...ver.1.5...

Saturday, 30 November 2002
[17.59]
my body is still hella sore! i need to keep up with my physique (am i allowed to say that since i'm like -199% body fat?) me and winky's going on tuesday again. probably after i'm done with my EE class. i used to into the whole gym thing but i feel really degrated when all the other guys are lifting hard... and i'm over there in the cardio =(. sucks to be me. from then on, i just began lifting at home. i sort of neglected my plan for the past months. no wonder my body hurts like hell. here's i guess... my early 2003 new years resolution. IMMA GET BUFF & SEXY!!! yeah right. maybe just gain a little weight so i become 'normal'. sorta getting tired just wakin' up in the morning looking at a bush on my head and nothing after the neck. hrmm. imma have to ask tron and peter, the protein and physical training experts of my friends, because i really want to gain weight.

my mom cut my dogs hair yesterday. omg! it looks... small. he came running in my room and the first thing in my head was 'wtf was that... a squirrel?' haha. he doesn't look like a big poof any more. if i take a picture of him i'm afraid that no one will like him any more... well, sorry henry... i guess you can't make any of those hat thingys... shucks. what would be pretty tite, if you ran his hair through a spindle thingy and made a beenie with his hair. that shiz would be soft as a baby's butt after us filipino people put half a bottle of pulboos (baby powder) on it. hehe.

new button up on the right... fung_shui057 version duos is fully remade. it's awsome because it's layout is made up of my favorable one-fourth of finkl. SUNG YURI! i was totally shocked when i saw it. i was doing my daily check up of peeps web site and i saw 'henry rangitto' on mark's site. so i clicked. i swear... if there was a camera on me when everything loaded you would've seen a bright shimmering glow emit from my body. not everyday you see people making layouts of fin.k.l. it totally made my day! thanks henry... see.. you still doing good stuff to me bruh!

Friday, 29 November 2002
[02.57]
my thanksgiving was like none other that i had experienced. for one, it began with work instead of a late morning wake up to brunch with family and a turkey already in the oven. secondly, i had no partake in the turkey at all. my family totally devoured two whole birds in the short time span of 2 hours (~10+ families). and lastly, me, tron, peter, jay, & winky went to walmart kunia and OMG... that was the longest line that i have ever been in in my entire life! it opened at midnight and the parking lot was packed, upstairs and downstairs, and there was only one entrance open. the line was well kept and it streched along the front side of the the building, contouring around the end of the parking lot, continuing around the bend of the very first accessible drive way to walmart, and still snaking it's way about 40 or 50 feet more till the end. talk about a line. 'i wonder if some stores in the mainland does this?' winky asked. i was thinking maybe target might. but idk? it took us about 45 minutes to get from the end of the 'great wall of walmart customers' to the door. along the way, we couldn't help but critisize every single person that irked the crap out of us. there was a group of people from lcc that i recognized and they were hecka irking & loud. then there was this old man that started out behind us in the line and i guess he thought that if just advanced faster, he could reserve his spot ahead of us and call his wife to just walk in front. oh hell no! we weren't talking directly to them but we kept on saying, 'oh look there's some one we know... we go in front! ... nah nah nah... das super ass dick to cut in front of all these people that waited super long. das like unz and hella RUDE.' we tried to reinforce the idea in that old tata's head but he was a persistant one. but his wife got the hint. hehe. so she stood right behind waiting and soon her husband joined her, saving me and jay the trouble of talking more shit about them. hehe. *evil yeah us*

should i go to dance practice tomorrow? it's only going to be me and christine. hrmm. idk? she has to work on her piece. nm...i won't go. alojerz.

Wednesday, 27 November 2002
[22.07]
HAVE YOU EVER loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever? or fell for your best friend in the entire world, and then sat around ans watched him/her fall for someone else?

take my stupid quiz

chem test was pretty good today... but there was an extremely ugly problem on it. something about what is the amount of Pb(IO₃)₂ when so much of something reacted with something. damn. words are scarry when it comes to chemistry. i think i did well... high B at tops. after school, jay, nick and i went to help wienee dispose of some stuff at the dump then we headed straight to the exchange.
1) me.winky 2) us.bored 3) lee.winky
jay ended up buying a digi cam (sony cybershot dsc-p7). it's for when he goes to vegas this new years with melissa. but me and winky got to it already... hehe. (next to the header) we're like the two most photogenic peeps in the world i swear! * omg! it's been forever and a half times two since i've been to the gym and my body's sorta kinda aching. i hope this goes away tomorrow (not likely). that's what i have to share. your turn! alojerz reader.

Monday, 25 November 2002
[19.52]

check.it.out.now
geocities.com/fung_shui057

finally! today was the only day that practice felt like a real practice. i actually was tired. now my legs are sorta kinda killing me. my choreographer was being a bitch (*i like ~ i like*) and she was hella iritable. but i know what she's going through. i strolled in late too. akk! i so wanted to bitch at the people about dance moves. some of them were even were arguing with me about the moves. but i had to prove them wrong... so i did. hehe. i love it when i'm right. *evil laugh* if i had an hour with the dancers... i would whoop them to my standards and you better believe that it's high. i was even thinking about choreographing a piece of my own. just for fun, but then why waste it. hehe. the dance instructor, miss stephanie, wanted me to join her dance class next semester... but i have physics in that time slot (11.00), so i have to check up with her if i can still perform though. there's goign to be some awsome pieces at the new moon madness and highly encourage you folks to attend it. tron is comin' soon... and i have to help him with his programming... so alojerz.

HAVE YOU EVER wanted to love someone with everything you dah, but that other person was too afraid to let you? too many of us stay walled because we are afraid to care too much... for fear that the other person does not care as much, or at all.

before school, i had to go to wienee's working place to drop off her phone because she had left it at my house last night. i just walked in... and as soon as i saw her... i yelled in a hostile voice with my hand shaped as a gun saying "GIVE ME ALL OF YOUR MONEY NOW!!!"... omg... she got scared like ... arrano but she was hella scared. hehe. sorry wienee. the expression on her face was like non other that she has done. * i got slammed at dance practice today. my turns suck. the interpretation of the piece isn't as the choreographer had expected it to be. my 'technique' wasn't all that grand. so basically i sucked & i need alot of work. oh wellz. we have mainstage time today at 16.00hrs... not too excited about it. well. the outcome of the friends gained this semester has gone and left as it was at the begining. i guess that's what the call a semseter clique. my friend florinna IMed me and she wanted to know if we were going to hold our regular christmas party. so it's been decided... december 21st... it may or may not be at my house. all the party's are usually here, so i'm assuming it will be. hehe. it's the whole typical... bring a unisex gift (valued @ $10 or higher), potluck. i'm wondering if father dear is going to go all out again with the decorations. last year our house won for the best light display in ewa villages. anonymous people just drive around the villages and nominate houses. hehe. i think it was pretty kool. we had a fully rotating christmas tree of lights (standing at around 1.5 stories tall) and in our frontal area, we had... i guess a santa set (sleigh, reighndeer) and a whole lotta lights all over the dang place. so we practically kept the day going. till 1AM ... hehe. well, imma jet to some chem then off to LCC again. alojerz.

HAVE YOU EVER decided not to becaome a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? your heart decides who it likes and who it doesn't. you can't tell your heart what to do. it does it on its own... when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

i lent my clie to my friend jerald and he took some wierd azz pictures... take a look (klick)... and yeah. me, jay, and wienee went to pearls to buy winky's bf a pair of tim's. buggah was $129 sheesh. well... we took more pics at ff and imma upload them tomorrow... till then... imma jet... alojerz.

HAVE YOU EVER wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had not, or not saying nothing and wishing you had? i guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. they are the things you seemed timeless when they were in your head... to no more than living size when they are brought out... don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. if you do, them might break your heart... but if you don't... you might break theirs.

today is payday... and i'm quite contents with my pay. *not by the rate* but i think it's enough to keep my balance above the required amount that has to be in there... ($250 that can't be touched!) i need to stop spending more than i earn. *hint hint to the state... up the damn wages now!* i have to sacrifice my thanksgiving holiday to go to work. i had to work because i need the money! it's time and a half pay and the bestest part of it is that it's majority us youngens running the store... hehe. so hopefully it'll be fun. * i just realized how much i miss dancing. since 7th grade, dancing and music have been a part of me and hitting college has allowed me to detatch my self from it. no more instruments... no more practices. i think i'll take the dance class at lcc. the people seem pretty cool and the perfomances are without a doubt awsome. off to chemistry world i shall go. alojerz... and may the covalent, ionic, sigma, and pi bonds be with you. *geez i'm a hella dork!*

the "like" life: i tried explaining the whole situation with me and my little admiree to one of my friends. it didn't go all too well. it seems that my shiz flows better when i talk about it here. and i guess, that's the sucky part. because moral support and feedback just dosn't pop out of the screen from no where. if it did i would be scared like a girl in a white long sleeve top and plad skirt that would then be found in my closet corner by my mother. ok... i've seemed to notice a very common *i think* behavior pattern in me. if i don't see her... then i don't like her. but when i do see her... it's like falling in love all over again... or something like that? so what does this all mean? it mean's i'm messed in the head! how long would you wait?

HAVE YOU EVER noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them... when the moment you can't feel them under your fingertips you miss them?

k... here's the time thingy of me since when ever...
*---- Wednesday ----*
watched harry potter : the chamber of secrets

*---- Thursday ----*
screened dance for dance instructor
watched center stage
center stage was actually a pretty good show. mel & jay came to watch me practice... and there was another group there too... (omg, their piece is so solid!) and i guess watching us made her want to get center stage. hehe. well, about the performance. if you're on the LCC campus, you'll soon be seeing a variety of posters and fliers labeled "new moon madness" and that's the program that we're going to be in. it's on december 7th at 19.00hrs (7:00). tickets are being sold (by me and the other dancers) for $3.00, but the admission at the door is $5. so you're better off just buying it from me if you want to come. there's no force, but yeah. the performance is always better when there's ton's of people in the audience as well. so if you want to come, just let me know. * i have another chem exam next week wednesday, so here we go again with the neglection of updates till then. our class is just about in the middle of chapter 7 (covalent bonds and molecular structure). * HO NAH... BAH... on thursday, me and jacob was getting out of the car, and then i was looking towards the theater to check if there were people outside just waiting or something. while we were walking, we were sorta crossing paths with another dude, and he just said... "Allen..." i was like... "uh... yeh". "C.A" kunana! haha... bruh! i forgot to say "pleased to meet you... in person" hehe. now i can match the typing with a face. * i'm doing a photo shoot on sunday at koolina. it's going to be me, and 4 other girls. woohoo! talagang chick magnet ako. (yeah right! keep dreaming biotch) maybe when the photographer turns in his portfolio, he'll notice the awsome, tall, dark, and skinny(?) filipino boy and have him model... or at least publish the pictures in a book or something. you know... something small. hehe.

that pic was supposed to go up yesterday, i had a pretty good blog too! but then geocities timed out... and i got skrewed over times 10. but today's a new day. i got an A for my speech today. *woohoo* not perfect A... but average A. more like A- because it was like 90 & 94. i'm just happy that it's done with. now i have to worry about my calculus exam that's due on thursday, all my chem labs that i didn't turn in, and my programs for EE. akk. imma be the most studious person on the planet next semester. I GOTTA GET MY LICENSE! oh... CA, tron and jacob's gonna be in our class for psy. i just hope i don't get pulled down because i know you peeps. imma jet. alojerz.

the "like" life: the sight of you every day gives me a reason to go on. as i dig my self deeper and deeper in this hole that i call love, i see you at the brim of my concaving ditch. staring as if you see nothing. how can i show you? should i show you? but i can't. i'm afraid that it will be the end of our friendship if i was to reveal my feelings. did you know that i pray for you at night... i pray that you'll one day be in my arms as we both lay. i pray that one day i will have enough courage to approach you and tell you. but i also pray that these feelings will die. to have them completely washed from my memory. i thought i would never have this feeling. is this what love is? if love is so grand why does it hurt so. i hate it! and with that... i'll leave you. no more calls, no more whispers. you have been there for me for too long now. a year has gone by since that initial glance. i'll still pray for you... and i hope that you'll be happy. and if you ever end up reading this... i'm sorry... for not telling you.

talagang whoa... mark, you going stalk me? haha. good job. just make sure your poperatzee (idk how to spell for crap) doesn't make me swerve off of the road. * should i go back to this... (klick me) welcome back!!! i think it's cleaner like that. but idk? let your comment's flow. * jacob and tron wanted all of us (+ me, winky, and mabs) to go watch harry potter tonight. but they both got of at 21.30 and it's kinda late. and that movie is like 2 hrs and 50 something minutes, according to my manager. i was thinking about hitting up starbucks to study since i can't study at home. i feel kinda bad because christine said that she wanted to meet up tonight. oh... and the song playing in the bg is the song we're dancing too. just think... hip punk ballet type moves. hehe. shan�'s and pli�'s and burr�'s... idk. but it's all G! (as in good ... not gay). so we're dancing on the 7th of December at the LCC theatre at roughly 7 pm. or does the show begin at 7? hrmm... i guess you guys just gotta come and find out. idk if you have to pay. but if you do... just pay!... see me damnit! * so about the movies... idk if we're going. because JACOB DECIDED TO BE AN ASS AND SHOW OFF HIS NEW QUIKSILVER JACKET. bitch! hehe. ok. he just left. haha. i guess no one's going to the movies. i guess imma go sleep now. alojerz.

*ahem*HAPPY BELATED BIRFDAY CA *ok... work was pretty slow, but then again, i can actually say that today was pretty fun. i guess you could say that the "young" crew was on. the only person that was old was anty nona. that's it. but she's cool too. hehe. * i was supposed to meet up with christine (choreographer) at macy's but i hadn't realized how late jacob was done with work (21.30). my phone rang and it was jacob. he was already at macy's!!! and he gave the phone to a girl, and it was her. haha. k. here's the scoops. when they (jacob & melissa) arrived at macy's, christine approached them and asked, "where's allen?" and sadly, my presence wasn't there. *hehe* and they told me that she had a disappointed face. something like a "haww why didn't he come for?" kind of face. and then that's when jacob decided to call me up and tell me that they went to macy's. after i talked to her they said that she was all happy and stuff. melissa was telling me that she likes me. but i hardly consitute a smile after a call as "like". she could have been happy because *duh* they were customers and she still had to smile. hehe.

mel: you like her right?
me: not like that.
mel: yet... *snicker snicker*
me: well. i guess not yet.

how's that one... haha. well... imma jet. gots me a math exam to work on. alojerz.

we sorta kinda finished the dance already, all we need to do is synchronize everything. same hand going where, same kick height and stuff like that. wienee, jacob and i wen to watch 8 mile. only the last part was pretty good. all the sex scene's were gay, and the whole job area was ghetto fob! later that night jacob dragged me along to melissa's house last night to help them study for their math103 class. it's like whoa... i can help people! we stayed there till 3AM and then we jolted home to our beds and beddy bye came. my chem class was cancelled today because my professor is ill. so basically i went to school for fun today. such a dork! every one... pray for him because he might be ill with an incurable disease. *sigh* i registered today for my classes. here's my schedule. you can begin your stalking. $700.50 for 16 credits... damn. money money money! something i don't have. i need to get a new job. damnit. ain't got nothing interesting to talk about. so alojerz.

the "like" life: damnit. am i over her? or am i just in denile? i have to get over her. it's the whole, mind's saying somehting (get over her) but the heart's sayin' something else (bitch... you still like her, don't play). damnit! akk... idk?

got home from school and mark reminded me about music bank. mabel sorta kinda fell in love with bi. haha... he's so fruity lookin'! oh wellz, i guess that's what mabel likes now. heheh... j/p. hrm... we're on a dling rampage. k... we got the carpenter, kapono, keali'i reichel, and bitty mclean. mark dorsey's crave just popped up on my winamp. dang... how old is that! well... i'm getting kinda bored. so imma jet. alojerz

that's a picture of me and mary jane that we took last week wednesday. i know it's kinda late. but oh wellz. i finished my persuassion paper last night. my topic is on the problems with time management and how it should be utilized more every day. HOORRAAAAYYYY! (damn that was corny) well... for that midterm about MLK's 'i have a dream'... i got a 90/100. it doesn't feel right though because i know that i can't write for crap. hey, mark... teach me some vocabulary words every now and then . hehe... i wanna talk all smart like you bruh!. well... i'm off to school again. alojerz people.

the "like" life: she not down with takin' the same classes next semester because of some irritating dude. i just told her to just concentrate on me and yeah. hehe. it'll be all good! oh wellz. life goes on. and i'm still left here alone *sigh*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
MOM
i called my mom up at work (idk why she's at work for...) just to say happy birthday. and then no convo came up so we just hung up... haha. 1 minute convo. gotta love it. today's Veteran's Day and i have to do homework. damn. sucks to be me. well. here's what i gots to do.
.speech {ch. 16: 1-5; outline persuasive speech;}
.calc {quiz #8; hw from 3.5 - now;}
.ee {proj5.cpp; proj6.cpp; proj7.cpp}
damn! i think i should start with some food first then hack at my speech hw, then ee, then do calc last since our study session is gonna be tonight. alojerz.

Sunday, 10 November 2002
[21.30]
i honestly feel like i'm the only that didn't watch that american idol thingy. my brother just dled that song that kelly sang, a moment like this, and it's really awsome. (listening to it right now) any one got the 'not live' version? all the screams and clappin' is getting irking. that song has like some wierd ass effect upon my situation. just the words "some people wait a life time for a moment like this" makes me all panunut-y. but oh wells, i guess i'm that weak. hehe. * work was hella dead today! it was so slow that people were going to have to get off early because we weren't making enough sales to cover labor. my sister told me that minimum wage is going to be increased to $6.25. i'm not sure as to when this will be in effect but i hope that there will be an increase in my hourly rate too. * my co-worker, jerald, hooked me up with a PDA application called 'yesterday'. it's a academic organizer. you enter each of your classes and list every assignment that was given along with the recorded grade. it tell's you when whatever is due, and if you input everything accurately, it can calculate your GPA for each of your classes as well as your overall cumulative. the only thing that i think is kinda habut about it right now, is that i have to go back into all my paperwork and enter everything into my PDA. so i think i'll start using it next semester. start off good, start off clean, start off ready.

the "like" life: virgie from work continued asking me why i wasn't involved with any one. and i just told her straight up that no one, that i would like, has any interest with my looks. i obvious cannot actract people. i was just thinking... probably the reason why i don't have a girlfriend is because of my current location? this whole semester a handfull of aquaintances have approached me and at some point, have flattered me in some way. if it be, "i wish i could study like you", "i wish i was always looking at my books", "you're cute, are you seeing someone?", "(in sign language) you're handsome"... if i was to be, lets say, in the Philippines, i would probably have a girlfriend. if was in vegas with my cousin, i would probably have a girlfriend. i just think that Hawaii isn't my destination of happiness or something like that. idk what i'm talking about. alojerz reader

Saturday, 9 November 2002
[17.45]
there was a manditory meeting for my work place at 7:30. talk about early! come to find out it was actually a customer service class. whoa! well it was a paid class so i guess it was all good. i learned two words from our samoan empolyees today. idk how to spell it but the first is ay gai phrase 'eat shit'... and fia mea phrase 'i want to fuck'... hehe... but they're really nice. here's my shocking conversation of the day:

vergie: allen.
me: yes vergie...
vergie: do you have a girlfriend?
me: no? why?
vergie: because you're a very handsome guy!

small kine out of the blue too. but yeah. kool kool. I'M A HANDSOME GUY kunana! hehe. *wink wink* where's the rest of the world that thinks that way about me? i wish i had 'i can see if you're checkin' me out' vision or someting. hehe. like they would just glow a bright orange if they were even thinking it. haha. *btw, i see you ... why are you glowing?!?! j/p* * jerald wanted to go out tonight, prolly bowling but imma go only if wienee goes. we might hit up schofield or something. arrano? hey yall! come to my working place... just go to every store in waikele and just look if i'm there. hehe. imma go nene for now... alojerz reader.

Friday, 8 November 2002
[19.36]
When your heart tells you one thing, but your mind tells you the opposite, what should you do? Follow your heart or listen to your mind?
[15.31]
dance practice was kinda empty today and i was notified that one of the guys got cut because he came to one practice only. we're debating whether or not if we should allow him to catch up. as long as i'm not the only guy there i'm all good. * our chem prof decided to spring a pop quiz on us today. sucks to be me! i got a 4/10 for the last quiz. damn. akk! i have less than a week to decide what my classes are going to be for next semester and to arrange my whole schedule with my friends. my only definite is math206, that's about it. idk if imma continue with my chem or start my physics. i might take psychology and prolly another english class... damn. sucks to be me! * i had a pretty good conversation with anessa last night. it began with the topic of how the world sucks and then it ventured off to why i don't tell people my whole life story. usually one or two of your close friends are the people that you go to to bicker and complain about the ruffs in your life right? well, i don't have one and anessa thought that i should have one because of all my damn situations that i've been having with school and my personal life. but don't you think that if you're relationship with your friends are all good with out your telling of your problems, shouldn't you just leave it at that? i know that people think that it's good to do that, you need to tell people these things because it's healthy and stuff for you selfconcience. i'm not fully down on that opinion. once you decide your "consultant/therapist", you will all of a sudden feel like they should hear everything. you assume that you're doing it to your benifit. but put your self in the other person's shoes? how would you feel if all that person did when you guys were alone or just kickin' back was talk about problems. i see my viewpoints through the eyes of the listener (whoa... i know... a sense check is in order). well... that was the topic. hehe. anyway, there's way too much shit for me to say if i did have a person to talk to. believe me, if you were that person, you would have wished you never met me. haha.

the "like" life: not much happening... next semester i think i'm only going to have her in 1 of my classes. *tear/sadness/loneliness* i just hope that we don't drift over that period of time. i think i can safely label this semester as "my most content yet regretfull" semester in college.

"out of sight, out of mind"
-mark-

Thursday, 7 November 2002
[19.11]
i didn't get enough sleep last night. i slept at 4 because i had to do my analysis essay on MLK's 'I have a dream'. it's wasn't the most exciting thing that i had to write about but never the less, it's expanding my writing stuff. [if you have high speed internet] do you hear that? if you can't then just wait. i have to pick some panunut korean/flip song later, till then this song'll do. mg. i'll upload the song onto my site tonight... i'm beginning to thing right at this particular moment that electrical engineering isn't my field to be in. i don't think that my small brain capacity can withstand 4 more semesters of calculus and 6 or so more semesters of computer programming. i realize that through out my high school and even now in my college career, i have been depentant upon the presence of other's in my classes. ie: (harris this semester... prader's been helpin me through out the whole damn semester. awsome study buddy...) next semester it looks to me like there won't be any one there to lead me. and just that scare's me. i seem to lack the independency that other students have. i hella envy people that can study on their own and just go on their merry little way. * i went to borders a couple of days ago and i purchased "let's speak ilolkano" by precy espiritu. as you can see, i'm not brightest when i have to do stuff alone. haha. laugh! damnit. i'm trying to be funny here! oh... btw... mark... if you readin' this... leave me a tag, i gotta ask you sumthin. (if ya don't mind bruh)

the "like" life: (k... idk what i'm about to write, so just bare with me) you know that feeling that you just yearn for when you're alone. you close your eyes, and the first person you see is that certain special person that'll make you the feel like the happiest son of a bitch in the world. or on oahu at least. only two things end up floating in your mind, you, and that person. probably just talking, reciprocating soft kisses, or just alone together. main emphasis on the word together. you know that feeling you get when you listen to a specific song and the first thing that is condured up in the void of your mind is that person. why? fragments of their name remain in your vocabulary even though you don't realize it, and when you utter their name that ever so familiar feeling returns and haunts you. *k... this is where it relates to me* you try to refrain from having anything to do with that person, but some how... some way, they seem to come back and more stronger than ever, the feeling that is. i'm running away from it. and i'm hoping that one day, some day soon, it'll die down. lay motionless in the darkness of my mind, never to be resurrected.

hershey *muah*'s.

Monday, 4 November 2002
[18.44]
relief!... the one word expression of a college student with the particular name of allen. well, i can say that the exam was a bum trip for me. idk if you would consider this good or bad but right after the exam, our professor has the answer key ready at will. it's there to either strengthen your knowing that you did great or to deter at your tiny little inkling of any questions that you did get right. i'm glad to say that i think i got at least 30% right on that thing. k... for all you chem fanatics, do this: "Draw a Bohr atom with three energy levels. The other frequencies of electromagnetic radiation released from this atom are 8.23 x 10¹⁶ s^-1 and 5.45 x 10¹⁸ s^-1. Draw the path of the electron which releases the electromagnetic radiation with a frequency of 3.28 x 10¹⁴ s^-1." rack your brain. the answer's kinda easy, it's the words that are the scary part. * now that that's over and there's no school tomorrow, i'm left with a calculus quiz, midterm for speech, c++ program, & i gotta still make a persuasive speech. any suggestions for the persuasive speech? idk what to persuade people into doing? * that's herhey up there. i haven't seen her for ages and yeah. she's kool. she was all dawgin me about not invitin' her to the party last month. haha. so i said that i'll make it up to her when i throw the annual "christmas party at allen's house" thingy. well, we didn't have one last year, but we can still catch up. * i found out the date of my dance thingy. it's on december 7th. idk the time thought >_< !!! sorry. but i'll post is when i get it. my room's a filth and i think mother dear is gettin' mad. speaking of mother, her bday's comming up and the only thing that i heard her utter to her wanting was a LV bag. THOSE THING'S AREN'T CHEAP! me and my bro are going to have to scrunge up some loose cash to get her that. hehe. alojerz reader. whoa! wait... my sister just called and she just got a cli� hehe. ok. bye

the "like" life: SHE LIKES ANOTHER MAN!!! i think i'm like bad luck or something?

ang kaibigan ko.

Sunday, 3 November 2002
[17.35]
got back one comment about my new doo... since there's only one i guess that means that i'm mr. guapo! (till my hair grows back out) haha. i gots me that chem exam tomorrow and that means imma have to *ahem* go fo broke tonight. imma be at ewa beach star bucks again like usual with prolly 2 or 3 of my chem coligues. hrmm... mark.... what are you guys going into in chemistry right now? quantum numbers and balmer-rhygberg equation? maybe we should all meet up and just study or soemthing? it could help idk? haha. you and dorris... and me and harris. * work is begginning to suck because for the past two weeks, me and my other co-worker's hours have been cut by an hour every day that we work. that's not good being that i only work for 2 days a weed damnit! where's the love! i need that money! *sigh* (it's november... hrmm... i wonder if lowe's is going to redo the orientation thingy for this month) * what else?... oh. i think that my reputation for invitation/banner/program making is getting sorta better. my anty's got me another birthday party to do. woohoo!!! but hey... as long as it doesn't interfere with my schoolin' i'm all good. well... imma go digus and then head down to the money of the universe. alojerz.

the "like" life: i told christian about my little situation and he sorta got me on high hopes. he's kool. bugga understands and shit. him and peter was talking about sex and everything two nights ago... damn... I'M PROUD TO BE A VIRGIN! hehe. well, hopefully she'll call tonight. or something. *i like you*

Friday, 1 November 2002
[18.20]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRON! you same age as me now! ok. me and jay went to school hella late today. we arrived at school at 10 something and i was already late for dance practice. now we have THREE dudes!... but i think i overheard one of the guys saying that it was too hard and he might ditch. i hope not. what i think that's really skrewed up is that i'm the tallest of the guys and i have too be in the front. akk! the pressure is on baby! damn. and at one point in the dance, every one has a partner but then there's lil'ol allanboi, in the center, by his self for a whole 8 or so counts. *sigh* i wanted to be partners with Christine! but i guess not! *sigh* oh wells. the new guy asked me a rather common question today at practice. "can you do all the moves and teach me how to do them so that i look as less gay as possible?" i was like, "whoa? idk if you wanna be learning from me because i just do it the way that the girls do it." but now that there's enough guys then imma have to conform to more "man-lier" moves. i've been dancing for only a short time (*ahem* seven years *ahem*) i've been accustomed to making both male and female moves. i don't give a rip! if your a guy, you're a good dancer if you can dance regular stuff like n*sync & shin hwa stuff. but when you can make moves for lady marmalade and free (maya) and dance to britney and boa (valenti/lstn2myhrt) then you're a damn good dancer. * my being an ambassador for LCC wasn't a great success but none the less i had accomplished my goal. i had to find suitible student speakers to head down to campbell to talk to english classes on the topic of why students should learn how to write good essays in high school before they head to college. hehe. makes me feel important. hrmm... ambassador allen. hehe. damn i'm ghetto * ok. my hair cut. how is it? am i guapo o pangit? ano ang sagot mo? (handsome or ugly? what's your answer?) *hint hint... leave it on the tag board* no shame... hehe. aite. imma jet because i have to study for chemistry BY MY SELF!!! ... my study buddy can't make it. *sniffle sniffle* alojerz reader.

the "like" life: just like many other people that have bloggers, this is the only place that i can release my emotional tension about the people that enfatuate about. today i caught my self saying under my breath, "Please God, let my feelings for *????* fade, let them erase from my memory." whoa. yes i know, i'm a freak! can't help it. i guess you could say that the emotions are spewing out like a pot full of pinakbit on a red hot stove top. containment isn't what i'm really good at and i just hope that my guardian angel will send this plea to God and hopefully, tomorrow, i'll forget that i even liked *????*.

you said, 'actions speak louder than words.'
why then do my words affect you more than my
actions? my words are the last things that i
would use to express how i feel for you. your actions
are stronger than your words. but it's
your words that do the harm.