"Dapat
maganda yan ha. He, he, he".March 30th 2005 | Wednesday | 10:59pm
"ROLE CONFLICT?"
I'm quite busy right now with my web career. At ewan ko kung kaya ko nga ba gawin lahat. Haha, nagpaka-Darna nanaman siguro ako at na-uliratan ko na lang na ang dami ko palang i-lalayout! My major concentration right now is the web-design of the Shakey's V-League Website. Oh yeah! And damn, I got hooked to it even more because Ate Roxy told me this thing:
"Dapat
maganda yan ha. He, he, he".
Inspired? Inspired to get perspired. Hahah. Lalo tuloy akong nahimok pero parang nailang naman ako. Naisip ko kasi, mamaya pangit pala ang layout ko sa pananaw ng iba. Sometimes I refuse to take criticisms from others because I believe in my own point of view naman eh but most often, I am just carried away easily. I have been through so many instances that people always criticize my works [as a writer & a Journ student] and sometimes, I just don't know how to handle the "bad ones". Tinutukoy ko yung mga mapanira diyan sa tabi-tabi. Di ko alam kung aawayin ko din ba sila at papatol na parang eng-eng din. May pagka-palaban attitude din kasi ko minsan eh. O di kaya'y hahayaan ko na lang sila dahil alam kong spoilers at KLSP lang sila! [nuks kanta yun ah haha]. Eto pala ang sample ng isa sa mga graphics na ginamit ko. Okay lang ba guyz? Click niyo na lang to have a larger view.
Meanwhile, Patty [my hs kadamate] surprisingly called me. She's studying in UP Baguio as a Comm Arts student and that's the reason why we lose contact for a time. Nag-kumustahan kami siyempre and waah, how I missed our days together. She told me that she wanted to go out with the Astugg kada this summer. I'm looking forward to that. Harinawa, ang suntok sa buwang pangarap naming mabubuo kaming muli ay matupad na. Gusto ko pa sana chumika nang mas matagal kay Patty kaso, wrong timing lang talaga. I'm busy! Iniwan ko pa kasing naka-boot yung pc ko.
Anyways, recently I have been also an active and addictive YM chatter. It's so nice to have a couple of new chat mates due to this volleyball craze in my head. Mas masaya kasi pare-pareho kami ng interests ngayon - volleyball! Haha. Sunud-sunod yung BUZZes at window pop-ups kanina. Nagulantang nanaman ako dahil di ko alam kung ano uunahin ko. I kind of gave up the chatting sessions a while ago. I was forced to change my status as "Busy".
Sometimes, in order to accomplish things perfectly, you have to give up the others. It would be very confusing to mix and take all our roles at one rapid moment in time. We have to focus on a certain matter one at a time.
Science says that two or more matter cannot occupy the same space at the same time. So as to our personal lives. We cannot do two things at the same time.
March 29th 2005 | Tuesday 09:31pm
"UNDER THE PHASE OF TIME"
My mom and I were playing scrabble a while ago. We were playing well until we argued on a certain word if it shall be accepted or not. That word is "ed". Tira ko sana yun, at dapat scrabble ako [+50 pts sana]. I have been using that word since then [especially when I'm playing at Scrabble Online] but still, ayaw niyang maniwalang acceptable yun. Wala yung word na "ed" sa dictionary na nasa tabi namin pero when you look at it online, you'll see that "ed" really exists. Di na tuloy natapos yung game. I just went down to play computer again. Kaasar kasi eh, hehe. Siguro nga, mahirap papaniwalain ang isang 54 year-old person na may ganoong makikita sa internet. She kept on telling "wala wala walaaaaaaa" habang ako naman, "ughh, wait until I boot my computer and I'll prove that "ed" really exists!" Di naman kasi gaanong gumagamit ng computer ang mom ko eh, lalo na ang internet. Computer age has really set the phase of time, even on the way people approach their references.
Anyways, I went to Mcdo Retiro kanina to order coke float. I was with Franz. We happened to see students of STC. They were so noisy. Damn, I hated the way they created their noise! I found it very awful kasi di ba, you're in a public place at hindi naman pag-aari ng Theresians yung Mcdo di ba. Naisip ko tuloy, ganyan ba kami noon o talagang nag-iiba na ang panahon? Sorry to say pero, nasaan na ang pagka-modest ng ibang Theresians? Nalaglag na yata sa imburnal ng Retiro. Now I'm acting like a grown-up. It's kind of weird but that's how I feel towards the situation. Maybe it just shows na tumatanda na rin ako. Haha. Time slips away too fast.
And speaking of the time slithering away, aba akalain mong sunud-sunod na ang debuts na pupuntahan ko?! Ang bilis nga naman ng panahon. We used to be babies, now we're ladies. Haha. Ga-graduate na rin yung iba kong friends. At akalain mo ring sa susunod na taon, mamamataan ko na yung iba sa USTe. Hay naku, huwag lang sila mag-iinarte dun at baka itakwil sila mga Tomasino. Waah 2nd year college na ko?! Ang bilis talaga. Ngayon ko lang napagtanto.
Minsan mahirap isiping sa mga susunod pang sandali, ang ngayon ay bigla na lang magiging kahapon. Iba na talaga ang panahon at paano pa ko makakahabol? Nasaan na ba ko? Nasaan ka na ngayon?
March 28th 2005 | Monday | 09:49pm
"MAINIT NA USAPAN, SA MAINIT NA KAPANAHUNAN"
Ang init talaga ng singaw ng hangin. Ang number 3 na bentilador, parang ihip lang. Amoy pawis na ko. Haha. At akalain mo, pati ugali ng tao mainit na umaalingasaw?
As said by my Sociology class, geography [which includes climate and location] affects ones personality. I strongly agree to it. Yung kuya ko, kaka-graduate lang kanina. Iisipin mong positibo ang aura niya ngayon, pero baligtad ang lahat - ang init-init ng ulo niya. Naisip ko na lang, baka dahil sa panahon. Di na pala ko nakasama sa PICC kanina, ang aga-aga naman kasi! Sabi ng mom ko, she saw Kate Co Yu Kang in the graduation, as well as her sister, Karen. Wala lang. Sana pala sumama ko. Hahaha.
Anyways, Patuloy pa rin ang kaguluhan sa Batangas. Kung dati, pera lang ang inaatumal, nagka-ugat-ugat na ngayon sa iba pang usapan. Ate Inday told me that it's really a war zone over there and she advised that my mom shouldn't go there yet until the heat is still on. Actually, dahil sa galit ng lolo ko sa Tito at Tita ko, pina-giba na niya yung kubong tambayan namin dun! Waah sayang yung kubong yun, kasi dun ako madalas nauupo kapag tanghaling mainit ang araw. Too bad. Tuloy daw ang palitan ng nakaka-gitlang salita. Pati yung mga taga-likod, nakikisawsaw sa usyosong too hot to handle! Hay naku, sana maayos na yung gulo. Ang pangit namang sa pagbabalik ko, nag-tutuktukan pa rin sila ng bintana at nanghahabol pa rin ng kahoy! Kaya nga ko pupunta dun para lumangoy at magpa-lamig eh. It would be too ironic to go for refreshment with an environment which is in flame.
Like birds, let us leave behind what we don't need to carry - grudges, sadness, pain, fear and regrets. Fly light. Life is beautiful..
[text ni Momi Faith toh kagabi. Hehe. Mishu!]
March 27th 2005 | Sunday | 10:49pm
"BATANGAS ESCAPADE!"
I'm back from Batangas. Naiinitan na ko ulit at yun siguro ang dahilan kung bakit ang sakit-sakit ng ulo ko! Harhar. Anyways, here's the clear-cut story of my 6-day vacation in Batangas:
03.22.05 Tuesday 08:35pm
DAY 01 - MY ARRIVAL
So I'm here in Batangas. Umalis kami ng 10am at dahil medyo traffic sa Express Way, 12pm na kami nakadating. Dumaan pa kami sa Banay-Banay para kumain ng lunch. Waah I'm addicted to shrimps! Yun ang order ko kanina, sinigang na hipon. Kainis nga eh, kasi puro gulay ang binigay sa akin at 4 na piraso lang ang hipon!
Anyways, I have been spending a day almost without a techy stuff by my side - no
computer, no internet and I just seldom use my cellphone right now. Life here
is practically simple. The beauty of nature allows you to momentarily put down
all of your technological addictions. You'll simply be addicted with the cold
breeze, green surrounding. At kahit tilaok ng manok ma-aapreciate mo talaga!
You spend most of the times outdoors, unlike in Manila where most of the times I
just stay in the house. Di pa nga ko nag-uunpack kanina at nag-volleyball na ko
agad! Haha! Ang saya maglaro sa harapan ng bahay namin kasi malawak ang lugar at
walang dumadaan na sasakyan! [actually our place is called "parang"] At
pagkatapos kong maglaro, nag-driving naman ako! Wuhoo! Strolling lang sa bayan
hanggang sa bukana ng beach resort! Haha. Ang sarap ng simoy ng hangin at sa
sobrang pagkaaliw ko, di ko namalayang parang nagsasayaw na pala ang minamaneho
kong owner-type jeepney!!! Haha, at talaga namang nanlamig ang trainer ko.
03.23.05 Wednesday 11:20pm
DAY 02 - THE PEEPZ
Nothing much
today. Late na kasi ako nagising kaya halos kalahati lang ang araw ko. Hehe. I
went to Robinson's Lipa with Ate Inday and her daughter, Gela. I bought goggles!
Ang cute kasi kulay orange! Sandali lang kami nakapag-mall kasi nga nahihirapan
siyang magdala ng bata. And a while ago, I realized and saw how difficult it
was
to have a baby. It entails a lot of responsibility and you have to give up a lot
of things - such as going to malls. Siyempre mas pag-gugulan mo na ng panahon
ang pag-aalaga nang di magkasakit, pagpapakain sa oras, pagpapaligo at marami
pang iba. But somehow I saw the happiness in her. I mean, seeing your
offspring growing within your nourishing love and care is a blessed gift
already. It is undeniably a priceless gift at all. =)
Nung hapon, siyempre nag-volleyball nanaman ako. Paiba-iba na nga yung mga kalaro ko dito eh. Pati yung mag-popoultry na puro guys kalaro ko na din! Haha. Tapos I practiced spiking and jump serves. At ang hirap pala mag-jump serve! Ilang beses kong sinusubukan pero langya, tumatalbog lang papalayo ang supalpal kong bola. Hay. But I still believe in myself. Practice makes perfect. =) Tulad ng pag-vivideo ko. I watched my past video shots kinagabihan. I compared it with my present way of taking shots, somehow I'm already well-improved. And I'm still eager to learn more. =)
03.24.05 Thursday 11:00pm
DAY 03 - THE START OF THE "OH SO HOLY DAYS"
I woke up early
because we went to the grocery [South
Supermarket].
The streets are so quiet and you'll seldom see people outside. Holy Week na nga.
I was with my mom, bro, driver and Gabby, my hilarious childhood playmate. He's
one of my closest cousin. At siympre, sa kabila ng matahimik na araw, naging
katatawanan nanaman ang araw ko dahil nga kasama ko si Gabby. He's like a clown
talaga, with heaps of jokes stored in his stomach.
Nung hapon, iba nanaman ang kinahumalingan ko. Naisipan ko namang mag-photography. [CFAD student na ko??! Haha] At talaga namang natuwa ako pati yung mga tao dito sa mga ni-letratuhan ko. Total din lang puro halaman dito sa Batangas, eh di ginawa ko silang piece of art! Sometimes, you can get a masterpiece simply from the things around you. Yihaa! Ay naku, sabi ni Gabby pang-videoke daw yung mga photos! Hmmf, inaasar nanaman ako. Hahaha.
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03.25.05 Friday 10:51pm
DAY 04 - PENITENSIYANG NAKAKATABA?!
Maaga nanaman akong nagising kasi nag-Visita Iglesia kami. Muntik pa nga kong di makasama kasi ang lamig ng panahon [himala!] at parang nakakatamad gumalaw. Dahil kay Gabby at sa pagyayaya na rin ng mom ko, I just decided to come and thank heavens I did because this day has been so fulfilling.
Even though the weather seems unpredictable, I loved to walk around Marian
Garden. [in Balete, Batangas] We had the Stations of the Cross there and it was
as if I went to Banahaw! Taas baba kami. Puro lupa at puro santo! [malamang..
haha]. It was so adventurous, and at the same time, I had the time to reflect. I
was just wrong to wear sandals kaya medyo nahirapan ako! I never thought naman
kasi that the place would be a jaunt trip. Oh well, at least naka-penistensiya.
After nun, we went to 7 churches - 1.) San Jose Parish, 2.) San Sebastian
Cathedral, 3.) Mt. Carmel Church, 4.) Redemptorist Church, 5.) The Church in Air
Base Lipa, 6.) San Vicente Church and 7.) Immaculate Parish. Okay naman, somehow
I was able to gain some spirituality - nagdasal, lumuhod at naki-punas na rin sa
mga santo. Hehe. Ang nakakagulat lang, nagpe-penistensiya nga ko, napapa-kain
naman ako nang husto! Dahil sa mainit at nakakapagod, I was so forced to eat
again. Bumenta nga naman ang kwek-kwek, cotton candy, palamig [na may di na
malamig!], buko juice [na amoy utot daw! sabi lang ah!] at SUNDOT-SAGING [BANANA
CUE term sa Batangas! HAHA!] sa gilid ng simbahan! Minsan iniisip ko kung tama
ba talagang naka-tambay ang mga nagtitinda sa labas ng simbahan. Mas nahihimok
tuloy ang mga taong lumafang, sa halip na mag-sakripisyo. Ah ewan.
03.26.05 Saturday 09:14pm
DAY 05 - DOING SOMETHING WORTHWHILE
Malamig ang panahon kaya ang sarap matulog nang mahimbing. Inabot ko pa yung tilaok ng manok nang 12am, kaya talaga namang puyat nanaman si ako. Medyo boring ngayon. Di ako makapag-volley dahil makulimlim kaya nag-isip nanaman ako ng panibagong magagawa. At ano kamo? - naglinis ako! Yihaa.
Nilinis ko yung bola kong pwede ko ng tawaging "Karla grasa!" dahil super dumi na. I also cleaned my sandals and slippers. They were all very dusty. At habang naglilinis ako, na-realize kong ang hirap palang magkuskos at humawak ng sabon nang matagal. Ang kati at gaspang pala sa kamay. Naisip ko yung mga taong ang trabaho ay paglalabada. Pagka-pasma at pamamanhid ng palad ang inaabot ng mga kamay nila, kumita lang ng pera. Too bad. I'm lucky to have helpers in the house. Di ko na mararanasan yung ganun. And that's why I felt so glad today, because somehow I helped our helper at ako na ang naglinis ng mga gamit na pag-aari ko. Way to go Shelly! =)
03.27.05 Sunday 09:26pm
DAY 06 - GET-TOGETHER FIRST BEFORE LEAVING
My brother held a small family gathering for his graduation tomorrow. It was so
called "small" lunch break gathering but damn, our clan is so huge! Taob ang
kaldero't simot ang plato! Hahaha. Kumpleto ang lahat at waah, kagulo talaga
kanina. Ang saya-saya kasi nagkasama-sama ulit. By the way, they saw my MOD
feature. I was a bit shy at first because they're all teasing me, but you know,
with all their compliments, I started to accept it as a good feeling. Proud
pala sa akin ang napakalaking Capuchino-Dimaculangan clan, that's REALLY
flattering.
Anyways, sa kabila ng get-togethers, eh nagsimula nanamang maging spoiler yung Tito kong pasaway. Haha. Money, again, is the cause of commotion. Lagi niya kasing hinihingan ng pera yung pamilya namin, eh duh! ayaw niya kasing mag-trabaho, as well as his wife [na kapatid ng mom ko at ang kontrabida ng buong clan]. My mom kasi refused to give money [or alms I shall say] to him anymore because he'll only spend it for buying "lapad". Dati kasi, kaya nagbibigay ng pera ang mom ko, it's for his separation pay. He formerly worked as a family driver to us. Two years have passed and the separation amount was already reached. Lasing siya kanina at nakakatawa, nagtayo ba naman ng sampayan sa harapan ng bahay namin!?! Minsan gusto na lang namin tawanan yung mga ginagawa nila, but you know, enough is enough! Aba, para kasing nagpaparamdam na galit talaga sila at hinarangan ang daanan ng bahay namin! Pinagsabihan na sila ng lolo ko kanina, at saka pinatanggal yung patawang sampayan ng tinayo niya kanina.
I packed my stuffs and we went off at about 2:30pm. Medyo traffic pero masaya naman yung bakasyon ko eh! Babalik pa ko dun next week dahil di pa ko nakakapag-swimming! Waah! So excited nanaman. Hehehe.
True happiness is priceless.
March 21st 2005 | Monday | 10:32pm
"OFF I GO"
Off to Batangas na ko bukas so I might not be able to update this for a while. Baka Easter Sunday na ko makabalik ng Manila to attend my bro's graduation on the 28th. I'm a bit excited to go to our province again. Pansamantalang iiwan ko muna ang magulong lungsod at maghahanap ng sariling paraiso kasama ang mga berdeng punong humahampas nang pabugso-bugso. Yeah! Hehe. And for sure, marami nanaman akong masasagap na "ChikaMinute" from the peepz there. I bet my cousins and friends out there can't wait for their mystifying stories! Hehe. I've missed several issues from there and I really have to update myself! May mga family outing pa siguro yun at iba pang adventurous trips! Sana masaya waah!
I'm having some back aches! Dumayo pa ko kina Franz kanina [sa Banawe] to play volleyball haha! Adik!?! Felianne also played with us and I had a short chit chat with Karla kanina. Wala lang. As I talked with them, how I missed my undergrad STC friends. Naka-1 hour game kami kanina at pinagpawisan talaga ko! I'm off to my addiction! More more more! Hintayin niyo lang ako, malalaos ang V League players! HAHAHA JOKE.
Pero ang nakakainis, nagpapa-pawis nga ako, naparami naman ang kain ko kanina! Harhar! We went to GateWay kasi kanina with my mom, bro, the 2 kiddos, & our driver. We ate at Pizza Hut, dun pa nga kami umupo sa ma-halamang lugar eh! [Haha! You'll know that if you happen to see GateWay already.] Damn, it's so hard to control not eating pasta w/ shrimp & mushroom! I was so wrong to order a dish which I like the most! Err! I'm off the limits and I have to set my eating habits again. "Anorexic?" HAHAHA.
Set your goals and know your limits.
March 20th 2005 | Sunday | 09:09pm
"COMING WITH EVERYTHING"
I have been a couch potato today! I just went out to hear 5-6pm mass where, afterwards I experienced migraine. Maybe my eyes was just so pushed to the limit for the reason that I stayed in front of our TV for many hours. But somehow I really caught a lot of things from watching television. TV sets are sometimes called as an idiot box but a while ago, it was an instrument for grasping.
People are so
crazy about the Pacquiao-Morales boxing match in Las Vegas.. Pati tuloy ako na-curious
at talaga namang inabangan ko yun maaga pa lang. Too bad homegrown, "Pacman"
lose the game but as I observed the match, he really fought well.
Maraming rason
kung bakit siya natalo ni Morales pero sa kabila nun, pinakita niya talaga kung
paano maging isang magaling na boksingero. Di ako boxing fanatic but when I saw
the match a while ago, I was really hooked up and proved to myself that it was
really a good struggle. Thumbs up ako kay Pacquiao kasi ba naman, he already had
a huge cut in the right eyebrow nung round 5 at duguan na siya, pero nanatili
siyang nakatayo hanggang round 12 at tuloy ang pagbawi sa bawat suntok ng
kalaban. Talk about the parallelism of being a Filipino who, until the
thinnest string of hope, hangs on tight. Pinoy nga talaga si Manny Pacquiao. He
really came with everything - especially the Filipino spirit.
In spite all, the match brought in so many things for the Filipinos. The world of boxing in Philippines right now became more prestige and many aspirants were supplemented with confidence. Other countries also give honor to Filipino boxers today as one of the skilled athletes all over the world. But the most striking line that I heard and saw from watching is that, "Win or loose, napatigil ni Manny Pacquiao ang oras kanina sapagkat lahat ng tao, anumang takbo ng buhay, nagkaisa para suportahan ang manlalarong Pilipinong handang itaas ang karangalan ng Pilipinas sa buong mundo." The English commentators almost said the same thing and they really admired how Pacquiao gave a new name for a dwindling country like Philippines at present. For me, receiving such remarks is already a sure win.
"I DO my best.." 3 beses ko yata narinig yan kay Pacquiao pero aba, daig niya yung Mexikano na di marunong mag-English noh. Astig pa rin ang Pinoy! [kahit medyo sablay sa grammar haha] When Lani Misalucha was also singing the Philippine anthem, I felt the goose bumps all over my body. I just became more proud as a Filipino today, truly. =)
To win without risk is to triumph without glory. It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed.
March 19th 2005 | Saturday | 09:25pm
"WATCH OUT"
I have to loose weight! Darn it, I really have to. Kagabi kasi, nagsusukat ako ng dress [for Arene's debut on April 9th] at bigla na lang akong napa-"yuck" sa itsure ko kasi ang taba-taba ko na! Haha. And the people in the house reacted the same way too. I just hate being teased by others and that's the reason why I have been so conscious of my everyday food intake and daily activities. I'm not used to dieting but with the situation right now, I'm forced to. At anu-ano nga bang ginagawa kong solusyon para pumayat ako kahit konti?:
1 hour volleyball game[every 2-3pm para mas pawisan dahil super init ng araw!]
Twice a day meal only [1pm - brunch, 6pm - dinner]
No coke, more water and extra fruits
Less sweets and a reduced amount of meat
Keeping myself busy so that I'll perspire a lot
Driving lessons [soon, when I get to Batangas]
Planning to visit an affordable gym nearby
Sana sa pasukan, ipapa-adjust ko na ang uniform ko dahil lumuwag na. Haha. I'm starting to get so trendy and there are so many clothes in my mind but with my figure, uggh I can't confidently wear them all. Can't wait to fit and get fit. I must gain self-discipline!
On the other hand, bakit nga ba ang hirap abutin ng ibang tao? Siguro nga, discriminated na ko sa mga panahong to. Malinis naman ang intesyon mong makipag-kaibigan pero parang tine-take for grant ka lang. Hay. Maybe Ma`am Peppin was just right in her previous lecture on Sociology - that there's really a ranking system within the society. Sana matauhan ang mga tao-tao sa paligid. I was really disappointed about our friendship.
The rest of the world lives to eat, while I eat to live.
-Socrates
March 18th 2005 | Friday | 06:52pm
"CHILD-LIKE IN A RAINY-LIKE DAY"
Maulan ngayon, how ironic. Pa-epal talaga yung bagyong "Auring". Hehe. Paano ba naman kasi, sa kalagitnaan ng summer bigla na lang dadating. Siguro ang daming naudlot na summer activities ngayon. Kahit nga ako eh, di ako nakapag-volleyball.
"If you can't beat it, be with it."
Hindi lumabas ang haring araw at nanatiling basa ang kalsada. Gusto ko sanang magpa-pawis man lang pero wala eh, nature dictates kaya nakisakay na lang ako sa panahon. At ano kamong ginawa ko kanina? - naligo ako sa ulan!!! Hahaha! Along with the two kiddos here [Schenly & Xianne], we splashed around and somehow, I enjoyed being a child-like. Masaya rin palang maging bata muli paminsan-minsan. And take note, childish is different from being child-like. The former allows one person once in a while to enjoy simple things in life. One of which is playing with the rain. Actually I was so reminded back then, when my cousins & siblings were still young. We used to play "balloon bombs" [yung lobong lalagyan mo ng tubig sa loob at ibabato mo sa kalaro mo hehe] while raining.
Naalala ko noon yung paraan ng paglalaro namin. Makahanap lang kami ng malalaro, tanggal na ang mga lungkot sa mukha. Minsan natatawa ko sa mga pinag-gagagawa ko dati, ang bababaw at ang cocorny. Ngunit, naalala ko ding yun ang mga bagay na nagbibigay sa akin ng tunay na kaligayahan. Halos walang ka-proble-problema kapag bata ka pa. For a kid, you always look at things as simple as it may be. Everyone is there for you and there's an endless sanctuary. A child considers every place as his play area. Sometimes pala, adults can learn from kids. They're not just small ones who does nothing but trouble. They can exemplify the real essence of happiness through simple means.
Grown-ups love figures. ...To forget is friend is sad. Not everyone has had a friend. And if I forget him, I may become like the grown-ups who are no longer interested in anything but figures.
March 16th 2005 | Wednesday | 10:56pm
"TUNAY"
I officially open my summer vacation!!! Alright! This has been an adventurous day for me. Today, I found out so many reasons to have a real laugh.
Aba, di ka ba
naman matutuwang tapos na ang exams mo!?? And so as the other school matters.
Babalik na lang ako ng USTe sa April 2 for Clearance Day at sa June 2 for
Enrollment. Anyways, I had a real bonding moment with my friends a while ago and
for me, that's another reason to be happy. I really had fun with them and
somehow, I got to know them better. Halos buong araw kami magkakasama. Kahit ang
tagal naming naghintay sa may AB bldg for their Philo make-up test and Theo
presentation, sumakit pa rin ang tiyan ko sa kakatawa. Bandang 1:30pm na nang
lumabas kami ng Espaņa at sumakay ng pedi cab papuntang MRT station. And by the
way, it was my first time to ride an MRT kasi madalas, LRT lang ang sinasakyan
ko! Na-realize kong mas maganda ang pasilidad ng MRT kaysa sa LRT. Wala lang.
Anyways, we went to Gateway and Madie gave us a treat in Max Fried Chicken [yum
yum thanks ulet!] along with Dez [the vibrating girl! hehe], Djhay [spaghetti
boy, tiyanak boy and now, BAboy! haha], Clara [the laughing machine hekhek],
Arene [best friend?!! "you are dumb!"], and Chuchi [my unbeatable corny mate]!
At
siyempre, habang kumakain kami, kuwentuhan at tawanan nanaman. I got so full for
the reason that my stomach was filled with lots of hilarity!. After that,
bumili ako ng bola ng volleyball! It's so cute kasi color orange! Waah. I wished
for a Mikasa one kaso walang stock, kaya oks na rin yung Spalding. Basta ba bola
at tumatalbog! Haha. So yun, nag-ikot-ikot lang kami sa mall, medyo nahilo pa
nga ko nung nasa Odyssey pero madali rin namang nawala kasi si Chuchi ay bumanat
nanaman ng panalong hirit. I arrived home at about 6pm na. Tired but satisfied.
I used the
internet for 4 straight hours! Haha. Ang saya-saya ko kasi dati rati, di ko
magawa yun dahil sa dami ng gawain. At ano pa nga ba, Friendster to the max
nanaman tsaka surf-surf. Na-realize kong ang corny na minsan sa friendster. Di
na ko ganung natutuwa. Bukod sa halos lahat ay may accounts na at
pagka-rami-raming bersyon pa, ang dami-dami ng fakers! Wala lang. Much that you
wanted to get to know someone, you're having a hard time finding his or her
real
identity in friendster kasi nga, may mga nanggagaya na ng pangalan. Katulad na
lang nung mga UST and other volleyball players. Di ko na alam kung anu-anong
accounts yung pag-aari talaga nung totoong tao. No offense pero nakakatawa lang
din yung mga taong ang primary photo ay ang picture ng favorite stars nila. Yung
tipong sa account din mismo ng may-ari kinuha yung pictures. I mean, why don't
they place something which they own? Besides, it's for the purpose of showing
who you are truly. Ah ewan. Sometimes, Filipinos just fail to see the real
purpose of things such as Friendster.com.
Looks can be deceiving. Fakers make the world so confusing. Real things are essentially there.. but the world today makes the real ones hard to find. They are like pearls in the navel of an ocean. Buti na lang, sa kabila ng mapanlinlang na buhay, nakakakita pa rin ako ng mga bagay na tunay at talaga namang kapag nahanap mo yung mga yun, walang kapantay! =)
What you find now.. what you feel now.. what you know now.. To be real! It's got to be real.. To be real..
March 15th 2005 | Tuesday | 08:35pm
"PERA LANG ANG KATAPAT"
Last test na tomorrow! One more Eco test and poof! I'm gonna have the relaxation that I long wished for. Oks na sana eh, kaso naku ang hirap=hirap intindihin ng lectures sa Eco! Talagang sinagad ang finals! Ang dami-daming computations. Hay. Patunay lang na wala talaga akong potensyal sa mga numero't pagkakalkula ng mga bagay-bagay.
Speaking of numbers, gusto kong kumita ng pera ngayong bakasyon! Marami akong gustong bilhin at paggamitan ng pera! Gusto ko ng bola ng volleyball, mag-swimming sa iba't ibang resorts, goggles [haha], new shades, shirts, bagsss, etc!!! Pero ang dami ding dahilan para di ako makakuha ng summer job! Kainis talaga! Di pa kasi ako 18, kaya di pa rin pwedeng mag-summer job sa mga kompanyang tulad ng call centers. Gusto ko sana sa ganung trabaho, computer literate naman ako at communications-related pa ang course ko. Sa Megason [my uncle's diagnostic clinic] sana ko mag-aaply, eh no vacancy na pala. Ah ewan. Maybe that's the reason why I have been so ridiculous searching for a perfect job or at least do a certain activity that would make my vacation worthy.
Natawa na lang ako sa sarili ko kagabi nang mag-propose ng isang "kakaibang" trabaho ang nanay ko sa akin. Kakaiba siya kasi malayo sa personalidad ko ang ganoong trabaho. And the job? - babysitter! HAHA. Wala lang. I'm a techi type of person kasi eh, di ako homebody at tipong nag-aalaga ng bata. But because I need money, waah I told my mom that I accept the proposal. Tawa lang kami nang tawa habang kausap yung tatay ng i-bababysit ko. Tapos niloloko pa ko at sinasabi nilang, "Aba! Akalain mo, nang dahil sa pera magiging yaya ang journalist!" HAHAHA. It's so crazy but it's a reality.
Money makes the world go round. It controls all your activities and too bad you always need it. Katulad ng inaaral sa Economics, sometimes there's scarce in the resources. At katulad ng realidad sa Pilipinas, maraming tao ang walang trabaho. Di na siguro nakakapagtatakang nahihirapan ako maghanap ng trabaho. Kung ang ordinaryong mamamayan nga patuloy ang pag-fifill up ng application form at pag-aaply, ako pa kaya na undergrad pa lang. But at least I've proven myself that I have the initiative to work. And I've also realized how money matters to make your world go round.
Money is the price of envy and the cost of conflict.
March 13th 2005 | Sunday | 10:48pm
"YOU LEARN FROM IT"
It seems that my mind is functioning slow. I don't know why. Kahapon pa ko basa nang basa para sa Philosophy at Geography finals bukas pero grabe, parang wala akong napipick-up. Sa bawat linyang pilit kong tinatandaan, wala akong matutunan. Pagod na nga siguro ang utak ko at masyado na kong excited sa bakasyong ilang dipa na lang ang layo sa akin. Waah.
Speaking of learning, I was trying to pass some words of thought to a friend who's having a crisis on her love life. Nagmagaling nanaman ako, eh kung ako nga naguguluhan din sa sarili kong love life. Hehe. But anyway, since I am able to relate with the situation, I just pushed through the giving of advices - because I care. Her situation was once my situation too. Kaya ganun na lang ang pagtulong ko sa kaibigan kong yun, para di na maulit sa kanya yung mga pagkakamali ko noon. She's having a hard time letting go and right now, she's so confused if she'll going to force herself to stop all the foolishness already or just go with flow. Well, the situation was quite hard. I mean, if you really love someone, of course you wouldn't want to let him or her go. Kumabaga, siya nga yung rason ng kaligayahan mo eh, bakit mo aalisin sa buhay mo? We have numerouse exchange of thoughts from one another. At na-realize kong ang hirap palang turuan ng taong nagmamahal at nahihirapan mag-let go. Literal na pasaway. Maraming tanong. Maraming pag-aalinlangan. In spite of all, I didn't give up. I just listened to her and complied with her confusions. Sabi ko na lang sa kanya, "Naniniwala akong ikaw lang ang tunay na makakasagot sa mga tanong mo. Bigyan man kita ng mga payo ngayon, nasa sa iyo pa rin ang huling desisyon. Puso ang isa sa mga mahirap turuan. Kung ako nga nag-aaral ngayon sa academics, hindi ako magawang turuan ng manuals.. eh ang puso pa kaya?"
Minsan iniisip ko, ano bang kahalagahan ng inaaral ko sa Philosophy. Di naman ako nag-Journalism para mamilosopo at maging isang Pilosopo. Tanong din natin minsan, bakit nagmamahal pa, kung masasaktan lang? "Sana hindi na lang nangyari ang ganito, sana wala na lang ganyan.." - yan ang madalas na wika ng isang taong naguguluhan. There's a need to look at the value of things on a deeper sense. Naisip na ba nating parte ng pagpapaunawa ng buhay ang mga nakakabaliw na sitwasyon? Experiences are part of the learning methods of life. We must be open to it.
We fail, we succeed, but the most important thing is we learn from it.
March 12th 2005 | Saturday | 10:55pm
"THE HEAT IS ON"
Whoah.. I wasn't able to update this for a while. I was so busy in school these past few days but finally, I'm done with all my requirements! I accomplished my thesis, I had a satisfying PE finals [1.0 finals ko!], we passed our Journalism newsletter already and the geography & theology reports are over. Many things happened along the way. Di naiwasang ma-pressure at mapagod ang lahat. Nagka-puyatan at halos di na pumapasok ang ilan. Dumating pa sa puntong nagkaka-awayan at nagsisi-iyakan ang lahat. But in the end, we just smiled and said, "god damn it.. it's over yeah!" Final exams na lang talaga. Three more days to come and I shall officially open my summer vacation! The heat is on and I can just smell the ripening of the new season! Ang dami kong plano sa bakasyon, di ko alam kung ano ba talagang gagawin ko sa mga libreng araw na ito:
1. Volleyball Class
- Bibili ako ng Mikasa ball at kating-katii talaga ko sa volleyball ngayon! At may pinost pa si Ate Roxy sa friendster na Sports Clinic daw sa Grace Christian High School. I'm so interested to train my skills in volleyball saka way of being physically fit na rin during summer. Siyempre, di maiiwasang manaba. Malapit lang yung venue. Isa pa si Ate Roxy sa mga magtuturo! Haha. Wala lang. Feeling ko masaya yun. Sana lang makahagilap ako ng kasama. =)
2. Tomasino Web's Skills Training
- Haoson suggested me to join this summer assembly on Tomasino Web. About web-designing and flash related stuffs. I found it interesting at siyempre, extra-curricular na rin yun if ever makuha ako sa Tomasino Web. Alam ko namang marami akong matututunan pero sana may suweldo o libreng pakain man lang! Bwahahaha. =)
3. Driving Lessons
- Aba, dapat ma-perfect ko na driving skillls ko dahil sa November, 18 years old na ako! I'm not sure if I'm gonna have some professional teacher again or si Pareng Aps nanaman ang guro ko. It means na sa Batangas na lang ulit ako haharurot. I want to have some wheels na talaga. It makes my busy life easier and better =)
4. Swimming To The Max Again!
- Mawawala ba to sa summer getaway ko?! Haaha. Makabili nga ng goggles para mas masayang lumangoy. Sana di lang sa El Madero [in Lipa, Batangas] ang venue namin ngayon. Kakasawa na kasi eh. Makarating naman sana ko ng Splash Island or somewhere new. =)
5. Photography and Writing
- Well, I'll try my best to write for a maagazine and add more entries here in the literary page. At dahil libre na talaga ko, makakapag-practice na ako [on my own] ng photography through the videocam. Hehe.
At harinawa may magawa akong kapaki-pakinabang talaga sa bakasyon. I'll eat less and be more active. Sana maging masaya itong summer ko. =)
When you do something, be sure that you love what you're doing. It takes time to accomplish things which you least like because there's no passion and love for it.
March 4th 2005 | Friday | 08:28pm
"WIN OR LOSE, THERE'S ALWAYS A REASON"
As the days go by, so as my vigor which slowly goes zero. Kulang na lang ay mag-lipovitan ako maya't maya para ipaalala sa katawan kong kailangan kong maging malakas. I lose the power to be so positive. It's as if everything which is related to school matters are so negative - numerous practices, hours of thesis work, and confusing lectures! Uggh! I'm so tired again right now. This week has been so hectic and I guess the next weeks to come would be dooms period again. Sana matapos na tong kalbaryo ko.
Anyway, thank
heavens somehow I got a good news. I finally saw the MOD Magazine feature about
me and even if there were some errors on my personal information, it was a good
write-up though. My classmates saw it and there were so glad for me. They were
even joking me that I'm a popular chic already. Some of my relatives and high
school friends saw it too. I admit that it was so flattering such words of
praise. Na-realize ko ding yung pagka-feature sa akin ay malaking tulong to be
exposed in the field that I've chosen. It was a sure win for me. I'm looking
forward for more activities like that.
On the other hand, something depressive happened a while ago too. After Theology class, we all went together to our house to practice for both Geography and Theology presentation. 11 kami. 3 guys, 8 girls. We took an empty passenger jeepney (biyaheng Blumentritt-Dimasalang). Pagkatapos makasakay ng lahat, may dalawang mamang sumakay. Inside the vehicle, we were talking and laughing. Nagku-kuwentuhan pa nga kami nina Verity at Shiela about Vet's friend who passed away. Di na namin napansin kung ano nang pinag-uusapan o ginagawa ng iba naming classmates. Tapos, bigla na lang naputol ang usapan nang dumaan sa amin yung isang mama. We were bothered when we observed that he was walking inside the jeepney while it was still running. Napatingin ako kay Scent. She looked so different already that's why I felt that there's a strange thing happening. Tumingin ako dun sa mamang nakasabit sa jeep. Maya-maya, bumaba na rin yung isa pang lalaki. Pababa na sila nang sabihin ng isang mamang, "sa kanto na lang boss, salamat." HOLY COW! Ang tigas ng mukha ng mamang yun na mag-thank you, MAGNANAKAW PALA SILA! They got Jairuz' cellphone. Too bad talaga. We were all horrified and we started to talk about it. Naisip namin kung sana pinagtulungan namin yung magnanakaw dahil 11 naman kami. Pero naisip din naming baka masaksak naman kami. Ang daming "what if's and if only's" but then, we just said that the mani point of the incident is, to be much careful next time. Scary talaga, I route that road everyday.
There's this term called "pa-kunswelo sa sarili" in Tagalog which may mean that you give yourself a remedy or an immediate solution to a certain event. That's what I realized from the two sides of life's realism (good and bad realism). We always give pa-kunswelo because we search for reasons. Sometimes we win, sometimes we loose. We always give a reaction after every underlined event in our lives. Let's all remember that everything has a reason. When there's cause, there's an effect. When there's lost, soon there shall be glory. God plans them all.
Don't loose hope when you're down. Instead, be stronger.
When God closes a door, He opens a window.
March 2nd 2005 | Wednesday | 10:03pm
"SA PUTING TABING"
Another tiring day - we taped the first half of our Geography presentation [about Africa]. Naka-ilang retakes pa kami dahil maraming errors. We all realized how difficult it was to create a movie. We're only seven in the group but it was still too hard for us. You have to take note of correct drop of lines, right positioning and restrain from any form of mistake. We started at around 4pm and we wrapped it up at 8pm. It's pretty exhausting but at the end, I felt so happy because everything was a sure paid off.
My arms are still shaking right now. I was the director and the one who shot the video. Nangalay talaga nang todo-todo yung katawan ko dahil sa kakahawak ng video camera at pagtayo ng matagal na oras. Minsan nakakayamot pala kapag nagkakamali ng linya yung umaarte at kelangang ulitin ang lahat. But then, a perfect film comprises lots of patience from each one who makes it. You must know how to take in considerations and understand the situation of all. It's not that easy to memorize lengthy lines for the actors, and at the same time, it's not that easy to shoot long scenes for the film shooter. Kailangang maunawaan ng lahat na dapat may pagkakaisa.
Sa kabila ng lahat, nauwi na lang sa sabsay-sabay na tawanan habang pinapanood ang palabas. It was so funny. I bet our classmates would enjoy that presentation on Tueday. On Friday, we'll continue the rest of the scenes. I'll be expecting a tiring day once more but I just hope that we'll all enjoy making the presentation. At dahil second time around na to, sana kumonti na yung mistakes at cause of delays. Sa pagkakamali ka dapat matuto di ba, para di mo na ulitin ang dati mong ginagawa.
Practice makes perfect.