6/28/03 (4:36 AM): I nominate this for the greatest video ever!
CHristina Aguilera-Dirrty....its jus damn sexy...that skirt is like whoa...even tho she may be fat now she still sexy as fuck in this video n thas why this video is great...so yeah check it out u can dowload it or get the realplayer action on at her site http://www.christinaaguilera.com/ then holla back to me on u're thoughts... n at least she's a bomb ass singer...no matter what she is a better singer then most of these pop fools...that video is much hotter then britney in my opinon n well if u dont think so who gives a fuck you aint great like i am:-D
-Q
6/27/03 (4: 01 AM): A sure shot from a sure shooter.
Damn i had a good shooting day on the courts today...i was on fire from the outside....kncoking everything down even with people in my face! it was great...toobad i had no energy to do anythign else it was 93 deg out n shit when i left the house to ball n i hadnt ate anythign but half an unripe cantolope haha...but still great...so great infact i put bballing as my BOW so check that ish out...anyways my foot is doing a lot better imma take a pic real quick n put thta up so if u care u can check the progress/recovery...gotta go out tomorrow n keep working on my game gotta work on a turnaroudn shot now that i got the square up down pretty nicely...gotta b ready for the frisco ladies (van put a challenge agianst his roommates who are form firsco so yah its BMI vs frisco ladies as i like to call em cuz u gotta hate on the competition)--but yeah i think if i shoot like i did today...van develops a decent range...hieu crashes the boards like a madman...navin turns into mr i will score on u n we get like david or otny at point or somethign we can will own it jus comes down to needing a ball handler....anyways i guess imma go see charliess angels tomorrow since its lil jenn's bday as we speak...she's my homie g-dawg....world wont be right witout lil jenn:-D
peace yall.
-Q
6/24/03 (3: 14 AM): Dislikes
I dislike stupid girls (but not pussy jus girls...they can shut up n jus fuck its all gravy), drugs (but organic ones[exp. shrooms] are less disliked then synthetic ones[XTC]), alchy (yeah its all faggot shit), and some bitchs out there
the stupid girls one is the real biggie at the momment...why else yall think i just wanan go ball every day n sleepthe rest of the day...cuz at the courst there no girl bullish to deal wit....its jus good clean fun chilling wit the boys...thats life....
yeah im still in love with you...but you turned my smile...into a frown
now n forever will i love you
there is no more color in my life
-Q
6/23/03 (5: 42 AM): GAME as breast sizes
Navin-34D in a pushupbra cuz he keeps it all tight in the middle leaving no space for entry...but still showy
Bill Dimes-Perky AA that thinks its a C cup becuase he dont got much but he got more bounce ot the ounce n puts on a good show with what he got---n of course mad heart
Q-34B cuz im not too big n not to small...not too showy but still great too look at...n still fun to play with
pac-man-28B in a wonderbra.....shit looks good but doesnt deliever (we'll get him a sports bra soon)
Mini-Unit-A....gets the job down when needed
Mr. SMiley-34 DD....cuz his game keeps u smiling and its all over the place
-Q
6/23/03 (4: 19 AM): Nessa's Right
Imma agree with her for once n go with this comment she made "Girls suck" :-D so nessa YOU SUCK!
-Q
6/20/03 (5: 35 PM): Foot
Foot
-Q
6/20/03 (4: 06 AM): Friendships?
who really cares for me? who really loves me? I have no answers...can i jus leave all this behind...can i jus leave you behind?
drunk people really annoy me from time to time...like specially girls...they act stuipd as fuck...most guys i meet at least have some handle on themselves...
feet are fucked up badily....gotta fig out a way to dance tonight....
-Q
6/19/03 (1: 28 AM): New Booty of The Week/Song
Cat jus gave me a bday gift...n its a sick ass pillow she made me so its BOW status...check it out...also new song...its a classic. Also some of the return links to the hacquer board keep goign down...aint my fualt i fix em n then after a while they die...its yahooo crap...but i know how to fix fix em but im lazy so ill do it later...so jus use u're back button for now...
-Q
6/18/03 (10: 54 PM): THe Quote!
"A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort" --Herm Albright (who this bitch?)
That is courtesy of Haani my motherfucker or brother....
anywyas i got my DSL hooked up so if im not lazy ill update this n work on the rest of the site....
just been balling everyday from 6-9...fucked up my feet big time...o well...
-Q
6/11/03 (12: 33 AM): SWEET
Imma be home in time to see my cuz graduate...thats some good news...its gonna be such a bitch tomororw finals form 3-9 30 pm...then come back here n gotta pack everything call my uncle n hit the road i suppose....i plan on passing out the whole trip...i wonder whats ognna happen when ma family sees my red hair:-D haha o well...double sweet me thaoie going clubbing next weekend...and my homegirl NAT HO gonna join the fun:-D yeah...first time partying wit that one...she's a freak i can tell;) hahaha but yeah i cant wait...anyone else wanna come just let me know...
-Q
6/10/03 (5: 42 PM): Lost YOU
hold my hand so i know what i feel isnt true...
why do i feel like i've lost you...
worst day ever.
-Q
6/10/03 (3: 46 AM): SHrooms
Q: haha i said u invited to come to Mexico with me n do some shrooms
Dave: ugh sick
D: lol
D: ;-)
Q :-D
Q): haha
Q: one day
D: werd
D: haha
Q: after med-school
D: lol
Q: before i cut open a fools chest
Q: :-D
D: haha
D: all savage
Q: O:-)
-Thats why dave is my motherfucker...love you man!
anyways im on some hateing binge...im taking pleasure being a dick to a certian person n even not caring about having no communcations wit other ones...ideally im hoping to go home n not have them all up in my face for a minute or so...best part is they probably dont even care so its a win win situation right? coOL! anyways got a LS1 final tomororw...i really feel like listening to music so thats why im not in bed right now...also been having a mad craving for shrooms even tho i dont do drugs....but o well what if i did...it jus make me act more stupider n shit haha...im basically a sober pothead already...eyes always red...always jus sitting around doing nothing...hanging wit potheads...its ludacris i tell u ludacris! whatever works tho...highily doubt i do it...jus cuz i really dont have no reason to...but it wouldn't be half bad to get a fucked up view on reality...cuz reality gots a fucked up view on me...n none of u people have a right ot look down at me or anything cuz u succumb to drugs (yes i consider alcohol a drug so quit crying bitch) a lot easier then i do...most of u got no reasons besides the fact u want to fit in n feel accepted or cuz u are so pathetic u cant stop caring about every lil minute detail of what peopel think of u n jus be happy wit your self n in all honestily dont deserve happiness cuz u cant find happiness in u'reself...anyone that knows me n really knows me know i say wahat i mean n i wouldnt just do drugs to fit in n be cool or be accepted...its diff...its personal..its none of your damn business so dont ask...but in the end its liek 99% still i wont do it cuz i see no real reason to yet but jus the craving/urge/reasoning to do it is stronger then before..its a complicated life...complicated world..n im acomplicated man...no im not a man...im a child...but im in grips with the fact thta im a child...."will u see im just as insecure as everybody else?" hmm this line gets me thinking always (its from the song thta i have up in musical relaxation)...i think i probably am but then i realize i probably aint...im too strong for petty crap like that...i mean sure i got insecurities but usually i still go through wit whatever iw anan do n jus be like o well people probably gonan b think htis way but this is wat iw anna do...i guess thats the difference between me n most of yall...(n they say im not mature....n thye are right....i just aint a complete moron....)...i mean isnt it logical to do what u want since u know whats best for yourself...so why even care what others say do or think.....not meaning to completely ignore input form family freinds n all that ish but honestily in the end its u who has to live wit it right? not them...so quit crying quit worrying n jus do it...quit pretenidng to quit drinking/smoking/dropping unless u really gonna do it...quit bitching about failing unless ur eally gonan study....quit stressing unless u like heart-attackes/ulcers/and all that ish...what the fuck does stressing get u honestily? tell me...there is no reason to do it....u know if u deserve a good grade...so i mean u shouldn't even stress...u know if u put in a C=worth effort or better....or worse...so thats u're stanard...watever u put in...now u can study cram real hard n get a nice grade n its like bam u higher then u're standard n u're a G....but sitll u have to be content in the beginning wit u're standard becuase fuck thats all u fucking deserve....so please SHUT THE FUCK UP and take your damn grade n realize thats what u get for what u did...let see what else i should unload....how about I HATE YOU!....i dont even know if thats directed at anyone but it helps to jus release some hate on the world...specially when u dont feel much love or caring back from it....see i feel better just typing/saying it:-D say it wit me.hell ill help u out...say this " FUCK YOU Q, YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU TALKING ABOUT YOU"RE JUST A STUPID INDIAN MOTHERFUCKER SO SUCK MY COCK/PUSSY N FUCK OFF U LIL BITCH ACTING LIKE YO DEPRESSED AND SAD N HURT AND ALL THAT SHIT YOU DONT KNOW WHAT TRUE PAIN IS! MY DADDY WOULDNT FUCKING BUY ME A BMW INSTEAD I HAD TO SETTLE FOR A 2002 ACCORD SO FUCK YOU! THATS REAL PAIN...." (hahahahah) yeah im just trying to help u release some of your stress motherfucker...i recommend you copy that down on a card n carry it in your purse right next to your bottles with your multiple medications or your wallets next to the cards of all your doctors....i used to wonder why i dont get sick often....n u know what it is in my opinion...cuz i dont stress that much...i jus chill...my body doesnt stress...my immune system chills...n all is well...YOU KNOW WHO I MISS?! MY BRO! thats a chill as motherfucker...he's like one of the coolest fools i know...my cuz is hella sick to...i member when it used to be just us 3...doing everything together...going great america everyother weekend over the summer...i dont even go on fuckign rides n that was some of the best time i ever had in my life...sigh miss that ish...all good tho...now my life is full of my friends.....my cuz ma bro n i am too bizzy for one another...we still do shit now nt hen...n we still motherfuckers down for watever....but we all is bizzy...im mad cuz imma miss my cuz graduation on thursdya...imma be here in LA....i really wish i could go to his...he was at mine...but yeah...o well...
-Q
PS: if you got any beef with what i wrote or have previousily written please hate on me in my guestbook let all see your beef...or if its really somethign u dontw ant everyone to see (maybe cuz it exposes you for the bitch you are) then email/message me...n we can get our chat on!
6/09/03 (4: 38 PM): Results
well i think the test went well...also i realize i really really need glasses...like the professor posted some changes on the board n i couldnt see em so i moved up front n she told me sit on the side so i sit there n i could only see one change...so im like alrite...then i spend 45 min trygin to read the other two...o well when i turend it in i saw what it said n it wasnt nothing essential...or it wouldn't have helped me anyways;) anyways so im just wastiing time...everyone is sad cuz 1.6 is down n that is our mad wasting time social thing to do haha...but all good..jus waiting to eat at 5 really starving..then gotta start studying for LS1 final tomorrow...
-Q
I want to call her but why am i afraid to talk to her.
6/09/03 (9: 56 AM): The Clock Keeps Ticking
Chem Final in an hour and a half....NMRs? The hell?! :-D
-Q
6/08/03 (3: 38 AM): BLah!
I've been studying for hella hours now...i think im about ready to chill/go sleep...but whatever jus thought i jot couple words down before i leave...doesnt it suck when u miss someone a lot but think it better if u dont talk to them? Im kinda feeling like that...like its better to be cold to that person so u miss them less...i dunno its complicated...hmm nother thing jus running across my mind...i dunno why but for some reason people tell me like "yo im not gonna do this or that anymore.." n of course i never believe them n well they never let me down...i always see them doing what they said they wouldn't do again (this usually ties in with drinking/abusing drugs)...i really dont know why im thinking about this or maybe i do i dunno...its jus thoughts through my mind...hmm what else...for somereason im opting to take a later ride home after finals are done...its werid usually i try to get home as quick as possible but this time i kinda wish i was staying in LA...all in all life is more relaxed here i think...i dont get into fights with any of my freinds really...like i always end up hurting or aruging with vanessa....but this last quarter n shit its been pretty easy...these past couple weeks we havnt even talked...i dunno i guess she's bizzy studying for finals? i think i pissed her off last time we talked to...hating on some stupid band she likes...o well whatever thats jus me...i've become very rude n mean...i dunno where did the Nice Qumber go...i used to be a nice motherfucker...holding doors for girls...quite...respectful...if u dont believe me ask dave...he only one who like really knew me back then...but now i know im being a dick n i jus keep at it...i dunno why...like with kim i make fun of her/pick on her a lot...i mean im nice ot her n careing wit her to...but i dont know why i pick on her so much...i used to do same to nessa....i dunno n like i openinly contest people when they go why cant be be nicer...i actually defend my right ot be a dick sometimes...wats going on with me lately...parts of me are becoming very cold to my former freinds....i mean not becoming cold but thinking like jus fuck it n staying out here in LA n doing my own thang...but i always wanan go back n see my boys...i dont wanan cut them out...cuz they my motherfuckers...never have any problems with them or anything its always chill n shit...so i guess the real problems is the girls...so many damn confusing stupid girls....what can i do my best friend is a girl! (i love her to death...no one in the world is better then her in any situation for me...) sigh i can live wit it no problem...but yeah whatever....jus thoughts in the end...n other people are stupid to...im really starting to hate pity cases...people that always put themselves down n i dunno if they do it purposely or not but bascially its like they put them solves down n u expected to tell them otherwise...but im like fuck it...u put u're self down i jus go wit it...u go something like " sigh im pathetic dont talk to me" i go alrite then peace......u say dont talk n thats what imma do no reasont o waste my time trying to convince u that it hink u worht something...i've tried enough with everyone...so now work on u'reself then if u change come back to me...im changing/have changed...u dont have to like me now....like the shit goes "hate me now...but i wont stop now"...yeah its just some mad ish...hmm i got a headahce...my right arm aches cuz i've been studyign for LS1 n i didnt go class so i was looking online for the notes...n my arm been up on my desk using my mouse so long it start hurting...cuz my desk is a tad too high for me...o well what u gonan do...I really wanan go see FINDING NEMO...if anyone hasnt seen it lets go when i get back home (which wont be till like the week after finals week sometime depending on my ride situation n shit) but yeah i really would like to see that...as this year is coming ot an end im reallyl looking forward to next year....this year i've been pretty much the sober pothead...like D n phil n our other boys smoke out here n jus chill in room so i end up chilling playing CS or chess n shit...its sad....next year imma get out more...gonna chill wit my homegirl CC n Kim n Nat n my motherfuckers more...party n shit...if things go right...people might start actually missing me...instead of it always being me missing them....i guess when all u're friends practially sit around all day hcilling u do the same n then u sit on line cuz what else is there to do in a dorm room n u notice how logn it been since u talked to someone...this summer im not even planning to spend extra time with anyone...imma jus be as content to chill wit my boys n no one else...even people that i used to always try to make time for...n specially people that havn't made time for me...anyways one love n peace to the world...
-Q
PS: I cant wait till CC's party;) in august...10-15 bucks at the door...500+ people...real venue...speakers...dj's...now thats a party..lets go to SAC TOWN motherfuckers!
Finals:
Monday -Chem 14 C
Tuesday- Life Science 1
Wensday- French 3
Calculus 3C
Thursday- Wanna get crunked :-D?
Friday- Moving out
6/08/03: (1: 34 AM): The Return!
Well like about an hour or so ago me phil D n russel went to marks party...before we going D brought change to see if the salsalitas were back n they were so we get em...n he gets lucky n gets 2 for 1...so eventually we buy 4...then he comes out yo get more change cuz another bag is danginling so u canget 2 for 1 so i run upstaris n get 75 cents n i do it n it tries to jack me by getting stuck so i punch the machine n i get 3 for 1 n we cleaned out all the salsalitas again:-D but damn they is bomb...if udont know what salsalitas are check my Booty of the week page above...alrite back to studying....
-Q
6/07/03 ( 12: 22 PM): I'll give you love
I'll give you love...I'll give you love...anything you want...girl i'll give it to you.
-Q
6/06/03 (4: 49 PM): IM DONE
Sweet i just had my last french lecture and last calc lecture im done with that shit for the rest of my life (well so far as i know it...) yeah thats sick...but i still got 4 finals in 3 days to look forward to...o well all gravy...is anyone gonna b here in LA next weekend im bored n need somethign to do during the weekend...o well i can jus sleep n watch TV all day...hmmm yeah nohting much going on jus about to head out n stuyd for chem...i busted the pink shirt today i love that shirt....its hella sick imma try to get a pic of it wit me wearing it...also Vincci busted this hella sick ass shirt wensday...imma get a pic of that to hopefully...
"So tell me what i need to do to prove i need your love?
Wat will it take becuase i wont give up..."
i was jus listening to one of my fav. tracks 3t-I will do anything for you and this line really got me thinking..."i wont give up" i used to feel like that but now i dunno anymore...i've tried hard to "prove" myself n in my eyes i've done all i can...n well its not enough n if its not enough now how can it be enough later? i guess i jus starting to move on finally...n thats a good thing but its making me somewhat sad...cuz i know deep down inside she was the one for me...i would do anything for her...but now im jus lost n confused...cuz i dunno what to do next....i dont even show any remote interest in most other girls...n i dont even know what to do to go about it....i dunno yeah jus werid thoughts running through my head...it feel good to get away from everyone for a while but at the same time i wanan go home n be with everyone also...i am one confused motherfucker...since this track gots me thinking so much imma put it down in the musical relaxation section...hmmm yeah
PS: i cant sing but for some reason i always try to sing this song haha
-Q
6/05/03 (12: 40 AM): THe Ho!
Nat Ho is so cool! if you dont believe so just read my info!:-D san jose girls are the best!!!! too bad we didnt get any chance to chill really next year we gotta tear it up n this summer to we gotta chill...
-Q
PS: Can i get a shout out to Zara my french Teacher cuz she all yah everyoen come over to my house tuesday n we can review for final n have a mini potluck party...thats a G ass teacher yo. PLUs she's jus plain cool.
Example of her coolness:
N a T : come on it....jump on it.....ride it....Q's pony.....
Q: hehe u're so naughty;-)
N a T : no duh, i gotta get this pent up sexual frustration out somehow.
N a T: if i can't act, ill just talk.
N a T : and touch myself.
N a T : and watch porn.
6/05/03 (12: 31 AM): Addicted (TO YOU)
Simple Plan
Addicted
I heard you're doing okay
But I want you to know
I'm a dick
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy but you left anyway
I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
BUt I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
I'm still a dick
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway
How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
6/04/03 (12: 56 AM): Just words
Unappreciated-1:Not recognized, as in quality or worth 2: Having value that is not acknowledged
Fool-1: a person lacking in judgement or prudance 3b: one with a marked propensity or fondness for something or SOMEONE (Q-Edit)
I am the UNAPPRECIATED FOOL, and you are, no, WERE my flawless angel.
Maybe I Will Run Into You Again (this is somethign i wrote long time ago...jus felt like revisiting it right now)
maybe i will run into you again sometime down the road...but for now i leave...leave you unsatisfied and uncontent wit how we did not see...in your eyes we are the same...in mine we are no more...i am me and you are you...maybe i will run into your again sometime down the road...n we will be we again...maybe i will run into you again sometime down the road...n pass one another as two never to be we once more
jus feel like im at a writers impass....these emotions n thoughts locked in my mind n heart do not wish to be transformed into the written artform for everyone to read...they wish to remain in the synapes of my mind in jumbled masses...who am i to force them from their comfertable homes? who am i to expose them to this cruel world? who am i but an unappreciated fool...
-Q
6/02/03 (11: 13 PM): WHoa getting all fancy
I ADDED A SOUND CLIP TO THE BMI PAGE! WooT! haha I guess as u get bored u try to expand your areas of expertise...and im finding im not an exterpt in any area haha all good...but yeah u can give me feed back on the addition of the sound clip on my guest book...i dunno its from a song i really like and a song that really means something to me...actually the song is in musical relaxation now;) so check it out sometime.
6/01/03 (10: 53 PM): New page
BANNERS! Yah so a very skilled cutie girl made me a banner and a background...we'll call her Red_DUCki for now;) But yeah they are sick i put them onto a seperate banners page cuz i dont have no place to put it yet...i mean you're already here n there's a big ass "THE Q-TRIX" right in your face so no point putting it here...imam probably go n put it on any other pages i create n link to this...they are nicely done...i dont own photo shop so i use this other ghetto program that came with my webcam...it serves it purpose..i made the background with it...n yah i left it just wit hte Q over it cuz i watned to be ghetto like that...i dunno somethign about it appealed to me...anyways so i probably wont apply the background she made until i get tired of the ghetto look...i wanan remember that i dont know what im doing:-D haha So yeah you guys if you wanan drop some banners bring it...imma make my normal ghetto ones cuz im not trying to front that im skilled with making websites n shit...i dont knwo what im doing remember that shit...so i'd appreciate it if skilled peeps make me banners n ill show off your work on my site...also if u got any artwork or anything that you wanna show your talents with...i wanan help show case everyones truth...i lack talent so ill bring others to the QTrix
ANyways i saw Reloaded it was cool...really helps that i saw Amnimatrix before seeing it...it was cool some parts were stupid like the sex scene....but that did look like a bomb ass party...
Kevin le messaged me wit some "rafting trip" that alerie is putting together...so the invite is out to the MOB so i gues spretty mcuh we gotta take over this plannign n make it a Booty Event...like we do:-D...but yeah talk to him or alerie...
-Q
6/01/03 (5: 04 PM): New BOW
There is a new booty of the week..check it...also added a page so you guys can refer back to older BOW(Booty of the week)...hmm i showered n the dye washed out fromt he tips again..its gay...but it looks alrite cuz at least he rest of the hair is really red (not pinkish like before) n now it gots dark stripes going through the top...its decent...but yeah all good...ironically imma go see MAtrix Reloaded for the first time tonight...jus didnt have chance to when it came out cuz i had midterms and then everyone had alreayd seen it...but me n mai-lan going tonight...maybe shelb also...but now i gotta go work on this crazy ass french oral final dealie...n buy some more salsitas (BOW)!!! they are bombdizzlits...
-Q
6/01/03 (2: 24 PM): My Motherfucker
Marius: "heh your website is pretty sikk"
Thats what im talking about fool...im feeling the appreciatoin im getting..dozens of fools be showing me love...but start posting some shit in my lonely guestbook so everyone else can see how great i am...n so they can read your praise of me n help them think of some praise of their own:-D
-Q
6/01/03 (6: 00 AM): New Song
Jus changed the musical relaxation song...like i've been feeling that BEP track since thursday (when i saw them live) but i jus put this musical thign up today...so i feel bad that the BEP song is getting jipped...but yeah im feeling this new track now...i put a link to where u can check the video out....its a pretty sweet video...so you guys should really look into that...hmm AD is passed out on phil's bed....Dimitri just left...so i guess imma head to bed to...
Minor updates: I fixed it so the links are easier to make out they all are in BLUE....so i hope that makes it a lot easier for everyoen to see the links...
-Q
6/1/03 (1: 08 AM): Banner
Yo if anyone is skilled with websites/htmL/photoshop n all that ish...wanna create me a banner for this site? Hmmm best design will win a cookie:-D just contact me and we'll work out the details...also maybe a cool "signature" or something for me...i dunno whatever any idea's are welcomed.
Happy Bday to my motherfucker Marius
Happy Bday to Furby (yeah it was 5/31st but i jus updating this now...i didnt forget it...)
-Q