| [ | .saturday | ] [ | 27December 2003 | ] |
i need some major help yo. hope me bro! dude... i need you. freal! i need you.
| [ | .friday | ] [ | 26December 2003 | ] |
on the way home... as i sat in the passenger seat of jacob's car, i started to just cry. no one noticed. when ever i go fast in a car, i get flashbacks of that night when the accident happened. everyone appeared to be sleeping when i got into the house so i crawled into my brother's bed and i just started to ball out. i laid there, and i was thinking about the times when i used to just play video games in his room, he would just walk in after taking a shower and just scavanger through his closet looking for chlothes. then when he would be done pickin' them, i would look at it and then be like WTF! because they didn't match at all. lucky him, he didn't care haha. i stayed in there for about an hour. moved on out from the room and chilled in his living room, cried again because we used to play DDR like mad there. i totally miss that shit! *tear*
recapping on my christmas... it could've been better. but yeah... thank you to everyone that got me something, i don't deserve it for shizzle... but thanks.
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oh yeah... and here are my grades for school. i managed to fudge up my personal goal of getting all A's and B's while at leeward. but it was unavoidable. here you go:
Allen's Fall 2003 Grades:
- EE 211W : Basic Circuit Analysis I w/ Lab (WI): B
- Phys 272 : Gen. Phys. II : A
- Phys 272L : Gen. Phys. II Lab : A
- Econ 120 : Intro to Econ : C
- Math 231 : Calculus III : A
have a nice day... and alojerz reader.
| [ | .wednesday | ] [ | 24December 2003 | ] |
merry christmas eve ppl. i really don't like the idea of you ppl giving me gifts because i didn't have any time and money to get you guys some. damn! i'll double your gifts next year... haha.
for those that got me gifts: i told you guys not to get me anything, but you guys still got it. nothing can ever compare to your friendships... that's all i need guys.
for those that didn't get me anything: ish all good. thanks for your chrismas wishes and greetings. love ya' all!
alojerz reader.
| [ | .monday | ] [ | 22 December 2003 | ] |
[.1022] check out that outfit on the right?// daym. it's from express. patrick showed me the site before he flew down back here. hehe. idk... the price is kinda high but i LIKE IT! i need to get new clothes... like pronto man. my wardrobe is older than my comp. daym. *yuck* any one wanna gimme their credit card?// haha.
i linked my little cousin. check his button out on the links.
exam grades came out and damn i fucked up! oh wellz... i just hope that i get at least a C or better... this semester really sucked. sigh. mahalo plenty to everyone in my physics and ee class. that shizzle was intense, but we did it. haha. idk about the other one from our "power circle". haha. oh wellz. they ain't here no more.
last night me, florie, nick, sheryll, and jacob went to watch stuck on you. it wasn't that bad... but i kinda cried when they showed the brotherly scenes. but *shhh* no one knows. haha. we headed down to zippy's kapolei because sheryll had to go home already. tysen and theresa popped on in. it's been ages since i saw them. haha. but anywho. we made some plans for next time. not gonna say what it is. hehe. secret secret.
alojerz reader.
| [ | .friday | ] [ | 19 December 2003 | ] |
| [ | .wednesday | ] [ | 17 December 2003 | ] |
EE and Phys finals were pretty good. idk if it's good or bad... but i always over shoot for those. at least they're done and over with... pick up day is monday. akk! >XP
thanks to skip, the take home exam is going pretty well. several of my classmates are meeting up at starbucks ewa beach to finish up the exam and study for the second part tomorrow evening. calc 3 exam begins at 16.45 and finished at 18.45. i honestly do not know what to expect... but i have alot to do! skrew unit vectors, directional derivatives, stationary points, and gradients. geez. why couldn't we just stop at regular derivatives and indefinite integrals. darnit!
i found that i don't compete with everyone in my class... just with those that are the same age as i am. haha... so if you're in my class and you graduated c/o 2001... BEWARE! haha.
note about this saturday... i had this planned out for quite some time now and thanks to hershey and tron, it'll be put into action. imma be takin' some pictures at the party so please come in clothes that you don't mind that will be in a picture and printed. as folks enter the party, i'll take their pictures and have them printed with a festive foreground. sorta kinda like a neo print... just not that damn small. hehe. i hope it goes well. tron's bringin' his printer, and print cartriges aren't cheap... so if you guys wanna like... donate some cash so that we could get a new one for him later... would be GREAT!
back to studying... alojerz readers.
| [ | .sunday | ] [ | 14 December 2003 | ] |
those were several pics that were taken last night at kat's 18th bday and i think on friday?// haha. idk?// but i liked the way the hat went with my shirt (yes a tad bit morbid with all the black but hey... what can i do?//)
[ ] EE 211 : 17Dec @ 0745-0945
[ ] Phys 272 : 17Dec @ 1000-1200
[ ] Math 231 : 18Dec @ 1645 - 1845
God help me and every one else that's taking their exams.
Maria, Henry, and I worked on a little project for Maria's winterfest. We mixed together some songs and dang... it sounds pretty good. Never mixed songs for the longest time. I had to brush up on my beat junctions and stuff like that. gasp! maybe i'll ralley up my cousin's and do a small little performance for the family for christmas to try and brighten up the spirit.
the 2nd Annual Christmas Party is this weekend. the location changed from last year. it moved from my house to peter's house. so if you're gonna come but need directions... call me / florie / peter... or email me. did every one purchase their
i know it's in the middle of december already and i haven't changed my layout... but i'll do it after finals are over. i don't really care if it's only up for the week of Christmas... haha. so that yeah... it'll prolly cheer up the grumpy anti-christmas people out there. there's been alot of converts lately... hrmm... cheer the funk up... before imma grab some mistletoe... and shove it up your arsh!
alojerz readers ... and happy
| [ | .sunday | ] [ | 7 December 2003 | ] |
thanks...
- family: so... how do you like your son/nephew/grandson/cousin now?// GHETTO!!! thanks for coming... eh... Roxanne... is there something you ain't tellin' us?// *wink wink*
- the bench gang: you guys rocked... was this year good?
- sisters: lah yoh!!! thanks so much for coming... next time... please... no "ocho ocho" thank you. haha. but thanks to that... we got more screams. haha
- friends of the bench gang: you guys ... *tear* amber... wussup! tango / tin / len... thanks!
- mark: thanks for the hi five! haha... i did stay later... i was in the front. who were you there for btw?// nice seeing you again... WHEN WE GONNA HANG OUT?//
any one want to lend me $5,000.00 so i can go Christmas shopping for my friends, family, & you. hehe
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my sister asked me out of the blue tonight... "do you still cry?" and when i looked at her... she had a single tear down her cheek. and i told her yes... and i explained to her, in detail, what i went through last night when i broke down. how i still can't comprehend that he's gone, how i felt because he didn't get to see me on stage, how i was walking all over the place trying to find somewhere i could be alone to just cry, how i just sat there... and imagined what it would've been like if he was still here.
everything that i do, everything that happens to me, i wonder how it would be... with my brother standing there... with his smile and just... being there for me... his little brat of a brother.
when ever i'm home... and no one's around, i just stare at our door to our house... and i just wait for king to run to the door, and see my brother walk in, with his red fox bag, key's clanking together as he removes them from the door. every day... when i'm at home, i catch myself doing that.
i know some people tell me not to think about it and just be happy for him... i am happy for him. but i just really miss him. i always just saw my brother as just my brother, i figured that he'll always be there... i figured that when he get's married i would be the one to have the honor of making the embarrasing slide show and dance at his wedding with my old high school buddies... i figured that he would be there for mine, lani's, ofelia's, and *palubus ni apu* juni's one... i figure that me and him would have this house that we're living in right now to the both of us... he said that he wanted upstairs and i could have down stairs... i figured that i would be taking care of his kids when he would go to work... and i figured that he would be old with grey hair before i would ever see an "in loving memory of" sign.... i figured that he would still be here bugging me to get off of the computer. but i still can't figure out how to cope with him being gone.
i so need someone to hug... alojerz reader
| [ | .saturday | ] [ | 6 December 2003 | ] |
last night at dress rehersal, i was watching the pieces go by, and then i was thinking about my brother again. how he didn't get to see me on stage or anything. i don't even think he came to my band stuff. (i wouldn't have gone either... haha. we sucked) but yeah. i had another break down thing. had to get out of the theater and get some air and shiz. man... i know i've said this already... but this sucks! alojerz reader.
| [ | .thursday | ] [ | 4 December 2003 | ] |
now none of you have an excuse... i don't want to hear no... "oh no one told me..." , "i didn't know...", "i didn't have an invitation... " ... i don't want to hear none of it. if you know wienee... then chances are you've already heard about it... if you know me... then guarantee you've heard about it. so no excuses. only excuse is my bro branden and the pico family because they have celebrations for their children. so if you're not there... i'll be hurt... but it's all good. *sniff sniff* haha ';p
the cast of moon madness is 50% smaller than last year... that's why i've been bugging people to come... it would be nice to have a full house. so please tell people... bring your cousins and friends that like to dance. if i don't know you... but you came on here... by all means... COME! haha.
Boise vs. UH... last game of the season... who you going for? a whole bunch of my friends from physics/engineering class is going to the game. if moon madness didn't fall on the same day... i would've gone with them. save me a beer and shizzle!
thanks to lani, abbie, & henry for keeping me company last night at the tech rehersal... i swear... i'm such a loner there. no friends at all! i never knew how snobby dancers were... *fuckers!* you guys keeping me company friday again?
"honey" comes out tomorrow!
| [ | .tuesday | ] [ | 2 December 2003 | ] |
life long friend of my brother, josias, came home last night. he came over tonight to the house to make convo with my mom and us... bringing up memories and stuff. he's practically my unofficial brother. heck... i consider him one... i remember one year, he slept over for the entire summer break. his house is only a stroll away anyway. haha. he's only here for 14 days... hopefully he'll be spending it wisely. he already visited my bro. gosh... it's been a while since i saw him.
my sister got a new camera! the DSC-U30 Cyber-shot� U... it has a little bubble mirror thing on the front of the slide cover. and i was wondering wtf it was for... until i started to take my pic ... and i could see my self in it. i was like... WHOA!!! haha... finally i see me.
funny thing of the day...
mom: isn't the kids going to philippines
sis: yeah... they're going to be there for christmas and new years
mom: oh... what about lein's birthday?//
sis: they're going to spend it at philippines.
( popping head out of room )
me: WHAT!!! SO WHERE ARE WE GOING TO DRINK!
( slapping head because mom was right there! )
mom: what allen? you surprise me!
( still slapping my head because i know imma get another lecture)
me: huh?// what are you talking about mom?// *trying to cover up*
( sister pointing and laughing )
mom: is there something you're not telling me son?
moral of the story... please make sure your parent's aren't around when you say stupid stuff like that... thank you.
ps: i AM still drinking on new years! question is... who do i kiss when it hits midnight?// *thinking thinking*
