9/21/03 (4:56 AM): he had so much potential...what a waste
why do i have a feeling that im going to waste my life away in love...waste it away in love with ____________________(name)...
reminds me of a quote :
"hell is not a place you go to if you're not a christian, but the failure of your life's greatest ambition..."
im in hell?
Q.Booty
PS: i owe yall a big juicy post...maybe tomorrow?
9/17/03 (7:25 AM): howdy
well its been a while since i updated...yeah the piano thign didnt go thorugh i guess i really knew it wasnt gonna o well...thats what i get for not handling it myself but instead depending on someone else with it....hmmm anyways i finally got a way south...imma be heading htere this saturday night...i went from being one of hte first to leave to being the last...o well i dont really care...i wish i could get there a bit earlier but cant so gotta deal with it...hmm last 2 days i jus done lot of supply shopping...it was good seeing everyone last weekend n saying my byes...too bad nessa couldn't make anyof those n way things are working out i probably wont be able to go spend time wit her before i leave...we were gonna go today but she got bizzy with some other stuff so we couldnt go to the mall tonight...but anna said she wants to go get a drink or ice cream tonight so let see if she comes through...n lil jenn wants to go catch a movie tomorrow aroudn 1ish...which is cool cuz now i gotta work at the stadium one last time before i leave but i shoudl have a good amount of cash...and also my loans n grants went through so its good stuff...today i found out scarface is being re-released in the theaters for 7 days i wanan see it...i might ask a certian someone to go with me back in LA cuz nessa saying we can go mall friday night so that means no movies which is all good i really wanan spend at least a couple hours wit her before i leave...really havnt chilled wit her for over a week....but we both have been bizzy with stuff...i've been waking up early as of late...like 10 past couple days so i guess my sleeping habit is getting fixed....ahh i dont really feel like typing anymore this is a sorry post:-D hehe peace
Q.Booty
PS: i got pulled over 2 days ago...it was total bS ask me about it!
also i hate waiting on people...flakes! heh
9/13/03 (5:58 AM): Story
"I was happy. My girlfriend and I had been dating for over a year, and so we decided to get married. My parents helped us in every way, my friends encouraged me, and my girlfriend? She was a dream! There was only one thing bothering me, very much indeed, and that one thing was her younger sister.My prospective sister-in-law was twenty years old, wore tight mini skirts and low cut blouses. She would regularly bend down when quite near me and I got many a pleasant view of her underwear.
It had to be deliberate. She never did it when she was near anyone else. One day little sister called and asked me to come over to check the wedding invitations. She was alone when I arrived. She whispered to me that soon I was to be married,
and she had feelings and desires for me that she couldn't overcome and didn't really want to overcome. She told me that she wanted to make love to me just once before I got married and committed my life to her sister. I was in total shock and couldn't say a word. She said, "I'm going upstairs to my bedroom, and if you want to go ahead with it just come up and get me." I was stunned. I was frozen in shock as I watched her go up the stairs. When she reached the top she pulled down her panties and threw them down the stairs at me. I stood there for a moment, then turned and went straight to the front door. I opened the door and stepped out of the house.I walked straight towards my car. My future father-in-law was standing outside.
With tears in his eyes he hugged me and said, "We are very happy that you have passed our little test. We couldn't ask for better man for our daughter. Welcome to the family."
The moral of this story: Always keep your condoms in your car." :-D
Q.Booty
09/11/03 (6:25 AM): A Good Book
damn a good book is hard to put down...got out of bed to get a bite to eat..started reading n now 3 hours later(6: 25) i finished "the winter of our discontent"...its a good book i recommend it...kinda slow to get going for me cuz well its summer...but once it got going especially at the end i jus had to know what was going ot happen...well i had to know if my suspicions were correct of what was going to happen...
(4:15 AM): Random
well im up late again..i actually went to bed at like 2 n read till 2 40ish n was gonan go sleep but i couldnt...i was really really hungry...i guess cuz i only eat one meal a day so i jus ate a lot of toast n stuff heh n milk so im pretty stuff...yeah i went to bed early cuz if nessa's dad aint home tomorrow she gonna give me a few pinao lessons...heh yeah its sad one lesson out of the whoel summer but all good...hopefully next summer i'll get some decetn learning done...anyways i dunno jus felt like posting...dang i gotta love my roommate SHelby...everytime i post on this site and its something ..anything that seems semi-sad he on my case the next day asking me if anythings wrong...thats some care heh...but i guess in time he'll learn that i think a lot about everything n alot of time im not sad nor depressed even tho i might have some thoughts or feelings that may make it seem that way...im sure by the end of the year he will be able to tell when im truely sad n when im jus thinking...at least he better cuz he gonna b my roomie for the years to come heh...hmm...im kinda scurd about the piano ish tomorrow heh...imma do so horrible o well it's first time so what can i expect...but should be cool chilling wit nessa tomorrow cuz i guess we might go mall n exchange my jeans also n get some lunch...yeah im leaving sooner then i thought so i wanna get some chill time in wit her before i go...anyways....man girls are suck...heh...especially when u think u are developing some sort of feelings for one of them...thats when they suck the most cuz everything is confusing:-D haha o well shit happens...hopefully its good shit this time? ;) i guess i gotta go see the doctor in LA...(promised nessa) but im sure nothings wrong wit me...jus some weirdness heh it'll be fine but thanx for caring ness heh....yeah im jus randomily jumping around in this post i guess i dont got any direction like i've had int he past few but i jus felt like posting...there been some exciting things that have happened in the past 2 days but they are well secert...n not by me but by my mother heh so sorry guys cant share...well im offically in debt guys..i accepted my loans today 5,700 worth...but its kinda exciting cuz now im going to actually have money in LA...i mean i had money but not much spending money...cuz i handt taken any loans last year so i was jus breaking evenn u know? I mean LA's a great city if u got spending money heh cuz shits so expensive out there well its cheap to but it all costs money right? so i should have some spending moey this time around n thats gonna b great...heh gonna hit up some strip clubs...i hope van makes it down during fall quarter me n him n tai n stuff can go hit up a strip club on "the strip" (sunset blvd)...that be sick....hella great going to a strip club wit u're boys u know how we do:-D...its gonna be nice to be alone again in some ways...very nice...but i'll sure miss my homies n my bestfreind...heh she really made me feel like she's gonna miss me to today...cuz i told her when i might be leaving (like i said sooner then i expected) and her response really made me feel like she gonna miss me...heh i dunno i guess i never got that vibe from her before...like i know she gonna miss me n suff but i guess its nice to be reassured that she will...always good to know someone misses yah u know? heh its actually been like a double pleasure tonight cuz she basically "pretty pleased" me into going to see a doc about a lil boo-boo i've been feeling as of late...heh i dont think its a big deal but i guess if it con't ill go in LA cuz i dont got time to go now...cuz if i go now for them to check if anythings wrong they gonna have to run a xray basically n that gonna take time n money...im not insured but i got the UCLA insurance so hopefully that might cover something? i jus hope the ish disappears :-D damn i gotta start doing some dorm shopping i guess u know buying supplies n ish...gotta pack sometime soon but i still got couple days to do that...kinda wished i had a car that way i could go down a lil later...send my stuff down earlier n then go down a few days later....that be nice...have a few carefree days here n then leave but i guess not heh...i guess ill say my final goodbyes to most people at cat's party n then my final goodbyes to the BMI at the poker game n my final goodbye to nessa on tuesday etc etc heh last year was real nice how heads came to my house the ngiht i was leaving n bascially wouldn't leave until i did...but i dont think thats necesssary this year u know? i dont need to see everyone the last night...so im not tripping at all...to any motherfuckers that i wont see i can always text yall;) heh yea texting is great...man its like me n nessa text one another more then talk on the phone (seeing how i dont talk on the phone nor text anyone i guess its not that much of anything) but yeah i wish my AIM worked so i can send texts using AIM...im thinking it might be cuz i use AIM+? i dunno...but o well i can go on att.com n send free texts from there to...hmm damn some shit...Fry's calls me this morning asking me if i can work n crap...im all sorry imma be going to school in LA..n they all oo alrite goodbye...dammit i needed that job over the summer not now heh...o well that reminds me i need to start looking into jobs in LA...cuz i would like to pay back my loans during school that way they wont collect interest:-D heh wrd..
well it is 9/11....how many of our AMerican lives have truely changed? i dunno...im tired of seeing a lot of 9/11 propoganda but at the same time i know what happend is somethign really horrible n tragic...but it jus disgusting how america thinks 9/11 justifies every thing they are doing nowadays...you think we be at war anywhere if it wasnt for 9/11? At least open warefare i mean...america is always doing warlike acts everywhere under cover but its rare we jump into open war combat cuz every president knows public support doesnt last in war...but now bush gots 9/11...i heard bush gots re-election ads saying "remember 9/11"...wat the fuck did he exactily do that he is using 9/11 as a slogan? honestily...any president would've reacted/handle the situation the same...hell porbably better...i bet he's happy 9/11 happend cuz that is his excuse for everything n it will get him re-elected probably i dunno its a whole lot of bS...American gov't is huge ass terrorist organization in it self...i mean we set off bombs on our enemies jus like they do to us...innocent people are murdered by america's actions etc etc...we are a terrorist organization...u attain as much power as AMerica has witout terrorist acts...jus a bunch of hypocritical buerucratic mumbo-jumbo poppycock! o well...GOD BLESS AMERICA.
Q.Booty
PS: Feel free to tell me im a bad american for my views...at least im a better american then most cuz i have views...damn sheep.
09/08/03 (6:43 PM): Quotes...
well did more reading at leguna seca...it was alrite there...did a lot of firsts....saw my first le mans race, saw my first private owned skyline actually being driven, saw my first Saleen s7, ahh bought my first drink at starbcuks (tea)....anyways here are some quotes
"All men are moral. Only their neighbors are not." pg 164
"You know most peopel live 90% in the past..." pg 166
"A man is a lonely thing." pg 171
"to most of hte world success is never bad. I remember how, when Hitler moved unchecked and triumphant, many honorable men sought and found virtues in him...Strenght and success--they are above morality, above criticism. It seems, then, that it is not what you do, but how you do it and what you call it."
pg 187
i went to bed at 11 pm last night n didnt get out of bed till 6pm today heh...i did wake up 9 am n then fell asleep again till like 2-3 pm...but didnt get out of bed till 6...i guess jus making up for the lack of sleep of this weekend...i think ig ot liek 8-10 hours over this weekend (friday-sunday)...kinda sorry i guess killed the day...hmm tomorrow goign clubbing finally wit thao n diep heh...been planning it all summer...so gonan get tha goal accomplished...there a few things i didnt get done this summer...but the one that really sucked was not being able to learn how to play the piano...i really wanted to get that done but i guess jus didnt get the oppourtunity to...all good tho...aint meant ot be for me i guess im musically inept n its gonna stay that way...
Q.Booty
09/07/03 (4:24 AM): Miss it...
I know i dont wish to be sick but damn do i miss those good ol days when u did get sick n all u do is climb into bed n u're mommy stay up all night with you putting a hot rag on u're forehead n then she make u chicken soup (nothing like homecooked chicken soup when u sick) and u jus at home sick but u're all wrapped up in a blanket n u're mom is there....i mean i havn't really been sick in a long time....i got a lil blah this past school year but basically i jus slept it out in 2 days...wasnt really sick but jus "blah"...n i did a lot a lot of sleeping...but no one was there to take care of me n even if someone was there thye wouldnt have been mommy u know? i dunno its weird im watching trainspotting n its the scene where the guys parents lock him into his room...tuck him in first u know n basically lock him in so he can overcome his herion addiction cuz he lied to them n went n ODed on it...so yeah but the part his dad carry him in n put him int he bed n they undress him n his mom tucks him in jus reminded me of it...yeah
on a lighter note...i dunno if everyone has this but like isnt there always a girl (like a freind) that u dont really think u guys would be a good couple but u always jus wanna mess around wit her...i dunno is that werid...that every time she shows up u jus get this urge to be all over her haha...i guess its kinda bad...especially if she is wit someone but what can i say...haha...o well i've known her for years n we are good friends so its all good...n for all u ITS NOT NESSA cuz i know thats what yall thinking...geez imagine me wanting to be all over my lil sister thats what it really would feel like haha...but yeah i dunno...whatever as long as me n that girl remain friends n we are flirting buddies it seems...n her boyfriend he seems cool about it even tho i dont see him that much but yeah he dont seem to trip...okay jus felt like sharing...it seems like i've gotten back into the regular posting habit n also im actually feeding u guys some intesting stuff haha...
Nother note...hmm it seems like i've stopped taking to some people (maybe more like they stopped talking to me n me not minding)...its werid like how wit some people u get really close wit them n its not even like u done anythign different jus i guess the situation that both of u are makes what u do seem more "special" so then they get closer to u but as that situation changes...u are still u'reself n doing the same things but the stuff u do jus seems common place or whatever n they jus fade away form u but u dont care cuz u really werent getting close to them they ere getting close to u....its like u notice it jus cuz they were close to u in at lest some way n now they arent but u dont try to change it...n this is happening wit someone...for some reason i even was thinking about removing them from my buddy list which is werid haha...its basically thats the ultimate state of not wanting to talk to someone anymore...cuz u cant help but see them at a party or gathering thats jus gonna happen...n not like i really like to talk on the phone so i rarely call anyone so that aint nothing but the AIM is where most of everyone do their talking n communicating so if u remove them from that bam cold X cut off u know? i already did that wit one person cuz well i guess thats what she wanted n im like i dont fuck around n try to save bS freindships...so i jus said fuck it u dont wanan talk then lets end it...n that basically was clear neither side wanted to talk well my side didnt care but she forced my hand basically n i guess in the moment of passion the sN was deleted haha....now this one i now we still freinds so thats why i found it weird i was thinking about deleting her sN....o well haha i know i wont i mean i got people's sNs that we aint freinds no more or we dont even talk at all unless we see one another face to face....n then its jus like yo wassup or small talk nothing like u know haha...
Coming up:
Clubbing wit Sexy Diep n Bootyful Thao
Final Poker Night of the summer (20 dollar buy in)
Watchin Where the Party At Yaar wit navin
Leaving
time to get back to trainspotting
Q.Booty
09/05/03 (7:25 PM):Quotes
well i jus got home from leguna...it was some ish...no one was there i made 60 bucks all day...but there were cool ass rides...got a sick Mazdaspeed Protege poster....n saw a saleen s7 (on a flatbed towtruck)....hella nice ass cars all around...but i did a lot of reading (The winter of our discontent by john stienbeck) n as i was reading i found a lot of quotes that i liked or related to or stood out ot me so here they are:
"And I remember thinking what a hell of a man a man could become." pg 65
"Sometimes I wish I knew the nature of night thoughts. They're close kin to dreams. Sometimes I can direct them, and other times they take their head and come rushing over me like strong, unmanaged horses." pg 89
"To be alive at all is to have scars." pg 92
"No one wants advice----only corroboration." pg 93
yeah im really enjoying the book but jus i dunno mayeb it was the lack of sleep (actually no sleep) so i read cuz i was bored but i had to keep taking breaks n walking around n throwing rocks but i got liek 60-70 pages in...not bad
i also found this like round tin plate thing for penzoil...it says "penzoil: SAFE LUBERCATOIN" i should've bought it 14 bucks i was gonna go back to buy it but tai all wait for me ill go wit u but then tuan all get in the van lets go so yeah...hopefully its there on sunday....
Q.Booty
(5:55 AM): Quote [of myself]
i was bored so jus reading some old posts (form MAY) and i foudn this "THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE....but who cares?"...jus seemed like a funny thing for me to say espeically wit the post topic...but yeah i sitll believe that holds true...too few people wanna see reality...
(2:04 AM): Day by day...
Each day feels worse then the previous...at least it feels better then the next...i thought i was past all this...guess it'll end the day i end. can one help what he feels...should he even fight what he feels? in all honesty all thats left is to run...run away...
New Found Glory-The Story So Far
"To this day I never found someone,
With eyes as wide as yours,
I've been searching up and down this coast,
Overlooking what I need the most"
Q.Booty
09/04/03 (3:04 AM): Just one of them nights...
Its wrong to feel it but cant be helped...sometimes u jus wish or think at least that u dont wanna talk/see a person not becuae of anything they've done to u but more so becuase of what u feel of them...they can be u're worst enemy or closest homeboy...but sometimes the feeling jsu arises...where u dont wanna deal wit em cuz of how they make u feel...even if that feeling isnt really bad...i guess its more so if that feeling is improper for the situation u're in...or jus not understood? i dunno its a complicated feeling...i dunno if anyone else feels this form time to time...but i jus do...n the feeling was strong tonight...makes u almost want things to be different...makes u scared of the way things will be...makes u want a lot of thing...but in the end u do nothing cuz u know there is no real problem....and everything is fine:-D so what can u do but wait it out...anyways looks like ill be out of here on the __ th or __th...im kinda feeling like making a quite exit...almost slipping out unnoticed...dunno i guess the feeling of this being "the last summer" is really hitting me strong...n i jus dont wanna say bye to certian people...i was talking to Nessa earlier and telling her how im kinda fearing the future...i have to take on a lot of responsibility this coming year...and she told me not to think about the "what ifs" which is good advice...i really agree wit her...we should jus live our life n not think about the wat if's so much...but when u're accepting new responsibility into u're life u have to consider the wat ifs...u have to consider all the opitions available to u before u can stop worrying...so i dunno i guess im entering that stage...n it made me think how much less hassel it would be if i went to Berk (yuck) or Davis (almost ended up there)....not that i regret going to UCLA...hell im one of the few people that ended up going where they originally wanted to go...(even tho i had no real decision on going anywhere till it came time to decide)...i guess i jus thinking on what would've been the more responsible or adult corse of action...n that might've been staying closer to home...to take care of certian things and being able to stay in touch wit certian people better...or maybe its my selfish side that wants life to be easier...to want those home cooked meals...want those close freinds there always...n doesnt want to look at the reality of life out in LA....but either way i know what i have picked and what i need to do...i guess thats all i can ask for..is knowning what it takes...now i jus need to man up n do it...like a friend of mine told me today how her freind got accepted to UCBerk on a track scholarship but dropped out already (2 weeks or what?) and now is trying to get back into UC DAVIS even tho he rejected it...she said acdemically hes UCD material (poppycock u can last anywhere u try to)...but anyways i dunno does he really deserve to be let back into DAVIS? i mean he made his choice n now he's trying to run form it...but he still is jus a freshman....i guess a year of college changes u're perspectives on lot of things...like i hope he can get into davis...cuz it be sorry for him to throw away his chances like this....but he should've at least stuck it out a semester at berk...at least been a bit more manly about it...n tried to handle his own..i mean 2 weeks n out? the hell is that...i guess he should've been more responsible in the first place...if i was the dude doing admissions at davis n i heard about that ish i wouldnt really think he deserved to go to my school...sorry its a mean thing to say but im being objective here...but yeah i wish him the best...we all make mistakes....i jus think he should live up to his...instead of bitching out on it...i dont consider going to UCLA a mistake at all...hell i do love it...n a big part of me cant wait to get back there but...if u guys new the bond i have wit well you guys (my freinds) its such a hard thing for me to do to leave n go there n be alone...sure i've made close freinds there like vincci, kim, and shelby....but they aint nothing like what im leaving behind...im sure they feel the same way about me...i mean Vincci is a lot like vanessa (hell maybe thats why we became such good friends)...shes even chinese for God's sake haha...but no one is like vanessa u know? n no one i've met are like my boys...there is no replacement for that...this year imma try to make it out to tai as much as possible...he came to my place a lot last year n i really love him for that...its like he was my tie to san jose....maybe we were one anothers tie to what we left behind...my roomie lives out near Tai's area n goes home everyother weekend almost so imma bum rides wit him...something i've noticed...when i go down south i talk a lot to socal people (online) but not that many norcal people n when i come up here its reversed...i guess its cuz i dont have nothing to talk to the socal people about cuz im not doing nothign wit em...n vice versa when im down there...hmm i really hope to get a verizon fone in the next couple months....cuz verizon supposedly works inside my dorm...that way ill be able to talk to certian people like ma mommy or nessa or bro or whoever i need to talk to on my phone inside my room...u dont know how many times i sat outside in the freezing cold/morning talking to nessa or judy etc etc cuz i had no reception...one time even the cops rolled up on me...haha o well..i guess i do look sucipious being dark skinned wearing a hoodie walking out of the buildings 3-4 in the morning (wit robberies occuring recentily)....i wish i had a car...i'd travel up a lot to norcal at least i want to when i get a car...ma mom n her freind were talking abot getting me a car next year so lets hope it fall through...i told them i dont need a car this year n thats true...but once i get out of the dorms i dont need need it but i would really like it jus cuz well i wanan be able to visit san jose any weekend i like or davis...to see van n anna n nessa or sD to see cat or Riverside to see tai ect ect....it jus be really good stuff haha...wow i've written more in the last two posts then i wrote all last month...thats some ish...UCLA is an overrated institution....:-D i really dont know why people get so excited about the fact that i got in...hell they all impressed by the fact that i got accepted everywhere i applied to...big deal...its all about enjoying where u at at the momment...not where u could've been or wanted to be...more likely where u're parents wanted u to be...one thing folks...dont do what u dont want to do....especially dont settle it is u're career....u dont wanna be 58 n wishing u was a singer...jus go be a broke ass singer if that really makes u happy...i was watching Newsradio(is that the name of the show?)...n the stupid guy (i forgot his name but hes hella funny---membered its ANDY DICK!) well he got fired...n like they caught him spying on the workplace...n they go over to the building across the street n they all u need toget another job n he all o i already got one...turns out that other building was where he worked n he was this big time baller dentist...like he's a complete idiot wit the radio but he's this wiz kid dentist...n he all u can say "dentistry is my skill but radio is my passion"...thats like so great...i mean this fool is probably getting piad shit cuz he dont know nothing about radio....he's an idiot on the radio or watever...but its his passion n he has a denstistry diploma but he jus throws that aside to do what he likes not what makes him money....thats the way to live...wow i jus noticed how much i have written...alrite imma cut it here...peace...
"The devil grows inside the heart of the selfish and wicked..."
Q.Booty
09/01/03 (4:52 AM): CLean up!
well new month so i finally updating this n cleaning it up...damn August was xz such an emotional month for me...lot of bad and good things have happened....i came close to breaking a couple times...i dunno jus a rough ass month...i guess everythign climaxed in august...i guess u wont be able to tell too much form my entrys cuz i kinda didnt say much on here during august i guess i dindt wanna takl about it...but there are a lot of clues in the lil that i did say...well things are doing better i guess for everyone...its nice...how clean the site looks right now hehe almost makes me not want to put in any entrys...i've been thinking about remodling this site for a while but it jus seems to big of a task for me...maybe when i go to UCLA...on noe of those late night dealies (like the night i made this...)....wrd well i really dont think anyone comes tot his site anymore...for those of u do well thanx i guess i dont give u guys much...not a big window anymore into me...nothing too intersting....maybe i should;'ve jus mad a xanga...haha lot easier to deal n jus put messages on...i did do my first xanga post today!!! to check it go to this link: first xanga post. wrd! hmm lately i jus been gambling...(lost on a 93% favor...haha) and chilling...still trying to battle some enternal demons...and gain full control but i dont think ill have that for a really long time...recovering emotional stability and peace of mind is no overnight deal...especially when u dont get what u really want in the end...hmm i've been kinda crushing on a certian girl lately...but its really off n on...like when me n her jus all out flirting its all good but then we talk abou certian things n it jus seems like there too many roadblocks for it to go thorugh...i guess i gotta go back to UCLA n see her n spend time wit her n see what happens...yeah usually i wont post nothing like that but hey i havnt given u guys anything good in a while so here u go haha...yeah dont ask me who hieu:) haha....actually u can ask i dont midn telling u u're my motherfucker n im pretty sure u read this sitll haha...hmm i think i should add somethign more interactive tot his site or something more intersting u guys got any ideas...i had a lot of ideas...but too lazy to implement them but if theres something lot of people want or my regulars want well i'll take it into consideration....hmmm anything else jus feel like a typing mode right now....hmmm jealousy is an evil....but its worse when u feel jealous n it hurts u cuz u feel jealous of something or someone...u know u dont feel hate for the other person or whatever but u really feel bad for ur'eself cuz u feeling such a thing....hmm let see any other gem's ofwisdom...haha i guess not im pretty blank today which is weird i've been actually giving good advice as of late...o well...hmm me n nessa make some bomb ass shopping buddies!! hehe we hit up express so many times in the past 2 weeks...the girl at epxress hella recognized nessa "you're a expressoholic!" haha....all good i actually dont mind shopping wit her...its like she dont take forever or nothing..n she actualyl come out wit something...n i guess its always fun to spend time wit u're best freind....especailly since our relationship is on such a chill plateu nowadays...been over a year since we fought...is like we always understand one another now n even know what the expect form one another...like back in my immature days i would be hella tripping about her not getting me a slurpy when she said she would...but i guess im not an idiot no more hahaha....:-D sigh imma miss her when i go to school...it does kinda feel like its a final goodbye this summer n thats why part of me doesnt want to see her before i leave...jus cuz i dont wanna face that final goodbye...even tho ill see her again i know but it jus seems like our freindship will never be the same....even tho i dont think it can change much haha...we've basically delt wit everything that two friends can deal wit n we're closer then ever u know?....wit my boys imma miss u guys a lot to...its like leaving u're family behind...im happy ill see tai more often this year...cuz my roomie lives near tai n he drives home n imma go wit him n go chill wit tai...i mean if u asked me to choose between my boys i couldnt do it...i mean ill admit there some people that are "there for u" more then others but i feel like i need all u guys together....it makes me sad when people go like yeah i really dont hang wit my high school firends anymore n stuff...the worst part about going to school in UCLA is leaving my mom n bro n nessa n ma extended bros....i wont lie i have thought about the what if i went to DAVIS...n u know im still happy i went to UCLA...n i dont want to go to DAVIS or nothing but i guess when u is alone u think about u're freinds....but im looking forward to this year still...should be real intersting...i hope i can get a job n come through on some ish i've promised some people( myself, my homies, etc...)....coughanyjeanscough....hahah....well i've dragged this out rather nicely haha...hmm damn i had a pretty sick freestyle well only a few bars int he shower today n i forgot it now haha o well...it was first thing i actually would've posted up for u guys to check out...im not a rhymer...its not mystyle....like im more of a thinker...but u know i guess we all have our momments....okay peace out yall!
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