So, besides the little quiz posts, I haven't said much here since my little self implosion a week ago. So, much can change in a week. I have talked to Greer and realized that my reaction was just based upon my own uneasy feelings. I have years of abandonment issues that I will need years of therapy to get over. I know that, I just forget sometimes. I took the week to put my head back in order. I saw some people outside of the Neo crowd to get some other perspective on my life. Because of that meeting, I got some more freelance work and a little more money in my pocket. Karma goes around. I returned the favors that people had done for me, buying drinks for people and the like. Hell, I even lent somebody I barely know $20. (I was supposed to be repaid on Friday, and funny enough haven't seen them, but I believe in karma. So no worries here) On Friday I had the greatest gift karma could give. I was at the bar talking to Dave Roberts, and I went to dance. A guy asked me what I did for a living, I told him, and he said he could use a guy like me. He said, and I quote, "I can't pay you a lot only 50", I thought to myself, 50K! on what planet is that NOT a lot of money?!? I've gotten my resume to him and he is setting up the interviews. I don't want to be over hopeful, but this seems like it could finally be the break I have been looking for. I would be going back to being tech geek, break / fix stuff, and that is what I am best at. For 50K a year I'd shovel shit with my bare hands, but getting paid well AND doing something I love would be a great change of pace for me. It would be like living back in the late 90's when I was just hitting my peak as a tech.
There are other things I want to say, but however I'm not exactly sure how to say it, and I would like to be sure about these things before opening my mouth and planting my foot in it.
