| My sadness
coupled with anger was due to some false allegations
leveled against me in the course of the last five
years. Being wounded in my depth of self, it was
not fair for me to continue our Lord's shepherding
gentle work. I was encumbered with unnecessary baggage.
My irritability high, I could blast off like a dynamite
in seconds at hapless persons / situations.
The process,
though very much like what we do in clinical psychology,
gets to the bottom of one's complete negativity
accumulated in the Subconscious part of our mind.
When in western style therapies it's all talk
and more talk, Fr.
Vijay's original method is concentrated self-work.
All sadness, all fears, all anger and
what other non-healed factors have we, have to
be burnt out one by one, event by event, right
from the conception time.
Over all, I worked on my sadness
cum anger for roughly two weeks. Guilt cum fear
and over sensitivity for the rest two.
In this
excellent ambiance, what I enjoyed most was Fr.
Vijay meeting me twice a day. For me it was most
useful "back to back" only talked about
in the west. Fr. Vijay gave total freedom to work
at my own speed and rhythm.
The much
talked about "Golden Silence"
afforded me with the needed time and energy to
be with myself to do the tough work of forgiving
self and forgiving others both ,at my core being
level.
In sum, this inner healing for
me is to burn every speck of the gunpowder of
my
viruses and attain real in-depth peace.
Thank you for everything.
|
