Well, by beautiful, I do not mean merely appearance(definetly not lust!). Yes I am totally gone over his appearance but Clay is beautiful on the inside and that shines forth on the outside. I would feel so "unclean" next to the qualities he exudes. At his concert, even though he was "scruffy" with that stubble and wearing that hat, he was beautiful. Surely he looks better clean-shaven and without a hat, but he is still beautiful and it transcends his mere appearance. Check out his senior picture here. He may look "nerdy" and not done up, but he is still beautiful. He is so darling!
Maybe I am totally mistaken but I see wholesomeness when I see Clay and that's probally one of the reasons I'm so crushin' on him! Even my lustful attractions for Clay have melted away because of his beauty.
He is happy and not just in a "feel good" way but really happy - he shines!. He is down to Earth, probally the benefit of not having not come from a big city where so many vices and temptations beckon. This is one thing I hope his living in Los Angeles (YUCK!!!) does not diminish. Perhaps, he could live with less than what one from a big city would want (This is a lesson I have learned over the years).
If I can just sit still long enough to think it through, I will probally see that Clay is beautiful because he leans on the one who is the most beautiful person, PERIOD....The Almighty Creator; God. Perhaps, this little crush on Clay can be forged into something good. Already as it is, lusting is almost impossible, perhaps he can be a living picture of what God wants in all of his created beings, that we all would love each other as people, each having our own wonderful gifts and qualities to contribute while we are here. Perhaps, Clay is a reflection of God's glory. Clay Aiken is wonderfully and fearfully made, in love he wan knitted together in his mothers's womb...But you know what? So were we!