Da Kidz Says:

25th Oct
Went for HYPE UP concert by the singapore idols yesterday, it was interesting but mediocre lah. The opening act (if u insist that it is one) is Hady's Freedom song. Actually the whole stadium was half filled only lo, quite sad for local singers sia, nobody go and support. Then the other idols took turn to sing, like daphne, olinda, sly (which had the fans rushing forward...wow) and lucify. Havta give props to lucify and sly, which were the better ones in terms of what a concert should be like. Paul... reminded me of CHMA, Jasmine a capella item was really nice. Jonathan have some fans too, then also got Don N Drew which was very funny, haha. Was waiting for taufik to come up, so I can visit the restroom, haha. He sang some malay dance song which sounded typical of korean shinwa dance song, then his usual songs la, den he sprang a surprise when he sang "Moon represent my heart" which accurate chinese pronunciation. End off with I dream and You gave me Wings by the entire group. I wouldn't call that encore finale lo, so the budget wise u know la, singapore production is low budget de la. but overall still enjoyable la, waiting for Mayday concert tho.

20th Oct
This is the date - 20th Oct, that I've been saying and working towards for the past few months at poly forum. From the pre-forum where we conceptualized the idea to have a seminar, to the actual PF itself (where nothing much was actually done), all the meetings and last minute work, it's finally over and a great success indeed! In fact, the whole thing went smoother than I thought.

This time going to Poly Forum, it's to satisfy a regret I had last year which was to never execute anything. So had to persevere through no matter what, even though there were sooo many times I did think of quitting and halting the project, but it would let the entire sub-theme down. Now, it's quite hard to believe we actually did something, haha i think a lot of the other teams jus disintegrated ba... must really thank my sub sub theme, who put in a lot of effort to make this so successful, the other teams also who put up the skit and reliability talk... about 20 of us survived in the end, ahaha.

The major hiccup in the day was when one of the sec sch was late, so others had to wait. Another point to improve would be to have even numbers from all school, 3rd would be to have more rehearsals and refine the materials. But overall, i think the 92 students did benefit a lot and i'm very impressed by the students actually, especially the technical stream ones. Actually this is probably like the first time I encounter so many technical stream students (i don't form bias thoughts before this, just never mixed, never judge before knowing the content of the book u know) so I'm really impressed. Well ya a bit mischivious and daring to say provocative jokes and swear a bit, but during the role play, they were still able to come up with answers if you push them abit and guide them. I can see their teacher very caring and patient, really very nice teacher.

So after the seminar, we went to eat KFC and sat there for more than an hour, talking about our school, childhood and crappy topics, haha. Then a boy came to approach doreen to ask if she has money for him to eat, doreen gave him $5. Then when the boy left, we were all soo shocked that we didn't do anything. We told off doreen for being so stupid, kena conned... somemore the boy should be fasting how to eat?! Doreen goes "Oh ya hor!" lolx. Interesting episode la.

Anyway, last year when Peggy and Yun Fang were yr 3 and graduating/graduated... they were angry that we never asked them out when we go out. We as in xiaopang, me, angeline and the kbox gang la, those were the times ma. Today i finally understand le~ There has been SO many times where taurus clique talking to each other and I don't understand what they're talking or joking about, and they don't bother to explain or anything. I think Xiaopang also trying hard to mix in, but now attachment makes it harder. To quote Daniel Poh, who invented the word clique and why does such a thing exist?!

Today when I returned school, I slept in the CO room, then eventually realise that some of them went to play badminton. Wednesday I came back early from embassy, ask jac and heqiang they all want to play, cos last week agree hao wed play de. They having meeting, so ok lo, no choice work ma. But today NOBODY informed me about anything, and I heard a lot of people went to play badminton. I don't want to find out who, because the more names I know, the more disappointed i'll get. Better still, Wed I asked HeQiang friday wanna go run, he say cannot because his class end at six. Imagine the shock I had when I heard his voice at 5pm with teck han they all. N i dunno if taurus went for badminton but I met him earlier this afternoon at 1pm, he oso didn't tell me anything, but i know xiao cong went to play. So many of them and NOT A SINGLE ONE bother to sms or ask me. So essentially I'm quite disappointed in the entire CO rite now (except those that i know definitely didn't go play). Goes to say how much they value me as a friend.

So during dinner i was thinking, whether to just take my bag and leave prematurely. But got sophia's laptop to return her, so I stayed. When I warmed up the guan, i was really stonning but thinking a lot... realizing that I put in so much for this co but beyond the tangible achievements and cca points, there isn't more when i eventually leave the school gate. I look at Li Yan in front of me and wonder, how much has she committed to the CO in the past... nobody else knows, but she can come down so regularly really is appraisable. i dun blame the alumni for not coming back, becos it REALLY is hard, trying to be in wavelength and blending in. so the more i think about this while warming up, the more i want to cry, but didn't want to cry on the spot there.

Then again, it may just be the CYCLE thing...and this is testimony of the fact that my time is over le. Sophia earlier at TEP also felt like quitting, i guess the more active members will, at some point will realize this. i always believe that to set up proper alumni system, cannot ask alumni to come back... its when you graduate, how you get yourself and your friends to come back together and start the tradition. So initially i thought, hopefully i or my batch can start but now i know what are the difficulties and it'll only get more difficult. Because after this week, it's off to thailand I go for one entire month, followed by attachment at discovery channel.

There probably won't be another chance for me to get angry over such a thing because I probably wont have a chance to play badminton in school anymore. When angeline ask want to go kbox, i realise its been sooo long haven been to kbox but the yr1 and yr2s just went after WRC. Responsibility aside, i'm thinking that if my main want from cca is to obtain the family feel, which i'm gradually not getting, maybe i should let go and move on. it was really a pain to sit through the combine prac jus now. Hearing the reason "I forgot" is really disheartening. It's like having going to downtown east and realizing that your sec class having class gathering and they didn't invite you. if 2-7 or 4-4 gathering such a thing occur and i know never invite me arh, i'll be devastated. Coming back, after I'm attached i probably wont encounter such thing again.

I shall have the luxury of the one month overseas attachment to calm myself down and not be emotional like i am today. its sickening and probably gonna take quite long to get over it, or maybe never. i know not getting invited to play badminton is a trivial thing but it's been a pent up thing over the past few months and this simply trigger the rush of emotions. shall see how it goes after i return.

15th Oct
I was registering through the e-services for NS through the mindef website and had such a hard time. Beyond the usual family particulars, they got my number of O lvl passes wrong. They put 9 but in fact I have 10. Then for CCA, they ask for the instrument I play, they only have suona don't have guan. They spell Gu Zheng as Koo Chern, Yang Qing as Yang Ching -.- what the heck is Koo Chern?! Then they ask whether you have attempted or considered committing suicide, or whether you have social/personal problem (e.g. homosexuality) to tell the doctor privately, lolx. Chin Teck's first reaction when I told her this was "OMFG" lolx so funny. Then I had to ask my mum to help me measure my head cirumference, shoulder length, legs etc to do uniform... AS IF they'll really retrieve it and use it. Most likely they'll just ask L,try on L and ok. waste of my time lahx, so I had to book the medical appointment date on 3rd Jan now >.<

MDA hasn't called me or given me any information about the trip at all. Last tues meet deputy director Mr. Christopher Lim who is a very very nice guy. He told me a lot about Burma, Thailand etc and travel tips, then he asked if i understand chinese proverbs, i said ya... i was from chinese school. He said Ying Shui Si Yuan, and told me a lot of things about alma mater and coming back to nyp. Then he asked which school, i said cat high. He responded "ooh, my 3 sons studies there." apparently they're in the primary section and he asked THE question : Is the... Mr. Lee Hak Boon still the principal? and I replied with a stoic face, yes he still is. LOLx! ultimate sia, the silence was soo hilarious. So we talked a little about the school, poor Mr. Edwin Tan was left out of the convo for that short period. but haha, it's nice to have that bond u see, he offered to intro me to a events company by his fren after I finish attachment before going NS.

Few days ago went with weilin and yingxin to look for tailor to make CO performance clothes. It is really great looking, the guy one look like syaoran from Cardcaptor sakura, but aiya, karen and mike reject it lehx. so some modifications will be made. the first tailor said it'll be difficult to make, raises a lot of problem in the attempt to raise price. the 2nd tailor everything ok ok, can do can do and very cheap, $50/piece. So both are equally worrying, haha.

We went esplanade to collect the pamphlets, 100 of them which was like 10kg ~! Put in bag and I was made to carry it around to chinatown and tiong bahru -.- to quote daniel poh "It's just the beginning, a lot more to suffer in the future" so haha. Anyway, I found this very interesting piece from Mr Wang's blog:

《老子》第十七章
【原文】
太上，下知有之，其次亲之，其次誉之，其次畏之，其次侮之。 信不足焉，有不信焉。悠兮其贵言，功成事遂，百姓皆谓我自然。

[Translation]
A leader is best when people barely know he exists, A good leader is when people obey and acclaim him, A bad leader is when the people despise him....But of a when the best leader done his work, the people will say, "We did it ourselves."

I find the last part very interesting, because on one hand, i can understand that the people who did it themselves did so because they have no worries over war etc. as in, focus on their farming and their work, no worries about country development. but quite sad for the leader to not be acknowledged lehx. isn't it better if the leader can involve the people and work hand in hand together, esp in country development? When there is no worries, it also creates dependency like singaporeans are on the government, which is also a problem. haha, guess i'm thinking too much and doing chinese literature liddat.

8th Oct
I've finished One litre of Tears and watching it again, will watch it 3rd time at Rachel's house on Tues, it's THAT nice. The answer to "Guess which episode Alex will start crying" is actually episode 10, the second last episode and i cried all the way. so sadzzz muz watch ok!

Met up with Tekko last thurs and ate Qiu Lian Ban Mian. There's actually a website www.qiulianbanmee.com for the store, with the story talking about Ong Qiu Lian lolx. very interesting rite. After ban mian we went to eat swensen, omg! The combo of Qiu Lian and Swensen is just sooo heavenly and sinful. whoahaha~ the haze been really bad lately so nv go run, slack slack. im starting to like chilling out liddis more n more, esp if its coffee bean or starbucks. cos i dun drink alcohol mahx, so coffee bean is nice place to chill out.

On Friday I waited and waited very patiently for Azhar to call and tell me about where I'll be attached to, cos Discovery is suppose to reply. They didn't!!! so guess have to wait until tomorrow and see how, i really worried lehx. Tues will be meeting deputy director, who wants to meet me -.- hopefully by then my attachment will be solved and i'll know where i'll be heading. It's sooo out of my control and i dun like this feeling. arghx.

4th Oct
A series of fortunate and unfortunate events just occurred. Firstly, Indebted film after we burn realise the DVD got error cannot play. Then Mr. Azhar was suppose to reformat the coms on monday, meaning our stuff should be gone = everything gone! Not very sure what's going to happen but hopefully everything will turn out fine, if not i really dunno wat to do also.

Watching 1 litre of tears lately on youtube... very very nice! It's about a 15-year old girl name Aya, who suffers from a brain disease which she will slowly degenerate and lose control over her body. First she'll start to lose balance and falls down, then she cannot measure distance and cant pick things up. Eventually she cant write, speak, becomes wheel chair and then bedridden. All these while, she still can think and know what is happening to her and around her. very cruel disease that has no cure, and its based on a true story. Aya died in 1980s and throughout her struggles, she wrote diaries and the book sold millions of copies. Yi Ting and Chin Teck say they cry a lot, haha. Objective of the show is to make u cry 1 litre ma, so now its time to play "Guess which episode Alex will start crying?" Game!

My attachment is in jeopardy right now, cos Discovery is rethinking whether to accept me as their intern. Super long story but here goes: At Poly Forum, Ms Soo called me to ask for my journalistic writings in Catch! magazine, saying its for some Asean reporter interview thing. So I thought, there is this reporter coming to interview me in NYP. Then I had to submit an essay about myself la, so after I submit then I realise that she's sending me to apply for this Asean exchange program in Thailand. She say MDA will only choose 2 students to represent Singapore amongst all the tertiary institutions, so very intense competition. ok, so i just submit and think probably wont get chosen lahx. On monday, Mr. Edwin Tan called me to say I've been selected along with a TP girl, then inform me to submit passport photos and all. whoa, very happy!

So from Oct 30th to Nov 16, I'll be away for the ASEAN Campus Journalist/Young Leader Exchange Program Phase II, visiting Thailand, Myanmar and Laos. whoahaha, all expenses paid trip sia, 3 countries at one go, sure very interesting.

Ok then the bad news, Mr Azhar says that Discovery is re-thinking whether to accept me, cos i'll be away too long. die lo, jeopardise my 6 months attachment sia, so now i oso dunno to be happy or sad. Discovery will get back to him on Friday -.- victim of my own success lo, haha. Hopefully can get into MDA if all else fails, den it'll be best la. Cos they sending me ma, so they should accept me rite, haha. at this point, beggars cant be choosers but i dun like to be beggar lo, haix.

WARNING! There has been people pretending to be Alex Shieh, talking to my friends on MSN. Caryn informed me yesterday that a new account [email protected] approached her and say he's Alex Shieh, the one from VJC to NYP de. This clone asked Caryn for her new handphone number, then the clone's friend added her to ask for phone or cyber *toot*!  the accounts are [email protected] and [email protected]. Please DO NOT entertain them, i would never change my account, hyperterra is still the best userid ever. I searched these email on friendster and prance upon one of their blog, saw that this Gracey is from NYP. -.- My deduction is that they probably read my friendster account and searched for my friends and then added caryn. When I added [email protected] onto my msn, he/she immediately went offline. So please watch out!