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2000.02.13.

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*�Pı -- �ƯB...*

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(from�A¸�G����--�Ǧ⪺��)


2000.02.16.

�ڤS�f�F... x__X"
�̪�n�����ܦh�Ʊ��b�o��, �ܦh�Ʊ��ݭn��ܦh�ɶ��M��O�h�z�M, 
�i�O�ڴN�����b�o�Ӯɭԯf�F!! *sigh*
�]�\�O�Ӳ֤F, �ҥH�̪����i�o�h�Q�Ʊ�. �@�Q�Y�N�|�h...
�Q���{�M, i don't have all the answers, and i can't help
everyone solve their problems. ���ܦh�ɭԫܦh�ƬO���n���ƤH
�ۤv�h���諸; ���ɭ԰��B�ͪ��u�������W����. ���h�u��b����
���ۥL�̧a. �p�G�O�ڭ���ˤ����L���Ʈ�, �ڤS�|�Ʊ�ڪ��B�̫ͭ�
�˹�کO? �ѹ껡���ٯu���Q���X��... 


2000.02.18.

�ڪ�trademark "hello0o0oo0o"
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�ڬO�Q����F��? o-0
�ڥu���D, �ڦn�ֳ�...
���M�ͯf�F�i�H�b�a�̦h�κ�ı, �ɯv
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���O�j�������ɭ� i'm still glad to be the way i am.
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but i'm special in my own way ba~
�ڦb�G�ڪ��B�ͭ�, that's me~
mind-reading*sheep~


2000.02.20.

i thought everyone eventually opens up to you
if u care enough and for long enough.
am i wrong or do i have to wait longer?

i think a lot of things, but that doesn't mean 
i have the right answers to anything.

i always blab on forever but rarely have a point
that i'm trying to make. why is that?

can fate be altered? or can it not?
and how can we ever tell if we've altered it or not?

i ask so many questions; 
who do i expect to answer them?
will i ever get any answers?
and if the answers lie in me,
how do i find them?

sometimes ppl call u a mystery,
and u reply 'well that's who i am.'
but is that what u want to be?
a mystery that no one understands?

why are we so afraid to let ppl see the real us?
the real one inside; all our emotions and feelings?

you think people don't care,
but do u give them a chance to care?

if we all were selfish and we all didn't care,
then what would happen to our world?
and if we all think it's not our responsibility;
we all think it's not up to us to change the world,
then whose responsibility is it?

we complain about the work of others,
why don't we go and do that work ourselves?

why am i asking all these questions when
i know i'm not gonna get any real answers?

why is the world of a 15 year old so complicated?

i'm so confused... but i won't stop believing.
i believe i can create my own path to happiness...
(i dunno how i'm gonna do that though... hmm)

*sigh* when will i learn to be more realistic?
but then wouldn't that kill my imagination?
*imagination is all i have*

�ڥu�O�����H����  �t�@�өt�檺�I�v
but not always...  �u�n�A�{�X��;�F�ѧ�
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i cannot and don't want to stop thinking
i believe that what i think is what i'm made up of
if i stop thinking then i cease to exist
....... i like thinking


2000.02.21.

�ں���ڽ�... *sigh*
i'm just chi chi dei melody...
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��賣�O�h�l  �o�N�O"fate"�a


2000.02.22.

�G... �QŪ�ѤS�L�k�M��, �Pı�֦ܲ��S�Τ���.
what happened to me, �گu���Q���z...
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�u���D�d�˪������@���S�X��, �N�@�o���i���B.
�ڨ쩳�i�H������, ��ˤ~��ѰO�~�{�O...
�n��... who can tell me how to forget to think...


2000.02.23.

�����ӭn����ܩO? �ڷQ�٬O�{��?
�S�Q��everything really adds up,
�ڲ{�b�N�n����ܤF, �n���߲z��v�٬O�}�@�a�p�p���@�ة�?
�u�O�·Ъ�system, �{�b�諸�ҳ��M���Y�ۧڪ�����.
�ڥu�O���QŪ�F�@�j�諸�ѵM��A��Mı��: �����O�ڷQ������, �A����?
i'll been making that mistake all my life, i keep on thinking
that "i can handle this, this isn't much at all, wouldn't 
matter to just work a little harder than everyone else." But
in the end i always realize, that's not what i really want. 
i want to be happy, but that doesn't mean i want to work that
hard for my future happiness. i want to be happy right now, and 
i won't be able to be happy right now if i have to worry about
that many things. �u�O�·�~ �ззз�...

�p�G�ڰ���ܪ��ɭԥi�H��}�@�I�N�n�F, 
���n���鴣�ߦQ�x��G�|�O�p��, ���˯u���ܲ�~
���L�ڦn���@�����O�o�˪��@�ӤH�a, �q�p��j~
�ڳQ���ҰV�m���o�˪�: �ڭn��a�H�t�d, 
�ڭn������t�d, ��Ѯv�t�d, ��C�ӤH�t�d,
���ɭ�ı�o�ܬO�藍�_�ۤv, �@����ۧO�H���ھQ����.
�{�b�n�@�I�F�a~ 
but... the coffee shop...

almost everyday i run the plan through my head : how i want the
coffee shop to look like, how i'm going to run it, the principles
and the designs... everything... everyday i make some little 
changes, modify it a bit... it becomes more and more true, it's
almost as if this coffee shop does exist. and it's becoming 
harder and harder for me to remember that this is just a dream...
something that's just thought up for the fun of it, not for
real... so what should i do? go against all the odds, risk the
chance of failing completely, and go for it? :(


2000.02.29

they always say that time changes things,
but you actually have to change them yourself.
--- andy warhol.

the bad thing about experience is that
it teaches u the stuff u don't want to know.
--- (unknown)

my philosophy is that not only are u responsible for ur life,
but doing the best at this moment puts u in the best place for
the next moment.
--- oprah winfrey.

doing what u want to do is crucial to acheive happiness,
but it's not always possible to do as u wish...
--- melody 98'

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