2002.12.09 [superman(it's not easy)]
by Five for Fighting
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me
I'm more than a bird... I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see
It may sound absurd...but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me
Up, up and away...away from me
It's all right...You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy...or anything...
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
It's not easy to be me.
2002.12.11 [stanford]
got a letter from stanford today...
sooo sooo freaked out...
and it said...
STANFORD
UNDERGRADUATE ADMISSION
Dear Stanford Applicant:
We just wanted to let you know that we have recieved your
application documents and your file is ready to be evaluated.
We will notify candidates of our admission decisions according
to the following schedule:
Early Decision mid-December
Regular Review early April
Transfer late May
Thank you for your patience.
PHEW... for 5 minutes i thought it was my
"rejection of admittance" letter. heh...
a very, very long five minutes that was... ><
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�u�O��!! who would give up food for appearances! yum yum
2002.12.19 [stanford again]
Dear Melody,
I write to tell you that we are unable to offer you admission
to Stanford for the fall of 2002. I appreciate the thought and
effort you put into your application and into selecting Stanford
as your first choice school. Your commitment to Stanford makes
the task of disappointing you especially difficult.
Unlike many other schools, we defer only a small percentage of
Early Decision applicants to regular review. Although our
decision may be deeply disapppointing to you, I think we serve
you better by giving you our decision now and allowing you to
pursue other options vigously. This in no way reflects on the
strength of your application; rather, it reflects our commitment
to giving you an honest and prompt decision.
You are an exceptional student, highly thought of by your teachers
and advisors, and based on your application, we can only agree.
I am confident that other schools will be delighted to offer you
a place in the freshman class; we wish that we had room enough
for everyone with talent and energy like yours.
Sincerely,
Robin G. Mamlet
Dean of Admission and Financial Aid
======================================
ai~ need to brace myself for more letters like these in April... ha
Anyway, whatever~
6 more days till christmas
5 more days till i'm back in taiwan
just 3 more tests to go...
all's good, all's good~
no wait... YIKES! only 2 more hours till my calculus test!!
better go study... *yawn*
2002.12.30 [@taipei]
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2002.01.06 [Vanilla Sky ����Ѫ�]
"Every passing minute is a chance to turn it all around."
-- Sofia (Penelope Cruz)
"Even in my dreams,
I know I'm an iddiot about to wake up to reality."
-- David Aames (Tom Cruise)
"We create our own realities whether we know
it or not, the film seems to say, and yet
control can be snatched from us in seconds
by a wrong choice or a twist of fate."
---- Marshall Fine, "The Journal News"
�O�o�bMS Word�̭����W�Y�@��r, �A��"ENTER",
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2002.04.25 [mel quotes]
it's ironic
the more self control u have
the faker u become
i dun't care what u think
cuz u sure as hell don't care about what i think
u're eating
but u're not digesting
u're playing
but u're not enjoying
u're nodding
but u're not agreeing
cuz
they're listening
but they're not hearing
they're looking
but they're not seeing
tresure those who go out of their way to help u
these ppl are few and if u dun watch out
they will become extinct
why is it that no one seems to be able to
remember the names of all seven dwarfs...?
2002.04.25
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it's the little things that count
the little little things...
2002.04.26
it's that old fav cd collecting dust on the shelf
it's that old song playing on the radio at midnight
it's that yellowing photo of good ol' times
it's all the things u can't get back
not try at all or to try too hard
expecting failure as closure
i am not really ur friend
i am the demon who feeds on happiness
2002.04.27 [the road not taken]
The Road Not Taken -- Robert Frost
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first one for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ges hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less travelled by,
And that has made all the difference.
Robert Frost said :
"Oh, I kept the first for another day!
But knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back."
�N�O�o�ؿ��...
what if i had gone the other way?
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I know that by attemping to juggle everything all at once,
I am taking a stab at the impossible;
But why does the impossible have to be impossible?
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o-e...
maybe this is just another phase
as experience and history shows
it'll pass... it'll all pass.
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