it's better late then never. i took some pics on valentines day when me, my mom, and dexilie went to visit my brother. most of them came out blurry because i was using a ghetto camera. grrr. miss ya bro.

today, the news was on while i was on line earlier today, and i heard a familiar name. Christian Ignacio. my prayers go to his family and his friends. rest in peace buddy. say hello to my brother.

if anyone else notices it... leave a comment ok. you have to think real hard. i won't hint any more.

alojerz reader

ui's baby shower was awsome. minus the drunks. the banner turned out pretty damn nice. florie told me for a last minute banner it turned out awsome. thanks to tin^2, len^2, luela, valerie, & florie for assistance with the banner. =P damn shame though that tron wasn't there with his digi cam. grrr.

happy berfday bruh... i was the first looser to call this mofo up and greet him. i doubt he'll even look at this. haha. but people that do look on here know who he is. CALL HIS ASS UP PPL AND GREET HIM. =D

welpsh, my paper is due tomorrow and i started to read page 1/7 ... almost there =P but yeah.

arthur... i miss you bro. *tear*

alojerz reader.

i got a little carried away with my friend rona's phone. geez. all this technology but not enough of me to go around and whore it all. =P . anywho, today starts another week and i have a work load to do for just one class. i have my first philosophy exam this thursday and i have no clue what plato, aristotle, epicurius, or epecticus is all about. i swear, if there's no numbers then i won't understand the subject. date's don't count!//

i've figured out how i'm going to gain some extra pounds... i need to have food or a meal replacement every hour. =D . so that means i need to eat mcdonalds every morning, bring home lunch, eat at the cafe, and after math i need jamba before i eat dinner. oohhh. that'll get me into my normal weight class. then all i have to do is lift every night then i'll have the arms/shoulders/back/chest that i'll need by may (i hope)...

valentines day is this saturday and my entire family is going to visit arthur. speaking of my brother, i was looking at my old blogs and i found a small banner that i made for my brother on his 21st birthday. last year was the turning point in our lives. we actually started to talk more, and he was beginning to talk to me like normal brothers do. it was funny that day, because i called him before my history class started to just say happy birthday and he didn't know what to say... but 'uh... thanks'. i've only made two sporatical phone calls to my brother, that one on his 21st birthday, and one night after a campbell football game. the second was was more on the personal side though. i actually felt good telling him that. i think after that second phone call, he started to talk to me more. he started to talk to me about his life, i would tell him how i felt about it, the people he met, the things he did, the places he went to... but being that he's a Pascual... he was stubborn about everything and didn't really listen to me, no matter how much i hated it. i sorta kinda blamed most of it on myself because i thought back and if i irked him enough, then maybe he might still be here. hey, i bugged him hard enough to study for his chemistry class that he took last semester. i came home one day and he was on the kitchen table working on it while my mom was preparing dinner. we used to do hw on the kitchen table when we were smaller. so that right after we were done, we could just throw our bags and books on the couch and eat. i guess i did have an important part in my brothers life and i didn't even know about it. only if i had seen it a little earlier... maybe even just 4 or 5 months earlier. of all my 20 years... i never thought that i would have to experience this so early in my life. i'm surprised that i'm still sane. i really want to just hug him right now. it's only 3 more months till his 22nd birthday... i know that's not going to be easy. every night right before i would fall asleep, a single tear would just fall from my eye and i knew the meaning of that tear. it was my single one wish that i made every night for my family. now, i have two tears every night. one for my family, and another for my brother. right now would be a perfect time for those wishes to come true.

ngek... alojerz reader *tear*

and

last night was rowena's 21st birthday. we all know what young energetic college students do when they throw their 21st birthday party. we EAT!... j/p. there were drinks and stuff... i'm not gonna even get into the small details. but here's a brief run through:

tron was the first. everyone followed. 10 minutes in, tron was arleady red, peter was sweating. took my first shot of tequilla with the birthday girl. more people came. more people drank. 'i'm just a social drinker' replaying in my head. people bugging me to dance ocho ocho. 'wtf is the big deal about this?' playing in my head. florie was red. bryan comes up and hands me a green bottle and promises to leave me alone if i drink it. downed a bottle. people yelling and patting me on the back, hand shakes all around. again 'wtf is the big deal?' playing in my head. harris played stupid and said he neva see. another green bottle chugged. another round of pats and hand shakes. took my second shot of tequilla with mah sistah girlfriend. dick head gave me another green bottle. people still telling me to do ocho ocho. pictures were taken. gave them what they wanted. checked up on the birthday girl. palu in the bowl. went home.

so what?// as long as i didn't get hella fucked up. i don't have a hang over though. so that's good. i'll post up the pictures when i have all of them. gotta collect em from ppl. i had some good conversations though last night. me and renette was talking about my brother. ruth, dex, and i were chit chatting about how school is and how people think so lowly of campbell grads. oh wellz.

alojerz.