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4/30/04 (11:04 PM): Yellowcard
"Twenty Three"
I got to tell you that he waited all his life
For someone like you to come make the wrong things right
I know he didn't have the answers all the time
But you can't tell me that you've never told a lie
We're almost twenty-three and you're still mad at me
So much that I said to you and I want to take it back now
Twenty-three and it's so sad to me
You tell the world I'm dead to you
But I know you want me back now
Was it fun for you to watch him fall apart? (Watch me fall)
And suffocate him while you held him in your arms (in your arms)
I swear to God I wish he never let you in (let you in)
And I just hope we never hear from you again
We're almost twenty-three and you're still mad at me
So much that I said to you and I want to take it back now
Twenty-three and it's so sad to me
you tell the world I'm dead to you
But I know you want me back
Wasted on you (wasted on you)
Wasted on you (so much time I've)
Wasted on you (wasted on you)
Wasted on you
On you
On you
Twenty-three and you're still mad at me
So much that I said to you and I want to take it back now
Twenty-three and it's so sad to me
You tell the world I'm dead to you
But I know you want me back now
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"Miles Apart"
If I could I would do all of this again
Travel back in time with you to where this all began
We could hide inside ourselves and leave the world behind
And make believe there's something left to find
We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
Now we've all grown up, gone on and moved away
Nothing I can do about it, nothing I can say
To bring us back to where we were when life was not this hard (life was not this hard)
Looking back it all just seems so far, so far away
We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up for just one more day
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up for just one more day
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up, give it all away
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
I need you now, we're miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
I need you now, we're miles apart
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
this one hits home the most.
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"Inside Out"
Here. A little sympathy for you to waste on me
I know you're faking it but that's okay
And I don't want to drag it out
Don't want to bring you down
I never wanted it to end this way
Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again
Here. A little jealousy
I hope you think of me
Hope you wonder where I sleep at night
Cause I feel like I'm inside out
You got me upside down
Maybe I was holding on too tight
Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again
So don't just say goodbye to me
Just turn your back away and leave
And if you're lucky I will be your last regret, your only friend
The two of us we dream like one
The two of us, the two of us
The two of use take breath like one
The two of us, the two of us
I guess that this is over now
I guess it's called the falling out
But everyday I'm learning how to make it through this life I'm in
Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again
So don't just say goodbye to me
Just turn your back away and leave
And if you're lucky I will be your last regret, your only friend
i've highlighted the words that hit home or just i dunno mean somethign to me in some way...well the whole songs mean somethign or another but those are really important ones...
~DikDElicious in Yellowcolor~
04/16/04 (2:24 AM): Thoughts
painhurtlossdepressiontearssaddnesscrying
dyingconfusedtormenteddistressedturmoil
lonelyfuckeduplonilnessheartbrokenlostabyss
fallendeadlostfreindshipcaretimeinsomiahurt
painpainpainpainppainpainpainpainpnloss
painpainpainpainpnlosspainpainpainpain
painpainpainpnlosspainpainpainpainpnloss
painpainpainpainpainvictimlove?hurthurthurt
hurthurthurthurthurthurthurthurthurthurt
hurthurthurthurhthurtpainpainpainpainloss
painpainpainpainpnlosspainpainpainpainhurt
theend ofus
DikDelicious wants to know who pissed in my stream of conciousness to fuck me up this bad
04/15/04 (4:18 PM): "i fill cups like double D's"
Asshole
im sorry, i keep forgetting im an asshole...jealous of my very own shadow standing next to you...so now all i ask is a funeral for the part of me that died when i ran you away...celebrate my pain on the 21st of may, the day of my birth and decay.
been a while since i updated this...dang i need to really get back on top of ish heh not like it matters....hmmm so i think imma spend all of summer or most of it in LA...i guess spring break changed a lot of stuff...i jus realized it the other night i was talking wit kim about how imma stay all summer but dont have anythign to take session C or osmething and she all yeah and you love going home so no reason to stay and then it hit me....i dunno if i even wanna come home...i guess spring break had too many negatives...n its changed me alot....changed my relationship wit people a lot...and in the end i guess i jus dont wanan go thorugh what i went through over break again....so fuck it...anyone is more then welcome to visit me but obviousily no one will...cuz no one cares enough about me to get over the 4-6 hours it takes to drive here....heh yeah im bitter a bit:) not really i sitll love my boys hahah n most of em got owrk n crap so its all gravy baby but sometimes guilt works:)
JUne 26th: Electric Daisy Carnival
Tickets: 25 bucks (currentily)
lets go!
Not Myself, but instead DikDelicious
03/29/04 (8:38 PM): people are still people and i still love em...
"close relatives die, freindships dont last..."
-Lyrics born
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Not even mYSELF anymore.
03/15/04 (12:20 am): Analysis
so vincci broke down the drawing on my desktop
she said the heart repersents uncertianty becuase in chinese culture? when one side of the heart is larger than the other it means that (also the face is unsure) the Q behind the word Love looks faded so it means ive faded in love.and the white background means i believe in the purity of love..she's a psych major
Q.B0oty the not so talented artisT
03/08/04 (2:30 am): fat man sucks
i balled it up for first time in months...played 3 games....last game i had to take a fat man...he was so big i could never get around him....plus i was mad tired...damnation! but the other 2 games were saucy....:) goodtimes...
The Postal Service-Such Great Heights
The Offspring-Hit That
J-Kwon-Tipsy
hmmm...i hate women:)----but im loving how no one checks this site no more....i can finally wirte anything HAHAHAH! lovely. i should've stopped updating long ago:-D....hmmm yup yup....
Q.BOoTizzel Indizzel Bizzel!
3/2/04 (1:51 AM): love is pain
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Q.BOoty in LOVE