21 janvier 2000 *if i hadn't blown this thing years ago, you might be still around*
blah. i spent most of wednesday afternoon crying. found out on tuesday that brian got shipped off to tx, to go live with his mum. Kates tried to get his address and phone number or whatever from jimmy, brian's "best friend" but jimmy got all pissy and said, "i hate that stupid bitch, and she's a fucking whore. and she's fucking dirty!" i got mad-- he has no fucking right to say that about me when he doesn't even know who the fuck i really am. he's only talked to me once and that was for five mintues! how can you judge someone on just that? cause i do remember there was this one point when he was kool with me... and then brian fucked it up and said a bunch of shit about me. grrr... he shouldn't even be talking because he's fucked everyone, and when i say everyone, i mean EVERYONE. god knows how mant diseases he's got... he's a drug addict womanizing bastard whore. liz told me that he's got a small dick! HA!!!! that's actually quite funny since he seems to think that he's god's gift to women. *snicker* i hate everyone today.
22 janvier 2000 *chicken and biscuits*
teehee! i've got popeye's chicken and biscuits! yummy! i like to eat thighs and breasts! um... nevermind... that doesn't sound too good... anyways, moving right along, yesterday, two lobsters arrived at Dave's (Kate's boyfriend) house. i was sad because they were going to eat them. yesh, i know that lobsters are yummy, but these lobsters were so cute! i named them herman and herbert and they're eating them now... :'-( oh well, today was one of those up and down days. i was at the grocery store three hours ago, and i was hopping and and snappy at everyone. then i go to popeye's and i get even more snappy because my mummy is screaming at the lady saying that the chicken wings she put in the box aren't big at all. i snapped at my mum and told her that it was fine. then we went to the korean grocery store so she could get her stinky korean soaps, and i sat in the car while she went in. then "hey man nice shot" by filter came on... i turned it up really loud and started screaming along with it when it got to the part where it goes, "i wish i never met you". i thought about jimmy and brian, and it made me angrier and screamed louder. it was very very soothing. then my mummy got in thar and bitched at me for having the radio turned up all the way. when we got home, the smell of the chicken and the biscuits made me feel better and i ate a biscuit. biscuits make me happy. :-) and something that made me even happier is that i got a new note from this really kool guy who im-ed me randomly. nina's in a damn good mood now. by the way, there are stoopit prepubescent childers in the house (icky poo fat ass sara's friends). if only they'd shut up, go away, and stop kicking me offline, i'd be doubly happy.
25 janvier 2000 *gone*
went to a wake last night. nikki's mum died suddenly saturday morning. i felt really bad for her because sshe was really close to her mum. i didn't know her mum, but i know nikki. she's always been there in some strange odd way. and now it was my turn. the funeral was today at 9 am, and i didn't go. i didn't know her mum well enough or know her mum at all to go. it wouldn't have been appopriate. there's no school today, and it's still snowing pretty hard out. the snow plows and the sand trucks still haven't come by yet.
27 janvier 2000 *superman's dead*
today, i declare myself empress of the world! i'm very happy, although i don't know why. i went to the gyno today, and they found a lump in my breast. i have to go back in two weeks and have that checked out. on top of that i have a little heart murmur with a nice right bundle branch block to go along with it. a right bundle branch block is when the electrical impulses on the right side of your heart are irregular, which causes your heartbeat to be irregular. most of the time, it's a congenital heart defect, but i didn't know i had one until about 2 yrs ago when i checked into DeJarnette Center, a little mental hosptial way out in Staunton, VA.
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