I thank you very much for all that you have been to me during the retreat of my life. I consider the month long retreat I had with you as an intense period of transformation in my life. As you know a great part of it was spend in burning out my various kinds of fears which had been preventing me from living up to my potentials and loving others freely. I feel much lighter now and have grown in confidence. By being with myself in silence for four full weeks, I could delve into the unknown spheres of myself and with your guidance and supportive love could burn out the negative feelings that were inhibiting my growth as a human person. For me the retreat was also an opportunity to learn experientially the working of the subconscious mind with all its subtleties and unpredictable nature. There can be no better example for this than the negative feeling that I experienced from a positive expression of generosity of a sister at breakfast one morning during the last week of the retreat.

Thank you very much and the good Lord for all that he has done for me and very specially for the month of Oct. 00 where he allowed me to look into myself and have the courage and grace to face my own self which I have always tried to avoid but it was following me like my own shadow and was darkening my path. As I wrote to you earlier I really enjoyed my holidays after the retreat. Wherever I went I felt accepted and loved. You won't believe me Father, this time I really cried when I left Agra. It pained me as if I was leaving for the first time and I stayed for nearly a month there whereas I would stay only a week or days and run away. Though the sisters and the situations were the same as the years back, I enjoyed my stay and thank the Lord for the same. Twice or thrice while I was in Bombay I felt very sad but I worked on it and felt much better. I think there isn't much need of saying on the working method for to me it helped me a lot and I found positive this method of working. According to me it depends on each person's view and their seriousness. Life is a precious gift and to enjoy it, one alone is responsible. Today I am convinced of it and I am certain that I will surely enjoy come what may in life for I alone am my best friend, expectation from others destroy our life. I feel that I am called to live up to the expectation of Christ i.e., only to LOVE and once I love myself, I tolerate myself and I will be able to love others too.