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| Fidelity Looks at my long list of men who seek me out and dream... I know they do not see ME as I am, even IF I show them. Thinks of the multitudes of those who have lived their entire life as society and culture dictates who find at this delicate time in their life that all they have bought into, in terms of happiness and hope is ashes...and they are not happy... sold their birthright for a mess of potage. Why me?? because I am different from the women who have loved them long and faithfully at great personal cost for many years, because life has made me else even so I merely survive... because I have lived both sides of infidelity and wanting... knowing far too well what it is and knowing better. Fidelity I trust that someone I love would honour what we both feel....and if they don't - then we both lose. I do not believe one should need to ask for someone to stay faithful to what we agree on; I would expect they would choose as I choose to give honestly of themselves as I too would give. One single passionate flame warm enough to burn forever. I expect fidelity to what we two feel, and I want back what I give. Love - I feel it and walk through it... shared longing, hunger, want..... I wear love...in my eyes, all over my face and I make no effort to hide what I feel; I have no strength any more to hide who I am , from myself or from anyone. Not even you. Like everything else, love is not MUCH without action to back it up. The pain that began my journey into myself and into wholeness made me promise to myself to listen to what people do and not what they say. That is where love will prove itself to me. |
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