunterya ng Malacañang ang
Media. Well of course, I shall defend on behalf of my field but really, the
government has been showing signs of one-sidedness. Recently, they had
confiscated prints of The Tribune, and now, NPC imposes rules on TV
Networks not to air incidents such as these. As said by NPC, these TV airings
may lead to public sedition. Sheez. It's an obvious propaganda. I believe it's a
way of blocking us, Filipinos, from the real events happening within the
country. It's our right to know. It's our right to react unto this. And I guess
it will really be unfair if a certain leader will hinder us from being
open-minded on these issues just to impose ones regime.
Jan 22, Pacman's Victory. After
13 days, Feb 4, ULTRA Incident. After 13 days, Feb 17, St. Bernard Landslide.
After 13 days, March 2, what shall be the next?
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February 25 2006 | Saturday |
09:37pm
"REGRETS AND MINDSETS"
There are points in life where you regret on certain instances.
Failures. Missed ones. Then again, the what if's and the maybe's
shall fall upon your knees -- so near of your reach yet so untouchable of which.
I decided to pamper a bit. I went to SM San Lazaro to buy doll shoes. So I went
alone on a sunny afternoon. I rode the Divisoria jeep and I happened to sat with
Regina Aquino in the vehicle. She's my schoolmate in STC and she's still a
varsity volleyball player there. I was in 4th yr and she was 2nd yr when we got
to know well. So I had a short chit chat with her. I asked her what year is she
in and told me that she's graduating. She added that she wants enroll in DLSU or
UST (as Commerce student) because she wants to be in the varsity team. I looked
at her, she seems taller, gone prettier, and purely athletic. In fact she was
with her boyfriend Chino na mukhang player din. Ewan ko, I slowly felt the
regrets. I could have been like her, who's still an active volleyball player.
I was on the
phone with Ate Flo the other night as she was asking me, "Eh bakit She' di mo
tinuloy ang pag-babalibol mo? Eh di sana.. *blah blah*" Ughh! Right now it seems
that I want to play volleyball again but I dunno, I feel like I cannot take
my feet into the court again. If only I had focused on that sport since then
and continued it up to now, perhaps I will not regret on this once in a while.
Ngayon lang ako na-hook ulit sa pag-vovolleyball. It was too late. On the other
hand, my rest back was because I focused myself in other things. I'm dead
serious with my studies. I really want to pursue a career in Journalism. I want
to be known as a writer. Besides that, I believe that I will not meet several
people if I am too busy with my athleticism. Hay ewan. Bitter-bitteran lang ako
siguro.
So I roamed
around the mall in search of the perfect shoes. Damn it was quite hard to find a
shoe of my size. May mga magaganda pero maliliit. May malalaki pero ang
papangit. Swerteng makakita ka man ng maganda't malaki, ang mahal naman!
Harhar. In fact I saw a cute orange doll shoe but it costs 700php. Nyak, daig pa
ang presyo ng rubber shoes kaya hinde ko binili. A little later, I found a
cheaper one. Around 500php, medyo mahal pa rin pero binili ko na. Tuwang-tuwa
naman ako sa design eh at hindi ko pinagsisisihang binili ko yun. =)
Napagod akong kakaikot, kaya dumaan akong Starbucks. Kape mode. Haha. Sa
lahat-lahat ba naman ng kapehan, dun pa ko napadpad. Sa tuwing
nababanggit ang Starbucks, naalala ko si Ching kaya parang nagsisisi tuloy
akong uminom ng Chocolate Frapuccino at kumain ng Honey Blazed Doughnut doon.
Tsktsk. Tinext ko si Ate Rox, kinuwento ko ngang nasa Starbucks ako. And yeah, I
deceived on my cup, telling to the cashier to indicate "Roxanne" as my name.
Haha, para kunwari hindi na lang si "Shelly" ang uminom ng kape sa Starbucks. =p
"Adek." (AteFlo, 2006). Haha!
Regrets
can't be held. We're not perfect so as to be sure of all our decisions in life.
There will come a time wherein we're in a dilemma. We choose among opportunities
but later, we feel like we have chosen the wrong ones. We fall into despair. We
regret. But the more important thing is, to get over and impose upturns to cover
up the regrets. It's not about crying over the unsuccessful things but rather,
reigning over the things we want to prosper.
No one can go back and start a
new beginning.. But anyone can start from new and make a happy ending..
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February 24 2006 | Friday |
06:35pm
"CHAOTIC SCENARIO"
I woke up a bit late. Still, I tried to head school as fast as I
could. It took time for me to ride a jeepney and while I was in the vehicle, I
presumed that I would be late for History. It was past 7am.
On my way, I
was walking along Antonio St. when Joyz [former HS classmate and now from
Commerce], shouted at me saying, "Shelly uwi ka na ulit, walang pasok!" Of
course I got surprised and asked her the reason behind it. Well as I expected,
she said that it was because of coup attempts. Stupid decision to suspend
behind, I wasted time to go to school. But still, I went to UST just to check if
it applies for AB as well.
Upon entrance,
everyone was going on reverse way. So yeah, students got dismissed nga. I walked
further. It was so noisy. Everyone was hurriedly walking. In fact I wasn't able
to approach the building anymore sinc many people were outside. It was chaotic.
I cannot text people since the network was down. Perhaps many were texting at
that time, not only in UST but to the rest of Manila. Later, I heard voices
calling out my name. It was my classmates at the AB Pav.
So I went
there. Shiela, Vet, Djhay, Judy, Denise and Jenny were there. We talked for a
while. Some were complaining, because the class suspension was declared late
and students had arrived in school already. Sayang sa pamasahe. Sayang sa
paggising nang maaga. Sayang sa pagsuot ng uniporme. But on a brighter-side,
oh common, this means free day! No work. No lecture. Walang recitation sa
History. Wala pa ding quiz sa Math. Mas mahabang oras para mag-memorize ng
monologue. The weekend is to come. Three days, no-school days. Cool.
Pag-uwi ko,
sabay kami sa jeep ni Vet. Nag-kuwentuhan kami habang nasa biyahe. I told her
about my anticipation for a Summer job. Well, there are opportunities but still
unsure. Magulo pa talaga, pero gusto ko. Yung isa sa mga pwede kong
trabaho, sa Internet Cafe. The said cafe is just a few blocks away from our
house. I like the job since I'll have to sit, operate the computer and collect
payments only. Libre pang internet. Naka-aircon pa. Kaso ewan ko din, para
kasing gusto kong magbakasyon talaga. Yung tipong walang ginagawa. Nakatunganga.
Lumalarga. Gumagawa ng wala. Hehe.
I've been
watching television. At siguro, tama ngang na-suspinde ang klase. Ang
gulo-gulo kaya ng Pilipinas ngayon! Lalo na sa parte ng Ayala, Makati. GMA
declared State of Emergency a while ago. Some perceive it as a way to protect
her own administration only and not for majority's sake. I've seen Randy David
being arrested, jeepney driver's licenses being confiscated, rallyists being hit
by police due to no permit no rally policy and certain personalities such as
Cory Aquino on streets. I don't know what's ahead for my dear country. It's
just saddening. Democracy is what we fought for in EDSA I and it seems that it
has been stolen from us again. Gloria is so hard, she won't come down in her
position. People are also hard, because they have to. No one else will defend
for the country but the active citizens too. I believe this issue is going
to be a long story again. A history in the making perhaps. And worst come worse,
a repetition and De Ja Vu of previous massive rallies in search of a better
government. What a chaotic scenario talaga. Too bad.
Lord heal our land, Father heal
our land. Hear our cry and turn our nation back to you..
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February 23 2006 | Thursday |
08:39pm
"THREAD-LIKE"
Have you ever experienced being a situation wherein you had
been surprised to know that a certain event occurred because of another
incident? Sometimes it's quite shocking, that events are like threads linked
from each other.
Ito ay isang
insidenteng napakahirap ikuwento kaya susubukan kong maging patas sa
paglalathala. Gagamit na lang ako ng general names at kayo na ang bahalang
humusga kung may maka-relate man.
Napa-ngisi na
lang ako kanina. May napansin kasi ako sa isang lalaking patuloy ang
pagpapasarim na gusto niya si babae. Halatang-halata sa pananalita, pagkilos, at
pagtrato. Favorite ba. Flavor of the day. Ang biru-biro, half-meant true. Noon
ko pa yun naiisip na baka "meron nga" sa pagitan nila pero ang hirap din kasing
mag-conclude. Aba, akalain mong napag-konek ko na ang mga kaganapan! Nauunawaan
ko na at may conclusion na ko! Haha. so meron ngang pagtingin si lalaki kay
babae! Haha talaga. Magiging judgemental ako nang konti ah, ANG SAGWANG isiping
totoo nga! Wala lang. Sabi ko nga sa kaibigan ko kanina, "Talaga namang nakaka-shake
ng faith!" Haha.
Ang punto ko
lang naman dito, di ko akalaing ang mga nakalipas na namasid at napansin ay
karugtong din pala ng mga namasid at napansin ko kanina. Napapag-konek-konek ko
na ang mga pangyayari. Minsan, nakakagulat na lang. Totoo ngang sa bawat
kataka-takang bunga ay may malalim na ugat. Wahaha, natatawa pa rin ako sa
mga nalalaman ko. Bakit ganito na ang mundo. Chaotic? Tsk.
Siguro ang buhay, parang libro lang din yan eh. Ang bawat buklat sa susunod
na kabanata, nauugnay sa nakalipas na mga pahina. Hindi mo maiintindihan ang
kuwento hannga't hindi buo ang mga detalye. Sanga-sanga ang mga pangyayari, at
yun ang nagbibigay-kulay sa kuwento. May mga librong mahirap unawain, may mga
pangyayari sa paligid nating mahirap ding unawain. Pero ang mahalaga siguro,
pinipilit nating unawain. Sa ngayon, marahil one-sided pa ko sa mga nakikita
ko. Naasiwaan talaga ko. Pero malay natin, may mga madiskubre pa ko't lamunin
ang lahat ng pang-ookray ko ngayon.
Speaking ang
books pala, I grabbed a copy of Sir Atalia's "Taguan-Pung at Manwal ng mga
Napapagal" Though I'm a bit short in money, I still bought it. Anyway books
are investments for knowledge. I'm excited to read it and I bet it's one
heck of a funny book. Sir Eros ba naman eh. Mala-Bob Ong ang dating. Hehe.
In life, there are invisible
threads connecting each one and weaving us all for a craft which is intended for
the Supreme Being.
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February 22 2006 | Wednesday |
06:20pm
"BARYA LANG ANG KATAPAT"
Dahil sa incomplete pa ko sa NSTP, nag-make up class ako kaninang
hapon. Barya lang pala ang katapat. Ilang oras lang ang kinulang ko sa NSTP,
ga-baryang pagbibilang ang inabot ko. Hay. Isang madugong pagbibilang na
naman ang naganap.
History. Hay
naku, 14/20 lang ako quiz niya. Ewan ko ba, nagbasa naman ako, pero siguro nga
hindi sapat. May mga tanong pang naisamang hindi ko alam kasi absent ako nung i-discuss
yun. Unfair? O siguro kasalanan ko din kasi ako naman yung liban. Unti-unti ko
na namang nakikitang nahuhuli ako sa agos.
Statistics.
Last topic na daw ayon kay Ma'am. [Wuhoo, this calls for a celebration!] Pero
ang hirap namang intindihin, kainis! Sana talaga pumasa ko sa finals. Hehe.
Pampalubag-loob ko na lang, "di bale, may prelims na naman tayo e. We partially
survived. 50% to go!" Haha =p
Absent si Sir
Esguerra. Journ class na nga lang ang kaabang-abang pag MWF eh, kasi marami
akong natututunan. Ayon pa kay Hawie, until Wednesday siya wala. *sobs* Haha. RC
wala din, kaya nag-Nitro ako. Ewan ko ba, nagtitipid nga ko tapos gumastos pa ko
ng P30 para dun, eh may internet naman sa bahay! So yun, pagbalik ko ng UST,
nag-library ako. Hinihintay ko kasi text ni Madie kung puwedeng maagang mag-duty
sa NSTP. Nag-internet na lang ako ulit. Naghanap ako ng monologue piece ko for
Speech Finals. Grabe, kakaloka ang mga gawain.
Umuwi muna ko,
kumain at natulog. Bumalik ako ng USTe lagpas 3pm na. Ayun na nga, nag-make up
class ako. Naghakot na naman ako ng 25 centavos para bilangin ng tig-P100 at
saka isisilid sa plastic. Dun kami sa Main Bldg nagtipon kasama sina Nina at
Nico. Pera yun sa Pondong Pinoy tapos pinapabilang sa estudyante para maayos na
mabigay sa bangko. Hay, ang sakit talaga sa kamay. Ang dumi-dumi pa. I was
patiently stacking coins as if I was counting for decades. I felt oh-so bored.
Buti na nga lang nagjo-joke si Nico [aka NOEL haha!]. Kinatulugan ko na siguro
yung mga barya kung nagkataon.
Inaantok na
ulit ako. Pero ang dami pang gagawin! Argh. >.<
It takes countless of years to
feel the love of a person who's numb at the very start.
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February 21 2006 | Tuesday |
09:25pm
"IPEA WEEK"
Kainis, wala na namang PE. It's IPEA's [consists of PE Majors]
College Week and yeah, I can see that they have been studded with activities.
Iba't ibang gimik. Pina-panood kami ni Ma'am De Torre ng Unity Games sa UST Gym.
So after
academic classes, I was with PonkanBabes [as usual hehe]. Yet it had been
another moment of wackiness in deed. I made official a while ago my so-called
"Shelly's Way" -- ANG SIRANG DAAN. [haha!] Kasi di ba, kung may Dating Daan si
Eliseo Soriano at Tamang Daan ang Iglesia ni Cristo. Aba, pahuhuli ba naman ako!
[EMEN?] Haha. So I shall be called as "Pantas" and the major disciple is
Allelujah [ehem, kilala niyo na kung sino yun! =p]. My followers are Mau, Arene,
and Dez. Oh yeah, I shall lead them to the truth, the light and the way!
Speaking of
being a "pantas" na rin lang, I happened to have a heart-to-heart talk with Mau
while waiting for the PE class. Nag-lulunch pa lang, magka-kuwentuhan na kami.
So yun, feeling ko mas lalo kaming naging close ni Mau kanina. Nakaka-relate
talaga ko sa usapan. Naalala ko lang ang sarili kong mga sitwasyon lalo na nung
high school pa ko. Hay.
Sa Grandstand
kami mi-neet ni Ma'am. While we were there, I saw Marge, one of my closest pals
in STC. Grabe, tagal na rin naming di nakapag-bonding kaya todo kuwentuhan at
lokohan.
Soon we entered
the Gym and it was UST Tigers VS. PBA Players who are UST Alumni. Cool. As
we were searching for seats, I saw Ate Ging who was at a nearby bleacher. I
approached her and I was with Madie. Pinakilala ko siya kay Ate Ging. Hehe.
Umupo ako sandali at naki-chika. Pinapaupo nga si Madie ni Ate Ging kaso haha,
nagpapatangkad daw? [aba!] Haha. So yun, sabi niya baka may chance pa UST sa
Vleague, that is, if Coach August will change his decisions. Hay, sana talaga!
Anyways, di na rin kami nagtagal sa tabi ni Ate Ging at dumaan lang talaga kami.
As we went back
to our place, I decided to stay with Marge and Aubrey instead. Dun sa kabilang
upuan. Masikip kasi dun sa kinauupuan namin ng PonkanBabes. At saka, mas kita
yung laro. hehe! It took minutes for the game to start so Marge and I just chit
chat all the way. It was so cool, we rekindled HS memoirs and we just both
laughed at it. I mean, those were the times that our minds were so immature and
slipshod. Admit it. It has been miles of differences between College life and
High School blues. High School an era where emotions where at hyped and as a
teen, we tend to underline emotions first before the mind... So that's what I
realized -- we grow from time to time. You'll just be surprised that you've
progressed. Kaya nakakatawa, kasi di mo akalain at di ka maniwala.
I
watched until the 2nd half of the game. Cyrus Baguio was darn great and yeah,
he's cute. Hehe. Actually after Salinggawi's Half-time dance, we approached him
on the bench and took a picture with him. Wuhoo. The rest even took shots with
Richard Yee, from Purefoods. Gwapo din, chinito at MATANGKAD. #1 requirement of
an ideal man ko pa naman eh height. Haha.
Rain poured
hard as we went out of the gym. We waited for a while and went to AB Pav first.
So yun, picture time na naman. At grabe, inatake na naman ako ng kakulitan ko
kaya tawa ng tawa sina Madie. Mga 6pm na ko nakarating ng bahay. Kakapagod, at
musta naman, may History quiz pa bukas! Har! EMEN?
x`cez: Pababalikin na yata
ulit si Gretchen Malalad! Wuhoo! Epal lang talaga ang Phil Air Force,
nagpapalapad lang ng papel. Haha. =p
I want to get physical,
physical.
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February 19 2006 | Sunday |
08:43pm
"NINGAS KUGON"
I'm seeing signs that my body craves for Summer Vacation
already. On my cork board, I've been posting words to encourage myself on how
many days left until vacation and sacrifice is yet to vanish. So besides being
clumsy and lazy, here comes another symptom of Shelly's working weaknesses --
nagiging ningas kugon nanaman ako.
Nag-Institutional Visit na kami nung Saturday sa Boystown, Marikina. Ilang
linggo ring hassle yun lalo na sa amin ni Madie na i-organize ang lahat. Inayos
namin yung food, schedule at saka yung paulit-ulit na pag-iinform sa iba pang
ka-grupo tungkol dun. Hay naku, feeling Major naman kasi yung NSTP sa UST. Tsk.
At kanina, may "Run For Humanity" sanang dapat puntahan nanaman. It's another
absurd activity from CWTS and the catch there was I have to wake up as early as
5:30 on a Sunday! I felt like it was too much for that NSTP Program. Buti
sana kung may madudulot na kabutihan sa akin yung pinag-gagagawa namin.
Haha. =p Honestly, na-peperahan lang ako palagi. Puro gastos. Puro biyahe. At
pagisingin ako nang maaga nanaman? So yun na nga, kung anong ikina-sipag ko
para sa Institutional Visit, ay siya namang ikina-tamad ko kanina. Hindi ako
umattend. Now I have to make-up classes for it. Sheez.
Sunud-sunod ang
iba pang mga gawain sa school. Nakakapagod na rin talaga. Ewan ko, kaya siguro
panay na rin ang pagliliwaliw ko. Besides being out of the house to hangout with
friends, I've been busy on the phone. This weekend, my landline phone was really
on a hotline. Literally. It's either I was speaking with Ate Flo or Janice or
Ana or Franz or Ayna. Umuusok talaga kasi inaabot ako ng madaling-araw. Lalo pa
tuloy akong napa-telebabad kagabi kasi nakausap ko sa landline si Ate Rox. Haha.
May tinatanong kasi ako tungkol sa Air Force tapos after nun, nag-kuwentuhan
kami ng kung anu-ano pa. Nakakatuwa pero as a consequence, time ticked away.
I've forgotten other paper works and err, I just end up saying, "Bukas na lang
yan.." Ang tamad at ang ningas kugon ko na talaga!!! Harhar.
It's a habit
for us to work in an open-ended way. Sometimes we become too confident that we
will be able to accomplish things even as we set aside our tasks. Bitterly,
there are times that we fail to get done. Pa-banjing-banjing, kaya walang
nararating. Nakakainis, parang ganun ako ngayon. Wala akong natatapos na
gawain. At kung mayroon man, hindi matino o maayos kasi minadali dahil sa oras
na kinapos.
Huwag masanay sa kaning
isinusubo; sapagkat ang kanin ay nabububo at sa tuwina'y di tayo mabubusog.
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February 17 2006 | Friday |
11:58pm
"DESPEDIDA"
Isang biglaan na lakad mula sa TropaPeepz. Bagama't tila binulaga,
mas lalo pa ngang naging masaya. Ito'y isang mahabang araw na naman. Hahaha. =p
Last night I
was on the phone with Ate Flo. We were talking about Ate Irma's invitation for a
some sort of "despedida" from Ate Monic [#14 of RP Volleyball] since she's going
to U.S. already. In fact we got surprised that she's leaving. Inakala pa nga
naming maglalaro siya sa Ateneo.
Madaling araw
na natapos ang chikahan namin sa phone. Musta naman, may klase ako ng 7am! Haha.
Kaya babanga-bangag akong umattend ng History class, at kung kelan ako sabog,
saka pa ko natawag sa recitation! Lagi na lang ganun, kapag hindi ako
masyadong handa, saka pa ako napipili. Hehe. Anyways, sa Stat class,
nag-discuss lang [at allejujah, medyo na-gegets ko siya!], sa Journ nag-okrayan
as usual, at sa RC? Aba, himalang nag-discuss si Sir Tobias.
Before going
home, I researched for my Biology report at the library. Kahit papaano,
responsible chic pa rin naman ako. May lakad ako nang gabi, trabaho muna sa
tanghali. Hehe. Nakauwi ako ng bahay 1pm na. Natulog ako sandali. Maya-maya,
nagbihis na ako para pumuntang Taft.
It was the
tropa's first time to really hang out with Ate Monic. The last time we met was
in the UST hospital pa [when she got ill]. As I can see, we're close to her,
in the sense that though we don't meet that usual, there are other means by
which we keep in touch. She keepsakes us one by one. And that's sweet.
So I reached
Taft Avenue around 6:15pm na. Medyo late nga ko eh, kaya hanga ako sa mga ka-tropa
kong hinihintay ako at di nang-iiwan sa ere. Yun ang isa sa mga gusto ko sa
kanila, sa totoo lang. Sabay-sabay kaming pumunta ng Harrison Plaza nina Jean,
Ana and Ate Flo. On our way, I even bumped with Ma'am Filip [my Speech prof].
Hehe. Nagulat nga ako eh. =p Anyways, si Kim naman mi-neet namin sa Mcdo and
then we all headed to Figaro Cafe.
Araw ngayon
nina Ana at Jean, dahil sila ang may idol kay Ate Monic. Kasama niya din pala si
Ate Yeth [#4 RP Volleyball] and Ate Irma [their close friend]. Nung mi-neet na
namin sila, medyo nagkakahiyaan pa, lalo na sina Ana at Jean. Haha, kung sa
bagay, ganun naman palagi sa una. So I thought we were to stay there for good
and eat dinner but soon, it was decided to go to SM Manila instead. Nag-jeep
kami papunta.
We ate at Mann
Han and yeah, the Chinese cuisine tasted scrumptious. By the way, humabol si
Chie [who came from a table tennis training] and Carol [who came from her last
class in Beda]. Tignan mo nga naman, si Diah lang ang kulang sa tropa.
Nakakatuwa lang din, kasi kahit may trabaho pa si Ana, pumunta pa rin siya.
Mas napapatunayan ko tuloy na lalong magtatagal pa ang pagkakaibigan namin dahil
walang makapaghadlang sa bawat pagkikita namin. =)
So after
eating, we started to talk on so many things. Random stories, both funny and
informational. Haha. Actually I think I'm to swallow my first impressions on Ate
Yeth because I've proven myself wrong on her initial personality for me.
Honestly, I thought I won't be able to get along with her, akala ko kasi snob o
aloof. Ang dami niyang kwento. Nakakatuwa. At ang mas nakaka-touch pa diyan,
sila ang nagbayad ng kinain namin! We never expected such goodness, geez thanks
Ate Yeth & Ate Monic! =)
Change location
kami, nag-kape naman! As they went to Figaro, Jean & I went to Watson's to buy
batteries. Anyways, as we reached there, Ana was about to go na pala. =/ Too bad
she wasn't able to experience the rest of the hilarious moments. Tsktsk.
So yun, hinatid
nila si Ana habang naiwan kami ni Ate Flo na ka-kuwentuhan sina Ate Yeth. Medyo
naka-bonding ko din si Ate Irma, first time ko din kasi yung makasama. Matagal
na siyang kinukuwento sa akin ni Ate Flo at kahit elder din siya sa akin, it
seems that we get along pretty well. Soon, my other ka-tropas went back. Too bad
they were not able to order coffee anymore since Figaro was about to close. In
fact we were the last customer there and the clerk was pleading that they were
to close already. Marami pa siguro kaming napag-chikahan, akalain mong kulang pa
sa time! Haha.
This was the
funniest part, picture time! Sa labas ng Figaro, ang gulo-gulo naming lahat.
Hehe. Mission accomplished again, for I was able to teach the "Shelly's
trademark pose" with Ate Monic! Haha. She even took a shot of TropaPeepz in her
cam, ka-touch naman. =) And for sure, we're going to miss her company as she
goes to Washington!
Dun na kami
nagpaalam kina Ate Monic, Yeth Irma. Sina Kim at Jean din, umuwi na. So I
was left with Carol, Chie and Ate Flo. Hahaha, di pa tapos ang gabi namin dahil
pumunta pa kaming Letran dorm! Lagalag!!!
I never thought
that we would be also this close to the Letranites. Nagsimula lang talaga ang
lahat kay Diah, tapos pinakilala niya kami sa iba pang mga taga-Letran. So
anyways, from SM Manila we walked up to Letran College [in Intramuros] and at
the side was their dorm. Nakalusot kami sa dorm para mapakilala sa iba pang room
mates nila. In deed they're all very nice. Pumunta kami sa Mini Stop pagkatapos.
Tubig na lang
ang binili ko dun, busog na kasi talaga ko. Kasama din pala namin si Ate Tynes
nun, ang dakilang pakner ni Diah na super kulet hehe. So yun, kuwentuhan sandali.
At grabe ha, natuwa naman ako sa isang kuwento ni Diah. Sabi niya kasi, tinext
siya ni Ate Rox kagabi. Tinatanong daw siya kung sure na bang sasali ang Letran
sa V-league. So somehow we looked at it as an indication that Ate Rox might
want to join the Letran team since UST is gone in V-league. Mas masaya yun
kasi sama-sama na sila sa iisang team! Waah. Ang problema nga lang, Ate Chelle
might be in Letran too. Carolino and Pimentel can't be in one team. It's a no
no. [dahil sila ang veterans ng vball, parang unfair kasi sa iba] But who knows,
Ate Yeth allegedly said that her sister is still not sure of joining. Waaah!
Naisip tuloy namin ni Ate Flo, lalo pa naming uudyokin na mag-Letran si Ate Rox.
Hahaha.
Bumalik kami sa
dorm. Tambay pa ulit sandali. Hay naku, sumakit tiyan kong kakatawa kay Ate
Tynez at Diah. Mga adik, ang kukulet! =p So anyways, bandang 11pm, we decided to
go home na. Pagod na rin kasi kami. Hinatid ulit ako ni Ate Flo hanngang Bulusan
St., ang aking ulirang kaibigan awardee hehe.
It was such a
lovely day and I thank my friends for filling into my Friday's memoir. I mean,
it's seldom but it's for keeps. I just want to say that though we bid goodbye
to one friend, at least we knew and felt that we've imparted a remarkable moment
for that person. Biglaan pero maraming alaalang pwedeng balikan. Madalian pero
puno ng sinserong pamamaalam. =)
First impressions don't last.
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February 16 2006 | Thursday |
06:03pm
"A CREDIT FOR PRETENDING?"
Our Faculty has gone a bit unusual for two days already and I
guess, it will crop up until tomorrow. Why? The PACUCOA Accrediting Team has been
observing the performance in AB. Well I've experienced to be in a batch who had
been observed for an accreditation way back in high school. Classroom
walls, chairs and tables repainted; Windows, glasses and boards gleaming in
sparkle; Teachers dressed more formal; Students more presentable and looked all
so witty. Events today are like the De Ja Vu of my past. One thing's common:
there's always a "show" going on.
Since I was
absent in school yesterday, it seemed that I was an alien for a moment. I
entered the room, sat and ate my BK breakfast. Soon I noticed people copying
notes, memorizing lines and reciting words from the Mission-Vision of AB. I was
just surprised because no one ever told me that we have to memorize. I tried to
ask Karen [a classmate] of what's going on and she told me that a professor said
that we must be able to memorize the Mission-Vision because accreditors might
require us to recite it. Of course at first, I felt startled. On the spot
memorization ba naman. It consists of two paragraphs and compound sentences
actually. It is lengthy and upon seeing it, made myself clear that I cannot
memorize it right away. I was forced to memorize some lines. But soon enough,
I just felt like begging to disagree of what we were doing. We were like robots,
doing something that was required but we never understood.
Do we have
to memorize just for the sake of impressing? I believe that if PAASCU won't
be in our faculty, perhaps that Mission-Vision would just be a mere framed
statement hanged on the wall. No one will care about it, in my belief.
I also observed
other changes in the room. Professors more prepared, more refined, with an AB
pin on their left collar. They're expecting and BEGGING for participation from
the students. I can see the efforts naman. In fact, mas na-fefeel kong sulit ang
binabayad kong tuition. Mas marami akong natututunan dahil mas malaman ang bawat
talakayan sa eskwela.
I am not saying
that AB is an undisciplined faculty but somehow I feel like we're just
fooling around, making others think that we're an oh-so-perfect institution. For
me, it is more important that students learn in any way that the faculty can,
despite imperfections, even if there are some lapses. For as long as it is
REAL and we actually learn something worthy, I believe we need not to take note
of the Mission-Vision and memorize it by word. It's just so sad that we have
to stick with the traditional, that we set with the standards, and we have to
pretend just to receive some credit which I don't know if we truly deserve since
we're just all making a show.
Learning is an infinite matter.
To make it confined and restricted means you limit thy self from the rest of the
world.
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February 15 2006 | Wednesday |
09:26pm
"TULOG"
Nagsisimula na namang umatake
ang pagka-antukin ko. Hay, alam kong kulang ako sa tulog palagi pero kapag
bumabawi ako sa tulog, nasosobrahan naman! Nakaka-groggy. Ang mas masaklap,
napapaliban tuloy ako sa eskwela. Tsk.
Nag-alangan ang tulog ko
kagabi, naatulog kasi ako nang hapon. Gabi na ko nagising kung kaya't
madaling-araw na kong humiga muli. Di ko na kinayang magising ng 5:20am kanina.
Alam kong may klase ako, pero mas nanaig ang katamarang bumangon sa kama.
Papikit pa kong nagtext kay Madie, para sabihing di ako papasok. Haha. Sana di
na maulit ang ganitong katamaran hanggang Marso. I think absences are limited to
9 only when it's a MWF class. And I already have six. =p Kamusta naman.
Nilubos kong matulog hanggang
11am. Pagkagising ko, ang sakit talaga ng katawan ko. Kumain ako't nagbasa-basa
sa Philosophy, pambawi man lang kasi di ako pumasok. Pagpatak ng 3pm, akalain
mong inaantok na naman ako! At dahil wala na kong naiintindihan sa binabasa ko,
sinabi ko sa sarili kong iidlip muna ko. Waah, ang idlip naging hilik! 5pm na ko
nagising. This is a total hibernation.
Galing pala kong NBS kaninang
hapon, bumili ako ng school supplies. Naghanap ako ng matinong ballpen. Ayoko na
kasi nung dati kong ballpen -- dahil isang bagsakan lang, tapos na ang career
niya. Gusto ko yung pointed, color black, at hindi yung nagtatae! Nakakainis,
ang tagal-tagal ko sa ballpen section. Sa dinami-dami ng binebenta, parang
walang matino! Lahat ng bolpen ay animo'y tulog. Itaktak mo man, hindi lalabas
ang magandang daloy ng tinta.
Na-realize ko, para pala
kong pumapalyang ballpen. Maski anong taktak sa akin kanina, ayaw gumalaw nang
naaayon sa purpose niya. Haha. Siguro kung nandito lang nanay ko kanina sa
bahay [nasa Batangas kasi siya], pinalo na siguro ako nun ng kawali. Daig ko pa
ang mantika kung matulog. Baka nasabi pa nun na sayang ang tuition na binabayad
niya, gayong tunutulugan ko lang ang bawat araw ng pagpasok.
Matutulog na nga ko nang maaga!
Di na talaga ko magpupuyat para sa mga walang katorya-toryang bagay!
Lullabye and good night, go to
bed now and sleep tight.
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February 14 2006 | Tuesday |
08:46pm
"VALENTINE IRONIES"
"It's not the flowers, wrapped in fancy papers."
Ironies,
lots of ironies. Kuwentong bulaklak. Pustahan sa bulaklak. Sumabit na
shuttlecock. Bayaran ng kape. Larong baseball. Pag-uwing wagi pero sawi. Mga
kuwento yan ng panalo at kasawian, pinagsama sa iisang araw. Anong resulta?
Kakaibang Valentine's Day siyempre.
Kuwentong bulaklak. Pustahan sa
bulaklak.
I went to
school with a traffic jam especially at Dangwa area. Of course, people were all
busy buying flowers and thus, they caused traffic. Nakakatuwa din namang
pagmasdan ang paligid. May naka-long sleeves pa, habang bitbit ang bulaklak.
Sabi ko na lang sa driver ko, "Sana sagutin siya dahil sayang naman ang suot
niya! haha!"
So anyways,
upon my arrival in the classroom, I had seen flowers again. Well, some flowers
were given by notice, but what had surprised me were the ones kept unexpected.
In a way I got jealous. Guys would never know how girls feel inside when they're
taken by surprise. I miss those times when somebody would leave me kicks in
the teeth. In a way it's hard to come along with a romantic mood whereas you're
so bitter and empty in love life.
At siya nga
pala, may pustahan kami nina Madie. Sige na nga sasabihin ko na, tungkol yun sa
bulaklak ni Arene na alay ng masugid niyang manliligaw na si Daryl. =p Para
kaming shunga noh, pati bulaklak ng ka-tropa pinag-pupustahan. Haha.
Sumabit na shuttlecock. Bayaran ng
kape.
Enough of the
mushy syndrome, we dismissed ourselves early in class since our profs are gone
too. I think they were all preparing for the Accreditation starting tomorrow.
Anyways, so we ate at the Carpark Mall and spent some good laughs with
PonkanBabes and Djhay. So all the time I've been joking them that how come they
didn't give me flowers, or even chocomallows from Dez. Kunwari pang joke lang,
may hinihintay naman talaga mula sa isang tao. Haha. Pero siguro kaya dinaan ko
lang din sa jokes, kasi alam kong suntok sa buwan na mangyari yun ngayon.
Nag-library
kami after. Surf surf. Nagbihis kami sa Grandstand tapos nag-badminton kami
sandali ni Djhay sa field. Maya-maya, lumipat kaming Benavides Park. O diba, sa
lahat ng lugar, dun pa talaga sa Lover's Lane ng USTe =p Dun kami nag-badminton
ng PonkanBabes. Nakakatuwa kasi nakakapagod maglaro. Gustung-gusto ko ng
pinapagod sa isports. At bukod pa diyan, eh na-challenge ako sa pagkuha ng
shuttlechock na sumabit sa puno! Gamit ang sapatos ni Dez, binato ko yun para
makuha ang kawawang shuttlecock. Instant coffee tuloy ang kapalit mula kay Madie
na nag-itsa nun sa puno. WUHOOO.
Larong baseball. Pag-uwing WAGI
PERO SAWI.
Akala ko wala
na talaga kaming pag-asa sa baseball. The game with Blue Team was resumed. At
first we really had the hard time. Strike outs. Unstable pitches. Startled
passes. Soon enough, the momentum had just been shifted to us. The lead went to
our team. We were able to score like a miachine. It was a sweet revenge from
those maaarte and mayayabang opponents, WE WON!
Nag-Game 2 na
rin kami kaso di pa tapos. Sana manalo kami ulit hehe. Slowly, we were all
loving baseball na. The bonding in the team has yet flourished and each one is
doing her part. So I went home around 6pm na. Nag-MiniStop pa kami para kumain
sandali.
Nagulat na lang
ako, nag-text siya sa akin pag-uwi ko. Akala ko kasi hindi na magpaparamdam.
Nagbuhya-buhayan?! Hay ewan ko, manhid na nga siguro ako ngayon. I didn't feel
anything at all. I guess it's really over between us and I have to move on
with what's real.
"It's not the flowers, wrapped in fancy papers."
x`cez:
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL!!!
Last Song Syndrome:
Kapag Tumibok ang Puso by Donna
Cruz.
HAHAHA.
Each day is a gift, that's why
it's called present. It doesn't matter how many gifts you receive, what matters
more is what you actually give.
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February 13 2006 | Monday |
10:04pm
"PASTOL"
Nag-pastol ako ng isang nawawalang tupa. Haha.
Gabbz has
arrived! It's so great to hear the news that he's at a nearby dormitory in UST.
Well, Gabbz is my best cousin since childhood in Batangas. I always appreciate
his comical company and though we've really grown-up, we never loose intact. So
right now, he's taking his Nursing OJT here in Manila. It's for two months, he
works 4 hours a day and somehow I realized that I will be having an added buddy
to come along.
So a while ago,
I hung out with Gabbz. Since he's new
in Manila, it had been quite dreadful to meet with him. Haha. Para talaga kong
naghahanap ng nawawalang tupa. At around 2pm, after spending a Bio review at the
library, I texted Gabbz that we were to meet at P. Noval. His dorm is just
nearby in that vicinity.
I thought I
would be able to see him immediately, there in front of the UST P. Noval gate.
He replied to me, saying that he was quite unfamiliar where that gate is. So I
told him to go to Mini Stop, baka mas madaling hanapin yun. But then, harhar! I
have forgotten that there are several Mini Stops around! As I thought, Gabbz
went to another Mini Stop [in España]! So yun, di ko naman siya masisi kahit
napapagod na kong kakahanap sa pinsan ko. Hehe. Finally, I walked towards España
and there at one corner, I saw the LOST SHEEP IN THE BIG CITY. Hehe. It was so
funny. =p
We decided to
eat together at KFC [inside UST] since I haven't took my lunch yet. In fact I
saw Sir Baccay [Philo prof] who was also falling in line. Anyways, so Gabbz was
able to tour UST, siyempre natuwa naman siya. Para talaga kong pastol. Haha.
Nag-kuwentuhan
kami at sabi niya, naninibago siya sa lahat. Sinasabi niyang ang init nung una
niyang dating sa Maynila, naiinip siya sa dorm, nagtitipid siya, naghahanap ng
taga-laba't plantsa at marami pang ka-reklamuhan sa buhay. Naawa tuloy ako.
Ang hirap nga sigurong maging baguhan sa isang lugar. Kailangan mong makiayon,
kaiilangan mong makisama. Di lahat ng gusto mo ay nagagawa mo, di lahat ng nais
mo ay nasusunod. Kaya siguro ganun na lang din ang pagka-asam ni Gabbz na
magkita kami -- naghahanap siya ng kasama, ng ka-tropa, ng pastol.
"Pasalamat ka't
di ka nakaranas ng nakikitira," (Mommy, 2006). Siguro nga. My mom has a point
there. I admit to myself that perhaps, I'll never stand the situation of
being away from home and live in other houses. It's hard, because there's no
freedom to some extent.
Nagpasundo kami
kay Aps para pumunta sa bahay. Inaliw ko muna si Gabbz, para naman di siya
ganoong ma-homesick. So yun, nag-PC kami, nakipag-chikahan siya sa kuya ko at
saka naki-plantsa. Umuwi siya bandang 6pm na, natatakot pa ngang umuwi mag-isa
eh. Hehe. Baka daw sarhan siya ng dorm [na 8pm pa naman nagsasara] at baka daw
mawala siya. Ay ewan. Ilang beses pa niyang tinatanong yung dyip na sasakyan
niya. Nasabi ko na lang kay Gabbz, "Adik ka Gabbz, adik ka!" Hahah. =p
To be away from home is like
being away from your heart.
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February 11 2006 | Saturday |
11:24am
"IMPULSITIVITY"
Oh my. Finally my long lost delusion to unwind came its way
despite the heavy days at school. I feel so great today as I spent my Friday
with a bliss.
[ Itemized na yung events,
hence not to tire the eyes of readers. Haha. Bear with my lengthy entry again
guyz =p I hope you'll be able to read all!]
THE IMPULSIVE EYES AND SPIES
School
was light last Friday. We were allowed to wear our AB shirts again since it was
the closing day of the so-called "college week" [hehe!] Anyways, I went
to UST behind the others and I just came in for my Major subject.
After ng Journ,
nag-picturan na lang kami sa loob at labas ng classroom. Wala na namang RC.
Kawawang digicam, isang makwelang cam whore session nanaman ang naganap
sa pangunguna ni Djhay. HAHA. How I loved it. Everyone was laughing out loud at
our weirdo poses.
We were at the
middle of our glee when a boggling news stroke our hears -- we got a hint that
professors do read our blogs. Well as for me, it's just okay if profs will drop
a visit here. [Hiyee po! =p] Anyway since then, I risked my entries to be
read by people since it's published in www. Eh ano naman, totoo naman ang lahat
ng sinasabi ko at wala akong tinatago. Go and scrutinize, I can never blame eyes
as conspicuous. I just felt sorry to some of my friends who were, I think,
not that ready to consent that their blogs were being read by some people. Maybe
it was too personal and it invades privacy. Come to think of it, they never gave
the URL yet it was still tracked. =) All I say is that, don't fear,
don't hesitate, to express how you really feel! Wuhoo. =p
THE IMPULSIVE BUYER
After
school, I decided to come with Arene, Madie and Dez at 168 Mall. On our way, I
decided to buy Apple Mango costing php20 at the sidewalk. It was my first time
to buy this fruit. Mind you, it's different from Indian Mango. So despite the
devil's advocate of Arene that it tastes like medicine, I still bought it and I
never regretted because darn it tasted yummy pala!
So at the mall,
nag-ikot-ikot kami para maghanap ng prizes for the kids of Boystown. First time
kong makapunta dun at grabe naman pala dun, one-stop shop! Lahat ng klase ng
produktong mura eh nandun. Kaya sabi ko na nga ba eh, ayokong sumama sa 168
kapag wala akong pera dahil maski anong mangyari, mapapabili talaga ko! So yun
na nga, nagpaka-impulsive buyer ako since I was able to bring cash. I bought
stuffs which were ALL in shades of
orange!
Dice pillow, camera keychain, ID holder, giant ball pen. HAHA. Adik.
We ate lunch at
Jolibee and while waiting for the food, Arene and I were talking about being an
impulsive buyer. Well she said that she's the other way around; It takes her
time to finally avail something because she can't decide right away if it's
worth to buy. Ang sabi ko naman, ako kasi yung taong "live life to the fullest".
Gumagastos ako sa mga bagay na gusto ko, kahit una at madaliang tingin lang.
Mahirap akong ma-please as a buyer, so once I spotted on an item, pretty much
I'm sure that I like it. Wala ng second thoughts kasi sa huli, baka mas
pagsisihan kong hindi ko kinuha ang isang bagay na nasa harapan ko na nga't abot
kamay na.
I went home
around 3pm. I just rested for a while, watched TV and chatted in YM. Gusto ko
talagang gumimik.
THE IMPULSIVE ADVENTURER
Nagyaya
akong umalis with TropaPeepz maski saan, maski anong oras, kahit kape-kape lang,
nang gabi ding yun. Look how desperate I was to unwind. Haha. It was because I
can really feel the weight of stress. So I left home around 6pm to meet with Ate
Flo at Gil Puyat. We were to enjoy at Baywalk.
Medyo
nagkasalisihan pa nga kami eh, dalawa pala ang babaan ng LRT sa Gil Puyat
Station. Haha. Pero astig talaga siyang kasama, wala kasing ka-arte2 kapag
magkikita at madaling kausap. So anyways, naglakad pa kami konti para sumakay ng
jeep papuntang Baywalk. Ang saya. Mahangin kasi nung gabing yun.
We dropped by
in front of Malate Church to meet Airnel, new pal whom I met through vleaguetk.
Hindi namin siya makita, kaya sinabi na lang naming sa may fountain magkita.
Habang naghihintay eh pinapanood namin yung rehearsals ng LovaPalooza na
gaganapin dun mamayang gabi. Hay naku, Valentine's Day is coming and I'm bitter
with love. Tsk. Nagyayaya nga si Jean [ka-tropa din] na pumunta dun kaso naku
naman, nakaka-OP at wala kaming date. Hehe.
So yun, Airnel
finally came. We got to know better while walking. Dun kami sa gilid ng bay
tumambay, presko kasi ang hangin. We waited for the other peepz at sus, si Diah
na lang pala hinihintay namin dahil si Carol di na sumipot! Hindi rin nakasama
yung iba, may kanya-kanya silang rason. Okay lang naman sa akin kahit di kami
kumpleto, basta gusto ko lang talagang magliwaliw kahit iilan lang ang ka-tropa.
=)
Kasama pala ni
Diah si Ate Tynez, first time naming maka-tropa din. Ang kulit-kulit niya nga
eh, hayok kung magpatawa. =p Dun kami kumain sa payong2 [di ko alam yung
tawag sa ganung kainan eh!]. May kumakanta pa ng acoustics. Cool. Along with my
friends, we talked under a chilly breeze and sway of the leaves around. At
talaga namang nakakagaan ng problema, mission accomplished ako sa pag-uuwind.
THE IMPULSIVE SLEEPOVER
Diah,
Ate Flo and I decided to have a sleepover at my house. Haha, ayaw talaga
maghiwalay eh noh. Around 10pm Airnel went home na, may work pa daw kasi siya at
hinintay muna naming dumating yung BF ni Ate Tynez kaya mga 12am na kami nakauwi.
Nag-jeep kami,
medyo kabado nga ako eh, lalo na kapag may mga sumasakay na lalaking grabe kung
makatingin. Kaya bute na nga lang din kasama ko pa din sina Diah, delikado na
rin kasing umuwi mag-isa.
We stopped by 7
Eleven to buy foods to munch and as we went home, we cooked them late at night!
Haha. Panalo yung specialty ni Diah, ANG ANGHANG. =p Nag-Yakisoba kami at
Century Tuna with Sky Flakes.
Manonood pa
sana kami ng DVD kaso pagod na rin kaming tatlo. Humiga na lang kami at saka
nag-kuwentuhan. Grabe 4:30am na kami nagkatulugan, tawa talaga ko nang tawa sa
topic namin! Di ko yun makakalimutan at noon lang ulit ako nakatawa nang
matagal.
At kahit puyat,
maaga pa rin kaming nagising. Paluwas pa kasing Cavite si Diah kaya umalis na
sila ni Ate Flo ng 7:30am. Hinatid ko sila sa Mayon St. at pagbalik ko ng bahay,
tulog ako ulit! Haha. What a day.
***
So yun, back to
normal nanaman buhay ko ngayon. Marami na ulit gagawin pero siguro mas handa na
ko kasi nakapag-ease impulse na ko. I just feel so contended that I was able
to do the things which I really wanted to do and somehow I felt like I'm not
alone coz I have good times which I can look back into.
To have a happy life, you got
to dance like there's no one watching, dream like you'll leave forever and live
like you're gonna die tomorrow.
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February 09 2006 | Thursday |
06:00pm
"THE DOMINO EFFECT"
Thank God I'm done with my Speech Lecture-Demo a while ago and I'm
glad I executed with a chin pointed up. =) Now I just have to think about the
Biology report and the NSTP Boystown Visit. I'm midway there, konting hinga na
lang. Gusto ko na kasing mag-unwind talaga. Hehe.
The past few
days were in deed a misery. To be honest, I cried for so many times talaga out
of the blue. I just
don't know, maybe it was my easiest outlet to express how heavy it was
inside. I choose to confine those miseries as hidden. I prefer to keep it
under wraps, but what's obvious here is that I WANT TO DISTANCE MYSELF FROM
THAT PERSON ALREADY.
Problems had come along just like a domino-effect; that because of one
occurrence, the other event was disturbed as well. It really did and it sucked
in the nerve. The bad flow had continued as I almost went down on my knees.
I really had bad mornings and sleepless nights. Siguro pasalamat na lang ako sa
mga kaibigang totoo't hindi ako iniwan, pinatatag nila ang mahinang tulad ko.
Mas natutunan kong maging optimistic. Diah, one of my close buddies once told
me, "Never hurt yourself because in the end, you would appear to be the loser."
So I guess I'm
ready to face everything right now.
x`cez1: My sister has gone
to Dubai last Wednesday. Of course my mom was again teary eyed and a bit sad as
my sister went away. Her room was vacated, I just use it as my study room. So
somehow I seem to miss her as well. Wala ng patambay-tambay sa loob ng bahay. I
was so stupid, I chose not to say goodbye to her and I know I'll regret on this
in the future.
x`cez2: UST is not playing
for the next V-league Season, said Coach August [as told by a UST fan to me] to
focus more in the UAAP. I was just surprised, I had high spirits pa naman to
enjoy the next vleague. I confirmed it to Ate Rox this morning and she said the
same thing. So I guess I'm gonna split into two then: one side rooting for
Letran [wuhoo go Diah!] and the other goes to the still-anonymous team of Ate
Rox. Ang panget, hindi naka-UST jersey si Ate Rox. Hmmp.
Are you strong or are you weak?
At the end of the road, is the
price you seek.
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February 06 2006 | Monday |
08:24pm
"YET ANOTHER MONOTONY"
AB Week DAW ngayon. Haha. Well most of us in class can't feel it
since the activities are yet so usual. Despite the good college shirt
that I was wearing a while ago and upon hearing the snares around the building,
I still chose to attend my Journ class instead of coming into the parade. It has
been a boring Monday in USTe.
Madie and I
went to Boystown in Marikina to schedule our planned feeding program for NSTP
this coming Saturday. I had second thoughts whether to accompany Madie or not
but at the end, friendship was thicker than boredom. Pero sa totoo lang,
inaantok kasi ako sa layo ng biyahe. Bukod pa diyan, ilang linggo din kaming
pabalik-balik sa may Cainta [para sa NSTP] kaya nakakasawa na rin yung pagsakay
ng LRT 2. Dahil sa mga community works na yan, umiiksi ang attention span ko.
Inside the FX,
heading to Boystown, I was then joking Madie that I want to ride a bump car and
asked her to join me. Of course she just laughed at it, knowing that I always
poke fun, but somehow I really wanted to ride. Gusto ko lang magliwaliw, kahit
sandali. I want to set off for a unique activity. Too bad it was a
too silly and on-the-spot idea.
My craziness
didn't stop there. I texted Ate Flo around 11:30am that I wanted to hang out
right away at Green Belt with her. Of course it didn't happen since she has job
at that time. Ewan ko, kahit alam kong marami pa kong pending works sa bahay,
gusto ko pa ring umalis. Bigla tuloy akong nalungkot. Hindi ko magawa ang mga
gusto ko.
I was so
desperate with what I was feeling and I realized that life has gone boring. I do
things over and over again. There are no new things to reflect distinctiveness.
It's like being in a world where there are both blacks and whites but I was
in the gray area. I am within a dilemma where I don't know what I really want to
do. I want to enjoy, but I don't want loose achievements. I want to work,
but I don't want to toil myself hard. Much that I wanted to escape from
monotony, the situation right now caught me in chains. It's hard.
Nakakapanggigil sa inis.
Ate Rox was my
text mate that moment when I was about to become teary eyed. Talk about right
timing once again. She immediately knew how I felt and I was just so comfortable
telling it to her. She then joked me saying, "Whaah Shelly ako din tuloy worried
na sa future!" Ang kulit. So somehow I felt like having an immediate company.
And though I failed to ride the bump car with Madie, or have a lunch at Green
Belt with Ate Flo, at least there came Ate Rox to the rescue and she who mended
my craziness. Somehow I stroke a better perspective. =)
Tired of getting tied, of doing
what's required. Is life a mere routine, in a greater scheme of things?
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February 03 2006 | Friday |
11:14pm
"USAPANG NUMERO"
No class today, it's the Defense Day for our seniors.
So I worked on our Statistics Research along with Madie, Mau and Dez today. They
went in our house around 9am. At dahil Math-related topic, then again, I had
dreadful moments.
I really had
a hard time coping up with the what we were doing. The calculators were at
front, the yellow papers were scattered, so as the books and the formulas. I
remained motionless. How come I'm so poor in numbers! Grr.
When Ma'am
Ledesma taught the group on how to solve these stuffs, I wasn't around. Bulok na
nga ko sa Math lalo pa kong naagnas dahil wala ako nung tinuro. Bitter. Naaliw
na lang ako pag-ddrawing. I guess it was my way of escaping from the world of
numbers. I asked myself how come I can draw, I can write, I can play sports but
when it comes to Mathematics, I end up dim-witted. Nakalutang sa ere ang utak ko
habang pilit na ginagawa ang mga inuutos nina Dez at Mau.
My three pals
went home around 4pm na. Na-enjoy ko naman kahit papaano ang araw, kasi ang
kukulit nilang kasama. Maghapon kaming kumain -- nagluto ng corn beef, Ma-Ling,
at lumamon ng turon/banana cue. Haha. Ironically, I felt kind of tired whereas I
did almost nothing.
Anyway, I went
up stairs as I chit chat with my mom. She told me that my sister is going to
Dubai already on the 8th. Aba, buti naman. Hehe. Ang tagal na kasi niyang
batugan at tambay ng bahay. =p Tinanong ko sa kanya kung magkano ang pocket
money ni Yel. She said $350. Right away I was trying to convert it, out of
curiosity. So I got a calculator, pindot.. compute.. Pero napansin ko,
mag-coconvert na nga lang naguluhan pa ako haha! I was trying to get the value
in Peso and in Dubai currency. My mom jokingly bawled at me, "Sus maria! Ka-engot!"
I tried to
answer the homework in Stat to consume time. So I sat at the living room,
concentrated, as the clock fell. Anak ng tipaklong! Naiinis ako't di ko
maunawaan yung mga tanong! Hay naku. Di ko alam kung tatanga-tanga ba ko o hindi
talaga naituro ng Prof ko yun. Sana may batong nalulunok na lang para maging
Super Math Whiz ako.
Lokohan sa AB,
we have been taking AB courses because we hate Math. Somehow it is true. I'd
rather write and read than to solve and analyze. Pero naisip ko, maski iwasan ko
pa palagi ang Math, lagi pa rin yang nandiyan. It will forever haunt you. Sa
bangko, sa tindahan, sa araw-araw. Hay naku, sana dumating ang isang araw na
henyo ako sa Math. Hehe. Asa.
Got power from your own
weaknesses?
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February 02 2006 | Thursday |
07:12pm
"THERE'S FEAR AND
IT'S A FACTOR"
Boring Thursday class. I was quite thrilled pa naman
to learn on Mencius, but my Philosophy professor was absent! Meanwhile, we just
wrote something [on Nature of Politics] in Theology and for the last subject,
Ma'am Rodriguez' 3-hour class was yet another free period. Hehe.
Adik itong si
Macky [my classmate], nagdala ba naman ng Playstation 2 sa classroom at saka
humiram ng TV set sa AVR! Haha. Habang wala si Sir Baccay [Philo class], we
played Excalibur, a two-player fighting game. So at first I was kinda
hesitant to play, for I might loose. My classmates might laugh at me that I
don't know how to hold a PS2 joystick. I had never played with a PS2 coz too
bad, I don't have one. =/ So when my turn came, Djhay was my 1st opponent. It
was so cool, I had beat him in 3 straight rounds, a guy classmate pa. Haha. John
challenged me next and yeah, I won against him too! In fact I was down twice yet
I was able to win thrice in a row and so I won. It's crazy and we all had fun.
Ruben and
Kristine were both festive a while ago, for they had surpassed the first
screening of the Varsitarian [UST's official school paper]. Honestly, I felt
quite envy at them. I've always wanted to be a sports writer in the Varsitarian
but many things have been hindering me to do so. Alam kong screening nun sa
Varsi [last November], pero sumabay naman yung petsa sa birthday ko kaya di ako
naka-attend! Bukod pa diyan, hindi pa ako ganung ka-determined. Magulo talaga,
kasi 1) baka di ko kayanin yung mga gawain 2) baka di ako makapasa 3) baka
mawalan ako ng panahon sa ibang bagay. Hay. Kung ngayon pa nga lang eh
pino-problema ko na ang maraming bagay, paano pa kung pasok ako sa Varsitarian.
Haoson and I
were sharing in reading the Varsitarian's newest issue a while ago. We read that
they're looking for Photojournalists. Oh my, besides writing, I also wanted
photography. Haoson had convinced me to join him and get an application at the
office. So we went there along with Kristine. While walking, Kristine kept on
telling me how come I don't join central extra-curricular activities whereas I
have the potentials. I just smiled and was left with no words to say.
Opportunities
come my way. I believe these are huge factors towards broader roads in the
future. I want to explore many things, be into all sorts of fields and meet
numerous people. I disgust myself because sometimes, fear becomes a factor in
achieving my opportunities. I guess I am extremely cautious of trying something
blurred in my thoughts. I play safe. I end up with the typical. That's why I
never gain the bizarre things in life. Stupid me.
Chances are like shooting
stars. Grab its stellar charm midway in the sky for once it had landed, the
beauty and essence are gone.
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February 01 2006 | Wednesday |
07:35pm
"RICE COOKER"
School has gone crazy with series of distinctive events.
Just like a rice cooker where pressure makes rice cook easily. Walang pinagkaiba
sa mga nangyayari ngayon: pressure can cook conflicts and worse,
contentions.
"Kapag
kiniskis ang dalawang bato, nakakaliyab. Mahirap maipit sa mga nagbabanggaang
bato."
For the past few days, we have
been all hyped-up in school. It all boils down to school requirements. We can't
help but be pressured. Everyone seems to be at the height of their emotions
because of stress. It's so hard to witness division among former clusters and
yet it's harder to be stuck in the middle. Minsan di mo alam kung kanino ka
papanig o kung may papanigan ka ba. Parehong may tama, parehong may mali,
parehong panig hinihingan ka ng pagkampi. United Nations ang dating.
Ilang araw na
ang parinigan at bulungang napapakinggan sa tuwing papasok ako ng school. Ang
saklap tignang nasa iisang classroom kami at magkakaklase pa pero may iba't
ibang sinasabi't nagkakasiraan. Nasimulan sa mababaw na mga rason,
nagsanga-sanga at lumalim na lang sa paulit-ulit na pag-ungkat. Simpleng bagay
napapalaki. Simpleng mali, napapansin. Lahat emosyonal. Lahat nagsasalita. May
iiyak na lang bigla. May sisigaw na lang bigla. May tatahimik. May iimik nang
patalikod. Magugulat ka na lang, nagkalabasan na ng totoong nadarama't nakikita.
Siguro tulad
nga ng kanin na bago mo makain, kailangang palamigin. Hindi lahat ng bagay
sinusubo agad. Mahirap mag-usap kapag parehong nagsasalita. Mahirap makinig
kapag parehong di nakikinig. At higit sa lahat, mahirap makipag-ayos kapag
nasa ere pa ang mga emosyon. Hindi kasi rason ang napapairal, sarili lang ang
napapakinggan. =)
Alleluia! >8<
Ang gulo ng mundo noh?
Pakiayos mo nga! ^.^
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