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2002.07.13

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i finally got my 15 seconds of fame~ (twice!!)

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2002.07.14

some ppl ask for so much
complain so much about not having certain things
when in truth they are the richest of all
look around you, what do u have that another doesn't?
that is what makes u most fortunate of all.
it could be material wealth
it could be someone's unconditional love
it could be just a warm smile and hug
do u know how many ppl in the world
live day to day without all these things
that we take for granted?
stop asking for so much...
u have more than u need already.


2002.07.23.

what did my dream mean?
maybe it didn't mean anything,
it was just me overreacting...?
but... it felt so real...

u know when u have a dream,
that confirms a thought of urs,
or it goes the way u wish reality to go,
u can't stop thinking about it
and can't stop wondering what it means??
.................................
i wish i knew.

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i want starfish!!
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2002.07.25.

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2002.08.03.

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2002.08.04.

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2002.08.05.

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2002.08.06.

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(haa... �G�M�OŪ��Ū�ƤF)


2002.08.07.

mmm... is my life boring?
no.. i guess it isn't.
but... i dunno... it's ordinary...
i guess that's supposed to be good...
right?


2002.08.08.

just watched Joan of Arc, the movie.
i too, wish that i were meant to fulfill some cause...
that there is meaning to my life...

we watch the insects, the cockaroaches.
we, the almighty human race,
deem their only reason for existance is to produce offspring
to keep their kind alive and populate the earth
and of course, to plague us,
the glorious homo sapien.
so what then,
is the meaning of our existance?
if not merely to give birth to more and more
of the same confused souls...?

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17 days...


2002.08.12.

if i'm not happy, then i hope at least you are...

i had a dream.
in it, my closest friends all read my diary.
my REAL diary, the copy that only i have access to...
and life went on, they act like they don't know anything.
they read all about my thoughts, and it didn't matter...
becuz they didn't care...
that was my dream...
my nightmare...

maybe summer is miserable becuz i sleep too much
and then i dream too much...

but then i'm miserable during the other 10 months
cuz i never get enuff sleep...
ai, no balance...


2002.08.23.

crazy healthy life,
normal sleeping hours,
three meals with abundant and balanced nutrition...
and everyday is still literally "�ѩ��a�t" for me...
what am i doing wrong?

i keep on joking that my health was the price
i had to pay for my 4.0 GPA
and above all, for wanting both
a rich social life and academic excellence
so i'm not gonna study so hard next year,
i keep telling myself.
but then... what am i supposed to do then...
study is the only thing i'm good at...
what would i be without it.

i knew but never fully realized,
that u can try hard to be there for ppl all the time
but u can only hope against hope that someone'll be there for u
when u need them

i know AND realize AND understand
that the world is an unfair battle field...
but it still shocks me everytimethe theory is proven.

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in the moment, ���ƤH�O���|ı�otrivial��

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"u never know until u try it."
a) -u never know how sweet success is, until u try it.
b) -u never know how much failure hurts, until u try it.


2002.08.25.

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2002.08.27.

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2002.09.06.

school's started for a couple days, got used to running around,
got used to reading stupid weirdly phrased textbooks...
never home till it's bedtime and out again by 8am...
made some new "emergency friends",
lost contact with some old good friends too.
it's a new world... it's a new life...
for me, it's a life without computers, tv, and phones...
surprisingly, i seem to be doing alright...
hands kinda shook when i signed up for internet today...
shaw high speed internet...
regardless of what the ads tell u,
life goes on with or without it.
and life goes on, with or without many things and many people...
and many ppl go on, with or without u,..


2002.09.29.

since i've entered university
i've been able to gain insight into many people's lives...
ppl that i normally wouldn't be interacting with.
i see ppl who party too hard,
ppl who work too hard, ppl who study too hard...
and then i see myself.
and i don't belong in any singular catagory.
and then i wonder... is this what makes me special,
or is this what makes me an outsider;
is this what makes me always the odd one.
in whichever case... it's what defines me, i guess.
there's no repeling ur own identity,
there's no sense in trying to be someone u're not...
so, conclusion:
screw the studying n assignments... just relax.


2002.11.07.

2 years ago from today,
we presented our jap skit and had a badminton game against king george;
the second last game of the season.
that was fun... even tho it was a busy week.
i remember our skit was about a day in a jap family...
i was the mom, so i had to wear a kimono and put white powder on...
everyone had a good laugh...
i was happy, two years ago from today.



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