June 27 2005 | Monday | 09:30pm

"PRIORITIES YOU HAVE TO OBTAIN"

    Monday started a bit chilly. Sun didn't shine in the morning and because of the rain, there came the traffic jam! Muntik na akong ma-late sa iskul. Buti na lang, late din si Ma`am Anonas hehe. So the rest of my school day was okay. Of course, it was hilarious once more. Surpisingly, Sir Esguerra entered during Computer period to say that he's not coming for Journ class! Maybe he has certain news beats to prioritize. *Sobs* Haha joke! Pero kung di dahil sa free period ni Sir at di kami nakapag-lakad-lakad sa campus, di ko makikita si LUANZON! Oh my! He was on his hot black shades as the sun slowly appeared. So tall, so built, so gwapo pa rin! I just wondered why he was still in uniform, eh graduate na nga siya?! Hmm. Siguro may mga prayoridad siyang dapat ayusin o lakarin para sa pagpasok niya sa PBA. Hehe. Sana makita ko siya ulit!

    Dismissal time, we decided to eat again in a small eatery near Dapitan. Na-adik ata ako sa inihaw, yun na naman kinain ko. Haha. Then again, we were all laughing hard. Kasama pa namin si Chuchi kasi mag-kaklase sila ni Madie sa PE. So after eating, Madie & Chuchi decided to come with me at home because their PE class was until 3pm pa. Ayoko pa sana pumayag kasi gusto kong magpahinga pero naisip ko din ang mga friends ko. So I chose to prioritize them..

    Masaya naman sila kasama eh! Nagliwaliw kami sa bahay. At first, we were at my sister's room. Pina-panood ko sa kanila yung iba kong self-directed amateur films. Natuwa sila at bumenta ang pelikula ko sa katatawanan! Ewan ko ba kay Chuchi, nagka-sapak na naman at naisipang magpakuha din sa akin. Nag-make up at nagbihis pa ng mala-Engkantadia. Haha. Sayang nga lang dumating na ang ate ko kaya kinailangan namin lumipat sa sala. Medyo naudlot ang pelikula namin. Nag-picturan na lang tuloy kami using the camera memory of my vidcam. So funny talaga! Maya-maya, bumalik na rin sila sa UST para sa PE nila. Nagpahinga lang ako sandali, nagpunta na ako sa Driving Lessons ko.

    So how was my first lessons? Siyempre masaya! Many things got cleared up in my mind about driving. Iba talaga kapag professional driver ang nagtuturo sa iyo. Ang dami kong nakitang mali-maling turo ni Aps [family driver] sa akin noon at kaya naman pala nahihirapan ako matuto! Haha. So anyways, my trainer was Manong Robert. He first gave me the basic lectures on driving - the functions of the clutch, breaks, gas, teaching me on the gears, the signals, etc.. Nag-ddrive na naman ako noon kaya medyo alam ko na yun. He said that my driving was kinda okay naman for a beginner. But err, I guess I have to practice more on half-breaks & breaks! Ang bigat ng tapak ko! Siguro kasi atleta ako kaya mabigat ang tapak ng paa. Sometimes, I tend to break instead of half-braking only. Namamatayan tuloy ako ng makina! Minsan nahihiya na ako kay Manong kasi ang eng-eng ko. Nahihiya din ako kapag sa gitna ng intersection ako matitirikan at lahat ng mga sasakyan ay nagsisi-busina! Waah. But anyways, as we always say, practice makes perfect. Good thing my trainer was so patient with me. He was even so calm when teaching. Madalas pa nga kami nag-kuwentuhan ng kung anu-ano eh. So I just hope on Wednesday [my next class], I would learn more. =)

    Dahil sa driving, kinain na naman ang oras ko. Naghahabol na ulit ako. I was supposed to watch vleague on Tv, but I decided no to anymore. I have to prioritize my studies first and so, I did my school works. I was given the freedom to roam around with friends, to learn new skills in driving, so I guess it's just apt to take the consequence of squeezing the school works. Nakakapagod man, obligasyon at oportunidad ko yun lahat.

Di ko lang alam kung matutuwa ako o hinde. Workaholic-look na naman kasi ang dating eh..

Success is 1% inspiration and 99% perspiration.

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June 25 2005 | Saturday | 08:56pm

"YOU GOT TO BELIEVE"

    I've been dealing with school works all day. I was stuck in the living room, on the couch with tons of papers and trying to put everything in my head. It's either I review for exams or understand hand-outs for graded recitations. I've done a lot of things, I'm tired, but still, I feel so discontented. I just darn hate it because my pessimist attitude comes again! Matatawa siguro kayo kung sasabihin kong halos dalawang araw na akong nagbabasa pero feeling ko wala pa rin akong natututunan! Ewan ko ba kung di lang talaga siguro gumagana ang utak ko or I'm just presuming some negativity on my work. It's as if I'm a dead masochist killing her own potentials. Sheez.

    So I decided to search for enlightenment. It wasn't the Tv. It wasn't the computer. Rather, I went to hear mass. I immediately thought of Him as my redeemer from the abyss. He often did, so I tried again this time. And yeah, he never let me down again. It felt like the almost-exhausting day turned out to be oh-so great. Things may easily turn the other way around with God. Nothings impossible as long as you BELIEVE. Umuulan man habang nasa simbahan ako, sa sobrang galing ng Diyos, naisipan akong dalhan ng kasagutan. Dumating ang nanay ko at may dalang payong! Talk about simple yet miraculous acts from God. =) More miracles had happened.

    I was able to perfect the CWTS online exam. I got some confinement from reviewing coz I'm done with it. And the most beautiful thing? My favorite UST team won a while ago against ADMU! Whew! Ang tagal kong di napakali sa resulta kasi hindi nga ako nakapanood ng live. Hulog din siguro ng langit si Kim sa pagiging isang matiyagang taga-update ng mga pangyayari sa Rizal kanina. Hehe. Ang sarap pa ng hapunan ko - spaghetti with meatballs. Everything I had for today seemed to be appreciated.

    So tonight, I guess I'll just chat and update my webbies. Mas magaan na ang pakiramdam ko ngayon kasi halos lahat ng worries ko, napawi na.

There are no words available to say how special you are to God and He intends to be there for you at all times. Just believe, have faith and you'll see the miracles wrapped within His loving embrace..

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June 23 2005 | Thursday | 12:17am

"I'M SAD BUT I'M HAPPY.."

Nakakatawa...

    Mala-laffline ang buhay ko kanina sa USTe. Napakaraming rason kung bakit. Nung Filipino subject, nagturo si Sir Eros tungkol sa wika. Nakakatawa ang paraan ng pagtuturo niya! Ang dami kong natututunang bagong jokes. Lolz. Sample?

** [I just find this very funny. Bear with my ka-kornihan!] **

Tao 1: Anong tawag sa buhok sa puwet?

Tao 2: Ano?

Tao 1: Burnik. Ang pinakahabang buhok sa katawan sapagkat ito'y naka-konekta sa pilik-mata.

Tao 2: Talaga??

Tao 1: Oo. Subukan mo kayang humila ng isang hiblang burnik.  Hindi ba't napapa-pikit ang mga pilik-mata mo? *wink* HAHAHA.

    So anyways, nung Philo naman, nagkaroon kami ng role play. And as expected, all the presentations were so comical! Sa grupo ko pa lang, ubos na halakhak ang ko dahil ka-grupo ko si John [who's a member of Artistang Artlets. Yihaa!]. The activity served as an introduction for our topic on Christian Ethics. It was a good idea for Ma'am Trocio to start lessons such as that.

Nakakainis...

    Nakakainis lang nung English. We had a graded recitation and I was then called. At that time, I've made said to myself that Sir Satoquia is a real perfectionist. He gave me a whooping ZERO for recitation even though I recited and expressed my thoughts! Err. Kaka-frustrate tuloy. Nagbasa naman ako at sinubukan kong sagutin nang maayos ang pagpapaliwanag ng Paragraph 2. Ewan ko ba. I guess I just have to strive harder to meet his standards.=(

    Na-realize ko ding maraming gagawin para sa Lunes! Mag-qquiz daw sa Nat Sci, eh wala pa namang na-didiscuss masyado! I even have to research. Isama mo pa ang Math exam. Eh alam naman ng lahat na bulok ako dun. I have to re-read aslo my Journ handouts. Sir Esguerra might call me this time. Pa-impress dapat. ^.^ Hay goodluck sa akin.

Masaya...

    Magkakasama kami nina Madie, Dez, Clara at Arene nung uwian. My cornymates! Pumunta muna kaming Library para mag-eleap. Happy to say that though the pre-test in CWTS was an impromptu, I got 8 out of 10. Hehe. Sabay din kaming nag-lunch. Ang saya nun kasi puro tawanan na naman sa kung anu-anong bagay. We even recalled Sir Eros'  jokes. Nabusog ako sa tanghaliang puspos muli ng katatawanan.

Malungkot...

    Pagod na ako nun pero tinuloy ko ang panonood ng vleague. Second game na lang inabutan ko. Hay. Natalo naman ang kopunan ko! ='( Archers swept the Tigers in 3 sets. Carolino was darn great. Nilamon na naman sila. Ang pagbaba at ang paglapit ko kay Ate Rox, parang ang bigat talaga sa loob. When I was speaking with her, I can spell the sadness in her but she still tried to smile. I feel so sorry and I hope they revenge for a win next time. I tapped her on the shoulder, cheered her up by saying, "Oks lang yun Ate Rox, best smiler ka pa rin naman eh! Hehe." Nasakyan niya pa rin ang grupo naming pasaway sa pagpapa-picture. May stolen shots pa rin kami. May isang shot pa nga kaming si Ate Rox ang may hawak ng camera! [Ang kakapal ng mukha eh noh, sa player pa nagpakuha ng pic! LOLZ!]. Soon, we got out of Rizal. Makulimlim. Umayon ang panahon. Pagod na talaga ko nun. Isang malungkot na pag-uwi siguro..

Ka-tuwa...

    Hindi rin naman pala malungkot ang lahat. Sa kabila ng lahat, natalo man, panalong pakiramdam pa rin. We're about to leave when Ate Rox passed by us. Nasa labas na kami ng Rizal Colisuem nun. I just can't believe it. She gave us something! She gave us 2 pairs of cute dangling earrings! [the other one was with Rhea]. Nagtaka kami kung saan galing. Di namin naitanong kung saan galing kasi sandali lang siyang nakipag-usap sa amin. Lokohan pa ngang baka napulot lang sa locker room or binigay ng kung sino. Hehe.

    So anyways, at that time too, Kim introduced me to Ate Chelle Carolino. The website thing was mentioned by Kim. Katuwa lang. At least, efforts of my free web-design for vleage.tk pays off through recognition. =) I congratulated her for being a superb player awhile ago. She really stood out for her team.

    Kumain kami nina Nika, Kim, Rhea & Jean sa Tokyo-tokyo bago umuwi. Tuluyan ng umulan.

ANG PINAKAMASAYA...

    In the LRT, I decided to text message Ate Rox. Ang tagal din naming nag-usap at totoo, nakakagaan ng loob. Nakatayo ako nun sa LRT pero di ko nainda ang pangangalay. Nangingiti pa nga ko eh, tinitignan tuloy ako ng katabi ko. Haha. Ang dami kong nalaman ulit tungkol sa kanya. And yeah, we also talked about the earrings again. I thanked her and finally asked Ate Rox where it came from. I was surprised when she told me, "Maniniwala ka ba kung sabihin ko sa iyong gawa ko yun? ... Salamat nagustuhan mo!" Nung una, di rin ako maniwala. Eh kasi naman noh, it's seldom to imagine an athlete having a soft side which includes craft-making. Ate Rox is fund of those stuffs din pala. ^.^ Sinabi kong tamang-tama talaga kasi mahilig ako sa kikay stuffs tulad ng earrings.

    ...Pero mas natuwa ako nang maisip kong ang hikaw na yun, maliit man na bagay, ang bumuo sa araw ko dahil gawa niya yun mismo. =) Implication of an Ideal Ate na naman. Hay. What a day.

    We often feel mixed emotions. We don't know whether to smile or to frown at things which may come as opposite as it may be. Sometimes, there's just delusions on the events happening with us. We feel bad for the things which we must rejoice at. It's because we tend to look on the dark side. This day has been like that. I encountered several emotions and I thought this day will going to end up as remorseful day. Yet in the end, I smiled. I chose to be happy.  It feels better. ..And it's a matter of choice anyway.

Life is a matter of "to do" and "not to do". Don't let your mistakes be a regret but a lesson to ponder.. A happy life deals with A CHOICE so choose to be happy because you deserve it.

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June 22 2005 | Wednesday | 08:41pm

"BEING CRITICAL"

    This day has been quite fulfilling. I'm happy to finish all the school tasks a bit earlier. I was able to open the NSTP e-leap already. I even managed to take a nap and watch news fully [TV patrol World]. At ngayon, makakapag-internet pa ako. I often run out of time kasi.

    Speaking of the news, then again, headlines are still on the "Gloriagate Tape". For me, I find the issue as awfully disturbing already especially for the Philippine economy. The fact that market continues to flunk and investors refuse to take in the scene due to threats of destabilization. Opposition continues to urge Gloria to go down, Congress focus on the issue so much [instead of making cooperative laws for the country!] and at the end, try to stare at the situation -- still, nothing happens with the country! We're taking TOO MUCH time being overly critical and as a result, we're trapped ambiguously. At saka, kung paaalisin nila sa puwesto si GMA, sinong ipapalit nila? Malamang di na naman papayag ang oposisyon na si De Castro ang pumalit kasi maka-administrasyon din siya. Susan Roces? Reliving the late FPJ? Rez Cortez? Tsktsk. Please. Sana tignan muna natin ang ugat bago isanga ang isyu. Diligan muna ang nalanta bago magpunla ng panibago. Di natin napapansin, unti-unti ng nalalanta ang bansa.

    We shall have a graded recitation tomorrow on English 102. The topic is on process writing. I jotted down notes because I have the feeling that Sir Satoquia [my prof] wouldn't allow open hand-outs. I find the essay quite informative. And yeah, the term "critical" was then again mentioned. From there, it says that critical thinking is very important in process writing. Critical means to discern, to evaluate choices or to make decisions properly. It also leads you to being objective and open to the views of others. How I wish I could lend this article to the people in the government. Sometimes, I intend to spell their words as too subjective and that their main target is just to put someone into ignominy. Man, stop politics. How I wish I could put them again in English 102 for them to learn something. Hehe.

Reading without understanding is like eating without digesting.

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June 20 2005 | Monday | 10:38pm

"SABLAY"

    Inaatok na ako. At sa lahat ng oras inaatok pa rin ako. Haha. Di ko alam kung kaya ko ba talagang mag_DL ngayong sem. Nahihirapan ako sa oras ng pasok kasi masyadong maaga't feeling ko tulog pa ang dugo para mag-aral at umintindi sa lectures ng professors. Hay. Sana maka-adjust ako.

    Sablay ang mga pangyayari kanina sa school. Mas inaral ko ang Journ hand-outs pero di naman ako natawag! Si Sir Esguerra talaga oo! Haha. Di niya ko makita... [auww.. lolz!] Sa Nat Sci pa kamo ako natawag. Err. Ang sabog ng mga sagot ko, nakakahiya tuloy. Sir Olivar might have some bad impression of me. Kailangan kong bumawi. Anyways, good thing medyo nakabawi ako sa Computer. This time, walang sablay. =) We had a diagnostic test, I was the highest ata. Katuwa naman. Hehe.

    After class, I went to watch vleague. Walang kasablay-sablay talaga ang pagka-fanatic ko. Hehe. May pasok na nga sa school, present pa rin ako sa court. Worth it naman ang pagpunta ko kasi nanalo ulit UST against ADMU in 4 sets. Kahit medyo sablay si Venus Bernal, kahit madalas long ang spikes ni Ate Joyce, hindi naman sumablay si Ate Ging & Ate Rox. And yeah, speaking of Ate Rox, hay! She completed my day again. What a moment again.

    We thought we're not gonna catch the UST team after the game. Si Ate Jo lang ang inabot namin nun at yung iba, diresto na agad sa dug out. 3 na lang kaming natira: ako, Rhea and JR. Good thing we got the eagerness to wait for them. We sat on the bench as we kept on waiting. Nung nakita ko na si Ate Rox, hay natuwa na naman ako. Tinawag ko siya, nangiti siya at lumapit sa kinauupuan ko. Sabi pa niya, "O shelly! Nandito ka nga!" *hinatak niya ko para makatayo ako sa pagkakaupo ko, tapos beso-beso kami* Waah hinila pa niya talaga ang mga kamay ko! Hehe wala lang, katuwa ;p Actually at that time, I felt kinda sleepy pero nabuhay ang dugo ko sa paghila niyang yun. Haha! Then I replied, "Yeah, I made it. Hehe." Last night kasi, I told her that I'm not sure if I'm gonna watch live because I have a class. And ughh, she even bothered to say sa text last night, "ingats kung makakapunta ka ha." So anyways, nagpa-sign ako sa kanya kasi may nakuha akong V-league pamaypay. May signature din dun si Ate Jo and Ate Joyce. =) Katuwa talaga kasi silang 3 pinaka-fave ko sa UST team as of now. Dumaan din pala sa amin si Ate Ging, said hi's and hello's. Tinanong pa niya kung kami lang bang tatlo. We used to approach them kasi as a huge group, ngayon lang kami konti. Hehe. So after some time, Ate Rox waved goodbye. May meeting pala sila kaya nagmamadali. Hay! Walang kasablay-sablay pa rin ang kabaitan sa akin ni Ate Rox. Sana manalo sila sa Thursday.

    I did nothing as I reached home. I'm supposed to review again the Journ hand-outs pero baka bukas na lang. Feeling ko sasablay lang ang mamory bank ko kung aaralin ko yun ngayon kasi napagod akong kaka-biyahe. Hay. Bukas pala may PE ako, 3-5pm. It might be a long UST-campus day for me. I wish myself luck not to break some sleepiness again. Hehe. Sana may magandang mangyari bukas =)

    Sa bawat pag-sablay, dapat may pagbawing kaalinsabay. Di mahalaga kung madapa ka ngayon, basta maurnong ka bumangon sa bawat pagkaka-baon. Buti na lang kahit minsan reyna ako ng sablay, nandiyan ang mga taong tinitingala ko't siyang sumusubaybay.

Ako ang hari ng sablay, hindi makasabay...

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June 19 2005 | Sunday | 09:37pm

"THE FATHER'S DAY REMEMBERING"

    I woke up a bit early again. Though it's a weekend, the NSTP Orientation required me to do so. So anyways, I fixed myself, wore my uniform and before going to UST, I got the chance to open the Sunday newspaper. Intentionally, I was just searching for the Sports page and yet the articles about fathers stroke me a bit. It's a Father's Day today.

    For almost 5 years, I've been celebrating this day quite typical. My dad passed away so what's the point of marking this day anyway? Somehow I got over the fact that I have no dad anymore. It's been a while. I was also young when he was gone. No more dad-daughter bonding and yeah, sometimes I do miss the times that I can buy everything I want with his money because he's the luxurious type as compared to my mom. So while I was glancing on the Father's Day-related photos in the paper, I felt kind of empty which was a bit unusual. He died of heart attack and due to smoking, drinking & being high-blood, complications flowed into his body. We expected of that sickness to kill him. But I never realized that the impact a person's loss will come to you after some time. A while ago, I remembered those times when he would declaim speeches and saying that I must be the Journalist.  He also dreamt of me as Lawyer someday. I hope I could fulfill that in time. And yeah, I'm trying to. So despite the sheer of sadness while holding the newspaper, I decided to push myself going. I went to UST, to learn, to climb, to fulfill my dad's long-time dream for me.

    The Orientation was okay naman. The facilitator explained some basic guidelines about the course. 1st Semester CWTS would be more of online activities. So after an hour it was done. We went out of the building with Shiela & Joan [who are my classmates in CWTS] and met with the other 2jrn3 along the Dapitan road. Joan [my block mate] and I decided to eat lunch together. Bonding time! Hehe. We ate at Burger King. Joan used to be my seatmate [especially kapag alphabetical order ang seat plan] and a while ago was the perfect time to affix with her. Ang dami naming napag-kuwentuhan. Mostly were about the class, our classmates and yeah, about LOVELIFE. Haha. By the way, I saw Joel in BK too. He's the former Bedan guy whom we met in STC during the interaction. It's funny because he's still the same old Daddy. [tawag sa kanya ng mga kaklase niya noon. Ewan ko kung pang-asar na tawag ba yan o hinde.] He's still fund of staring from head to toe, asking out of this world stuffs and smiling at you bizarrely. Honestly, that petite Joel is a bit weird to me but you know, minsan naaawa din ako sa kanya kasi lagi siyang inaasar hanggang ngayon. Napangiti na lang si Joan. Nagkakasundo na nga siguro kami ni Joan kasi pareho kami ng naisip kanina. Haha.

    When I reached home, I decided to sleep first. And oh my, how I loved that sleep! I guess I truly lack it. Pagka-gising ko, nagbasa na naman ako. Para bang sa pagkaka-gising ko'y aantukin na ulit ako. Grr. But thank God I'm done with almost 50 pages of random lecture hand-outs. Sana naman may maisagot ako sa recitation bukas.

    At night we decided to eat outside. I was with my mom and brother. I don't know whether that was in commemoration of the Father's Day. Hehe. Oks na rin. At least even in the absence of the celebrant, the memory was there. Sa Chinese Restaurant kami kumain. Nadagdagan na naman ang taba ko't ang sarap kumain. Hay. Pagkauwi, nanood ako sandali ng vleague sa TV. Di ko pala alam kung makakanood ako bukas. Gusto ko sana kasi maganda ang laban [UST-ADMU] eh kaso.. Hay! Baka marami pa ring gagawin! Anyway I felt a bit happy na rin kasi naka-text ko kanina si Ate Rox. Ang bait niya talaga sa akin. Hay. I hope they win. I address my dad to pray for UST's win. Hehe. I always believe naman na nadiyan lang siya palagi, nagmamasid at ako'y ipinag-papanalangin. =)

When life throws lemons, you make lemonades.. When life gives you scraps, make quilts.. Life is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of how you respond to it.. Stay happy.

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June 17 2005 | Friday | 08:45pm

"CLICK ME IN"

    I feel a bit tired right now. I've been out almost all-day. Well of course in the morning I was in school. Speaking of which, we finally met our Journ 203 professor. Wala kasi siya nung Wednesday. Since then, rumors said it that he's handsome and that many girls are so attracted with him. And yeah, as that professor entered our room, napatunganga na lang ako! Wahaha. Ang guwapo nga! I think I'm gonna like my Major class even more because of Sir Christian Esguerra! He's so TALL, flawless skin [rosy chicks!], and with the way he speaks, it sounded that he's so smart! Niloloko lang ako ng ibang kaklase ko na bading siya. Hmmf. Hinde naman eh! Minsan lang talaga, may anggulong napapagkamalan mong tagilid ang sekswalidad kapag sobrang guwapo. LOLZ! Can't wait for Monday again. Click ang imahe niya sa akin. Haha.

    So after class, I had the bonding time with my classmate, Chuchi. She's my buddy when it comes to food trip, ka-Joklaan trip [searching for fafables!] and corny jokes trip. Hehe. What I like about Chuchi? Hmm.. She's so transparent on everything and she knows when to laugh & when to get serious. Well, most of the times when we're together, we always laugh hard! Ang dami naming napag-kuwentuhan at napag-tawanan talaga kanina. Naisama ko pa siya sa lakad namin ni Kc [my hs buddy naman]. Bibili kasi kami ng gift for Iza's [hs classmate] debut tomorrow. At first I thought that I will fail to get along with two friends at the same time. College friend ang isa, habang HS friend naman ang isa. Minsan kasi mahirap yun dahil di sa lahat ng kuwento mo ma-gegets o makaka-relate sila pareho. Good thing they clicked to one another immediately. It was so cool actually. It's somewhat like I have become a bridge between two newly-met people. We had a great time at SM Manila. We even watched SHUTTER together! Haha.

    Shutter is another Asian [Thailand] horror film which clicked to Filipino movie-goers. Ate Rox was the one mentioned this film to me. Di ko sana papanoorin dahil horror pero na-intriga kasi ako nang sabihin niyang kamukha [daw] niya yung bida dun. At aba, ka-replica nga niya! Natawa tuloy ako sa halip na matakot. Hehe. So anyways, its plot was kind of typical but I guess I have to take note of the superb shots that showed some real suspense.

    Tun (Ananda Everingham) works as a photographer. He has a girlfriend named Jane (Natthaweeranuch Thongmee) [eto yung kamukha ni Ate Rox! As in!]. One night, they met a car accident after going to a party. They hit on a lady. Due to fear of being accused, Tun forced Jane to ignore the lady who was dead on the road. Strange stuffs begun after that. He started to feel some back aches and he gained weight immediately. Tun's photos would also appear as a bit strange, having some shadows on it.

    Soon they found out that the shadows belong to the dead woman. Jane was clueless of the fact that the lady was related to Tun until he told about his college past. The lady was Natre, Tun's secret girlfriend in college. The relationship became secret because Tun was quite ashamed of Natre. She's weird but she learned to love Tun so much.  One day, Tun's gang friends made fun of Natre. They gang-raped the poor lady. Tun also lose some interest on Natre already so they split up. Nabaliw si Natre at nagpakamatay. Now, Jane was wondering why Natre's spirit still cannot rest in peace.

    They consulted a man [editor of a ghost magazine] about it and he said that most of the times, spirits do appear because they want to impart something or work on things left undone. They often miss loved ones. Tun and Jane went to Natre's residence. They found out that the remains of Natre was not buried yet! [Eww part yun!] The mother was still in denial that Natre died already. So they managed a burial for Natre. But then, Natre's spirit didn't stop bothering their lives still. That was when Jane discovered more things that Tun had never said before --- that Tun was there at the incident of rape and he didn't do anything to help Natre. He even took a shot of Natre while she was raped [that's where all the concept of "shutter" thing came from].

    Waah. Dun na talaga naging nakakatakot ang mga eksena. Para kaming sardinas nina Kc at Chuchi nun! Dahil sa sobrang pagmamahal ni Natre kay Tun, literal na di niya iniwan si Tun!!! Kaya pala masakit ang likod ni Tun at bumigat ang timbang niya kasi.. NAKASAKAY PALAGI SA LIKOD NIYA SI NATRE!!! Waaahh! Nakakahimatay. Haha. Sana makatulog ako agad mamaya.

    Di pa ko nakakagawa ng kahit anong homework. Anyway, it will be a weekend tomorrow. After watching vleague, I immediately went down clicking the mouse, chatting, updating my websites. I felt something odd during my chat. May kinaiinisan akong ka-chat habang may nagustuhan naman akong ka-chat. Ah ewan. Siguro ganun lang talaga kapag hindi ka na regular chatter.

People cling to each other because they need one another. It's bragging to say that you need nobody.

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June 16 2005 | Thursday | 08:36pm

"MEET THE PROFS [PART II]"

    So this has been my second day as a Second year student. Hehe. This time, I met my Tuesday-Thursday professors. Another unique day for me.

    Di ako nag-jeep papuntang UST. Nagkataong napadaan ang sasakyan nina Imee [my blockmate] sa kalsada namin at inalok niya kong sumabay na lang sa kanila. Nahiya naman akong tumanggi. It was a thoughtful thing from Imee to give me a ride... pero niloloko niya ko after nun! "Pick-up Girl" daw ako o! HAHA. Yun ba ang kapalit ng pagsakay ko? LOLZ. ;p

    The entrance of our Filipino professor was kinda funny. All a while we thought that he was a Philosophy teacher because he kept on talking about Philosophy. I was also quite confused considering that he's Filipino teacher and yet he first spoke in English! Haha. Niloloko niya lang pala kami. Sir Atalia brought heaps of sensible jokes with him. I like his way of approach to the students, as well as with the course subject. Naalala ko pa nang sabihin niyang, "Di ako magiging tradisyunal na guro sa Filipino na magpapaka-plastic sa pananalita." He condemned on the attitude of some professors requiring the students to speak straightly in English o diretsong Tagalog. For him, that's a phony way of speaking. He meant that if you're going to a market, would you rather say, "Maaaring po bang malaman ang presyo ng isang kilong manok?" Mas natural siguro kapag, "Magkano ang chicken?" I saw his point there. Students learn more if the approach is not so typical.

    Ma`am Trocio is our Philosophy 5 professor. She looked as if a guidance counselor who's calm and friendly. We had an activity a while ago. Mechanics said that once your name was called, you have to describe your seatmate in 3 terms. I described Madie. ;p Everyone seemed to laugh when I said that she's very very veryyy respectful! [from yesterday's incident lolz!], courteous and funny. Ginantihan naman niya ko nang sabihin niyang "Shelly is very very veryyy CORNY.. etc etc.." HAHA! Afterwards, we had a short diagnostic test. I only got 5 out of 10. Anyway it was not recorded but somehow it implied something - that I have no stock knowledge about Theology 1 & 2! Haha. Totoo naman eh. Wala talaga kong masyadong natutunan. So I'm looking forward at Ma`am Trocio would teach me some real Christian Ethics.

    Lumabas muna kami habang wala pa yung next professor. Picturan kami sa tapat ng room. Arene was making fun of me again. Lolz. Soon enough, I saw Ma`am Arlene. I said hi, not knowing that she's our teacher again! by the way, she used to be my prof. in Geography, and now she'll be dealing again with the wacky 2jrn3 for History 102 [Asian Civilization]. Isa-isa kaming tinanong ni Ma`am kung ano unang pumapasok sa isipan namin kapag sinabi ang "Asia". The activity was kinda typical. Medyo na-bored nga ko eh. May assignment pang iniwan si Ma`am but anyways, I'm done with it. Yey.

    Oh my, what a way the end the "Meet the Professors". English 102 time and the teacher entered immediately. I guess this professor would be the one who shall shaken my temper the most. He's somewhat like a perfectionist, a terror in a way. He even failed to say who he was! Diretsong Ingles ang salita niya. May so-so accent pa nga eh, but I seemed not to like it. Parang OA kasi. Tahimik ang lahat at manaka-naka lang kaming matawa. Err. I just hope he won't be disruptive of my grades and school performance. I need to connect my veins with his nerves.

    I went home early. Tanghaling tapat [1pm] nun at talaga namang nakakapaso ang init ng araw! Nakatulog na naman ako pagka-kain. Pagka-gising ko, nag-ayos ako para magpa-1x1 photo sa Kodak. Kailangan kasing magpasa ng picture. Bumili din ako ng ilang school supplies sa NBS. Ang dami ngang tao actually. I even saw Theresians. Napa-ngiti na lang ako ulit. So when I reached home, I did my assignments right away, even those which are still due next week. I wanna go ahead of time. Ayoko kasi ng napag-iiwanan lalo na sa pag-aaral. Hehe. Here comes another moment of being a perfectionist. ;p

A teacher affects eternity.

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June 15 2005 | Wednesday | 07:04pm

"MEET THE NEW SCHOOL YEAR"

Meet the So-Missed UST Campus.   

    School opened today! I woke as early as 05:20am. Thank heavens I got up just in time. So after eating and fixing myself, I went out walking on my new doll shoes and held on my small furry bag. Hehe. Kikay mode talaga ko kanina. I even braided my hair because I've thought of first day class as a tedious day. I reached Dapitan gate at about 06:30am. I started to smile as I saw Teejay standing under the AB Pavilion. Some of my classmates were there too. Soon we've decided to enter the AB Building. Great things had just begun.

Meet the Room.

    Room 205 is our new room. The room is located at the middle portion of the 2nd floor. Somehow I missed the former location of my room [which was in Room 211] which is near the staircase. Wala na tuloy kaming ma-tambayan kapag walang prof. Gusto ko din sa may staircase kasi ang daming puwedeng makitang mga tao dun [prospects! LOL!]. So anyways, the room was cold, seats were wooden and generally, the place is homey. Soon enough, each one came in. I just can't bare but smile, roam around and drop a couple of "hi's and hello's" to almost all of my long-missed college buddies. School's fun!

Meet the Classmates.

    We've decided to seat on the 2nd row, right side. It was so funny that the front seats were empty. Parang nakaupo na rin kami sa harap. Lolz. Katabi ko si Arene at si Madie. Haha. Ka-row ko rin pala sina Dez and Djhay. My corny-mates! HAHA. Sayang lang talaga nahiwalay si Clara. =( Sa 2jrn1 na kasi siya eh. Hay. So anyways, kalikod ko din pala ang makulit na si Haoson, na maya't maya na lang ginulo ang buhok ko kanina. Err, haha. Harinawa maka-concentrate ako all throughout the semester. ;p And by the way, we have new classmates. Isa pa lang ang nakakausap ko, which was Karen. She used to be in 1jrn3. I observed that she's a music-lover. Nagkantahan nga kami kanina habang siya naman nag-gigitara. =)

Meet the Professors.

    Maya-maya, pumasok na ang unang professor namin. Math 102. Si Ma`am Anonas. So as expected, she gave the basic information regarding the course. *blah blah* Medyo na-threaten lang ako sa pagsasabi niyang ang Pre-finals ay mahirap. Hay. Sana maka-survive ako. Math pa naman yun >.< Anyways, the next subject was COMPUTER [much-awaited?!]. Hehe. Medyo nabuhay ang klase dahil sa nangyari kay MADIE during Comp class. It was kinda funny! Ma`am Lintag caught her passing a piece paper containing the list of Math textbook orders. Tamang-tama pang ang topic ni Ma`am ay tungkol sa Respect & Courtesy. Haha. Ang agang napag-initan tuloy si Madie! Good thing the event wasn't taken seriously. Supposedly, the next subject must be my Major but the unknown professor didn't arrive. Medyo na-bore tuloy ako. Nag-ikot-ikot na lang kami ni Arene sa pasilyo ng AB. Hehe. Lastly was the Natural Science class. We thought the teacher will not appear. We're about the pack of stuffs when he surprisingly arrived, 30 minutes late. That was when I felt a bit sleepy already. Sir Olivar spoke in a manner that would really send you to sleep. Nanakit pa ulo dahil sa overhead projector. And err, he left a homework for us. Well anyway I'm done researching about the History of Earth Science. The only left work to do is to read a bit for the Computer Diagnostic test. Sa Friday daw yun. As early as now, I must work hard to keep my goals up.

Meet the So-fun Dismissal Time.

    Maaga ang uwian, 11am! Unlike before that I reach home late. We've decided to eat lunch. We kept on laughing the whole time around. Nilulubos na siguro namin ang panahong wala pa masyadong ginagawa. I was with Madie & Arene. We ate at a fast food chain in P. Noval - ang kaining puro "salamin". Haha. While eating, they were laughing at me because I got so addicted to Tropicana Orange and that I ordered two bottles! Para daw akong lasengga. Tsktsk. Ang dali ko tuloy nabusog sa kakatawa. Pag-uwi ko ng bahay, ang bilis kong inantok. Umulan pa nung hapon kaya malamig ang panahon. Whew, it was an exciting school-opening day for me. I hope this cool school aura would continue as the days go by.

    As we go on with life, we meet new people, we explore new things, and we come across new experiences. Each day is so special because we deal with something new. I guess being compassionate to the new-comers of life makes everything more fulfilling and happy, We must learn how to be open doors because who knows, happiness can be revealed through these majestic doors. =)

Life's true colors appear when you know how to paint your own world. Live life in simple yet colorful manner.

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June 13 2005 | Monday | 03:08am

"SWEET THOUGHTS"

    Perhaps at this very moment that I'm typing these lines, everyone may have been tucking on their pillows as they fall asleep. It was a stretched day for me and yet how ironic to say that sleepiness was at the bottom of my brains. Maybe this day has just overwhelmed me so dearly and that's the reason why I'm still pondering consciously.

    "Once Shelly got hooked into something, you'll heave at her madness. Love her for being an oh-so-sweet girl." I can still remember a friend who once said that to me. I just laughed at it, admitting the fact that it's half-meant true. Anyway there's nothing wrong about it in my own opinion. I believe that all of my obsessions sustain benefit for me in many ways. The event a while ago was just one of those. I'm happy that I disclosed the day with a teeming affirmative view of life. I used to be a pessimist and things went the other way around a while ago. The event had led me into so many conversions within myself, as well as on how to view life generally.

    Sabi na nga ba eh, maraming taong manonood ng game sa Rizal Coliseum. Bukod sa inanunsyong holiday ngayon, napaka-exciting din ng matches [ADMU-SSC; UST-DLSU]. The usual lower box yellow seat wasn't the place we had been a while ago. Sa upper box blue seats kami napa-puwesto. Maagang pumunta sina Kim at Kharoll [around 2pm] pero puno na agad ang lower box! Just imagine that. I failed to arrive earlier. I was there at 2:30pm. Dalawang mata ko rin mismo ang nakapag-patunay na ang dami ngang tao. Parang finals tuloy ang dating. Hehe.

    Anyway, we soon found out that our place was pretty okay na rin pala. The view wasn't so bad after all. As we sat there, I also got the chance to meet another YM chatter, who was Ate Bhaby. Nagulat nga ako nang may kumalabit sa akin eh. Nakakatuwa naman ang pagkakataong na-meet ko na rin siya katulad ng ibang vleague peepz na noo'y ka-chat ko lang din. Mabait siya, tulad ng inasahan ko. =)

   Through that place too, we've encountered a couple of v-league players. Watching v-league had never been much fun than that! Carlo Balse [with the complimentary shoulders I should say!] was in front of us. Siya yung nakakatandang kuya ni Ate Ging na nag-vovolleyball din. Madalas nga siyang lumingon sa amin nun eh, chini-cheer kasi namin si Espolong which we believed as the face-replica of Leila Barros. Agree din daw siya na may pagkakahawig sila. Hehe. Ate Cherry [SSC] sat with us after their game. Kahit natalo sila, [3 straight sets against ADMU] she remained to be so friendly and positive pa rin. Medyo naawa nga ko sa kanya eh kasi sa game kanina, siya lang talaga ang gumawa halos ng puntos. We all know that volleyball is a team sport game so it's vital that each one must shed blood on it. On the other hand, ADMU did well. Laborte [na kalapit lang din ng upuan namin along with the other ADMU players] was just unstoppable  on her quick spikes. Nakakatuwang birthday pala ni Ate Mic kaya nagbigay din ng sulat si Rhea! [one of my vleague buddies who supports Ate Mic!] I was just laughing the whole time around. Hahaha. We also saw Patti [ADMU] and she chit chat with us too. Ang kulit talaga nun. Hehe. ;p And later on the 2nd game, Diah & Bang were with us na rin. It was a fully-interactive day. I was able to mingle with numerous people. That's sweet.

    So anyways, after some time, I finally witnessed the UST-DLSU game that I guess, everyone too had been waiting for! How I loved and appreciated the crowd! Ang daming UST fans. Mas naganahan akong mag-cheer talaga. In fact, we've made a small UST banner that I kept on raising once in a while. Haha. The game was really heart-pounding but UST rose astoundingly! 4-set game nga lang actually eh. Galing-galing talaga! The come-back of Joyce Pano gave a huge "WHAMM!" in the court and Ate Rox Pimentel executed great running spikes! It was really a sweet revenge for UST! - they swept 2nd round empty-handed of losses. Wala akong masabi sa pinakita nilang laro kanina. I just wish them luck on the semi-finals!

[another spoof pic! haha! this time with Ate Jo Carpio of UST]

    Natapos ang game, nakipag-kamay ang DLSU, naghiyawan ang UST crowd. Bumaba kami para i-congrats sila. I was with Kim. We approached Ate Ging first. Natawa na naman ako kasi naalala pa rin yung "Wibster" thing [LOL!]. Pumunta din kami kay Ate Jho at naki-kuwento nang sandali. Maya-maya, nagka-picturan ulit at talaga namang patawa yun! Rhea raised the idea of "stolen shots" once more. Later, we walked towards the place of Ate Yeth and Monica naman. And uggh, they were both so pretty talaga. Nagpa-picture kami ulit. Hehe. ;p

    Soon, I've thought of searching for Ate Rox para sa dinner! Dali-dali kaming umalis ni Kim to look for her. Then finally, we caught her in the dug out, still mingling with fans. Tinawag namin siya, lumingon siya't sinabing, "O ano na, tuloy ba?" I smiled and said, "Oo tuloy. Sa Harrison na lang. Name it kung saan mo gusto kumain dun." She replied, "Hinde sige sunod ako, magbibihis pa kasi ako. Kayo na lang magsabi kung saan dun." Tapos sabi ko, "O sige text na lang kita." We congratulated her and soon we left to meet the others.

    Kasama din namin sina Diah at Bang sa dinner kaya mas lalong sumaya. Haha. Pagkatapos ng napakaraming pag-iisip kung saan kakain [hehe], sa KFC kami napunta. At dahil paiba-iba ang na-text kong place kay Ate Rox, we've decided to fetch her na lang sa Quarters. I was with Karlos, Jean & Kim. Habang kasama ko si Ate Rox, nanliit talaga ko sa height ko! Haha. Tangkad niya talaga. Nung sumakay nga kami ng jeep, nakayuko na siya sa sobrang tangkad niya. Pagod na daw maglakad si Ate Rox nun kaya kahit kayang lakarin ang KFC, sumakay na lang kami. Anyway it was a sweet thing of her to treat the jeepney fare. ;p At habang papalakad kami, inakbayan pa niya ko. Hay. I never knew that I'll get so close with my Idol.

    Pagpasok ng KFC, naupo na rin kami. Katabi ko si Ate Rox. Hay ulet. =) Umorder na sina Ana't Karlos, habang tuluy-tuloy ang kuwentuhan namin. Kristine called so Ate Rox was speaking with her. The rest of us talked and as  I can remember, one of our topics was about computers. Hehe. Katuwa lang kasi talagang naka-relate ako dun. Ate Rox even bothered to joke me saying, "Naku, kaka-computer nitong si Shelly.." and "Ayy yung website mo di ko pa nakikita ulit!" Haha. Natawa na lang ako. ;p Soon enough, the food was served. We ate spicy chicken! Before eating, we prayed. At dahil banat nilang birthday ko DAW [haha], sinabi ni Diah na ako na lang mag-lead ng prayer. And I guess that was one of my prayers that I really meant it. For a moment like that, there's too much to be thankful for. =)

    So while eating, we kept on chit chatting still. Sa dami ng napag-kuwentuhan namin, di ko na maalala ang lahat ng napag-usapan. Tuloy din ang tawanan, especially si Rhea na binabara si Ate Rox palagi. Haha talaga! I got to know Ate Rox even more through her stories. It was such a sweet experience, getting to know her beyond volleyball talks. I found out that she really came from a Chinese family and that her Chinese real name is Lichien Tang [not sure with the spelling]. Pimentel was the surname of her mom and her dad who was a Chinese citizen, died early. Uggh, we're almost the same because my dad died when I was in grade 6. So anyways, she also told me about countries she had visited. Those stuffs sounded so interesting on my ears. I kept on asking her about different countries and their culture. How I love to travel and know these things. =)

    Soon, picture time came in. It was hilarious again. In fact, because of too much merriment, Diah even hit on the glasses and spilt some of its contents. Haha. Ang gulo at ang ingay na naman namin. After picture-taking, hiniram ko yung cam ni Nika at tinignan ko. I just can't help but smile. I stared at Ate Roxy's image, may naalala akong tao. Hay.

    We went out of KFC at about 9:35pm na. Everyone were all busy talking on how to get home while I was still staring at Ate Rox. I wanna actually sob at that time. Shortly she had noticed that I was straightforwardly looking at her. I smiled. She smiled. I approached her and said the words, "Para ka talagang siya... at nakaka-miss..." Hay. Inakbayan niya ko, kumapit ako sa baywang niya't napasandal na lang ako sa balikat niya. That night, I felt like the oh-so-tall and mighty Ate Rox in the volleyball court had become the most gentle sister. The feeling was really strange. That was the sweetest irony among all. Tapos sabi niya, "Sendan mo nga ko ng pictures nya. Kasing-payatot ko ba??" We both laughed. Honestly, she cheered me up. She made me laugh even more when she told about the Shutter movie. Sabi kasi daw ng iba na kamukha niya yung bida dun. Haha. Hay. That moment was the climax of this day talaga. I really saw a sister in her. Sa isang Roxanne Pimentel ko pa na-feel yun. How sweet.

    Hinatid namin si Ate Rox sa Quarters. Ang gulo pa rin namin habang naglalakad. Haha. Finally, time came that I have to wave goodbye already at her. I kissed her as she whispered my name again. Sabi ko sa text-text na lang. I also reminded her about the website. Haha. Sana i-visit na niya ulit. As I walked away, I asked myself whether this thing would happen again. I was then clueless.

    Naghiwa-hiwalay na rin kami pagkatapos nun. Nakipagsapalaran ako sa jeep mag-isa dahil sarado na ang LRT. Good thing my instincts to reach home were all right. Sa buong biyahe ng pag-uwi ko, natulala pa rin ako. Di ako makapaniwalang nakasama namin si Ate Rox at nanalo ang UST sa DLSU! Waah talaga. What a day. At home, my mom was almost asleep Nagising siya nang dumating ako. Kinuwento ko ang lahat. Ang saya talaga. I tried to sleep na rin pero ewan ko ba't di ako makatulog. Kaya heto't ginagawa ko ang istoryang ito.

    "It's seldom to taste the sweetness than to smell a flower's fragrance." My day was parallel to that. Luckily, I was able to taste the sweetness of life and all my senses were in action through my friends, through Ate Rox, through the whole event. Hay. I really don't want to end this entry. This day had taught me one great learning, which is to be happy. Buti na lang nakilala ko sila. On Wednesday, classes are going to open again. I know it shall be another tough road. I'm ready for it. There's too much inspiration to carry on.

..And this was the sweetest day.

The moment I wake up, before I put on my make-up, I say a little prayer for you...

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June 11 2005 | Saturday | 01:38am

"CHAINS BETWEEN PAST & PRESENT"

    I attended Kc's debut, recalled the past, connected the present and somehow tried to put them into one huge package - memories.

    Sumabay lang ako kay Trei [hs classmate] papunta sa debut ni Kc. Di kasi alam ng driver namin ang daan papuntang Acropolis [which is in Libis]. Naisip ko ring mas masayang may kasabay na agad akong HS friend papunta dun para di ako ma-OP if ever wala pa yung ibang guests. I was on my pink dress, silver high heels and the rest of my get-up was with a girly accent. While on the road, I was thinking of what shall happen later. I knew many things will come in an unexpected manner.

    And I was right, many things occured. Heaps of thoughts popped in my head. We arrived at about 7:15pm. Kami ni Trei ang naunang IV-4 [section namin nung HS] doon. While waiting, I observed the setup of the location. I just can't help but marvel at the beautiful ORANGE surrounding. It was Kc's motif. And yeah, when she finally entered and was welcomed by everyone, she's just so mesmerizing.  At that night, the tangerine gown, the make-up, and the small crown on her head really molded her as a fine lady. Iba talaga nun si Kc, biglang namukadkad ang ganda. Hehe. I was kinda imagining myself na rin kapag ako naman ang nag-debut. Can't wait for it too.

    So I mingled with several people awhile ago. Faces that I used to be with. As I tasted the food, [which was so great] I also got the chance to taste the sweet company of everyone. I met Alyssa, Gian, Emps, Tin, Lira, Jenny, Marian, Sam, Pre, Sir Ben and Sir Vilo. They were my high school friends who're still very cool to be with. How I miss them occasionally. I started to stare at each one, many things had changed  in my own forethought, so as they say to me that I changed too.  I shared with them a couple of new stuffs about me, updated my life and they're all happy for me. And yeah, I wasn't able to escape from my past again. Akmang-akma pang si Tin ang madalas kong nakausap nang gabing yun. She used to be my buddy when it comes to love during high school days. We've talked on so many things about that. Gusto ko sanang i-iwas ang usapan pero di ko rin napigilan ang lahat. Naungkat ang nakalipas, nahinuha ko ang kasalukyan. What a paramount moment to consider that as I observed the alterations of today, I was able to relinquish the bygone endeavors again.

    Just like how a flower blooms to maturity and some of its petals fall, so as with life that each event elapse yet as time goes by, the more it gets beautiful. Kc turned 18. She had been through so many good and bad memories but through all that, I guess she had become a better person today. She has been one of my closest friends for almost 5 years. A while ago when I said a message for her, I was kind of speechless. I almost cried because she had been so good to me really. Through all the connections and detachments that I've been up to, Kc was at the middle. I was so joyous that past or present, changes or retains, the friendship that lies beneath all remains!

    Ngayon di ko lubos-maisip pa rin na hindi na kami schoolmates ni Kc. Pero sa kabila ng lahat, we always have the time to keep in touch. We still watch movies together, go to malls, catch v-league games [even if DLSU & UST are rivals in volleyball. Haha!], visit STC once in a while, chat in YM, exchange messages through text and talk on the phone. I'm really thankful for a friend like Kc. I could not have such blissful present if she wasn't a part of my past. =) Luv yah Kuyx!

I'm honored to have become a friend of yours. You're priceless and hard to find. Your personality is truly one of a kind. So don't ask what your worth is.. because you're too much from what I asked for!

[one of numerous text messages that Kc had sent before]

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June 09 2005 | Thursday | 11:59pm

"MASIKIP NA BA TALAGA?"

    I watched V-league AGAIN. Haha. Nilulubos ko na ang mga pagkakataon habang bakasyon pa dahil alam kong sa pasukan, sisiksik na ang mga gawaing pang-eskwela ulit. "Save the remaining chances", ika nga.

    So I did the usual routine again. Nag-jeep ako't sumakayng LRT. Akalain mong napakaluwag sa loob ng LRT?! Kulang na lang eh higaan ko yung upuan. Hehe. Habang nandun, may nakatabi akong dalawang babaeng nagku-kuwentuhan. This event captured me. Maybe they're working as bank accountants because their topic was about a certain bank where they're working from. Generally speaking, the point of their conversation was about going abroad. Ang chismosa ko talaga't napakinggan ko ang buong usapan nila! Haha. Anyway it sounded interesting naman eh. They both agreed on the fact that there's no setback when you keep on working in the Philippines. With all the anomalies happening in the government, the poor economic condition and the continuous crimes in the country, most people would really prefer to go out of this agonizing place. Sabi nung isang babae, "Nalulugi na yung sa atin, ano pa yung mas maliliit na kumpanya? Wala na nga akong masyadong ginagawa kanina eh, telebabad na lang. *Laughs* " Sagot naman ng isang babae, "Oo nga eh, ako din walang ginawa kanina. 3 years na lang talaga, ma-aaply na rin ako ng Visa." Those hearsays brought me into some questioning again. Masyado na ba talagang masikip ang Pilipinas para sa milyun-milyong Pilipino?

    Di mo makakailang ang daming nag-Nunursing ngayon dahil susi yun sa agarang pag-aabroad. Marami na rin sa mga kaibigan kong nag-migrate na sa ibang bansa dahil mahirap daw ang buhay dito. Patok na nga ngayon yung show ng GMA 7 na "Pinoy Abroad" at yung pakulo sa Wowowee tungkol sa mga TFC subscirbers dahil ang dami-dami na talagang Pilipino sa labas ng bansa. Eh ako kaya? In the mere future, shall I stay and withstand the Philippine way? As I walked out of that LRT, I just can't stop bewildering still.

    Dali-dali akong naglakad. Medyo mabigat din kasi yung mga bitbit ko. I was able to get magazines, some of which were J.Lo cover pages! Haha. Medyo hassle because its heavy, pero oks na rin -- nagamit ko din naman kasi habang first game [DLSU vs FEU] at hinihintay ko ang UST-Lyceum game, nagbabasa ako ng magazine! Haha. Some of my vleague friends even saw that MOD magazine which features me and then at the back part was an article about UST's defeat in the 2nd conference! How ironic di ba! UST supporter ako tapos sa likod ng page ay ang UST defeat. Hehe. ;p

    Anyways, I met some new faces again. Jeff and Christian were there. Di ko nga lang sila masyado nakausap kasi nasa dulo sila ng upuan at nasa gitna naman ako. Too bad I wasn't able to meet Paulyne personally. Well, she was there but it's just that we failed to meet up. Di ko kasi sure kung siya na ba yung kalikod namin! Eh ayaw naman niya tumingin o ngumiti man lang. Hehe. So I sat with the rest of my regular vleague pals, Jean, Ana, Karlos, Kharoll and the most hyped-kid of the day: RHEA. Haha! Ewan ko ba sa babaeng yun kung anong nakain kanina't napaka-hyper. Haha. I could still remember her "Go Roxanne!" cheers and yet Ate Roxy wasn't in the court playing!!! LOLZ! Napatingin nga actually si Ate Roxy from the bench eh, natatawa na lang. Hahaha. We also got the chance to meet Diah and Bang [Letran]. They even went to our place to laugh with us. They're both affable and whacky. We're supposed to eat together after game, pero di natuloy.

    Medyo maaga natapos ang mga laro. UST won in 3 sets. Nakipag-usap ulit kami with some of the UST players. I got the chance to congratulate Ate Joyce. It's just that I felt that she's quite aloof... (?) or baka naman shy type lang talaga siya (as mentioned by Jean) at nag-rerecover pa rin from his dad's death. Anyway, Ate Rox made my day again with those hilarious smiles and jokes. Waah sana talaga matuloy yung pang-iinvite namin ng dinner with her on Monday!!! Sana pumayag siya. Hay. At sana rin, i-declare ni GMA na holiday on the 13th para pwede lahat ng vleague peepz. Hehe. ;p Before going home, we ate at Pizza Hut with Rhea, Jean & Kharoll. Kakapagod ang araw na to pero masaya pa rin.

    Back on the first topic of this entry, di ko akalaing sa pag-uwi ko makukuha ang sagot tungkol sa patuloy na pag-alis ng mga Pilipino sa bansa.

    I hurriedly went up to the LRT station. Inisip ko kasing baka padating na yung sunod na tren. But then, oh my talaga, I almost slept waiting for it to come! I just don't know why the heck it took time for the train to come. When it finally arrived, the vehicle was soooo full of passengers! At first, I hesitated to enter but because of the time, I was pushed to squeeze myself in. Damn! Up to now I can't believe that I was able to stand that heat inside! Lahat ng tao sa loob nagrereklamo, nagtutulakan, pilit na nagpapaypay para sa hanging napakabaho't napaka-init pa din. Alam kong pagod na din silang lahat, dumagdag pa dun ang nakakabugnot na kasikipan. Isang napaka-terible't tipikal na pangyayari sa Pilipinas. Muntik na akong mahimatay. As I kept on sighing, dreaming of getting out as soon as possible, dun ko nahanap ang sagot at nasabi ko sa sarili kong, "Oo nga, masikip na nga talaga sa Pilipinas. Minsan, nakakapagod na ring maging Pinoy dahil lagi na lang ganun." Sometimes, I just can't help but pity my beloved country.

    My bathroom was spacious. Thank heavens. I took a shower and washed away all the sweat of this day. My computer room was spacious too, I chatted for long hours again. Somehow I was able to alleviate the issue a while ago.

Feed the young not only with food. Feed the young not only with technical knowledge. Feed the young with morals and culture. So that in the future, the privileged can also give food to the next era.

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June 07 2005 | Tuesday | 08:17pm

"RACING THE DAY"

    What a close-to-grumpy day again. The rain is still there, I barely moved and I'm quite moody.

    Tulad na lang kanina nang pumunta akong LTO [Land Transportation Office]. I just darn hate it kapag inaapura ako. My mom was pushing me again to hurry up.  Eh nag-aayos pa ako ng hitsura ko, dahil alam kong may picture-taking na magaganap sa pagpapa-renew ng lisensya. Tsktsk. Sana kasi sinabi na agad ng mom kong pupunta na sa LTO at magbihis na. Nag-chachat at nanonood pa kasi ako ng TV nun. [by the way, I saw Cecille Tabuena in Wowowee. Hehe. Kagulat lang.]

    So anyways, when we got there, I just again loathed on the way some naughty guys stared at me. Was it because of my shirt which was hmm, oks naman pero medyo tight nga lang?! DUH pa rin in all angles! Nakakainis kasi, why don't they mind their own businesses! And bad stuffs didn't end there. When my mom fell in line and asked for the renewal form, it took some time pa. The employees were ALL too slowwww. Di na ko magtatakang halos lahat ng tao dun ay naka-kunot ang mga noo, kakahintay sa mga nilalakad nilang papeles na parang pagong. After filling up the form and approached the teller, oh my.. what a lame LTO there is. Nakakainis nang sabihin ng teller na, "Ma`am bukas na lang po ang renewal kasi SIRA ANG COMPUTER NAMIN." Grr talaga. The fact that my mom went there already to ask for the form and the teller didn't inform immediately that it's unavailable, nakaka-bugnot! What a waste of time. What a waste of outfit [haha]. Now I can slowly see the frailty of the government's services. Too bad.

    So we went in the car and proceeded to the driving school naman. Sa Socialite Driving School ako nag-enroll. The lady said that my schedule shall be on June 27th pa. Err, much that I wanted to take it as early as possible to escape from school hassles but then, there's no choice eh so I have to take it.  For P2,250, I'm gonna have a 5-day session, learning through a power-steering Lancer vehicle and to be taught by a guy named Robert. Medyo napawi ang bugnot ko nang mahawakan ko yung student's slip. Hehe. ;p Well I hope I won't get through any accident and may I learn so many things. Haha.

    Gustung-gusto ko na talagang mag-drive.  I'm so eager to race the road. I seldom mind the dangers within and in fact, my past teachers were the ones who were much scared than me. Haha. And maybe, it's because I have this assertive attitude in life. I always want to fight and be on the go. I don't want to consider myself as being left out in the race of life and I guess in most cases, that's just pretty normal. Life is like a road. Sometimes, the ride may be bumpy, stiff and unstable but it is within the driver's control on how to break away from it. A good race depends on how you switch the wheels, be in command of the breaks and store up the gasoline left for you to finish the journey.

    *Cross-fingers.* Wishing for a car as a birthday gift. Hehe. ;p

If you refuse to take challenges you're a loser. Take any challenge and come what may, you're a sure winner.

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June 06 2005 | Monday | 08:10pm

"PENS UP!"

    I detoured a portion of my web career. For the past few days I found it very odd already and things got complicated so I decided to give it up. Masaya naman ako eh. Sorry but I don't want to tell more about this thing anymore. I just want to spare away the pens for this topic. I might as well push to the real score of this entry.

    I went shopping a while ago. It's back to school time! My summer blues are starting to go to its finale and a new phase is coming. I was with my mom and brother. We went to SM North Edsa. Medyo maulan pa rin pero tumuloy na din kami. Kahit maraming tao, naging masaya pa rin ang pamimili ko. I kept on thinking about the upcoming school year and felt a pinch of excitement as a Sophomore Journalism student. I bet there's too much to look forward to. Yahoo!

    After long hours of roaming around the mall, here's what I availed:

• School shoes [This time, I tried on a doll shoes with high heels. So cute! At hindi pa masyadong masakit sa paa.]

• Black ankle socks

• ORANGE umbrella [for the rainy season of course and yet, with a touch of my orange fashion pa rin! Haha.]

• Basic school supplies [ORANGE notebook, filler, pens, eraser, yellow pad, etc..]

• Transparent bra straps [hehe, for all-time use ;p]

• New undergarments [for all-time use din ;p]

• I brought my reading glass to the repair shop for some adjusting and cleaning.

• We went to Guess shop for the repair of my wristwatch, eh kaso, sa Megamall pala dapat dalhin ;/

• I bought a gift for Kc. Her debut is on Saturday ;p

• Napa-kain nanaman ako sa Pizzahut ng Stuffed Chicken Fillet with a slice of Hawaiian Pizza. Err! So tempting!

     I glanced at my registration form a while ago and I realized that I like my subjects for this semester. Sa wakas at may Computer and Filipino class na rin ako! I consider those subjects as my favorites. Not to mention of course, my Major subject [which is Journ 203] that might as well convey interest in me. On the other hand, may Math nanaman! Huhu! I just hope I can get through all the difficulties to come this semester.

    Come what may for this school year. I don't want to stick myself that I must get all the merits or be an aspirant Dean's Lister again, I guess lalo lang akong ma-ppressure pag ganun. I just want to say that I will offer all my dedication for studying. I hope I can do it. My schedule is pretty early [MWF,7-11am & TTh, 8:30-1pm] and I pray that I may always be punctual in school! Iwas cutting classes muna at iwas na sa pag-aabsent. Naranasan ko na ang mapag-iwanan palagi. Gusto ko na talagang mag-seryoso, kasi na-realize kong education is my sure key for everything. It does, and it will be as always. I must now concentrate on being a well-deserved student of UST. Aba, isipin mo na lang ang daming di nakakapag-aral ngayon, walang pang-gastos, walang magamit sa iskul. Hehe. It may sound corny again for some but you know, sometimes students must think about those stuffs for them to realize that they're lucky to obtain one of the greatest gifts in life - which is education. =) I'm looking forward to a fun-learning and fulfilling school year. Pen's up, school is up!

Education make a people easy to lead, but difficult to drive: easy to govern, but impossible to enslave.
-Peter Brougham

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June 05 2005 | Sunday | 08:54pm

"SA PAGPATAK NG ULAN"

    It feels so cold right now. Halos buong araw na umulan. Halos buong araw din akong na-burnik sa bahay. Wala akong magawa kundi kumain o mag-kompyuter. Nakakainis nga eh. Dahil nga sa malamig ang panahon, mas natutukso akong kumain nang kumain. I crave for more so I eat more. Err. Nagluto pa ang kuya ko ng spaghetti at kaka-grocery lang ng mom ko. Haha. Siguro nakiki-ayon lang talaga ang sikmura ko sa lamig ng panahon.

    To lessen my boredom, I went out to hear mass. And I guess, it's just proper to go there because there's too much to be thankful anyway. For the past few days, my days were pretty okay. I went all alone, on my usual mass outfit [I was in orange AGAIN. haha] and adopted with the consecrated mood. Medyo na-distract nga lang ako sa katabi ko - sa isang batang lalaking ang cute-cute at feeling ko'y nasa tatlong taong gulang lang. Ang likot-likot niya kasi, lakad nang lakad sa may luhuran, at ang ingay-ingay pa!  Maya-maya, nagulat na lang ako nang kalabit-kalabitin niya ko sa may bandang legs ko. Haha. Buti na nga lang at naka-slacks ako. Nang tignan ko naman siya, aba! Tinatawanan ako! Haha. Loko-lokong bata. Naisip ko tuloy kung mukha ba akong payaso?! Di pa siya nakuntento, yung manggas ng damit ko naman ang hinawakan niya! He was with his parents and yet they cannot control his kalikutan. Di ko tuloy masyadong napakinggan yung sermon ng pari. I was trying to cope up with that innocent kid which I guess, doesn't know what he was doing. Naisip ko, buti pa tuloy ang mga bata, walang masyadong iniisip sa buhay. Laro lang nang laro. Tawa lang nang tawa.

    When the night fell along with heavy clouds and the sun refused to shine again, I started to be more gloomy. I just don't know why my mood turned unto that again. Well, baka nga dahil na naman sa panahon o baka dahil sa kailangan ko na talagang harapin ang mga yun. Sunud-sunod ko ng naisip ang mga bagay-bagay. Iniisip ko ang ibang bagay bilang mga problema, na sabi naman nila'y di dapat. Hay. Di ko alam kung ano ng susunod na mangyayari. I'm quite confused. I was trying to 'blame this and that', and yet in the end, I thought that it was just all my fault. Err. Nung kailan lang ang saya-saya ko. With all those volleyball escapades, the computer career and the summer blues, I just can't imagine that the great events and the positive feelings are initially fading away.

    Heto na naman ang tag-ulan. Hudyat na rin ba ng kalungkutan? Tapos na ang tag-araw. Magwawakas na lang ba nang ganun ang lahat? Sana naman hindi... Gusto ko pang ngumiti. =(

Pumapatak na naman ang ulan sa bubong ng bahay. Di maiwasan ang sakit na nararamdaman...

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June 04 2005 | Saturday | 11:51pm

"PROVIDENCE"

    Kahit nagsusungit ang panahon, patuloy pa rin ang pagsuporta ko sa volleyball. I just can't simply get enough of it. I'm really having fun. I've witnessed so many volleyball games in my life but I guess the UST-ADMU game a while ago was just one of most exciting games ever. It made my heart pump hard, my hopes & faiths were tested.

    Simula nang ituro sa akin ang word na "Karma", tila ba pinaniwalaan ko na agad yun. Di ko alam kung malakas lang talaga ang panghihikayat ng guro ko noon o sadyang umeepekto lang sa buhay ko palagi ang "Karma". In simple terms, I can say that Karma is an act of retribution - that whatever you do to others, whether good or bad, it shall come back to you immediately. This thing has become the moral lesson for this day. I just can't believe it.

    Last night, my temper heightened up. An Atenean supporter who kept on demeaning the UST team ruined my night chat. Since then, we've [the v-league chatters] noticed  that he has been so bigheaded and that he's a way too subjective to the ADMU team. Last night was just impeccable to think that he was too offensive already. I can take the criticisms and they may point out the weaknesses of my team but don't get too personal. It's just a sport anyway. I really got mad and was so disappointed at him. He used to be my friend but because he's an Atenean supporter and I'm somewhat like a huge opponent for him, things got screwed up. The rest was history. And I just told him, "You know, I believe in Karma so watch out."

    When I reached Rizal Colisuem, I met some new faces again. I met Kristine and Carol. I observed that they're like opposites - Carol was the quiet type and Kristine was really makulit. Hehe. Mas nakilala ko si Kristine kasi katabi ko siya habang nanonood. Ma-kwentong bata, and I bet there's a future ahead for a witty girl like her. I was also with Jean, Kim, Jr and Karlos. Di ko masyado napanood yung 1st game [SSC-FEU] at nagliwaliw na lang kami sa labas. At sa paglabas nga namin ni Kristine, we even got the chance to chit chat with Patti. She's the young and cool Atenean player [jersey 11] who's also one of my usual chat mates in YM. Katuwa nga eh, kasi ang bait-bait nya talaga at nung nag-hi ako, kilala pala niya't namukhaan ako. Hehe. So after some petty talks with her, we've decided to go back. Pero dahil di pa rin tapos ang game, nag-ikot-ikot nanaman kami. This time, Jean was with us. Ayun. Naghanap lang kami ng ikakapagod dahil lakad kami nang lakad. Haha. After some time, the games were done. Nanalo SSC in 3 sets. Na-congratulate ko pa nga si Ate Cherry eh [SSC], who's identifiable of her sweet smiles always. =)

    And after 48 years of waiting, napanood ko na din yung UST game. Haha. Thumbs up talaga ko sa pinakitang laban ng UST. Ang gaganda ng digs, tips, joust at mga paghabol sa bolang akala mo patay na. It seemed that every rally was so unpredictable. Dikit palagi yung scores. In fact, it was a 5-setter game. Medyo umangat na lang ang UST nung 5th set na. 6-12 na yung score [in favor of UST] nang biglang pinalabas na ng coach ng ADMU yung guest players nila. Waah panalo UST wuhoo!!!

 ..and Karma was nearby.

Napangiti na lang ako sa pagpito't pagwawakas ng laro...

    Nakipag-usap kami sandali sa mga players. I saw how Ate Roxy was so happy about their performance. Kahit alam kong pagod siya, tawa pa rin siya nang tawa. Ate Ging naman was still reminded of the "webmaster" and "webster" thing when she saw me. Haha! And yeah, Patti? She remained so humble and friendly pa rin even though they were defeated by the team that we were rooting for. I went home with a huge smile. Atat na akong mag-chat. At sabi ko, kelangan ko siyang makausap...

    Nag-sorry naman siya. We talked on the things that he must ponder as regards to the conflicts he had created. Then finally he admitted everything, things got well and asked for the apology of others as well. Sa akin, wala na yun - kasi ang mga pangyayari na ang gumawa ng mga pangaral sa kanya. Lalo tuloy akong naniwala sa Karma ngayon. Hehe. And yeah, this thing might sound a bit corny pero naniwala akong, "ang taimtim na paniniwala, ay may kasagutan kay Bathala." =)

What goes around, comes around. What goes up, must go down.

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June 02 2005 | Thursday | 02:13am

"THE LEAST EXPECTED"

** (Bear with this lengthy entry! I hope you'll read the entire content. This was I guess one of my favorite entries here. Some portions of this entry were even copied from my original journal book. Yesterday was really an awesome day. Haha.)

    Most people say that at times, when you've expected of something, you'll arrive at the least anticipated. Somehow I was able to ponder on that idea today. This day has been another kick in the teeth day - a mixture of twinge and satisfaction that was really something I never expected to happen.

    I started the day so early. I woke up for my enrollment. I knew right from the start that I'm going to battle for an exhausting day - intense heat, long lines of people, standing the whole time around and yeah, looking as the worst creature ever. Haha. At talaga namang napalaban ako nang sobra-sobra sa enrollment na yun. Nakarating ako ng UST bandang 11am na. Gates were opened at 12pm. Luckily, I was able to come a bit earlier. It's just that, I encountered a problem.

    As I walked along Dapitan, I saw Carlo and gosh, I was just wondering why he was in uniform??! No one had ever told or reminded me that you must be in your college uniform! Grrr. I was wearing a civilian clothing! Naglakad ako papuntang Seminary Gym kung saan nandun ang karamihan. Pucha, naka-uniform nga ang lahat! So I hurriedly went home, running on my HEELS and passed on everyone like a wind. Daig ko pa ang nangarera sa Sta. Ana! Haha, grabe. Nagbihis ako nang madali at nag-taxi na lang ako pabalik ng UST. On the way, err heavy traffic occured! Sinabi ko na lang sa driver na dun ako ibaba sa Laon-Laan. Naglakad ako nang napakalayo! And again, ON MY HEELS. Nag-text na sa akin sina Madie, nakapasok na daw sila ng gate! Too bad. I just hated that kind of situation that I came earlier than the others and yet, I came last. Ilang minuto pa akong nakatanga sa gate, nangarap na sana matapos na ang lahat! Grr.

    So anyways, mas mabilis pa ang pag-eenroll kaysa sa pagpila sa labas! Harhar. By the way, 2jrn3 na pala ako. Happily, I belonged to a new class na maraming 1jrn1 pa rin. May mga nahiwalay sa class namin, which caused me to be a bit sad. Di ko inexpect na ma-reresection yung iba sa amin. For sure things will never be the same again. Hay. :( And by the way, basketball co-ed pala ang PE ko. Haha. Something to look forward on the days ahead. ;p So anyways, after enrollment, I sat down on the bench with Madie, Arene & Dez. How I missed them and the others as well. Madie even invited me to come with them shopping but too bad, naka-plano na talaga ang panonood ko ng vleague. I bid goodbye to them around 2pm. Medyo maaga pa naman [3pm yung game] kaya umuwi muna ako ng bahay.

    I have been watching volleyball for several times already. I guess, I already  got used to the LRT ride and walking to the Rizal Coliseum. Before, I was quite scared pa but look now, I even go home late. Haha. I never worry anymore on who's to come with me because my cool v-league pals are always on the go. I'm so blessed with them.

    So anyways, I sat with them at Lower Box again. Almost complete attendance kami! Nandun sina: Jean, Kim [along with her sister and the boyfriend], Nika, Ana and Karlos. I failed to formally meet with Nikki. Sayang nga eh, isa rin siya sa mga madalas kong ka-chat sa YM. The games were DLSU vs LOP and UST vs FEU. I wasn't able to watch really the 1st game. Jean and I even walked out of the court to tour around. Mainit kasi. Haha. And yeah, what a creepy yet short-lived experience. Masyado na nga sigurong luma ang istrakturang yun kaya ganun na lang ang mga nagaganap sa loob. Sounds scary ba?! Hahaha. Meanwhile, it was also the perfect time that I was able to personally chit chat with Jean. We talked on a couple of things. She's nice and cool to be with, really. =) Napa-balik na lang kami sa court nang di na kami makadaan sa isang pasilyo dahil nandun ang UST team! Nakakahiya kasing dumaan. Haha. We went back for the 2nd game.

    How I wish UST would always play like that. They swept the game. The blocking was so present, everyone seemed to give their power and gosh, hands down to Carpio's unexpected spikes! I mean, she's a setter in the line-up and so, you'll least expect on the left-handed hard-angled spikes. On the other hand, I observed that Ate Roxy cannot execute well. Parang di niya maibalik yung dati niyang laro. I'm quite unsure if it's because of Carpio's sets or you know, Ate Roxy is just getting older in volleyball. She's 30. But in spite all, she's still my idol. =) Actually, she was the one who made said in my brains that "hey, you must engage again in volleyball." Not to mention that she was the 1st and kindest v-league player I got closed with. Again, something I never expected to happen. Noon, napapanood ko lang siya but look now! - from miles away, it gratefully turned out that were just smiles away. ^.^

    Eto na ang climax! [haha]. We approached the team again. We had the time to congratulate and take some pictures with them. I even got the chance to speak with Ate Roxy again. Kilala niya pa rin ako! Waaah! [eh paano ba naman, lagi kong tinatanong kung sino ako tsktsk.] Na-kiss ko pa siya ulit bago umalis at makipag-usap sa ibang players. Hay, elder-sister-material talaga siya. =) Pagkatapos nun, Kim and I approached Jho Carpio [UST setter]. Wahaha! I even told Ate Jho that I like her jersey number [06] or should I say, I used to like it. Hahaha! Kinausap pa niya kami at may picture pa kami. Nakakatawa talaga yung photo! And by the way, Rhea's idea of "stolen pics" was just unstoppable not to laugh at. Hahaha! Kunwaring stolen pero planado naman!!! Lolz. Nakakatawang si Ate Roxy ay nakisakay den. So funny talaga!

    We tried to invite Ate Roxy for a dinner. Too bad she was already committed with others. Pero di bale, Karlos was able to convince Ate Ging Balse to come with us for a dinner. Sa Tokyo-tokyo kami kumain. We walked to SM Harrison. I was starting to feel the cramps on my legs at that time! I was trying hard to walk properly because it really hurts. Maybe it was because of the tiresome heeled day and then I was walking on a cold atmosphere. Alam ko masama yung ganun eh, yung nahahanginan ang pagod na parte ng katawan. So anyways, when we reached there, Jean, Ana and I went to the CR muna. Pagbalik namin, nandun na sina Ate Ging along with her younger sister, Che-che and Ate Mhay Rovira [FEU player & RP team].

    At bakit nga ba ako ang napatabi kay Ate Ging sa upuan? Medyo nahiya tuloy ako nung una. Haha. Eh sino ba namang hindi mahihiya, katabi mo ang isang magaling na volleyball player [former MVP player pa nga] at sikat pa! Karlos even told us that there was a man who asked him, "Boss, si Balse yun di ba?" Popular nga siya talaga. Hehe. But then, I guess that mistaken impression about her was just in my nerves. Ate Ging made me feel comfy as her seatmate, as a friend. Lagi pa nga niya kong sinasandalan eh. At kapag nagkaka-tawanan na, kulang na lang eh malaglag ako sa upuan sa kaka-tulak niya! Wahaha. I discovered tons of things about her. Ang dami naming napag-kwentuhan, ang dami kong naitanong at puno talaga ng tawanan! Di ko inexpect na ganun siya ka-baet, ka-kulet at.. haha ka-takaw! ;p Kaya nga ba simula nun, I always remember the old saying that "don't judge until you witness." Akala ko kasi noon mataray siya. Nung nandun kami, grabe talaga siya tumawa! To the Nth power! Pinagtitinginan na nga yata kami ng mga tao noon eh. Haha.

    After eating, Ate Mhay and Che-che decided to go ahead. That's when more laughter spilt kasi kami-kami na lang nina Ate Ging. Here's a funny moment >> tinanong niya ulit kung sinu-sino kami. Nung ako na ang kikilalanin niya, tinitignan niya lang ako [trying to recall my name]. Sabi ko, "hmmf di mo kilala ang webmaster." Ana and Karlos told her that I was the one who's maintaining the v-league website. Ate Ging was just surprised. Haha, sabi pa nga niya eh, "Ganun. Delikado ka pala. Mamaya ilagay mo dun: Halimaw si Balse." Natawa talaga ako sabay palo sa arms niya. Haha. Tapos bumanat nanaman siya, "Sige, si webster ka pala eh." [with a distinctive accent hehe] Tawanan kaming lahat lalo na ako. "Ayaw mo nun, para kang matalino, kasi dictionary ka," she perkily said. Then she even sang Willie's "Joke joke joke song". Paulit-ulit niyang inawit yun! Haha talaga! Di ko alam kung na-gegets ng ibang tao itong kwento ko pero grabehan, no exact words can tell how crazy it was!

[just came up with a good spoof story for this image! click niyo! haha!]

    Aba, lalo pang lumala ang lahat nang nag-pipicturan na kami! Para bang kami lang ang tao sa Tokyo-Tokyo at napakagulo't saya namin. The funny faces of Ate Ging and the rest of us would always bring giggles to me up to now! Di mo talaga aakalaing ganun si Mary Jean Balse kapag nakasama mo nang matagal. Bawat camera shot tinatawanan pa niya nang pagkalakas-lakas. Nahawa na tuloy kami. At talaga namang nakakasakit ng tiyan ang lahat. =)

    At about 8:30pm, we went out of the restaurant. We were walking towards the exit door of the mall like freaks who laughed all throughout still! Maghanap daw ba ng ideal man sa mall?! Mga pakulo talaga ni Ate Ging oo. Nakakatawa lang talaga yung mga lalaking tinuturo niya. Hahaha! Hinatid pa namin siya sa Quarters at nag-stay pa kami dun sandali. And yeah, tuloy pa rin ang tawanan! Kakain pa nga sana sa Mcdo eh dahil parang ginutom na daw si Ate Ging sa kakatawa pero late na. Finally, I kissed her goodbye. We exchanged our thanks and take cares. For sure, I'll miss those times with her.

    So we walked hurriedly to the LRT station. Malapit na kasing magsara. Naghiwa-hiwalay na kami, I was left with Ana and Karlos na kasabay ko sa LRT. I reached home at about 9:30pm. Nag-chat pa nga ko eh, hinintay ko yung photos from Nika. At that time also, I was talking with Ate Roxy through text message. Waaah. What a conspicuous event talaga to give a finale for this day! Kumpletong araw na nga, lalo pang nakumpleto dahil dun! =) The best.

    I just want to end this entry saying that in life, you may often encounter unbearable and painstaking instances which may perhaps, crash your will into pieces. Yet along the way, there are those few but smacking moments that can easily fabricate your spirits, craft your entirety once again and help you realize that, "hey I lose some things before but now, I gained even more!"

When God closes a door, he opens a window. Don't loose hope, for God always give the opportunities that were least expected.

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June 01 2005 | Wednesday | 08:00pm

"PUZZLED WHILE PUZZLING"

    Was there a point in your life that you had been so addicted to puzzles? The game which entails lots of patience and some neck endurance. Haha. I remembered myself before, catching some stiff necks right after playing puzzles. I used to be a puzzle-lover when I was younger. Nakakatagal ako ng ilang oras, mabuo lang ang isang puzzle. Mahilig ako sa mga puzzle ng cartoon characters noon, kasi mas madaling buuin dahil pamilyar ka na sa itsura. Hehe.

    I was surprised a while ago when I saw Schenly and Xianne playing with my old puzzle games. Akala ko nagsiwalaan na ang mga yun. Pinagsawaan ko na kasi yun dati. Luckily, two of my favorite puzzles were still kept. One was the Peanuts puzzle and the other one was my favorite Sailormoon puzzle. Hehe. Oh my, it seemed that I rekindled the obsession to build the puzzles again! So I sat on the floor, together with the 2 kids, we patiently gathered the pieces and poof, I was stuck at that activity for an hour. Painstaking but I felt happy. Sayang nga lang at kulang ng tatlong piraso. 

    As I finished the puzzle, I decided to take a picture of it. Baka hindi ko na ulit makita yun nang ganun. Sa ugali ba naman nina Schenly na mga burara, eh feeling ko bukas kulang-kulang na yun.

    Somehow I saw the parallelism between puzzle-games and life. Life also consists of different pieces which are called experiences. You take chances of building each piece one at a time. There's always connection between the pieces. Sometimes, it may take some time to fill in an empty block, you commit mistakes, you try until you succeed. Shapes vary, colors are different, but that what makes a puzzle unique from the others. Same as to life, the more twist and complication there is, the more you feel life as much fulfilling. It takes a lot of patience, will and passion but when you've finally completed it, there's no way that you won't admire its exquisite image.

    Kinahapunan, naisipan kong magpa-hair spa, just to pamper myself. Anyway I got so tired from making puzzles. Hehe. And I felt much better.

Life is like a rainbow: You need both the sun and the rain
To make its colors appear.

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