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2002.12.09 [superman(it's not easy)]

by Five for Fighting 

I can't stand to fly 
I'm not that naive 
I'm just out to find 
The better part of me 

I'm more than a bird... I'm more than a plane 
More than some pretty face beside a train 
It's not easy to be me 

Wish that I could cry 
Fall upon my knees 
Find a way to lie 
About a home I'll never see 

It may sound absurd...but don't be naive 
Even Heroes have the right to bleed 
I may be disturbed...but won't you conceed 
Even Heroes have the right to dream 
It's not easy to be me 

Up, up and away...away from me 
It's all right...You can all sleep sound tonight 
I'm not crazy...or anything... 

I can't stand to fly 
I'm not that naive 
Men weren't meant to ride 
With clouds between their knees 

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet 
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street 
Only a man in a funny red sheet 
Looking for special things inside of me 

It's not easy to be me. 


2002.12.11 [stanford]

got a letter from stanford today... 
sooo sooo freaked out... 
and it said... 

STANFORD 
UNDERGRADUATE ADMISSION 

Dear Stanford Applicant: 

We just wanted to let you know that we have recieved your
application documents and your file is ready to be evaluated. 

We will notify candidates of our admission decisions according
to the following schedule: 

Early Decision mid-December 
Regular Review early April 
Transfer late May 

Thank you for your patience. 

PHEW... for 5 minutes i thought it was my
"rejection of admittance" letter. heh... 

a very, very long five minutes that was... ><   

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�u�O��!! who would give up food for appearances! yum yum   


2002.12.19 [stanford again]

Dear Melody, 

I write to tell you that we are unable to offer you admission
to Stanford for the fall of 2002. I appreciate the thought and
effort you put into your application and into selecting Stanford
as your first choice school. Your commitment to Stanford makes
the task of disappointing you especially difficult. 

Unlike many other schools, we defer only a small percentage of
Early Decision applicants to regular review. Although our
decision may be deeply disapppointing to you, I think we serve
you better by giving you our decision now and allowing you to
pursue other options vigously. This in no way reflects on the
strength of your application; rather, it reflects our commitment
to giving you an honest and prompt decision. 

You are an exceptional student, highly thought of by your teachers
and advisors, and based on your application, we can only agree.
I am confident that other schools will be delighted to offer you
a place in the freshman class; we wish that we had room enough
for everyone with talent and energy like yours. 

Sincerely, 
Robin G. Mamlet 
Dean of Admission and Financial Aid 

======================================

ai~ need to brace myself for more letters like these in April... ha 

Anyway, whatever~ 
6 more days till christmas 
5 more days till i'm back in taiwan 
just 3 more tests to go... 
all's good, all's good~ 

no wait... YIKES! only 2 more hours till my calculus test!!
better go study... *yawn*   


2002.12.30 [@taipei]

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2002.01.06 [Vanilla Sky ����Ѫ�]

"Every passing minute is a chance to turn it all around." 
-- Sofia (Penelope Cruz) 

"Even in my dreams,
I know I'm an iddiot about to wake up to reality." 
-- David Aames (Tom Cruise) 

"We create our own realities whether we know 
it or not, the film seems to say, and yet 
control can be snatched from us in seconds 
by a wrong choice or a twist of fate." 
---- Marshall Fine, "The Journal News" 

�O�o�bMS Word�̭����W�Y�@��r, �A��"ENTER", 
�N�|�X�{�n�h�n�h����"���|�y�a�Y�u���|�y�a�Y�u 
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�Y�u���|�y�a�Y�u���|�y�a�Y�u���|�y�a�Y�u..." 

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�|���|����n��, �|���|�o�@���l���A��...??? 

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2002.04.25 [mel quotes]

it's ironic 
the more self control u have 
the faker u become 

i dun't care what u think 
cuz u sure as hell don't care about what i think 

u're eating 
but u're not digesting 
u're playing 
but u're not enjoying 
u're nodding 
but u're not agreeing 
cuz 
they're listening 
but they're not hearing 
they're looking 
but they're not seeing 

tresure those who go out of their way to help u 
these ppl are few and if u dun watch out 
they will become extinct 

why is it that no one seems to be able to 
remember the names of all seven dwarfs...?   


2002.04.25

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it's the little things that count 
the little little things...   


2002.04.26

it's that old fav cd collecting dust on the shelf 
it's that old song playing on the radio at midnight 
it's that yellowing photo of good ol' times 
it's all the things u can't get back 

not try at all or to try too hard 
expecting failure as closure 

i am not really ur friend 
i am the demon who feeds on happiness   


2002.04.27 [the road not taken]

The Road Not Taken -- Robert Frost 

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood 
And sorry I could not travel both 
And be one traveller, long I stood 
And looked down one as far as I could 
To where it bent in the undergrowth; 

Then took the other, as just as fair, 
And having perhaps the better claim, 
Because it was grassy and wanted wear; 
Though as for that the passing there 
Had worn them really about the same, 

And both that morning equally lay 
In leaves no step had trodden black. 
Oh, I kept the first one for another day! 
Yet knowing how way leads on to way, 
I doubted if I should ever come back. 

I shall be telling this with a sigh 
Somewhere ages and ges hence: 
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -- 
I took the one less travelled by, 
And that has made all the difference.    


Robert Frost said : 
"Oh, I kept the first for another day! 
But knowing how way leads on to way, 
I doubted if I should ever come back." 

�N�O�o�ؿ��... 
what if i had gone the other way? 
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I know that by attemping to juggle everything all at once, 
I am taking a stab at the impossible; 
But why does the impossible have to be impossible? 
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o-e... 
maybe this is just another phase 
as experience and history shows 
it'll pass... it'll all pass. 
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