When I am 80
I want all my mistakes and errors behind me and I want 40 years of good fulfilled living behind me. I couldn't bear to face any future if I believed the rest of my life would be as painful as my past and my lessons as hard earned. Coming to know you has been a remarkable voyage for me... to be willing to... to find that I even consider it.... something in your tone, your "voice"....
Something... a harmony heard and felt - a fierceness that gathered me and HOLDS me. I know there are NO limits; I do not recognise them... I have searched and waited and longed and hoped and dreamed and yearned and ached for you for as long as I have first drawn breathe.... consciously aware of a place unfilled.... a vaccuum waiting... like the still calm at the eye of a storm..... Something in you, about you draws the broken child that longs to be held... knowing only that a certain touch can still the demons that sing seductively to me of destruction..... as I teeters on the very brink..... swaying tenuously.....
"Electric moments" intensely felt..., every cell tingling, with my entire body feeling like it will burst into flame...... aware of breathing, the rush of blood in my veins... my heart... Feeling life in me , through me, intensely. Alight..... being with you were those moments, each and every one - vibrant, vivid, alive in every sense of the word..... And I sit here now revisiting those moments that made us both forget time, and duty, and anything but each other....
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