September 29 2005 | Thursday | 10:11pm

"THE SORE LOSER"

   OMG, di ko mapapalampas to! Tama nga si Sir Atalia, "nakakainis ang mga mayayaman." Na-realize ko kaninang di sa lahat ng panahon, pera ang didikta sa kalinisan ng pagkatao.

    I was watching UAAP Finals awhile ago. It was a very exciting match-up between FEU and DLSU. The Tamarraws won by two points, 75-73. Arwind Santos of FEU was damn great - 3 points shots, rebounds, steals. Uggh, impeccable. Not to mention of course that every time he plays, it is an evident attitude of his to be a real sportsman. I think I never saw him do trash talks or hit an opponent intentionally. Actually, I can predict that he's going to be the MVP once more. Beyond his plays, I guess he's one man who knows how to play a clean game. Di ko lang talaga ma-take yung ginawa sa kanya kanina. Here's what happened.

    After the game, Arwind was walking out of the court already, alongside was Joseph Yeo (of DLSU). I wasn't sure if Yeo was saying something bad against Arwind (mala-trash talk siguro) and later, a man on a green shirt went between them. Astang mang-aawat ba kahit di naman talagang pisikal na nag-aaway sina Yeo at Arwind. Pagkalagpas ng mamang yun (Manny Salgado, team manager of DLSU), bigla ba namang binatukan si Arwind Santos tapos sabay alis nang mabilis! PUCHA ANO YUN! Dun na nagkagulo. Arwind kept his calmness and he never fought back. Nagulat talaga ko. Di ko akalaing ang isang Lasalitang edukado at TEAM MANAGER pa, eh gagawa ng ganung cheap shot.

    Nakakahiya at nakakainis. Ang yayaman nga nila, pero napaka-arogante. Nailalabas na ba ngayon ang tunay nilang kulay? Naisip ko tuloy ang agwat ng mayaman (DLSU) at mahirap (FEU). Talagang napakita ang panlalamang ng mayayaman sa mahihirap. Binabatuk-batukan na lang ang isang taga-FEU. Di lang sa isang larong isports nangyayari yan eh, sa totoong buhay ganun din. I don't want to generalize that all Lasallians are like that but how come they've chosen such dirty old man to be their team manager who acted as an unethical person? Representative siya ng DLSU, sana mas naging extra-careful siya sa mga inasta niya. Ang sagwa. Napakaganda ng laro pero binasura ng isang pikong tao.

    Lalo tuloy akong nainis sa mga mayayaman. Di sa lahat ng oras, hari sila. At wala silang karapatang manlamang porket ba nakadikit ang sangdamakmak na pera sa katawan nila. "That's bullsh*t" - Sir Atalia. Hehe.

Ang pikon ay talo.

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September 28 2005 | Wednesday | 08:25pm

"UST + STC =  MEMORIES TO HOLD ON TO"

   I really feel so tired. I didn't get enough sleep last night and too bad, my day required me not to recover from stress. It was a long day and indeed, Shelly's drastic adventures have given rest assured apprehensions again.

    As expected, I experienced total dusk during the Math exams >.< I cried again after the exams. I knew for a fact to never cry over spilt milk but I guess the milk had spoiled me badly. Naiinis kasi akong pinag-gugulan ko ng panahong pag-aralan yun kagabi, napuyat na ako't lahat-lahat, pero patuloy pa rin ang pagtataka ko kung bakit kulang pa rin ang effort na nilaan ko. Hay. Then again, I became a pessimist and perfectionist student. Much that I wanted to be a trying-hard-to-pass student, I've become a fully dumb kiddo. I'm so frustrated with myself. Hinahanap ko ngayon ang rason kung bakit yung ibang tao'y kayang-kaya ang Math samantalang ako ay hindi. By the way, thanks for the taps and show of sentiments from my 2jrn3 buddies awhile ago. I really felt the warmth and indeed, I recovered a bit through your modes of concern.

    Sarili ko din ang nagpatahan sa tumatangis kong kalooban. Ako din mismo ang pumawi ng luha't tumingala mula sa 30-minutong pagkakayuko nung Computer class. I fought with emotions and said to myself that I will find means to revenge for that dreadful Math quiz. Journ and Natsci subjects came. I really tried to be okay, not only for myself but for the people around me as well. Ayoko din kasing kinakawaan ako nang matagal at mas gusto kong ako yung nagpapasaya kaysa sila pa ang pilit na nagpapasaya sa akin.

    Medyo nanumbalik na ang sigla nung nag-lunchtime na. Kumain pala kami sa <M>omo's at aba, napapadalas! Bukod sa masarap ang liempo dun, naging prospect ko kasi yung may-ari. Wahaha. Kaso, natapos ang lahat kanina nang malaman ko kay John na may gf na pala siya. Lolz. Lagi na lang ganun! Halos lahat na lang ng mga may dating sa akin ay hindi na puwede Speaking of which, I was reminded if what had happened last Tuesday PE Class. Napagtanto ko na lang habang naglalaro ng basketball na crush ko si Jerry. Bukod sa ang galing-galing niya talaga maglaro, gwapo na, makulit pa. [di nga lang tall guy =/] Nung Tuesday ko nalaman na nagkakalabuan na sila ng gf niya. In a way, it's a "yes buti nga wala na sila!" reaction but then, he approached me with a bleeding heart. He was seeking advice from me and asking series of out-of-this-world-broken-hearted questions which really brought me into a realization that I must not prolong the feeling for him. I would rather be a real friend to keep company and help him get along with his loved one again. Hay. Naisip ko kasing panahon na lang ang magsasabi kung kailan at kung sino yung darating na tamang "siya".

    So anyways, I stayed for a while in UST library to wait for KC. Nagpasama kasi akong papuntang STC dahil kailangan ko ng Content Area Specialist (CAS) for my research paper in English. My first option was Ma'am SJ [Science Coordinator] but then, she wasn't around. I texted Ma'am Tilaon [adviser ko nung 2nd yr & homeroom teacher ko] last night but she failed to reply. Kaya kanina, personal na akong pumunta para ipaalam sa kanya yung tungkol sa research. Mga 2:30pm kami nakarating sa STC at tahimik pa ang HS area. Napaisip na naman kami ni KC ng mga nakalipas namin. Haha. It's so nice to rekindle once more. So anyway, una naming nakita si Ma'am Valencia. Pinahanap ko si Ms T [Ma'am Tilaon] sa kanya kaso wala daw sa Faculty Room. Pumunta muna kaming Guidance Office para magpalamig hehe. [ang init-init kasi sa STC!] Naka-chikahan naman namin dun si Ma'am Helen [guidance counselor ko nung 4th year]. So yun, sobrang natuwa ako sa mga kuwento niya tungkol sa Hongkong at China. Waah, dun din kasi ako papunta. Somehow, I got some preview of what's to expect from these countries. Nakita ko din doon si Ate Che, Ma'am Valdivia and yeah, napadalaw din si Judy [former Theresian, batch 05]. Later on, dumating si Ma'am Tsaby [adviser ko nung 4th year] kaya naibalik ko na yung hiniram kong book. Ang dami-dami ko sanang gustong i-kuwento sa kanya pero parang nagmamadali siya. Di man lang siya naupo sa harap namin para mangamusta o manggulo man lang. Sayang naman. Minsan na lang kami magka-panahon nang ganun, di pa kami nagka-kumustahan. Nakaka-miss na rin kasi yung madalas na tawanan at chismisan. Iba na siguro talaga ang panahon.

    Speaking of changes, people had noticed a lot of changes in me. Ma'am Formalejo said that I even got taller [though my shoes were flat already].  And yeah, it's kinda funny but many people kept on asking if I have a boyfriend right now. [Blooming daw kasi ako?] Natawa pa ko kanina sa jeep nang may isang grupo ng mga Letranistang guys. Katabi ko kasi yung isang guy tapos parang naglolokohan sila na, "uy sige na tanungin mo na pangalan niya. crush mo di ba.." Wahaha, in fairness, cute yung katabi ko ^-^ Hmmf, sayang di niya tinanong pangalan ko! LOLZ. At the end, I told myself that everyone really undergoes certain changes. Each one has his or her own metamorphosis. It goes as a normal occurrence and people just get surprised because they hardly noticed your before.

    Nung mag-bell na't uwian na, pinuntahan na namin si Ms T. sa Bio Lab. Sinabi ko na yung pabor ko at buti naman pumayag siya. Bumalik kami sa harap ng Faculty Room at natagpuan ko si Franz [3rd year friend]. Nasalubong ko din si Nia [4th year friend] na super kulit na naman hehe. Marami pa kong nakabatian at totoong nakakataba ng pusong naaalala pa nila ko, kahit yung mga profs. I felt so at home and yes, I wont' forget that conversation with Ma'am Gino Cruz.

    Pauwi na sana kami kaso nakita ko si Ms Gino. Nagsimula na naman ang lokohan moments. We used to be like that and yeah, she was one of my fave teachers talaga. By the way she was my 2nd year FILIPINO teacher and because of one person before [Si "Angel"], we really got close. Nag-kumustahan kami at talaga namang natawa ko sa pag-uusap namin. Ang kulit namin pareho at na-miss ko yun! In fact, I kept on telling her how I missed her but she kept on fighting back my sweet words saying, "Sus Shelly, saksakin ko yang ngalangala mo, di naman ako ang na-mimiss mo! (laughs)" WAHAHA talaga. Iniisip ng lahat na si "Angel" pa rin! Siya ang nakaraan at waah, ilang taon ko na siyang binaon noh. For real. Pero siguro nga, tama si KC - na hindi mo basta-bastang mapapabura sa isip ng karamihan ang isang taong napadikit na sa buhay mo nang maraming taon. Tinawanan ko na lang ang bawat panloloko niya kaya okay lang. Buti na lang nagkabangga kami ni Ms Gino kanina at talaga namang nawala pansamantala ang lungkot ko. Hahaha.

    Sa gate 3, nasalubong ko sina Odessa [3rd year friends din] at tumigil kami sandali. We used to be close buddies talaga kahit di kami magka-batch. Na-miss ko tuloy yung pagtambay ko tuwing uwian tapos ang dami kong kasamang iba-ibang year levels. Sa kanila mo kasi ma-rerealize yung iba't ibang bagay dahil nga sa iba-iba sila ng experiences. Maya-maya, umalis na rin kami kasi hapon na. Ayoko pa sanang umuwi talaga kaso ang dami pang gagawin. Nahihiya na rin ako kay KC at baka may mga school works pa din siya. Sometimes it's so hard to end good laughs, knowing that soon, you have to experience again full-blown frowns. So anyways, kumain muna kami sa Mcdo. Hehe. Nakauwi ako sa bahay ng 5:00pm. Napagod talaga ko, what a day.

There's no formula which can equate the absolute value of happiness.

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September 25 2005 | Sunday | 07:02pm

"GIPIT"

   Kakagaling ko lang sa labas. Bumili ako ng battery sa Mercury Drug Store para sa tape recorder kong gagamitin ko bukas (for the community interview) at kanina ko na-realize na isang iglap lang pala ang pera ngayon.

    The Ever Ready Battery cost P29.00 and I also bought 2 packs of Yakult worth p35.00 each. P99.00 yung bill. Nagulat lang talaga ko kasi 3 items lang pero ganun na agad yung presyo. Pinabili rin pala ako ng nanay ko ng mani (worth p5.00) at dahil sa p100.00 lang ang binigay niyang pera, ako pa ang abonado para mabili yung mani! She even asked for a change and I just laughed at her saying, "Asa ka pa, eh barya na lang ang P100.00 ngayon! (laughs) May utang ka momi na LIMANG PISO!" ^.^ Natawa naman ako sa sinabi niyang, "Limang piso na lang di mo pa pinalampas?" Haha. Yun na nga eh, taghirap ang buhay kaya bawat barya ay may halaga. =)

    But that truth was, I bought something that's why I demanded to get the p5.00. Bumili na naman kasi ako ng internet card dahil isang linggo lang ay ubos na! Nahihiya naman akong humingi ulit ng P90.00 sa nanay ko pambili lang nun kaya nanggaling na mismo sa bulsa ko. Yung cellphone load ko kasi na P100.00 ay hiningi ko na sa kanya kahapon. Dapat talaga eh mapapatagal ko ng 2 weeks yung Globe Card ko kaso.. wahaha ang eng-eng ko't tri-ny ko yung Globe Unlimited Call kuno. Inakala kong mala-Sun Cellular yung promo tapos yun pala eh may bawas na P10.00 per call! Waah. Eh nakailang tawag ako nun? Kaya talaga namang isang iglap lang ang P100-load ko. =( Sayang din yun lalo na sa panahon ngayon.

    Nung mga nakalipas na araw, na-feel ko talagang gipit ako sa pera. As in. Ang dami ko kasing pinupuntahan o di kaya'y lagi akong nag-sstay ng late sa school kaya nagagastos ko yung iba kong pera. I checked my piggy bank awhile ago and I was surprised to only save P500.00! Waah. Lagi ko kasing binabawasan kaya wala na talaga kong naiipon. Gusto ko kasing may naipon kahit konti para pag pumunta ko ng ibang bansa sa sembreak, eh may sarili akong pera. =) At saka, wahaha malapit na rin mag-Pasko. Marami yata akong reregaluhan. Hay. Kailangan ko talagang magtipid ngayon. Siguro mas magiging conscious ako sa mga expenditures ko araw-araw and I'll try to separate the wants from the needs.

x`cez: Na-publish na yung web article about kay Ate Rox. Siyempre ako yung writer wuhoo. So proud again of my work. I feel so accomplished today. I checked it out awhile ago, the write-up was all good and yeah, how I loved the page layout - color orange! Haha. Pinabasa ko sa mom ko and indeed she was happy again for me. I also told about it to my friends and I hope they like it. The content is far more better than in MOD kasi dati, talo ako sa space kaya parang bitin. Ngayon, di na ko ginipit sa substance. =) Sana magustuhan din siyempre ni Ate Rox (kahit di purple yung kulay ng page wahaha. ;p adik kasi yung sa purple eh.)

if you wanna check for yourselves the article, here it is: =) http://www.tomasinoweb.com/v3/innerpage.asp?type=GoUste&view=231

Kapag nagipit, matutong mamilipit.

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September 23 2005 | Friday | 08:12pm

"LONG WEEKDAYS"

   Much that I wanted to update how did my days go by, simply I cannot. Recently, again I've been very hectic. Yes, gruesomely busy. Thank God it's Friday today and I'll get to rest a bit (ngayong gabi lang harhar). Somehow I was able to grab the chance to think about what had happened for the past days and rekindle thoughts on it.

    Wednesday - We shut for our Theology report. Buti naa lang wala si Sir Olie kaya medyo maaga-aga kaming natapos at sa UST lang kami nag-shoot. Man, I was so hungry right after the shooting! My tummy ached hard so I took out lunch courtesy of BK and ate it at home. I took a nap and it was so obvious that I really got tired. I woke up so sluggish and yet I required myself to review for the History exams which was on Korea. Dinownload ko pa sa email yung notes, kinopy-paste, pri-nint; kaya talaga namang nakaka-ubos ng lakas.

    Thursday - TTh schedule so I thought I was gonna goo through another humdrum class hour and to think that after class, we have to go to Balingasa for the Filipino research. It was as if I don't want to go to school. So anyways, I was quite wrong pala. Sir Atalia as our 1st period professor, brought to us an interesting teaser which was indeed very funny (and yeah, so gross! Haha!) I really laughed hard. Nung Theo naman, oh-so typical reporting ulit. Nung History, quiz tapos nanood kami ng Sassy Girl (kakatawa! kaso di namin natapos yung film =/) English class, we tackled a new topic and afterwards, we just went to the library for the continuation of the research. Waah. Speaking of that, I'm trying to squeeze in all the school works which includes the requirement for that subject! On Tuesday we have to pass the Key Idea Paragraphs plus the Support Paragraphs already! Mind you, I haven't started anything yet. I don't know if I have enough resources at hand because I can't find time to visit the library again for some serious researching. Nung kasing pumunta kami, eh wala lang kaming ginawa kundi magtawanan nina Scent, Judy, Vet at Anne. Haha.

    Our mindset as well was on the community visit that we were about to accomplish for that day. And in fact, yes we finally did it successfully. Akala kasi namin, wala pa kaming makukuhang lugar para sa interviewing. Buti na lang, sinubukan ko yung Balingasa, which is the community of our helpers. Before, we kept on asking for an interview and contact with GABRIELA (our topic is on Women), but they merely responded. Since we were really running out of time, we had to find an alternative. Haha, I really had fun with my group mates. By the way, when we were eating lunch, eh dun din kumain si Christian Luanzon! <3 Waah. Nayanig ang Thursday afternoon ko kasi ang gwapo niya haha. Sa gitna ng nakakabuang na mga sandali ay may mga pagkakataon din palang titigil ang oras dahil sa isang magandang pangyayari. Wahahah. ;p So anyways, dahil kasama na naman si Scent, talaga namang walang dull moments. Maya't maya na lang ang tawanan! Ginagaya na naman niya sina Ma'am Anonas at Sir Tokie habang nasa jeep kami!

    When we reached the destination, ako muna yung nakipag-usap. Nagpunta ko sa loob ng bahay nina Ate Inday (hipag ng helper namin) tapos sinamahan niya kami sa Brgy. Hall. So yun, napag-usapang babalik na lang kami sa Lunes para sa individual interviews. Mabait naman si Capt. Madrilego kaya di kami nahirapan at nalaman naming Thomasian din siya! (Cool!) Pagod na pagoddd talaga ko pag-uwi ko ng bahay. Ang dami kasing lakaran at biyaheng naganap. Gumawa pa ako ng Powerpoint para sa Computer Class kaya ang sakit-sakit ng ulo ko! Ayoko sanang pumasok kinabukasan kaso.. Math ang 1st subject! Waaah. Nakaka-paranoid na talaga.

    Kanina naman, tinuloy namin yung shooting sa Theology at buti naman tapos na. =) Special thanks to Chuchie for being the biggest extra of our presentation hehe. Dito kami nag-shooting sa bahay kaya kakapagod lalo. In fairness, nakakatuwa yung ginawa namin at natapos kami bago mag-3pm. Gusto ko sana matulog kaso gutom na gutom pala ko! Inatake na naman ako ng ulcer >.< Hay. Buti at galing ng SM ang mom & brother ko kaya may dala silang food. Hehe. Bukas ko na lang sisimulan yung sa English dahil ang sama talaga ng pakiramdam ko. x.x

No matter how things are badly given, always find time to appreciate the petty smiles and focus on the  good side of life. Life is too short to be wasted on gibberish troubles.

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September 20 2005 | Tuesday | 09:27pm

"THE ALMOST GLOOMY TUESDAY"

    I was crying last night. Hay. Then again, I felt the pressure of being a student and because it has been too much. I had no choice but to let my tears flow. I tried to solve the Math problems that were given to us before. DAMN. I just don't know how come I cannot get it! The problems are really confusing and just to give a shot of its scope, it's all about Ordinary & Annuity Due which will really slaughter your nerves in determining which is A [principal amount], or S [future value], etc.. Grr talaga. I have been trying my best to be patient and yet I ended up last night, wetting the scratch paper with tears. ='( I felt so delirious as I went upstairs and I gave up with a heavy feeling. Gusto ko sanang sabihin sa nanay ko kaso nyak, baka lalo lang akong asarin kasi Accountant siya. Lagi niyang sinasabing, "Sus, analysis lang yan di mo pa makuha.." Hay! Wish ko lang di ba magaling din akong mag-analyze ng mga numero! Yun siguro ang di ko namana sa kanya at ewan ko ba kung saan napunta yung genes ng nanay ko in terms of being a Math whiz. Hayyy..

    Kaya gumising ako kaninang dala-dala pa rin yung lungkot. I was so lazy to wake up and as I entered the room, the more I became slouchy. In fact, Arene and the rest were joking me how come I wasn't in the mood to play jokes or to be the usual Shelly who's so talkative. I chose to be quiet and for some time, I became so grumpy especially during Theo time when Haoson & Kristine were debating on their seats about God's existence as the reporting goes on. I was trying to listen to the report but these 2 classmates sounded so annoying for me at that time but actually, they were really not that noisy. Madali lang akong nairita kanina, dala na nga rin siguro ng problema. Hay. Asar na asar din ako kanina kay Macky nung History kasi nagpapa-pansin nanama't kung saan-saan pa nilalagay yung projector! Masakit kasi sa ulo yun eh, na kinakalikot pa yung projector gayong di na naman kelangang galawin. Hay talaga. Buti na lang taga-cease fire ng temper ko si Madie.

    Unti-unti na lang nabago ang lahat nang mag-English time. Sa kabila ng pag-iisip kong ang bulok-bulok ko sa Math, may ibang himalang bumaba sa akin. Binigay na ni Sir Tokie yung long quiz at prelims. Akala ko talaga bagsak ako sa prelims. Hay! Nakahabol pa ko! [31/80 ako. 27 ata ang passing score eh. Ang baba ng scores namin di ba?! hay..] Yung long quiz naman, akalain mong ako pa naging highest. Wala lang. Natuwa lang ako kasi makapasa ka nga lang eh okay na, paano pa kapag nalaman mong highest ka? [48/80 - yan na ang highest. grabehan di ba..] Ayun, diyan ako napa-"thank God I survived". Later on, Chuchie stared at me, called my attention and joked me as the student who got a high score. By the way, last night, she was the one I talked with regarding my problem. Since then, she has been telling me that there's nothing to worry about - that if I cannot take the pressures anymore, I don't have to push myself hard. Somehow she has a point there - that I must not treat myself as a punching bag but then, I rest backed the fact that it's much harder to accept that you were doing well in the prelim and yet as you go to the finals, your performances are getting poorer. Masakit yun, na para bang nilagpak ka mula sa itaas ng 100-store building. Ang layo na ng narating mo tapos hindi mo rin pala maaabot ang mga ginusto mo. Hay.

    Much that I don't want to be grade-conscious, I admit that right now, I'm emulating the attitude. I'm trying hard to focus more on the effort, rather than the resulting effort. I mean, I'm not a Ms. Perfect who is and must require herself to be good at everything. I know for a fact that I have my own weaknesses as well, that I'm poor in Math, and it is through acceptance that I would be able to gain the learning to work harder. On the other hand, I also realized for this day that no matter how bad it has been, God will always bring a sheer of sunlight. I got satisfied on my English tests, my outline paper was also well-approved, and yeah, we ate lunch with a smile on my face already. I was with Madie, Arene, Dez, Ruben, Queennie & Karen. We had a funny moment together as we ate because I played jokes on Ruben whom we thought as a quiz master. I was trying to ask silly questions on him and see if he could answer it still. [Ex: Can you name all the Senators of the Philippines in DESCENDING order. Z-A!] Lolz. Thanks for the quality time guys. My tummy ached hard again. Hahaha.

    Nag-PE ako ng 3-5pm, okay naman & nothing much. Inaantok ako actually nung mga panahong yun kaya habang naglalaro, eh di ko ma-receive nang maayos yung pasa ng bola. Nanalo pa rin kami kasi ang gagaling nina Jerry [team captain namin]. Hehe. Nabuhay na lang ang dugo ko dahil kay Dolly [1st yr Pharma, she's younger than me but we're the closest in that PE class] kasi ang kokorni ng jokes niya. Aba siyempre, pumatok yun sa akin kasi corny din ako haha. Natawa pa ko lalo kasi aliw na aliw siyang i-joke yun sa halos lahat ng kaklase namin sa PE kahit ang korni2. Nung pauwi na, bumili muna kaming tubig habang naka-chika ko sandali si Che [Balse] who was buying there too. Kinamusta ko siya tapos tinanong ko yung games nila. Wala ako masyadong nakuha sa mga sinabi niya kasi ang hina ng boses niya. Nagkahiyaan na naman yata uli kasi ang tagal naming di nag-usap. Hehe.

Try and try until you succeed.

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September 17 2005 | Saturday | 09:14pm

"SCHOOL PRIDE"

    Umikot ang araw ko kakaabang ng 2pm sa relos ko. Sayang talaga di ako nakapanood ng live kanina sa Araneta Colisuem pero kahit nagka-ganun, di naman ako natinag sa pagsuporta sa school ko! OMG! A while ago, UST then again made history. Waah. The UST Salinggawi Dance Troupe bagged the win! This is our fourth straight time as Nestle Cheerdance Competition champs! It really mesmerizes me. Pagpunta ko sa IPEA sa Lunes, may dadalawin na naman kaming bagong trophy. Hehe. This is one event which really makes one Thomasian proud of his or her Alma Mater. And yes, I am one of them.

    Actually I was able to watch UST's routine last Thursday already in the Pep Rally but I just don't know how come I never get tired of watching it over and over again! I taped the Cheerdance competition through my videocam and in fact, I was able to capture some photos too. Kahit medyo malabo, eh natuwa pa rin akong kaka-click. The routine enclosed it all - perfect music, synchronization, clean execution of stunts, high throws and most especially, it confined the crowd's funk. Thanks to St. Thomas Aquinas that the heavens rose at España side. Kahit di kami mayaman tulad ng ADMU & DLSU, kahit di kami sing-talino ng UP, kahit wala kaming mala-FEU sa basketball ngayon, paborito naman kaming paulanan ng biyaya sa cheerdance! This thing has been one school pride to note. My oh my, I really had goose bumps as I saw the yellow balloons moving all at the same time as the people cheer "Go USTe!!!"

* This is just some of my observations & critiques about each team's presentation a while ago. Opinyon ko ito ha, walang ma-ooffend. =) Hehe.

ADMU - Well-improved compared to last year. Yunn nga lang, para sa akin di tugma yung naging music sa mga steps nila. Di rin masyadong sabay-sabay.

AdU - Naulit yung stunt last year na "swiimmer style". Para silang scuba divers sa costume. Natuwa na lang ako nung may lumilipad na ibon tapos yung tugtog ay yung "Why Do Birds"

NU - Di hamak na mas okay yung routine nila ngayon. Actually, I appreciated their skeleton-look costume because it's kinda unique and they had a couple of good stunts din naman. I'm not just sure if they indeed executed in a synchronized way.

UE - Eto ang hinala kong 3rd eh. Ewan ko ba kung bakit hindi sila nanalo. Ang ganda nung routine nilang nakahiga sila tapos may hugis ng araw ba yun. Hehe basta yun. Maganda din yung uniform nila kaso parang kaparehas na rin last year.

UP - Ang problema kasi sa routine nila, they're making it too hard. Nawawala yung sinasabing "for entertainment appeal" to the audiences, eh cheerdance competition yun di ba. Sayang. I honestly say that UP closely made it, 2nd runner up sila. And by the way, their costume really reminded me of CFAD. Hehe. Maroon & Green. =)

FEU - Di ko gusto yung routine nila. Ni-recyclle lang kaya hayun, 3rd pa din sila. Lagi na lang nilang ginagawa yung "gumagapang" na routine. Wala ng uniqueness but in fairness to their costume, their colors blended well.

UST - Favorite ko yung U-S-T spelling! There may be no oh-so spectacular part in the routine [compared last year na may propeller stunt] but they've earned it through synchronization. As in. Hindi sa pagiging bias pero totoong sila yung pinaka-sabay-sabay talaga. Ang kulit din kasi ng routine at bagay yung mga tugtog. Nakakatuwa talaga yung Chinese stunt at yung pag-creepwalk nila! Sayang nga lang at katulad nung sa FEU yung pag-leap ng isang dancer to the other [yung may 4 na babaeng tatalon sa posisyon ng nasa kanan niyang dancer]. Paano kaya next year? Nung back-to-back, 2 taong itinapon sa ere. Nung 3-peat, propeller[3] stunt. Yung kanina, 4 girls leaping. Baka starfish stunt na next year kasi going for 5th win na! Haha. ;p Pangit yung costume nila sa malapitan pero kapag sa malayuan pala eh maganda na rin.

DLSU - Military mode sila. Hindi bagay at para tuloy naging tibo yung ladies nila. Naka-cap tapos may armalite pa. But anyways, they had executed good stunts at hindi na malamya yung girls nila kumpara last year.

    I guess this is one of the reasons why college is so fun - the school pride. My school has been so active to series of popular competitions such as this. Full-supporter talaga ko when it comes to school pride because, some may be unaware it but as a student of UST, my name is herewith. Whatever may be the downfalls and cheers of my school, it shall be related to me as well. Meanwhile, I'm always striving hard so that my school would also be proud of me and with that, I hope someday I can also make a huge leap for my Alma Mater, UST. I never thought that I would be as proud as I am right now enrolled in this University. I used to deem of ADMU or UP but hey, some events may not have happened if I wasn't in UST and I couldn't imagine in case those things didn't come into my life...

Fight for pride. It's better to sweat hard in practice than to bleed toughly in the battle.

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September 16 2005 | Friday | 03:24pm

"THE UPS AND DOWNS"

    It has been raining all-day. As I woke up awhile ago, I was so down with my mood and I felt so lazy to go to school. Sino ba naman kasing gustong bumangon ng 5:10am habang napakalamig ng kamang hinihigaan mo? Since the weather was so cold, I decided to take a bath with hot water [feels good! ^-^] and somehow I was able to rouse up my lethargic tone. As our driver directed the car to UST, I told him to stop in front of Seven Eleven first. I'm trying to control my intake of coffee because it causes me Insomnia at night but err, I just can't help but take a shot a while ago. I badly needed a Mocha-Java Coffee to keep me up until my 11am class!

    Math time, Ma'am Anonas taught a new lesson once more. I just got the delight when she started telling stories about her life and it was just so observable that she enjoys relating with her students as always. For me it's so nice that professors do share once in a while their everyday encounters. Anyway teaching shouldn't be based alone on readings and manuals. Minsan nga, ang mga bagay na wala sa libro ang mas natatandaan ng mga estudyante - yung mga kuwentong tungkol sa totoong buhay, kuro-kuro at sariling pananaw ba. Just like a while ago, Ma'am Anonas shared with us that even though she's good in Math, her waterloo naman are English & Filipino subjects. She's having a hard time expressing her thoughts into words and as compared to Math, it's easier because there's no memorization needed. Haha. It's funny because we, AB students, prefer those subjects [of course] while we darn hate Mathematics! Para sa amin, mas madaling mag-express kasi natural naman yun di ba at kung ikukumpara sa Math, laging naka-base sa formulas ang mga sagot mo. Personally, I'm really turning my head down when it speaks of Mathematics and how I admire those people who can easily solve those brain-twisting number-related questions because I myself couldn't do it. Kung para sa ilan madali ang Math, sa akin hindi. Tama lang siguro ang sinabi ni Ma'am, "Kanya-kanya lang yan ng forte."

    So the rest of my subjects were pretty typical and I barely noticed how time flew swiftly. After class, I decided to visit the library to research for English. We were required to choose one topic which can be applied to make a classification essay. I decided to choose "Types of Food Nutrients for Energy" since I thought of it as an easy topic because anyway there are tons of references to check in the library. Kinarir ko ang paghahanap ng libro kanina. I went up and down wherein my endurance was really tested. In fact, I really got dizzy for using the elevator a couple of times. Just imagine: first, I was in the 2nd floor [Health Sciences section], then I went down to photocopy my researches. Later, I went back to return the books then I went up to the 6th floor [Serials Section] for further references. Afterwards, I have to go down again for photocopying and went up return it! Whew! Mind you, I haven't eaten lunch at that time haha. Naging masochist nanaman ako.

    I went home about 1:00pm na. Malakas ang ulan kaya nilabas ko ang orange na payong at nakahalukipkip ang mga bisig ko sa loob ng jacket dahil malamig. As I exit UST, Dapitan was again down in flood. I had to tip toe and elongate my legs just to stay away from the flood. I bought lunch in BK as a take out and hurriedly went home. Medyo trapik kaya nakakabagot sa jeep. Nag-imagine na lang ako nang kung anu-ano habang naghihintay. Haha talaga. My brain was up to its nerve to circulate good what-if stories which really caused me to smile surreptitiously inside the jeepney. Buti na lang konti lang ang nakasakay at baka napagkamalan pa akong loka-lokang ngumingisi mag-isa! Pagkadating ko sa bahay, nagpahinga muna ko all the way and anyway it's Friday. Wuhoo!

    Life has its own ups and downs. It may be too hard to be down for a point in time but it's a battle of reaching the top. Remember that triumph isn't a one shot way so, just be patient and believe.

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September 14 2005 | Wednesday | 09:06pm

"IMMEDIATE ANSWERS"

[just bear with this long entry! I really got so emotional today hehehe]     

    When things are tough and turned out to be so questionable, always keep in mind that beneath each mystery is an answer, waiting to be unrevealed. Life may squash you with oodles of worries, regrets, and upsets but in order to carry on, it's an option to believe in the scheme of things. Just consider that for every long-time waiting, God gives immediate answers to ones bleeding knees..

    Sir Olivar was absent [thankfully, hehe] and so, we were dismissed early. Last night, Ate Rox informed me that she's gonna push through with the plan of watching Intrams in UST since Ana was available as well. And luckily, I was also vacant. Chuchie was with me as we went to the Engineering Complex. She was looking forward to meet Ate Rox too since I've been telling tons of stories about her ever since. So anyways, we met Karlos [Intrams player siya ng CRS] there. Nandun pa kami sa labas ng Gym at nakatayo kaya naisipan naming lumipat muna para makaupo. As we sat, siyempre kuwentuhan to the max na naman kami ni Chuchie. Later on, Ana arrived. So yun, nanood kami ng game ni Karlos kahit wala pa si Ate Rox. Sabi niya kasi medyo ma-lalate siya dahil galing sa pagpapa-therapy. Maya-maya, naisipan muna naming mag-CR ni Chuchie kaya naiwan namin sina Ana sa Gym. We traveled a long way to the Grandstand just to use the CR! Haha. Dumating na pala si Ate Rox nang mga panahong yun kaya tinext ako ni Ana. Bibili pa sana kami sa Mini-stop ni Chuchie kaso naudlot nga dahil nandun na si Ate Rox. As we went back to the Gym, it was as if I got all the mirage upon seeing that 6 footer ideal sister of mine...

    How I missed her, really. Pagkadating ko pa lang, binibiro na niya agad ako. It was a fleeting moment to smile and laugh with her again. And indeed, that was the story of my whole day. I can't bear but to smile at everything. So anyways, it was about 12:30pm at that time so we decided to eat lunch. We ate at Goldilocks España since it was the nearest restaurant. And gosh, as we went out of UST to go to Goldilocks, I had observed that the people whom we passed by were acting so strange talaga. Chuchie and I had noticed these things hardly well. It was quite odd but they were all staring hard because they had recognized "the volleyball player, Roxanne Pimentel" who was walking in the street with us. Kahit nung makapasok na kami ng Goldilocks, pinagtitinginan pa rin siya. Nakaka-starstruck pala talaga kapag ang tipo ng kasama mo ay si Ate Rox. Palaging ganun sa tuwing makakasama ko siya. Hehe. But what's so noble about her is that, no matter how people bow down and compliment on her so much, she still keep her feet on the ground. Really. Simula talaga nung magkakilala kami, I never heard any shout of bragging from her. Kanina, kasama ko si Roxanne Pimentel pero nagpa-trato siyang "siya si Ate Rox". What an experience. >.<

    Ililibre ko na dapat sila kaso naunang maglabas ng pera si Ate Rox [dahil ji-noke ni Karlos na manlibre kaya tinotoo naman niya ahaha]. Pero nung huli, binalik din ni Karlos yung pera ni Ate Rox hehe. So anyways, aminado akong gutom nun pero para bang noong nandun na kami, eh nawala yung gutom ko. Binusog siguro ako ng tuwa kaya Breaded Porkchop na lang yung na-order ko. Sa halip na kumain nang marami, mas naaliw akong makipag-kuwentuhan kay Ate Rox.

    Sina Ana at Karlos ang kumuha ng orders. Chuchie & Ate Rox had the time to speak with each other. One on one. Ay naku! As usual, pinag-tripan na naman ako! Nagsamang puwersa pa sila kaya habang nandun ako sa pila kasama sina Karlos at Ana, eh tawa nang tawa yung dalawa dun! Kinuwento sa akin ni Chuchie [nung pauwi na] na tungkol yun sa madalas kong pagsasabi sa kanya na sa tingin ko, lumiliit ako. Nalaman ni Ate Rox yun tapos sabi naman niya, kasi daw tumataba ako. Haha talaga. Pagbalik ko sa upuan, tumigil na sila sa pagku-kuwentuhan pero tumatawa pa rin sila. [haha] Tinatanong niya ko kung anong rason ng pag-gain ko ng weight.. kung dahil daw ba sa.. [yun na yun hehe] At wangkk, dun na nagka-bukingan! Nadulas si Ate Rox sa mga bagay na di pa alam ni Chuchie! May ilang bagay kasi na di ko pa nai-sshare kay Chuchie kasi wala pa sa tamang panahon. Di naman nagalit si Chuchie sa akin for keeping those secrets pero grabe, pinagpawisan ako ng mga oras na yun! Nagulat din si Ate Rox siyempre, kasi di naman niya akalaing siya pa ang mag-rereveal kay Chuchie ng tinago kong mga kuwento. [just read between the lines, mahirap kasi i-kwento lahat dito eh] Grabe talaga! >.<

    Ang haba ng pila kaya marami pa kaming napag-kuwentuhan. Nakakatuwa talaga. Mga kuwentong computers [nanaman! haha], MOD magazine, tungkol sa pagiging journalist namin, boylets [HAHAHA] etc. Di ko na maalala lahat pero talagang naaliw ako. Ang dami naming nalamang infos sa isa't isa. At waaah, lalo pa akong natuwa nang may ilabas siya mula sa pouch niya. Di ko malimutan yung pagsabi niyang, "Ay eto pala Shelly yung pasalubong kong PUCCA. Naalala kasi kita nung nasa China ako hehehe" HAY! >.< Kaka-flatter talaga! Kinuwento pa niya kung paano niya nabili yun. Noong pauwi na daw kasi sila [in Shanghai, China], nakakita sila ni Ate Chelle [Carolino] ng bilihan ng souvenirs. Hawak daw yun ni Ate Chelle [di niya kilalang si "Pucca" yun] at tinatanong niya kay Ate Rox kung puwede na daw ba yung ibigay kay Ate Yeth [sister ni Ate Chelle]. Nagulat daw si Ate Rox kasi nga si Pucca yun at naalala niya ko. Haha. Madalas ko kasing i-lokong siya yun. Binigyan niya din si Ana at para bang binigyan na rin kami ng portrait niya kasi kamukha niya talaga! HAHAHA! So later on, the food arrived and we all ate. It was undeniably, a lunch that I would never forget.

    Bumalik ulit kami ng Gym para sa game ng friend nina Ana [Eng'g team]. Habang nanonood, kuwentuhan at tawanan mode pa rin siyempre. Sayang nga lang at paalis na si Chuchie. Hinatid ko muna siya hanggang UST Health Service tapos bumalik ako ulit sa gym. Tapos na pala yung game [panalo Eng'g] as I went back. Kinailangan na ring umalis ni Ana, she has work kasi. Hinatid siya ni Karlos at naiwan akong kasama ni Ate Rox. Later on, we were accompanied by a guy named Lester whom Ate Rox did introduce to me. Nandun din yung si Bobby na sinasabi ng lahat na napaka-legendary player ng volleyball. Di ko naman masyado ma-gets yung pinag-uusapan nila kaya I just kept my attention to the on-going women's game. Nakakatuwa pa rin kasi nakikita ko yung efforts ni Ate Rox para di ako masyadong ma-OP. Kinakausap niya din ako habang nakasandal na ko sa kanya kasi medyo masakit na ulo ko. Sayang lang talaga at unti-unting pumapatak ang oras. Uuwi na si Ate Rox at may pasok pa din si Karlos ng 2:30pm. Pumareho ng ruta si Are Rox [sa Dapitan] para sabay kaming uuwi. >.< So yun, naglakad na kami paalis ng Engineering Complex.

    How I loved that final walk! Na-touch talaga ko nung umakbay siyang mala-yakap pa nga, tapos sabay sabing, "Nakung itong si Shelly, na-miss ko to. Sobra!" >.< It was a perfect time to be hugged in that way and to be comforted by those kind of words. Then again, it came from my ideal sister that's why it became so memorable. Hay! Para ngang gusto kong malungkot nun. Kahit sa tingin ng marami'y napaka-masayahin ko palagi, di nila alam na marami din akong dalahin. At grabe, para bang pinawi yun pansamantala ng pangyayaring yun. Hinatid pala namin si Karlos sa building niya tapos kami na lang dalawa ni Ate Rox ang naglakad papuntang Dapitan. Things got more striking..

    I think this was the climax of everything. Ang dramatic kasi ng dating. Napaka-consistent na nung pakiramdam kong si Ate Rox yung ateng lagi kong pinapangarap na makasama nang matagal. She had never lose grip of my shoulders to lean her hands on and she even crisscross her arms on my arms just as if I was so secured; that she would never leave me. I really felt how she made me present and she had let me feel special, that as if she was my real sister. This may sound so OA na pero totoo talaga. Nung naglalakad din kami, para bang nagre-reminisce mode siya lalo na nung nandun na kami sa building ng Commerce. [pareho kami ng building!] Tinuro-turo pa niya yung mga building, tapos sabay kuwento ng mga itsura nun dati. Malaki na daw talaga ang pinagbago ng UST kaya nararamdaman na rin niyang tumatanda na siya haha. Toinkz. Na-change tuloy ang topic at napunta sa topic ng mga magnanakaw. [what a shift di ba?! haha] Nasabi kong madalas akong na-hohold up. Na-curious siya kung ano daw ba ginawa ko ek-ek at hanggang sa makaabot kami ng gate ng Dapitan, eh yun ang topic. Haha talaga.

    Nasa tapat na kami ng BK, sabi niya doon na daw siya sasakay (Quaipo Ilalim). Tinanong niya kung saan ako sasakay, sabi ko dun pa sa Laon-Laan. Ang bait niya talaga, nag-alok pang ihatid ako dun [kasi daw mamaya manakawan na naman ako HAHA!] Pero siyempre, umiling na ako. Sa dami ba naman ng nagawa niyang mabuti sa akin para sa araw na ito, would I still ask for more? Hehe. Pina-sakay ko na siya ng jeep kahit nagpupumilit pa rin siyang ihahatid niya ko. She kissed and hugged me for the last time as I became a bit sad na rin. How I wish those moments didn't end. Ang saya-saya talaga. Pagkaway ko sa kanya habang nakasakay na siya ng jeep, gayundin ang pagkaway ko sa napaka-memorable na pagkikitang yun. Pag-uwi ko ng bahay, tuloy ang trabaho. Back to reality. Tambak ang school works ko.

    Sinagot ng panahon ang lahat ng tanong ko, nasagot ko din ang lahat ng school tasks ko ngayon kahit late akong umuwi. I guess the huge leap of difference right now is that I'm more fervent to work. Truly, thanks to Ate Rox for making me inspired today and I guess I'll carry this unto the next days. With all the memories we had a while ago, surely I won't forget those times and it would always remind me that despite all, there's still hope on every difficulty. Ate Rox had openly gave that sentiment to me.

So many questions, but the answers are so few.

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September 13 2005 | Tuesday | 07:03pm

"SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS"

      Sana pala kinuha ko yung horoscope ko ngayon, eh di sana hindi ako ganitong nayanig nang sobra dahil sa dami ng kamalasan ko ngayon. Nabigyan sana ako ng babala ni Zenaida Seva. Haha. Natatawa na lang ako pero ang totoo, ang pangit ng araw ko!

UNFORTUNATE EVENT #1: Sold Out Cheer dance Tickets

    I've been waiting for this moment among all the collegiate events - the cheer dance competition in the UAAP. UST Salinggawi has been a 3-time champion and they're smelling for a fourth victory. Matagal na tong usapan ng lahat, sa forums, sa campus at kahit sa classroom. Sabi pa nga namin nina Lance, sama-sama kaming manonood nang live. Joyce took the initiative to fall in line for the tickets. But as expected, tickets had been a snap in the air! Kanina lang ni-release yung tickets sa UST, ubos na agad! Hay! Unfortunately, Joyce wasn't able to get tickets for everyone and even for herself. We tried to contact Ticketnet but tickets for the cheer dance are not allowed to be reserved. We also tried Aranate, but then again, tickets were sold out. Nakaka-down talaga kasi gusto naming manood lahat. Trina-try naming kumuha ng tickets from other schools. I contacted Kc because she's from DLSU. Ang tanga-tanga ko, di ko agad binasa ang message niyang may ticket pa nung mga oras na yun. But then I also found out that she has no extra money so she just told me that she's going to try tomorrow. Anyway sabi naman ng nagtitinda, meron ulit tickets bukas na Lower Box B. Hay. I'm crossing my fingers for a Kc's stroke of luck tomorrow.

UNFORTUNATE EVENT #2: Missed Meet Up With Ate Rox [again..]

    "Siguro may mas masaya pang event na mangyayari kaya di mo na-meet si Ate Rox mo.." That was the "pampalubag-loob" line of Chuchie a while ago to me. Somehow it perturbed me that for the Nth time, I wasn't able to meet Ate Rox again. Ang dami na kasing mala-isang dipang distansyang pangyayari na sana makikita ko na siya pero di natutuloy. Nakaka-bitin yung ganun di ba. Mas lalo yung nangyari kanina! Nasa kamay ko na ang lahat, di pa tumugma ang mga pangyayari. Here's the whole story.

    She did text me last night saying, "Shelly nood ka daw game ni Karlos tom 1pm." 11pm na nun kaya umaga ko na nabasa. Ang dating sa akin ng message, pasabi lang ni Karlos na manood ako kaya di na ako nag-reply kasi di ba, parang nang-iinform lang naman. And since I also have classes, watching that game was somehow at the least of my agenda so I kind of ignored it. Later on, [around 9am] Ate Rox texted me again. She was then asking me how come I am not replying. Nahiya naman ako siyempre kaya tinext ko siya agad at sinabi kong tulog na ako kagabi. Sinabi ko ding di ako siguradong makakanood dahil may class ako until 5pm. Tinanong ko rin kung manonood ba siya. Hay! Ngayon pinag-sisisihan ko kung bakit di ko nasabing libre ako ng 1-3pm!!! Gusto pala niyang sabihing magpapasama siya! Gusto niya daw kasing may kasama kapag nanood ng game ni Karlos. Di ko na kasi nabanggit sa kanyang pwede ako ng 1-3pm kasi malay ko bang magpapasama siya!!! I could have sacrificed that free time of mine to accompany her. Pinilit ko pa ulit na tumuloy siya sa UST kasi sabi ko, minsan ko na nga lang siya makita eh at gusto ko na siya maka-bonding ulit. Hay. But I guess she's one person who once have finally decided, never swallows back her decisions. Nasabi na rin niya yata kay Karlos na next time na lang. Tumuloy na lang siya sa pagpapa-theraphy ng sprain niya. Hay talaga. Sayang! Akala ko pa naman maipapakilala ko na rin siya sa college buddies ko [esp Chuchie & Madie hehe!]. Akala ko pa naman ma-kkuwento ko na sa kanya yung mga bagay na di ko masabi sa text kasi mahahabang istorya. At akala ko pa naman, makakasama ko na yung isang friend kong na-mimiss ko na talaga. =/ What a huge turn of an unfortunate event.

    At waah.. may pahabol pa! Lalo pa kong nanghinayang nang sabihin niyang sayang at may ibibigay pa naman siyang pasalubong galing China! Katuwa naman, nag-abala pa siya. Lalo pa kong natuwa nang sabihin niyang naalala niya daw kasi ako nung nakita niya yung bagay na yun kaya binili niya. Hay hay! Just can't imagine, naalala niya ko nung nasa China siya! Kaka-touch talaga si Ate Rox kaya lalo kong na-mimiss!  (>.<) Ito lang siguro ang nag-iisang fortunate na nangyari ngayon..

UNFORTUNATE EVENT #3: Damn Rain, Boring PE Class

    Kung kelan pa naman na-eenjoy ko na ang PE class ko, saka pa naging huge spoiler ang panahon! For the Nth time, umulan na naman kasi hapon ang basketball class ko. So we stayed inside IPEA. Too bad it was half-used by the Men's Volleyball team and so, we cannot push through with the games. Pwede naman sanang half-court lang, eh ayaw din ni Sir! Kaya yun, tunganga moments na naman. Nanghihinayang kasi ako sa oras eh. Wala kaming ginagawa nang mga panahong yun, gayong gahol ako palagi sa oras. Hindi naman puwedeng umalis dahil i-aabsent ka sa attendance. Ewan ko ba. Ang mga prof minsan, sala sa init, sala sa lamig. Nung tapos na yung varsity [4pm na nun, so 1hr to go na lang], pinayagan kaming mag-dribble and shoot. Yun na yung pinaka-PE namin at ang panget!!!

UNFORTUNATE EVENT #4: Failed to Personally Keep in Touch With Kc

    As I said before, Kc has been one of my tight-heart friends. I always account on her in times sadness, broken heartedness, or just whenever I'm being doomed by life. Dahil nga sa nagpapatulong ako sa kanyang kumukha ng tickets, sinabi kong idadaan ko yung bayad sa bahay nila pagkatapos ng PE ko [5pm]. I was expecting to see her but then I found out that she was still in DLSU. Her class was dismissed late. Pinaiwan ko na lang kay Jam [her younger sis] yung bayad at umuwi na ako. Sayang din, kaka-miss na ring kasama si Kuyx. Ang tagal na naming di nagsasama ulit. Ang dami kong gustong sabihin sa kanya. Gusto kong i-share yung mga nangyayari sa akin sa USTe, makipag-kuwentuhan din doon sa kontrabersyal na DLSU-UE game [haha], at i-kkwento ko rin sana yung update kay Mulawin. Hay. For the past few days, I really wanted to be with a friend like her  but I guess, things aren't just going according to what I want. =(

    Despite all, then again I'm sticking with my belief that:

everything happens for a reason..

No matter how hard this day has been killing me into revulsion, I'm still trying to put my spirits up. Iniisip ko na lang na marami mang unfortunate events ngayon, darating din na babaliktad ang mundo't ako naman ang tatawa.

The moon revolves around the Earth. The Earth revolves around the Sun. The night may be too cold. The day may be severely hot. But there comes a time when things and events turn around, because they are round. Just by a snap in the finger, bad things may simply turn into joyful moments. Life is a matter of endless revolution. Sometimes you're up, for some moments you're down. Just keep on going and there's no stopping at the middle because when you do so, you'll be left out of the rotation.

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September 08 2005 | Thursday | 09:25pm

"SUPPER TIME IS A BONDING TIME"

      Right after accompanying Haoson in the TomWeb office [sa Main Building ng USTe], I immediately went home. I wasn't able to come with Arene and the rest to eat lunch because as I said, I was with Haoson and also Chuchie. Pagkauwi ko ng bahay, vi-niew ko sandali yung laman ng mga tapes ng videocam, kailangan ko kasi ng libreng espasyo para sa Theo project namin. Pagkatapos nun, nanakit ang ulo kaya nahiga muna ko't natulog.

    I really forgot to eat lunch and I was indeed hungry. Haha, pero ewan ko ba't mas ginusto kong magpagutom. I preferred to watch UAAP on TV than to do downstairs and munch on something. Speaking of the game, it was a close match between UST and FEU! Yes, you've read right, literally close -- 64-63 and Tamarraws just won by a point! Mind you again, FEU is the #1 team! Grabe, pinapahanga na talaga ko ng UST Tigers at natalo man kanina, sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko: "Kita-kits sa Season 69 sa pagkuha namin ng Championship Trophy!" Muwahaha. I just loved the way Allan Evangelista shut the baby home with numerous 3 point shots.

    Di ko na natiis ang gutom, sinabi ko na kay Ate Aileen na gusto ko ng kumain. By the way, she's our helper who's been working for or family for more than 10 years. Buong angkan na ata nila eh nag-serbisyo na sa amin kaya ganun na lang ang pagtrato namin sa kanila bilang kapamilya. My first yaya was her elder sister [Ate Bing] who unfortunately died in a vehicular accident when we went to a company outing. Actually, Ate Aileen was also a victim of that accident but she survived along with the others. So anyways, because of Ate Bing's loss, it turned out that Ate Aileen took care of me until I grew up. Siya yung nagpapabihis sa akin nung grade school pa ako, naghahanda ng pagkain ko, at umaattend ng mga meeting sa school kapag di pwede ang mom ko. Hanggang ngayon naman paminsan-minsan tinutulungan pa rin niya ko. Kapag gusto ko ng kakaibang hairstyle, sa kanya ako nagpapaayos ng buhok. [hehe]. Sa amin na rin siya nakapag-asawa't nagka-anak. In fact, her husband is also our helper here in the house [Silven] and her 2 daughters [Schenly & Xianne] are with us too. They're like my younger sisters actually. Pati yung lola nila, dito na rin nakatira [hehe] kasi si Ate Aileen nagdu-dual job at pumupunta ng Laguna bilang kahera ng tito ko sa Diagnostic Clinic niya. Maganda din naman kasing may matanda sa bahay - may tagapangaral at.. masarap pa magluto ^.^

    My mom goes back and forth to Batangas because of work and my siblings are often out of the house during nights. Lagalag ang ate ko, habang ang kuya ko naman may trabaho. We seldom eat supper together and Ate Aileen were the ones who fill in. Sila ang madalas kong kasabay na mag-dinner at masarap kumain talaga ng may kasama. Nakasanayan na nga naming nakahapag ang kanin at ulam sa mesa [di kasi toh nakaugalian sa bahay eh] tapos every dinner, may naka-assign na gagastos sa pagbili ng Coke. Hehe. Kung medyo mayayaman kami, sa fast food chains pa kami dumadayo. While eating, we share ones experiences. It serves as a moment for telling stories and updating each other. Kanina, nakuwento ni Silven na nawala yung bisikleta niya sa school ni Schenly. Sayang nga eh, pero sabat naman ni Ate Aileen, shoshonga-shonga kasi si Silven kasi di dinala yung kandado ng bicycle. Haha talaga. Pati yung 2 bata nakikisali sa asaran ng mga magulang nila. Si nanay naman, simple lang ang hagikgik pero masaya talaga. I just love it. Despite all works during nights, I look forward to dinner because it's a time to break down the pressure and have some quality time with them. Sa hapag-kainan, di lang pagkain ang pinagsasaluhan, pati mga kuwento't emosyon ay napapag-bahaginan. =)

x`cez: May quiz sa Computer at Journ bukas. Harhar.

The best part of eating is when you know how to share it.

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September 06 2005 | Tuesday | 06:56pm

"RAINBOW"

      Maulan. Malamig. Nakakita ko ng sarili kong bahaghari. I'm happy today. Ang sarap malamang yung mga pinaghihirapan mo ay nagbubunga ng maganda. Thorns may shed some pain but it never broke my will to get hold of the blossom.

    Kaninang Filipino period, binigay yung prelim grade. I was so satisfied seeing a 94.4 grade on Sir Atalia's record paper. 1.25 yun di ba, waah ang saya. ^.^ Binalik na rin pala yung prelim paper at 47/50 naman ako. Hay, akala ko kasi mali-mali ang ginawa ko dun. Somehow I was relieved. Ang ganda pa ng pag-didiscuss ni Sir tungkol sa kamalayan ng wika. Marami siyang sinabi tungkol sa reyalidad ng buhay na epekto ng maling ideolohiya - na ang mundo daw ay pinapaikot ng kapitalismo at naghahari pa rin ang mga elit sa pamamagitan ng paggamit ng Ingles. Hangga't Ingles pa rin daw ang medyum ng wika, patuloy na mang-aabuso sa mga walang alam ang mga mayayaman. Napa-oo na lang ako sa lahat ng sinabi niya. Para bang ang daming pinamulat ng mga simpleng salita niya. Lalo tuloy akong na-inspire mag-aral sa subject na yun kahit minsan mala-terror ang dating. [because of the recitation and theme papers].

    Meanwhile, we had a quiz on Philo 5. I got the chance to study for that test and yes, the result was so satisfying. It was a 30-item test and I got a perfect score. Plus one pa nga actually kasi nasagot ko din yung bonus point. Hay, nakakagaan lang talaga ng loob. Gustung-gusto kong ngumiti talaga kanina pero siyempre, pa-humble effect naman si ako. [Haha Madie!] I'm starting to like this subject as well. Bukod sa magaling at organized talaga magturo sa Ma'am Trocio, eh gustung-gusto ko pa yung topic - Christian Morality. It reminds me of my 3rd year Morality class under Ms Tsaby wherein I really had fun learning.

    So anyways, nung History naman, ayy naku bored to death ako! Kaya hayan at nag-drawing na naman ako. Haha. Ewan ko ba kung bakit nahihilig ako sa pag-ddrawing ng mga motion shots ngayon. Mala-CFAD na pala ko haha. [joke! ang yabang!] This time, I drew a tennis player, smashing side wards. And speaking of sports, I attended my PE class at 3pm. We had a game and gosh, we're not able to finish the game because of the rain! Lapit yung scores at sana naman manalo kami! >.< Ang sakit ng kanang binti ko ngayon, di kasi ako masyadong naka-warm up kaya nabigla yung muscles ko. By the way, required pala kaming manood ng UAAP sa Saturday [UST-NU]. Waah sana naman di masayang ang panonood ko at harinawa manalo ang UST! =)

    Recollection tomorrow so there are no assignments for today! I'll rest muna for a while at bukas na lang siguro ako gagawa ng school works. I have to reward myself naman for my recent achievements. Wuhoo. =)

Never underestimate your potential and never be ashamed of what you are. Do your best especially when people expect you less to do. It's because the greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say "you cannot do".

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September 05 2005 | Monday | 08:35pm

"MONOTONY"

      Life's been oh-so monotonous for the past few days. This was the reason why I chose not to update my blog for a while because anyway, there's nothing new. I've been waking up at the same sun and resting beneath the same moon. How I wish sometime a comet will simply collide unto my empty skies and shaken up my boring world a bit.

    Ganun pa rin talaga. Tambak na school works, nakakaantok na lectures, at kung anu-ano pang gawaing nagpapaubos ng pasensiya ko. Pare-parehong mukha pa rin ang nakikita ko araw-araw - mga kaklaseng pasaway at mga titser na pasaway din. Hehe. Sana talaga sembreak na! Gusto ko ng mag-bakasyon kung saan-saan. Konting hinga na lang...

    Paminsan-minsan, naaaliw na lang ako sa mga simpleng bagay. Katulad na lang nung Sabado, nanood ako ng UAAP sa TV. It was a basketball match between UST and ADMU. At talaga namang binulaga ako ng resulta ng larong yun! Akalain mo, nanalo ang UST [haha] at nabasag nila ang 7-winning streak ng ADMU. Mind you, ADMU is a 2nd ranked team while UST is in 6th place. What a stroke of luck for the Tigers, Kung iisipin, no-bearing game na talaga yun para sa UST dahil wala na namang pag-asa para sa Final 4. Mas kinailangan ng ADMU ang larong yun pero wahaha, hayun at naging huge spoilers ang UST. Sa Blue Eagle Gym pa kamo ginanap at kahit underdog na pumasok ang Tigers, umuwi naman silang nakatingala. Umabot ng 22 points [around Third Qtr yata to nangyari] ang laki ng kalamangan ng USte. Final score was 77-73, medyo humabol ang ADMU pero di nila kinaya ang "pag-growwwl" ng Tigers! [HAHA] Siguro masyadong naging over-confident ang players ng ADMU. Minaliit nila ang larong yun. On the other hand, ang galing ni Dylan [gained 20 pts, player of the game] at ni Taylor! Mga rookie na pag-asa ng UST para mag-champs sa mga susunod pang season. Wala sina De Guzman [na-injure nung 1st qtr] at Pribhdas [may fever] nun. Naisip ko nga eh, baka kaya nanalo ang UST dahil wala ang "buwakaw boys". Haha. Na-adik na tuloy ako ngayon ulit sa basketball.

    Nakita ko din pala si Sir Atalia sa palabas ni Jessica Soho nung isang araw. Kakaaliw. Ang daming prof ko pala ang mala-artista ang dating, lumalabas sa TV. Haha. Siyempre naging prof ko si Ma'am Peppin [Sociologist] na palaging nasa TV at minsan ko na ring nakita on screen si Sir Esguerra [Journalist]. Mga bigatin ba. Sana balang araw, palarin din ako tulad nila. Gusto ko rin kasing sumikat sa larangang pinili ko eh. Speaking of that,  I finally felt satisfaction when I heard so many good feedbacks already regarding the MOD feature on Ate Rox. Through that, somehow I felt that I'm on my way to be recognized as someone good at what she does. Nakakatuwa kasi eh - na na-aapreciate ng mga tao yung ginagawa mo. And one instance was, na-flatter ako na yung isang fan, eh gusto pa ng autograph sign ko dun sa magazine. Wangkk. Feeling popular eh noh, pero siyempre I kept my feet on the ground. I just told that fan that I would rather not sign [not because I don't want to] but because I'm happier to be treated as their accessible friend.

    Wala na akong ma-kwento. Ang boring talaga ng buhay ko. Bukas may quiz sa Theo. >.< Gusto ko ng matulog pero mag-reresearch pa pala ko tungkol sa Sins. Hay. PE ko bukas, sana may mangyaring maganda. I'll be staying late in UST and I hope to have a great time being in campus.

I'm so tired of being alone. But will my lonely heart, play a part of a fool again before I begin.. [From the song, "Foolish Heart"]

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September 01 2005 | Thursday | 09:35pm

"THE END DOES NOT JUSTIFY THE MEANS"

      For the past few days, school activities have been like tight ropes wrapped around us. It's literally tremendous; with all the tiresome readings and activities to accomplish. Among all the school works, one activity in English has become the most smacking - the fact that it has been the talk of town recently. Why? I guess before narrating the whole situation, I want raise this question that you guys might want to think about: Why is it that in order to get an advantage, you have to take away something from others? Does the end really justifies the means?

    Expository Writing kami ngayon sa English class. Specifically, we're working on a classification essay regarding conjunctive adverbials. We've been dealing with this since Prelim period. Mind you, it's not that easy to meet the standards of our professor! On the contrary, in a way I saw the purpose behind his iron shaft and that is, to train us as good writers. The whole writing process has been so meticulous and every part is tackled one at a time. Every meeting, we have to pass an output. Before, we worked on Key Idea Paragraphs which basically contain the introductory and the topic sentence. Medyo madali pa nun kasi di pa ganung kahaba. May mga mangilan-ngilan pa nga sa mga kaklase ko na sa araw na lang mismo ng pasahan ginawa yun. So nung English time, we were told that the activity for the day would be allotted for critiquing. He explained to us the so called, "Your demerit, my merit and sky is the limit critiquing" activity. Pinaikot yung mga papel clockwise at kung kanino mang papel ang mapunta sa iyo, yun ang tse-tsekan mo. My paper went to Kath while I checked on Mau's paper. Since then, we reacted negatively on the activity. Buti sana kung mere peer-checking lang. Kasi di ba, kahit papaano mako-konsensiya ka kung tatadtarin mo ba ng mga mali ang papel ng kaklase mo, gayong alam mong nakasalalay din ang grades doon. Any merit will be times three (3x) on your score but then if you have demerits, it shall be a triple minus to you as well. Mabait si Kath sa akin, konti lang ang binawas sa score ko. Total naman daw, same essence din yung errors kaya di na niya inulit-ulit pa yung pag-mark ng mistakes. As to Mau's paper, I also did the same thing. Anyway I know Mau is a good writer. Naka-plus 12 pa ako sa activity na yun pero di ko alam, na sa mga susunod na araw pala ay magiging malala ang sitwasyon..

    Last Tuesday, we passed our Support Sentences [the body] and then again, we executed the questionable activity. At that time, things got complicated because it involved more sentences and paragraphs. At siyempre, mas malaki ang tendensiyang makakita ng mga mali. I checked Luis' paper while Joan checked on my paper. We didn't finish critiquing so we continued it a while ago. Personally, I really had a hard time checking. First, the paper was too lengthy [4 pages back-to-back]. Secondly, Luis' paper was hand-written and because of it, no offense but he has a poor handwriting. [aminado naman siya tungkol dun eh hehe] Literal na sumakit ang ulo ko dahil sa sulat niya! Lastly, as I said earlier, it's kind of hard to mark too many errors, knowing that it would be a huge deduction against him.

    Kanina, ginawa namin yung pagre-react sa mga critique. I was admitted of all my mistakes on my written output. Luckily, Joan had become an objective and considerate criticizer.  I respected how Joan checked my work, everything was fine and I guess I well deserve the deductions. On the other hand, there were certain points that had been an issue between us Luis. I tried my best to be objective on his reactions but err, sometimes I can't get away with his continuing disputes. It reached a certain point that we even have to confide with Mau or with another classmate. Maliit na isyu lang naman yun sa akin at di ko pinersonal. Hehe. Si Luis pa, eh ang bait-bait nun at di rin naman niya siguro pinersonal yun. Yun pala, mas malaking isyu pa ang nasa loob ng klasrum.

    I was done before time. So while on my seat, I started to hear trifling buzzes and small groups which happened to combine immediately. Soon I figured out that they were talking about the negative effects of the said activity. Dun na nagsimula yung mga pagpaparinig na, "Uy si *ganyan* ang daming minali kay *ganyan*. Di na naawa, sana naisip niyang *blah blah blah*" Ah basta! Ang pangit talaga pakinggan na nagkakaroon ng parinigan sa klase pero di ko rin naman sila masisi. Para bang dahil lang dun, eh nagkakasiraan o kung hindi man, medyo mabibigyan mo ng negatibong komento ang isang kaibigan.

    Just like the others, I'm somewhat in the middle of the situation. I don't know whether to agree or disagree. To some extent, I can see the rationale of the activity. The purpose was good - it's for us to learn through correcting. But then, the approach was quite questionable. In my own opinion, the means was done in a merciless way. Sana hindi ganoong kalaki ang punishment [3x agad!] dahil kung tutuusin, di naman ganun kabigat yung kamalian eh! It's a mere draft, not a final paper anyway [as told by Vet].

    Sana magka-ayusan na. Kung noon, may mga kinaiinisan din ako, para bang ngayon eh mas naintindihan ko ang sitwasyon. Kami-kami na nga lang ang magkakasama araw-araw, magkaka-backstaban pa. Speaking behind at each other's back is not the way to resolve it. Instead, I guess it's better to face it through proper confrontation. The means must be purely good in itself so that in the long run, the noble purpose shall linger.

x`cez: May quiz bukas sa Math! >.< Harhar, nahihirapan ako! Sana naman matino ang makuha kong grades..

Nobody is perfect and it is through imperfection that we ascertain our purposes.

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