OkCupid! Slut Test

OkCupid! Slut Test

Leaving Chicago Pt. II

I guess i'm not leaving. I'm not leaving in the physical sense anyway. First, I would like to take the time to thank the people who came to my aid, by email and in person, when I asked for help. (You know who you are)

And now on to more serious matters. Despite the aid and advice I have received, I still am unable to get past the feeling that I have nothing left to give. I am growing more and more tired of all of this. I know people keep telling me, "you should do this" or "You should do that" when it comes to moving and finding a job, no offence, but those of you who know me, know that i'm smart enough to have tried everything that's being suggested. I'm running out of options and to be quite frank, I'm starting not to care anymore. And why should I? Can any one of you give me good reason why I should? I am exhausted from trying to "better" myself and my situation. The only thing going for me is the fact that I haven't seen my landlord since he decided to evict me, and hence has not given me any official notice. All that does is give me more time to contemplate what to do next, more time to lay awake at night and reenforce the idea that there is no reason for me to wake up once I do fall asleep. I am putting every ounce of effort I have into finding something to get my mind off my situation. I am putting every ounce of my strength into just trying to survive.

Depression is a horrible cycle. Once it gets a hold it never wants to let go. Drinking or not, depression is still there. It doesn't matter whether or not I drink. It has no bearing on my situation. I stopped drinking in large amounts because I know what it does to me. But right now, all I want is to dive into the bottom of a bottle so I can get some rest.

Yes, I'm depressed. And yes, I know I should just "snap out of it". But it is not as simple as that. Nothing in life ever is.

My biggest problem right now is trying to fight off the urge to give up completely. I have fought this urge my whole life and have won battles and lost battles with it, but quite obviously I haven't lost the war. But every time I battle this urge I lose a little bit more of my sanity, I lose a little bit more of my will.

[Listening to: Helena - My Chemical Romance - Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge (3:22)]

Everyone at FEMA needs to be FIRED!!!

I saw this on NBC 5 and again thought to myself that the leadership in this country is not only flawed, but just plain idiotic.



NBC5.com - News - Firefighters: We Were Misused In Katrina Rescue Efforts: "Firefighters: We Were Misused In Katrina Rescue Efforts
Firefighters Told Their Job Would Be To Hand Out Flyers

POSTED: 6:51 pm CDT September 7, 2005
UPDATED: 9:25 pm CDT September 7, 2005

CHICAGO -- When a group of Indiana firefighters traveled to the Gulf Coast to help in the rescue efforts in the wake of Hurricane Katrina, they thought their skills in rescuing people would be put to use.

But two firefighters came back to Portage because they learned their real skills weren't needed, NBC5's Phil Rogers reported.

In a document that went out from the Federal Emergency Management Agency, the agency asked for firefighters with very specific skills and who were capable of working in austere conditions. When they got to a center in Atlanta, they found out their jobs would be public relations.

'Our job was to advertise a phone number for FEMA,' said Portage Assistant Fire Chief Bill Lundy. 'We were going to be given shirts and hats with a phone number on it and flyers and sent to shelters and we were going to pass out flyers.'

Lundy and Calhoun said they don't to bash FEMA or its mission, Rogers reported. They said they only want to help, and they said there were plenty of other firefighters in the room who felt the same way.

'There was almost a fight,' said Portage Assistant Fire Chief Joe Calhoun. 'There was probably 700 firefighters sitting in the room getting this training and it dawned on them what we were going to be doing, and then it got bad from there.'

Lundy and Calhoun's first task was an eight-hour course on sexual harassment and equal opportunity employment procedures, Rogers reported. Neither firefighter would be involved in technical rescues of trapped people or any of their other specialties.

'We're trained in tactical medicine,' Lundy said. "We weren't being used for that. We were being used to hand out flyers."

Their boss, Portage Fire Chief Tim Sosby, said he was only too happy to loan out his two men, but things they were right to come back home.

"It seemed like an incredible misuse of valuable resources," he said.The two didn't come home right away, Rogers reported. They waited 24 hours, hoping their real skills might be used. Not only did their assignment never change, they were never told to go anywhere.

"We couldn't see ourselves sitting in the hotel while there were people asking for help," Lundy said.

For now, the two firefighters are back home, but said they are still anxious to help."I think both of us would go back in a heartbeat," Lundy said. "Both of us still have our bags packed."

OKCupid! The What Greek God Are You Test

OKCupid! The What Greek God Are You Test

Dionysis Gods! You scored 49!

You are most like the God Dionysis! Dionysis is the god of wine, intoxication and creative ecstacy. In short, a party god! He was often having drunken orgies with both men and women, as well as with helpless maidens his centaurs would carry off for him. he had a large following of women who had fallen into a frenzy or "mania". These women were taken by a madness that compelled them to run around in a craze and often times become violent. Many of these frenzied outbursts had a strong sexual content. Just don't forget while having all this fun that there is more to life than getting off!

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 68% on Godliness

Link: The What Greek God Are You Test written by mellyelf on OkCupid Free Online Dating

AP Wire | 09/06/2005 | Bob Denver, TV's Gilligan, dead at 70

I loved Gilligans Island


Bob Denver, TV's Gilligan, dead at 70

Associated Press

LOS ANGELES - Bob Denver, whose portrayal of goofy first mate Gilligan on the 1960s television show "Gilligan's Island," made him an iconic figure to generations of TV viewers, has died, his agent confirmed Tuesday. He was 70.

Denver, who underwent quadruple heart bypass surgery earlier this year, died at Wake Forest University Baptist Hospital in North Carolina, according to agent Mike Eisenstadt. Denver's death was first reported by "Entertainment Tonight."

Unified Blogs

Well, I was so sick and tired of reposting things from here to there, and not I have a little less work to do. I recently downloaded w.blogger and can now post to my blogger and my livejournal blogs at the same times. All I need now is a way to incorporate myspace into the equation and i'm all set.

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE - HELENA LYRICS

More meaningful lyrics


Long ago
Just like the hearse, you died to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on, just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what’s the worst TO take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like a blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight


[chorus]
What’s the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight


Came a time
When every star falls
Brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what’s the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like a blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight

[chorus]
What’s the worst thing I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me
Are you near me
Can we pretend
To leave and then
We’ll meet again, when both our cars collide

[chorus]
What’s the worst thing I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

well, if you carry out this way
things are better if i stay
so long and goodnight
so long and goodnight

(no subject)

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Songs lyrics that mean something

Over the years I have given newer bands less and less credit due to the overwhelming amount of crap that is out there. There are always exceptions. A few years ago I heard of the band Staind and wasn’t too impressed until I heard a song of theirs called “Fade”. The song perfectly echoed the sentiment I had about my father with its chorus that said;

“I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
You were never there for me to express how I feel
I just stuffed it down
Now I’m older and I feel like I should let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching is the bed that I have made.”

The other night I heard a new song by them, and again have struck a chord on what I am feeling right now, and thought I would share with you all.

“Falling” by Staind

You
In your shell
Are you waiting for someone to rescue you
From yourself
Don't be disappointed when no one comes

Don't blame me you didn't get it
Don't blame me you didn't get it
Don't blame me you didn't get it

I already told you that falling is easy
It's getting back up that becomes the problem
Becomes the problem
If you don't believe you can find a way out
You've become the problem
Become the problem

You
All alone
Are you waiting for someone to make you whole?
Can't you see?
Aren't you tired of this dysfunctional routine?

Don't blame me you didn't get it
Don't blame me you didn't get it
Don't blame me you didn't get it

I already told you that falling is easy
It's getting back up that becomes the problem
Becomes the problem
If you don't believe you can find a way out
You've become the problem
Become the problem

I already told you that falling is easy
It's getting back up that becomes the problem
Becomes the problem
If you don't believe you can find a way out
You've become the problem
Become the problem

Falling is easy
It's getting back up that becomes the problem
Becomes the problem
And if you believe you can find a way out
Then you've solved the problem
You've solved your problem