December 20 2005 | Tuesday |
11:57pm
"SUNDRY"
Christmas isn't always about received gifts. It's not
about the material things that you give either. Rather, its real essence can
simply be felt through the presence of people who have been a part of your life.
So a while ago, through my last day in school, I formally opened my
Christmas vacation. It's a jam-packed day and in deed, I rested upon my arms as
I reached home. Here's my story.
I still went to
class. My professors were there just for the sake of attending as well. No
lessons. We felt glad that students were given incentives for coming in. Okay na
rin at hindi nasayang ang pagpasok ko. Akala ko pa mag-qqquiz pa sa Biology,
buti na lang di na rin natuloy. Hehe.
So I went home,
carrying the gifts given to me by my friends. How touching it was to receive
gifts but I never thought that something else would be greater. I met Ching
since he wasn't coming for Paskuhan. So yun, okay na rin. Pero di ko maiwasang
mag-isip. Basta ang hirap i-express eh. Ang labo. Di ko alam kung tama bang
ma-worry ako ngayon. Mahirap maasar kasi wala naman akong karapatan. Pero sa
totoo lang, para kasing may rason kung bakit nag-iiba ang lahat, di na tulad
noon. Para bang may iwasan. Ewan. Nandiyan siya pero pag inisip mo nang malalim,
parang wala siya. Pseudo-existing ba. Hay ewan! Humiwalay ako sa pag-iisip
tungkol dun nang hindi natutuldukan nang maayos ang lahat.
I looked on the
brighter side, I went out with my volley friends. As we planned to attend UST
Paskuhan, we decided to meet Ate Cherry [Macatangay] first at KFC. Unang beses
naming nakasama si Ate Che at ang saya din pala niyang kasama. We were also with
Ana, Carol, Chie, Kristine and Jean. In deed, it was another memorable moment,
filled with laughter and stories from Are Che. I can say that she's a good
listener, soft spoken and packed with sense of humor. Araw ngayon ni Ate Flo,
kasi super idol niya si Ate Che. Nung una nahihiya pa siya pero kalaunan,
na-kuwento ni Ate Flo ang napakahabang kabanata ng buhay niya lalo na kay Ate
Che. Natutuwa ako para sa kanila, kasi nakita kong na-enjoy nila ang isa't isa.
6pm na kami
umalis ng KFC, naglakad kami hanggang Roxas Boulevard. Hinatid namin si Ate Che
sa sakayan habang tuloy ang kuwentuhan. Kakatawa yung mga sinabi niya sa akin
kasi alam pala niyang close kami ni Ate Rox,. Madalas kaming makuwento siguro.
Nabanggit na naman yung website, kasi pinapa-visit din pala ni Ate Rox yun sa
kanya [haha!]. Tapos niyaya namin siyang mag-Batangas minsan, pumayag siya basta
i-text lang daw siya. Niloko ko ngang yayain din niya si Ate Rox eh. Sabi ba
naman, "Ikaw na lang kaya magtanong Shelly, nahihiya ka pa sa lagay na yan!
[laughs] Parang di kayo close nun ah!" Hahaha.
Naglakad kami
hanggang Star City, para makabalik at makasakay lang ng Vito Cruz. Talaga naman,
yung nasakyan pa namin eh napakasikip! Mainit na nga, tawanan pa kaming lahat
kaya lalo kong nahirapan. Hahaha. Ang ingay-ingay namin sa loob ng sasakyan,
pati tuloy ibang pasahero, natatawa na rin sa amin. So anyways, nag-FX naman
kami papuntang España. Ma-traffic, kaya di na namin inabot ang fireworks! Sayang
naman, pero okay lang din. May dalawang taon pa naman ako sa USTe di ba. Hehe.
At least I was with my friends, and we laughed on so many things again as we
were in the vehicle. Nag-text din pala nun si Ate Rox, sabi niya may bibigay
siya sa amin pagbalik niya [nasa Calapan na siya]. Katuwa naman, kasi naaalala
niya pa rin kami kahit ang di nagkikita.
So we reached
USTe at 7:30pm na. Ang daming tao!!! Nahilo ako, lalong naging haggard, at
sumakit ang ulo ko dahil siguro pagod na rin. So yun, ikot-ikot sandali,
nagmasid at naghanap ng matatambayan. Napadpad kami sa field, sa Benavides, sa
Car Park. Basta, lakaran na nang lakaran. I-meet pa nga sana namin si Ate Ging
kaso di na rin natuloy. Sayang at naka-kahon ang panahon, may trabaho pa kasi si
Ana ng 10pm. Maya-maya, hinatid na namin siya sa sakayan at sinamahan siya
ni Chie. Nagpaiwan muna sina Jean, Carol at Ate Flo. Kumain kami dun sa Dapitan
at saka tumambay. Di ko na na-meet yung college buddies ko, hay late na rin kasi
nun. Nakauwi ako nang bahay, 10:30pm na.
Di ko inexpect
na ganito ang mangyayari ngayon. May mga na-iimagine kasi ako noon, di nangyari.
Sa halip, may sariling twist ang araw na ito. Sumabay na lang ako sa agos
ng mga pangyayari. At least I was able to cope with it. Anyway I became
happy, just in a different way. I didn't feel much of this year's Paskuhan
in UST - I wasn't able to catch the whole program at Grandstand, I didn't see
the fireworks and I just stayed for a short time at USTe. I should've been with
Ching but it didn't happen but at least I was with TropaPeepz who had really
made me laugh all the time. Ate Rox wasn't there but Ate Cherry was there
instead. Just like the spirit of Christmas, it isn't always the traditional
way. It can be celebrated in many ways. Ang UST Paskuhan, di ko man nai-celebrate
nang tradisyunal, at least kakaiba ngayong taon. Mas notable nga siguro yun eh
kasi hindi nairaos sa tipikal. Sundry - various things, people, and events
may simply take place in an instant. =)
Maraming anggulo, maraming
paraan ng pagtingin, at maraming tinitignang aspeto. Di natitimbang sa iisang
paghatol. Di nasusukat sa iisang sulok. Ang mga pangyayari, naluluklok ayon sa
nakatakda ngunit lingid sa kaalaman, ang bawat kaganapan ay di lamang may
angking panlabas. Bagkus, may angking kaibuturan na siyang di namamasid ng
karamihan.
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December 18 2005 | Sunday |
07:39pm
"LAOG"
Laog (v. la-og) - Means to frequently go out or move
somewhere. It's synonymous to the word, lagalag or layas. I think
this is a deep Tagalog word and I've been hearing this term from my folks in
Batangas. In fact, I always hear them call the cats which are so noisy at nights
as "pusang naglalaog". Haha.
For the past
few days, I think I've been so laog. Buong araw na lang akong wala sa
bahay at palaging pagod pag-uwi. Yesterday morning, I was in Divisoria to shop
for gifts. Oh my, I was so wrong to go on a rushed shopping since there were so
many people already! Buti nga't nakauwi pa ako ng buo eh. Haha. But anyways, I
enjoyed it naman. Unluckily, I wasn't able to avail that planned gift for my
friends and I had to drop by SM San Lazaro pa. Kakapagod talaga. In the
afternoon naman, I attended Tito Doy's Christmas party. It has been a family
tradition to take part in Megason (his Diagnostic Clinic business) but I guess
it's more apt to go this year since my brother is the Assistant Manager already.
I took the sideline job as a video woman [hehe] and I kinda enjoyed it naman. A
few of my cousins were also there and so, somehow it became a mini-reunion of
the Capuchino's. Pa-bibbo kid nga ako eh, kasi kahit hindi ako taga-dun, marami
akong ka-chikahan. Hindi naiwan ang mga paa ko sa iisang lugar.
Sa Marikina pa
yung party at traffic rin, kaya halos 2am na ko nakatulog talaga. Akala ko nga
di na ako magigising kanina eh, may lakad na naman kasi ako. Ang aga pa ng call
time, 8am! Haha, kaya uugoy-ugoy ako sa pagbangon ko.
So yun, Nag-NSTP
ako sa Cainta Rizal. Grabe yung biyahe, napakalayo. On my way to LRT 2, I met
with Joan. Nakasabay din namin si Jacquet kaya talaga namang tawanan mode sa
loob ng LRT. Ka-J.Lohan ang usapan. Hehe. At least medyo nagising ang dugo ko di
ba. So anyways, 8:30am na kami nakarating ng Cainta at nandun na rin yung iba
pang 2jrn3. We heard mass first but I wasn't able to cope well since the sound
system was poor. Nakatunganga na lang tuloy ako. Afterwards, nagsimula na kami
ng pagpapa-Xmas party sa mga kids. Okay naman, I felt glad to give smile on
their faces as we facilitated games, gave prices and distributed free lunch for
them [courtesy of Jolibee. Hehe].
Umuwi kami mga
12pm na. Kasabay kong umuwi sina Shiela, Denise, Alex, Grace and Joy [from CA].
Habang nasa jeep at LRT, ang dami naming napag-kuwentuhan Bonding time again at
kahit inaantok talaga ko, masaya na rin.
Nag-lunch ako
sa Chowking [dito na sa Laloma]. Nakita ko si Jhang [my neighbor] na nag-wowork
sa Chowking. Hay ewan ko ba, na-feel kong nahihiya siyang magpakita sa akin.
Mailap siya kanina. Naisip ko naman, bakit mo ikahihiyang nag-ttrabaho ka dun?
For me, it doesn't make you less as a person if you earn a living in a good
way and even though it's only a fast food chain, still it's a decent job.
She used to be my school mate in STC and I think she stopped schooling because
they need money. Proud nga ako sa kanya eh, kasi kumakayod siya talaga para
makapag-aral. Naisip ko tuloy, layas ako nang layas, habang ang ibang bata
diyan, nagsusumikap kumita lang ng pera. I feel so blessed and I said to myself
that I'll make worthy each cause of peso being spent by my mom for me. In
fact I bought her Adobong Mani [her favorite] as I went home. =)
Be thankful for each day.
Everyday is a blessing and a unique experience to take.
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December 16 2005 | Friday |
08:48pm
"FRIDAY ENTERTAINMENT"
I just love Fridays. The fact that it's the end of a weekday,
it hints me of resting from all the school works and simply, I can do
anything I want.
A while ago, my
day at school was just light. Thankfully, the quiz on History was just an
essay-type but on the other hand, I went bananas with Sir Esguerra's quiz on
Journ. Err. So anyways, we had no Stat and RC since our professor had been gone.
After class, we ate at Chat n` Chew (again haha). As we ate, we talked about the
Paskuhan on Tuesday. So yun, lalo lang akong na-excite. Hehe. Last year was so
fun and that's the reason why I'm looking forward for a happy celebration this
year too. In fact I'm planning to invite my volley friends and I wanna share
with them the exuberance. =) So before going home, we checked on the new stores
built at the Car Park. Oh my, I just can't wait for everything to be finished.
Ang daming kilalang kainan na itinayo at saka may iba't iba pang tindahan. Sa
UST lang yata may ganun. May KFC, Ice Monster at Star Bucks sa loob ng USTe!
Waah! @.@
In the
afternoon, I went back again in UST to fix some matters. Total rin lang ay wala
akong ginagawa, kaya ginanahan na akong bumalik. I met with Ate Ging to get her
picture since we failed to meet last time. Akala ko kasi hindi na naman
matutuloy kaya nawala na sa isip kong may usapan pala kami. So yun, buti na lang
nagtext siya nang maaga kaya na-meet ko siya.
Somehow I
missed Ate Ging's company. Matagal-tagal na rin kaming di nagkakasama. Madalas
kasi, si Ate Rox ang nakakasama ko. So a while ago was the perfect time to
adhere with her comic and sweet company. Mas marami kaming napag-usapan kasi
kaming dalawa lang ang magkasama. Sa daanan na kami nagkita, natawa nga ko eh
kasi sinutsutan pa ko! Haha.
Nagpasama din
siya sa akin sa UST Pharma para kumuha ng gamot (naiwan pa ang ID kaya hiniram
ang ID ko haha) kasi na-injure yung tuhod niya. Our walk and talk had been
filled with both laughter and honest revelations. Na-kuwento kong nawala yung
relo ko sa USTe. Natawa ko sa banat niya eh, "Tanga daw yung relo kasi di
marunong bumalik sa amo." Hahaha. Sinalo ko naman yung joke niya at sinabi
kong, "Di, mas tanga yung amo pero mas maganda sa relo." HAHAHA.
Unconsciously, napapalo-palo ko na lang siya kasi ang kulit. For a while I had
really forgotten that I was with 'Balse', the ever so popular athlete in UST.
Pero kahit palabiro yang si Ate Ging, may serious side din naman. I really
appreciated when she did mention that she misses our tropa at sabi niya, mag-Tokyo
Tokyo daw kami ulit minsan. Sinabi ko ding na-miss ko siya kaso hay naku, patawa
mode at ayaw maniwala kasi baka ganun din daw ang sinasabi ko kapag iba kaharap
ko. Hahaha.
Sa loob ng
Pharma, matagal din kaming tumayo para bumili ng gamot. So yun, habang
naghihintay eh kuwentuhan ulit. Nung una masigla pa kaming dalawa, pero kalaunan,
unti-unti kaming napanis sa kakahintay. Haha. Ang masaklap pa diyan, sa huli na
lang naming nalamang bawal palang gamitin ang ID ng ibang estudyante! (maski
palusot ni Ate Ging na mag-pinsan daw kami haha!) Wengk talaga! Naiwan naman
niya kay Vhen yung registration form niya kaya di talaga pwede. Inalok kong
bumalik sa gym at kunin yun kaso, siguro nahiya na rin siya sa akin kaya sabi
niya bukas na lang siya bibili ng gamot dun. Bumalik na lang kami sa IPEA.
Sa paglalakad,
nabanggit niyang worried siya tungkol sa Stat exam niya. She's unsure if she
missed it or not. Dahil magka-building naman kami, tinanong niya kung totoo ba
talagang walang pasok ng 4pm onwards. Naka-paskil daw kasi sa bldg. pero baka
tinuloy pa din ng prof yung test. Sinabi ko namang sana tinanong niya sa kaklase
niya, kaso di niya yata alam yung numbers. Mahirap din siguro yung sitwasyon
niya. Mahirap maging full-time athlete. Dahil irregular stud siya, wala siyang
nagiging permanenteng kaibigan at kaagapay sa klasrum. Pero sa kabila nun, di
bale sikat naman siya di ba. Hehe. In fact nakasalubong kami ng mga HS
students na talaga namang na-starstruck sa pagdaan ni Ate Ging. Kakatuwa, kasing
humble at heart pa rin siya.
Di na rin ako
nagtagal, umuwi na ako kasi gabi na. Magaan na Biyernes man, naging masaya pa
din.
Learn to make the most of life.
Loose no happy day, for time can never bring back what was swept away.
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December 15 2005 | Thursday |
09:27pm
"AB FACULTY SHOW"
Teachers are the real actors in the classroom. No scripts,
no plot, but it's one drama held at a prestige arena called 'the classroom'.
Students serve as the audiences wherein they learn from the actors. There are no
rehearsals, no room for take two's and in deed it's hard to be a teacher.
Teaching is a not a mere profession but rather, it's a vocation.
But what if
professors get to literally operate on stage? You'll get to see them act, sing,
dance, and ramp as real-time performers. It's quite odd to witness serious
people [pertaining to profs] to get loose. Somehow it's hard to imagine teachers
being graded by their students for their performances on stage. Haha, I really
had a great time a while ago. All these things happened at the AB Faculty Show
live from the Medicine Auditorium. ;p
Pinagsisisihan
kong di ko nadala yung videocam ko! Stage props pa lang, panalo na! May spoof
pictures yung mga profs namin, nakakatuwa. Emcee sina Ma'am Peppin at Sir Eros,
cool pair! Unang performance yung Miss Universe Pageant at grabe, di ko kinaya!
Tawa talaga ko nang tawa. Mas maganda pa sa babae sina Sir Tokie [as Ms
Venezuela] at Sir Galan [as Ms Columbia] - the queers had spread their wings! Sa
tingin ko eh na-enjoy nila ang pag-rampa sapagkat napaka-natural. ;p Si Sir
Tobias naman parang eng-eng. Siya kasi si Ms Namibia sinadya niyang aastig-astig
ang paglalakad. Hahaha. Nagpalabas din ng Miss Saigon - bida sina Sir Dennis at
Ma'am Arlene. Haha astig, History professors pa mismo ang umarte para sa
makasaysayang Vietnam War play. Nagsayaw din yung AB Dean namin. San ka pa,
CHICKEN DANCE ang isa sa mga sinayaw niya! Haha, ang kulit talaga. Tawang-tawa
din ako nung ginaya yung video ng "Broken Vow" starred by Ma'am Arlene as Shan
Chai. Haha, di ko talaga akalain. At grabe, nadagdagan pa ang pagka-gwapo ng mga
profs namin dahil sumayaw si Sir Dennis at kumanta si Sir Olie. Hay, hiyawan
talaga kaming lahat. Tapos nung huli, ang ganda ng pagwawakas: Pinoy Big Brother
dance. Hehe!
I still have my
hang-overs. ;p Pasaway talaga. Humanda sila sa pang-ookray ng mga estudyante!
Hahaha. But seriously, I'm so proud to be in AB. It's because I have bunches of
cool professors who are not only academically proficient but also, they're good
at showing the rest of their talents.
It's not about the books, but
the experiences learned on every chapter.
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December 14 2005 | Wednesday |
10:15pm
"ANG KARAPATANG
MAGMAYABANG"
Shelly's Philosophy in Life: Never boast off when
you have nothing to show. For me it's okay to spill your brains as long as it
has contents. Ayoko sa maingay na lata tapos malalaman mong wala naman palang
laman. Ayoko sa mga ma-ereng ibon na wala namang pakpak.
I enjoyed the
lecture a while ago on attributions. It's one issue on Journalism which is
really important. For me, knowing how to attribute sets a the difference for us,
Journ studs, among the common people especially when we get to publish works
already. Generally speaking, to cite resources isn't a basis of reference only
but also, attributions serve as proof for credibility. Oh my, I can really
relate with the topic because for so many instances, I encountered problems on
this - I just darn hate people who get my works [in all forms] and then they
wouldn't put attributions on it! Shame on them, really. That's the reason why
somehow I feel blessed right now that I know this topic. It's something to
brag about since not everyone get the chance to learn it. As said by Sir
Christian, "Mas alam niyo dapat ang pag-aatribute. Do not claim something which
is not yours. If it's from someone else, credit him or her because simply, it
doesn't belong to you."
After class, we
ate lunch at BK Dapits. I was with Madie, Dez, Arene and Mau. It was another
chat session which had really caused me good laughs again. We talked about Sir
Esguerra, that debonair professor in Journalism class. Napapansin kasi naming
napaka-pintasero niya at prangka talaga. Despite this, I guess he has room to be
pompous - gwapo kasi. Ughh, if you could just see him, he's a close-to-perfect
man talaga. How I admire his skills as a Journalist and in fact, during our
first few weeks, I really had a crush on him. Bukod sa gwapo na [mestizo siya],
matalino't mayaman pa! San ka pa, he graduated as cum laude, regularly writes
for Philippine Daily Inquirer, he knows so many things and no matter how busy he
seems to be, still, looks clean and fresh! Siya yung tipo ng taong may
karapatang magmayabang talaga dahil may maipagmamayabang nga naman. Iniisip
nga namin kung paano yun kinakarma eh, para kasing hindi. Haha.
Later on, we
went to Marikina for our Stat research paper. Supposedly, we were to interact
with the elders at Boys Town but then it was cancelled. We just handed the
survey forms instead and went to Arene's house to make Chapter 2. So yun,
nag-type nang konti, bonding moments [nag-girl talk kami ni Mau hehe], naki-kain
ng pancit canton at.. NAG-BADMINTON! Haha. I played with Madie and Arene. Then
again, my wackiness took place. Nagpapayabangan kami sa bawat tira. At ako?
parang baliw na namang ginawang volleyball ang badminton! ;p Pausong may sets at
spikes pa daw. Wahaha. Dahil tuloy sa badminton, ginabi ang pag-uwi ko.
My way home was
challenging. It was my first time to go home alone [at night] coming from
Marikina. It was a long trip and though tiring, I seemed to enjoy it since I got
the chance to be on my own. My mom use to taunt me that I have poor sense of
road directions and that I can never be on my own. So I guess this time, I
had broken the stereotype perception on Shelly and it was something to be
proud of. I reached home safely, around 8pm na nun. In fact I even
experimented on my route. Instead of riding a Retiro jeepney coming from LRT 2
[in Recto], I took LRT 1 [Doroteo Jose to Blumentritt]. I just tried it, kahit
parang napamahal ako sa pamasahe haha. Payabang ang dating eh noh?! Tsktsk..
Take the road less traveled.
Don't mind being an uncommon. Set the trend and others shall follow you.
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December 13 2005 | Tuesday |
09:53pm
"GUESS WHAT!"
Guess what, it has been another crappy Tuesday! Err, for how
many times will I get to be so unlucky every Tuesday. It has been my tradition
to be extra careful during this day and yet I didn't learn from my past
mistakes...
Sa pag-aakala
ng buong klaseng wala na ulit si Sir Olivar, malas at humabol pa siya sa klase [haha].
Ang mas masaklap pa diyan, natuloy yung quiz! Eh walastik, hindi naman ako nag-aral.
Hayun, nangamote ako sa exam! Plano ko pa sana talagang mag-aral bago mag-Bio,
kaso napasubo akong biruin si Arene. Na-sobrahan nga yata eh, napikon at nagalit
siya sa amin. Tumahimik na lang siya bigla kaya simula nun, pinag-uusapan na
namin kung bakit siya nagka-ganun. Hindi na ako nakapagbasa. Okay na rin,
aminado naman ako sa kasalanan kung babagsak man ako sa exam na yun.
After academic classes, we
ate lunch and changed for PE class. Shoddier things happened next. First, the rain
fell hard and our Softball class got suspended. Well, though it gave us free
time, I just darn hate the thought that I dressed up for PE for nothing. We
didn't do anything. We just jogged for a while, that was it. Para bang nagsayang ako ng ibinihis. Kinaya ko pa yun eh
at pinalampas ko
lang ang mga pangyayari. Naasar lang ako sa mga sumunod pa.
Hay ewan, bakit ba lagi na
lang akong nawawalan kapag Tuesday! Naiwala ko yung Guess watch ko!!! =( Ang
pagkakaalala ko kasi, tinanggal ko yun para magsuot ng arm bands. Ang burara ko
talaga, di ko na maalala kung saan ko nilagay o nilapag ang relo ko. I wasn't
sure if I really misplaced it or the I dropped the watch somewhere. So I told my
friends about it. We tried to find it in the field. So there we were, it was raining
hard, the mud was squashy, the grass was so wet. Too bad I didn't find it.
Soon I gave up and told them that I won't be able to recover that watch anymore. Perhaps it was really destined to lose it for this damn doomed day...
Worst came to
worse, my shoes got ruined. Bumuka yung harapan ng sapatos ko! Sakto pang sa
maulan na panahon nasira di ba. Kaya sa bawat paghakbang ko, pumapasok yung
tubig-ulan. Nakaawa talaga ko kanina - nawalan na nga ng relo at sira pa
ang sapatos ko. Tumambay muna kami sa Chat `n Chew. Sinubukan ko na lang
magpatawa't maging masaya, mawala man lang yung inis ko sa mga nangyayari. Thank
God I have good friends who are really there for me through laughs and tears.
Nagkabiruan na lang kami habang umiinom ng red tea.
Anyways, kagabi ko pa
ka-text si Ate Ging at usapan naming magkikita sa USTe. Nilalakad ko na kasi ulit
yung MOD article niya, kaya kelangan kong kunin yung picture. So yun, sabi niya
magkita kami ng hapon sa gym. Hinintay ko naman siya, pero hindi siya sumipot sa
tamang oras. Hindi ko naiwasang mainis, sunud-sunod na nga ang malas ko, hindi
pa siya nag-rereply kung nasaan na siya! Nagpasama ako kina Madie sa gym, nahiya
na nga
ako sa kanila eh kasi ang tagal naming tumambay dun. Buti na lang dumaan si
Vhen, tinanong ko kung nasaan na ba si Ate Ging. Nabanggit niyang baka nag-weweights,
kaya baka gabihin siya bago makapunta ng UST gym. Pagod na talaga ko nun. Ako
rin ang sumuko, nagyaya na akong umuwi nang hindi dala yung picture. Naalala ko
bigla si Ate Rox. Sa kanya ko kasi madalas ma-kuwento ang mga kagila-gilalas na
misfortunes ko sa USTe. Haha ewan.
Sa
pag-uwi namin, napaisip ako, bakit lahat ng bagay malas talaga kanina?
Nakakapuno na rin paminsan, sana di nagsasabay-sabay nang ganun. Ginabi kami sa
UST campus, malamig at madilim-dilim na rin nun. Tuloy ang paglalakad, nang
biglang lumiwanag ang paligid. Nagsigawan
sina Dez sa ganda ng mga Xmas lights. Napatingala din ako, kasabay ng pagka-aliw
sa kinang
at pag-iisip. Nasabi ko na lang, "Siguro lahat ng bagay may rason. Maganda man o hindi, may dahilan
kung bakit nangyayari. Siguro may liwanag din sa bawat pagdilim."
Pagkadating ng
bahay, tumawag ako kay Ate Flo at kinuwento ko yung nangyari. Ilang oras din
kami magkausap at gumaan naman ang pakiramdam ko. Tumawag din ako sa nanay ko,
sinabi kong nawala yung relo ko at nasira ang rubber shoes ko. Akala ko
magagalit siya at sesermonan na naman ako. Pambihira, sinabi na lang niya na, "O
siya, bibili na lang tayo ng bago.." Nag-text na rin si Ate Ging, nag-sorry
naman siya kasi nga naghintay ako para sa kanya at tinatanong pa nga niya kung
paano niya maibibigay next time. So okay na, nawala na yung konting tampo ko
kasi nag-sorry naman siya. =) Hehe..
Hay ewan.
Siguro ganun lang talaga ang buhay - puno ng pambubulaga. Mapapa-"guess what!"
ka na lang, magtataka, magugulantang, maglalagay ng mga tandang pananong sa una.
Sa huli, naroon ang mga sagot, ang liwanag at ang tuldok. Lahat nga ng bagay may
rason. Minsan mahirap maunawaan pero yun ang katotohanan..
All things in life are
temporary. If things are going well, enjoy. Admit the fact that it doesn't
last forever. If things are going wrong, don't worry as well. These things don't
last long either..
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December 12 2005 | Monday |
09:44pm
"DEEMING HOLIDAYS"
My mom bought sweet ham and I ate it for dinner. Actually
I've been requesting her to buy it since then but it was only recent that sweet
hams became available in markets. Well its availability just implies that the
holiday season is nearby. Christmas foods are already up for grabs and other
signs have come about to make me realize that holiday is finally here again! I
just love it whenever I hear Christmas songs and when youngsters chant their
Christmas carols.
So anyways, I
was also chit chatting with our helpers while eating. I asked them where they
will spend their New Year. They cheerfully said that perhaps they'll spend it
here at our house. It's cool, because I've always wanted to have many folks
around during New Year. Then again, I became very excited. Naging tradisyon ko
na kasing mamili ng paputok at fountain para sa Bagong Taon kahit ayaw ng nanay
ko. Alam kong delikado, pero nag-eenjoy talaga ko sa tuwing nakakapagsindi ako
ng bawang o five star. Parang kulang ang Bagong Taon kapag walang ganun,
nakasanayan na kasi. Sa pagpapaputok kami nagkakasundo ni Silven [our guy
helper]. Nung isang taon, 10pm [na ng bisperas] eh nasa kalsada pa kami,
naghahanap ng paputok at fountain! Haha. Hay kaka-excite talaga.
Oh my, just a
week to go, I'm gonna take a holiday break again. I'll be spending Christmas in
Batangas and celebrate a boisterous New Year here in Manila. I'm deeming of
fruit salads and Christmas gifts; of firecrackers and the noisy streets.
Everybody needs a break. I do need a HOLIDAY BREAK. I wanna rest from these
tedious readings already! Err. In fact, since 7pm, I've been reading my notes in
Biology and yet I cannot understand any! I guess my attention isn't with the
books and lectures anymore. Haha.
'Tis the season to be jolly,
falalalala lalalala..
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December 11 2005 | Sunday |
08:55pm
"PINOY BIG BROTHER:
FANATICISM OR IDIOCY?"
Finals night na kagabi ng Pinoy Big Brother on TV. The crowd
was so huge, held at Clark, Pampanga. In deed, the show became so 'patok'. Ewan
ko ba, nakaka-hook lang siguro para sa karamihan..
Nene won as the
BIG winner. All a while the people in our house hoped that Jayson will win
[because we're from Batangas! hehe!] but anyways, at least Nene was deserving.
She had convincingly won the consent of the Filipinos and whoah, she got a final
vote count of around 500,000. Man, ABS-CBN had earned a lot once more.
The housemates
stayed at Big Bro's house for 111 days and the show had really earned alot. Mind you,
it took 8 nomination nights to save one's favorite housemate. Just imagine how
many peso were spent for text votes. Just conceive how it ABS-CBN richer just
because of this reality show. Talaga namang grabe mag-promote ang ABS-CBN at
minsan, masakit man isipin, para na tayong tangang mga Pinoy.
So a while ago, these 13
housemates-turned-celebrities conquered almost every show of Channel 2. Of
course, all the appearances were jam-packed with fans and supporters. Their
Pampanga motorcade was monitored, they appeared in ASAP, ASAP Fanatic, PBB Buzz
and the Buzz! Wala na silang kapahinga-pahinga! Maghapong pagmumukha nila ang
tumambad sa TV screens.
At yung mga tao
dito sa bahay, parang mga tanga din. Inabangan din nila ang halos lahat ng TV
appearances maghapon. Haha. Well, honestly speaking, I was one of them for some
time. Si Jayson kasi yung inaabangan ko, natatawa kasi ako sa kanya. Gusto ko yung mga hirit niyang
Batangueño.
Besides Jayson, pinanood ko din yung The Buzz. Hinintay ko yung paghaharap
ni Uma at Boy Abunda! Haha. Gusto ko kasing makita yung reaksyon ni Uma sa
pagbuwelta nina Kris tungkol sa pagiging prangka niya. Sino ba naman
kasing hindi maiinis sa talas ng dila ni Uma di ba - sabihan ba naman on air na
baduy si Boy Abunda, na di bagay na presidente si Kris kasi Kikay, at ayaw niya
kay Racquel kasi probinsyana. Tama si Cristy Fermin, 50,000+ lang bumoto sa
kanya dahil di na siya binoto ng mga probinsyanang kinaaayawan niya. Hahaha. On
the other hand, the issue on JB and Say looked so over-reacting na talaga.
Nakakasuka. Feeling ko
gawa-gawaan lang talaga yun para may mapag-usapan! Isipin mo naman, anong
ikasisikat ni JB? Di naman siya marunong sumayaw, umarte o mag-host.
Alangan namang forever love team sila ni Say, eh ang tatanda na nila. Showbiz
nga naman talaga oo. It gives a lot of twists and it will surely make the
audiences turn into banana splits afterwards.
Sa totoo lang,
ayoko naman talagang ma-hook. Alam kong mas marami pang sensible stuffs na
pwedeng pagkaabalahan bukod diyan sa PBB. Pero kasi, nakaka-catch din ng
attention. Nakaka-amaze
yung magnetic force ng PBB sa mga Pinoy sa napakabilis na panahon. I was just
wondering how come the Filipinos loved it. Well, based from what I observed,
perhaps it would be the tremendous promotion of ABS-CBN. The station was able to
make PBB as a dominant TV Reality Program. And also, I guess Filipinos are
innately into idolism. We're fond of being easily awestruck with what we see or
hear. Let's face it, though you're not
a fan or something, you have been swayed by curiosity as well. That's what had
happened to me. Initially I was really not into PBB [because I thought of it as
an invasion of privacy. Ya know, Journ stuffs. Hehe] but then, I was able to
look unto the other side. May moral values din namang nakukuha eh. At saka,
kahit ma-buwakaw ang dating ng ABS-CBN sa pagpapa-text, pinakita kung paano
maging compassionate ang mga Pinoy. Kapag nakita ng mga Pinoy na deserving ang
isang taong suportahan at papanalunin, nagkakaisa tayong iparamdam yun. Sana
laging ganun tayong Pinoy, nagkakaisa. Di lang pang-Pinoy Big Brother, sana pati
sa lahat ng larangan. Kung mangyayari sana yun, di na siguro natin kailangang
magpalabas pa ng mga ganitong reality show para ipakita sa atin ang 'totoong
buhay'.
* x`cez:
It was my first time to text Ate Cherry [Macatangay] a while ago to greet her on
her 30th birthday. Ang bait at kalog pala niyang kausap. It's so great to think
that it was as if we knew each other well. I guess we'll be thanking Ate Rox
then. Siya ang taga-kuwento tungkol sa amin kay Ate Cherry at siya din ang
nagkukuwento tungkol sa kaibigan niya. Hehe.
Talagang ganyan ang buhay,
dapat ka ng masanay. Wala ring mangyayari kung di ka makikibagay. Ipakilala ang
iyong sarili, anuman sa iyo'y mangyayari. Ang lagi mong iisipin, kayang-kayang
gawin..
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December 09 2005 | Friday |
08:12pm
"DOING SOMETHING FOR
SOMEONE"
I was kinda lazy to go to school awhile ago. Bukod sa malamig
ang umaga, naisip kong Biyernes na - isang araw na pasok na nga lang, kelangan ko
pa ulit bumangon at mag-ayos papuntang USTe. Hay, ang buhay estudyante nga naman.
Pero medyo oks
na rin, magaan lang naman ang mga gawain kanina. Di pa rin ako natatawag sa
History, di kami nag-lesson sa Stat [pero may quiz sa Monday!], discussion lang
konti sa Journ at wala na naman si Sir Tobias [Rizal Course]. Yan ang summary ng
7-11am class ko kanina. Medyo boring, kaya nga siguro nag-drawing na lang ako
kanina. Haha, wala na naman akong inisip kundi volleyball. ;p
At dahil nga sa
napagtanto kong parang walang kwenta ang araw ko, nag-isip na lang ako ng
magagawa. Masabi ko man lang na 'may nangyaring maganda sa Biyernes ko'. Haha.
So after class, instead of coming with my pals to eat lunch, I chose to head
straight to the library.
I did something
for someone. It's not a favor nor a request. Rather, it was more of an
initiative. It was a special deed [from the heart of course!] which I guess
would surely make that person happy once this 'thing' has been revealed.
Hindi niya talaga alam na ginagawa ko ito para sa kanya. Hindi ko rin alam kung
ano magiging reaksyon niya kapag nalaman niyang ginawa ko ito para sa kanya.
Basta ang alam ko, bukal sa puso kong gawin yun, walang kapalit, walang
hinihintay na kabayaran. Nagsinungaling ako kina Madie kanina tungkol dito.
Ang sabi ko kasi, pupunta akong library dahil pabor yun. Alam ko kasing
tatawanan na naman nila ko kapag nalaman nilang.. hay.. aadik-adik na naman ako
sa taong madalas na lang nilang napapansing ka-text ko. Hahaha.
I stayed in the
library for 5 hours. I was alone, there at the serials section. I didn't eat
lunch and I didn't rest. I don't know, perhaps I was just so determined to do
it, thinking that it shall be for someone who is something to me. That
deed of 'something' means nothing pa nga eh [sa totoo lang..]. Sa dami ba naman
ng nagawang mabuti at maganda ng taong yun para sa akin, wala pa sa kalingkingan
yun. Hay. It really feels good that at the end of the day, you did something
worthwhile. Sweat and tears are overlooked, once dedicated for someone who means
and spells a-l-o-t to you...
I finally took
my merienda around 4pm at BK Dapitan. It was already raining and I was slowly
feeling tiresome. Before going home, I passed by CD-R King to replace the CD I
borrowed from my sister. On my way, traffic jam came upon and so I just
took the moments to think about what I've done at the library. Haha, inisip ko
pa ulit kung worth it nga bang gawin yun. Consistent pa rin naman ang sagot ko,
oo at palaging oo ang isasagot ko. In fact pag-uwi sa bahay, nagpahinga lang ako
sandali at kinuha ko na ulit yung mga nakalap ko sa library. Di ko pa rin
tinigilan, inayos ko pang lahat muli. Tinanong ng nanay ko kung para saan yung
ginagawa ko, di ko na lang siya sinagot. Patuloy ang pagtingin ko sa ginagawa ko,
unti-unti na lang akong napapangiti't napapangisi... ^_^
Love your neighbor as you love
yourself.
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December 08 2005 | Thursday |
09:21pm
"CRAVINGS"
Oh yeah, no classes today. Besides not having a Biology class
[yehey!], I was glad to rest a bit. The cold
weather even went with the mood. It was raining cats and dogs all-day. The
feeling is heavy and quite lethargic. How I appreciated these times, really.
Since the
weather is so cold, I had the food cravings! Darn it, I just can't stop but eat.
It's weird but right now, I'm so into spaghetti!!! Haha. If I were not mistaken,
I've been eating pasta for 3 days. I seldom ate rice or meat, just pasta. I
guess it all started when my mom home-cooked a yummy noodle spaghetti for a
merienda last Sunday. Naubos agad kasi halos lahat ng tao sa bahay ay
kumain. Two days after, I requested our helper to cook spaghetti again because I
was really craving for it. Maybe you'll laugh at me but it was my meal for
breakfast, lunch and dinner! I just got so addicted with the sweet taste of the
sauce, mounted with cheese on top. That's how I desire for something, I
cannot get away with it. I seldom crave but once I get into it, you'll charge me
for being so addictive.
..And all a
while I thought I got over already. I wasn't. Haha!
Nagkita kami ni
Ate Flo kaninang hapon kasi may inabot akong CD. Napag-usapang sa Burger King
[Welcome, Rotonda] kami magkikita. Ako ang pumili ng lugar. Kagabi kasi, bigla
ko na lang naisip na gusto ko na naman ng spaghetti! Gusto kong kumain talaga ng
BK spaghetti at saka fries. Haha talaga. So I went there around 4pm. I texted
Ate Flo that I'll order ahead of her since I'm hungry already but then right
away she came as well. So yun, sabay na kaming umorder. Naupo kami, kumain [at
talagang sarap na sarap naman ako haha!], at saka nag-kuwentuhan.
Ay grabe, ang
saya na naman ng kuwentuhan namin. Tatlong oras, daldalan lang talaga habang
nagpupunit ng tissue paper at saka ilalagay sa gravy cup [hahaha! adik ;p walang
magawa]. Yun at yun pa rin ang topic ng usapan pero ewan ko ba, nakakatuwa lang
talaga. Habang tumutagal, kami ni Ate Flo yung close sa isa't isa sa tropa.
Each time we meet, it's as if we didn't talk for a week. Take note, we're even
text mates everyday, chat mates all the time and sometimes, even phone pals.
Haha! That's how we craved for each other's stories. Kanina, ang dami naming
iniisip na mga planong lakad. Sana matuloy kasi tiyak masaya yun kasi magkasama
na naman kami. Kahit ang layo ng agwat ng edad namin [she's 27], eh para lang
kaming magka-age. Actually mas mahilig talaga ko makipag-barkada sa mas matanda
sa akin. I can think and act ahead of my age, one thing I am pleased to show I
guess. =)
So I went home,
still raining. I just read a bit for tomorrow's History recitation and besides
that, I didn't think of any school work anymore. In fact I feel so sleepy as
early as now. I guess I'm craving for my bed already.
Never digest something which is
being spoon-fed to you. It's healthier to chew on something which you, yourself
have harvested.
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December 07 2005 | Wednesday |
07:05pm
"PLAYING CATCH UP"
So I've been up to many circumstances these past few days.
Many things had happened yet I only accomplished a few. Why? Damn, I was
terribly ill.
I suffered from
Bronchitis for almost a week. It was late then that we figured out what was
wrong with me. Initially, I was just experiencing sore throats, coughs and
sinusitis but soon, I started to catch fever and feel stomach aches. Of course
it was really painful but yeah, thank heavens I had the best mom who really took
care of me. She had never lose grip of catching me up each time I fall. I
could have not imagined myself, twisting in pain, without someone who was 24
hours by my side.
Sino ba naman
kasing may gustong magkasakit. Wala kang magawang trabaho kapag may sakit ka di
ba. Hindi ka makalabas ng bahay, maraming bawal na pagkain at paiinumin ka ng
mga gamot na nakakapanghina kasi ang taas ng dosage! Much that I wanted to be
energetic and jolly, I ended up being on bed for days. That was when I
realized how health is wealth. We need to take care of ourselves because we'll
get to see the effect of it in the future. It's really boring to be sick.
Besides sleeping, I was just contended watching TV and texting with some pals.
Well at least I was able to monitor how SEAGAMES went on and well done to the
Philippine team for bagging the overall medal tally. Women's Volleyball got the
bronze, cool.
So anyways, as
a consequence of being at home, I skipped school for a couple of times. Right
now I'm trying to catch up with the lectures and updating myself with what has
been happening in campus. It's hard actually and I guess it's in my nature that
I hate being left out on things and events which I believe that I must be into.
Each moment, I just don't know how to squeeze myself in. I want to do all things
at the same time but too bad, I'm just one piece. I cannot put the same old
Shelly because I'm still recovering.
Hay, buti na
lang at walang pasok bukas [Immaculate Conception]. Makaka-adjust na siguro ako
nang konti. Sana magtuluy-tuloy na ang paggaling ko. Marami pa kong gusto at
dapat gawin. Sa panahon ngayon, bawal na nga yatang magkasakit kasi maraming
mawawala sa iyo..
Being down is what pushes you
up. Being beaten back is what pushes you to catch forward.
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December 02 2005 | Friday |
06:36pm
"COUGHING ALL DAY"
Ang tagal pa ng New Year pero ang aga-aga kong magpaputok.
Haha. Buong araw na lang akong inuubo. Masakit na sa dibdib, sa lalamunan at
nakakaalog ng ulo. Hay, sana gumaling na ko.
Buti na lang di
pa rin ako natatawag sa History recitation kanina. Binasa ko man yung Chapter 6
kagabi kaso wala naman akong naintindihan! Inuubo din ako habang hawak ang libro
kagabi, paano ko mababasa nang tuluy-tuloy yun. Pabalik-balik ako sa CR, may
plema kasi yung ubo ko. Hay ewan. Mas maingay pa ko sa aso namin talaga. Siguro
kung nakakapagsalita lang ang aso namin, siguro sinabihan na ko ng "Hoy
magpatulog ka naman, ang ingay mo!" Tsk..
Napilitan lang
talaga ko pumasok kanina, di pa ko ganung naka-recover. Di ako masyadong maka-relate
sa mga lessons, busy ako sa pag-ubo at pagsinga. Haha. Minsan napapalingon na
lang yung mga kaklase ko sa akin, tuluy-tuloy kasi yung pag-ubo ko. Actually my
friends pitied me and they were asking how come I still went to school. As
usual sinabi ko na naman, "Sayang ang araw, ang dami ko ng na-miss out."
Nagpaka-martir na naman si Shelly. Gawin niyo na kong santo at pagawan ng
rebulto. Tsk.
Bago umuwi,
dumaan ako sa Cafe Dapits. Nagpagawa ako ng CD. Pagkadating ko sa bahay,
pinakinggan ko agad. Aba, ang lakas pa ng loob kong kumanta-kanta kahit sobrang
kati na ng lalamunan ko! Haha. Pero wag ka, yun lang pala ang makakapag-pagaan
ng pakiramdam ko - ang musika. My mood got better. It was not through tablets or
capsules but with the aid of music remedy. I'm still sick but trying to recover,
thanks to music.
Tensionado, nagulat din ako
nung malaman na hindi lang pala ako yung nanghinayang, nung nag-away tayo nun.
At natuluyan sa iyakan at tampo. At sandali lang, wag ka munang magsalita. Di ko
hahayaan at ito ay mawala. Ang iniisip ko, kung PWEDE PA BA TAYO?
[Last Song Syndrome ko! Tensionado
by Soapdish]
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December 01 2005 | Thursday |
08:53pm
"FALLING APART"
I was absent today. AGAIN. Napapadalas na yata ito kasi lagi
na lang akong nagkakasakit. Masyado ko na yatang nabubugbog ang sarili ko kaya
ganun na lang kadaling bumigay ang katawan ko. Hay. Epekto yata ng Softball
PE class ito. Ibilad ba naman kami sa araw. Another thing was that I didn't
catch good sleeps for the past few days. I've been very busy talaga. Sumabay pa
yung pag-celebrate ko ng birthday kaya lalo akong naging pre-occupied. As I woke
up this morning, I ran out of voice. My throat ached hard and my body continued
to deteriorate as I caught fever too. It feels so sluggish all-day. I slept and
slept, wishing to feel better. My mood just fell apart.
Speaking of
weakening, it was a
disappointment too that the RP Women's Volleyball fell apart yesterday. They got
defeated in 4 sets by the Viets. All I while I thought they're going to win
because they over-powered the opponents in the first set but as the game went
along, the Viets had learned to adjust. Errors after errors from RP. Nakakainis pala
talagang manood ng isang larong unti-unting pinapatay ang kopunan mo. Akala ko
pa naman eh panahon na para makakuha ng ginto sa SEAGAMES ang volleyball. Di na
tuloy makakaabot sa finals ang Pilipinas [going against powerhouse Thailand sana].
Kulang pa rin pala. Siguro ganun lang talaga, may nanalo at may natatalo. One
shall rise and one shall fall. On the other hand, at least we're sure of a
Bronze medal already - Philippine pride na rin yun.
Naiisip ko
nga eh, sana minsan makapagdala din ako ng sariling karangalan para sa Pilipinas.
Kelan kaya yun noh? Hehe. Whatever and whenever that may be, I hope that dream
wouldn't fall apart because I keep my fingers crossed that I can do it. Kanina habang nakahiga, naisip kong sana di ako ganung kasakitin pagdating ng
panahon. Paano ako magta-trabaho, paano ko aabutin yung mga pangarap ko. Hehe.
O.A.? Di naman ako nabaldado di ba. Wahaha. Ewan ko ba, simple-simpleng
pangyayari pinalalaki ko, Ganun lang siguro ako kapag di nakakapagsalita at
namamaos - mas napupukulan ang pagbuo ng diwa sa isipan.. *coughs*
* x`cez: By the way, I still
received gifts from Imee, Chuchie and Mau yesterday. Siyempre orange stuffs na
naman hehe! Kakatawa yung bulaklak KUNO na alay ni Chuchie, gawa sa kamatis!!!
Haha.
Body is the temple of the soul.
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