08/24/03 (11: 49 AM): Understatment of an understanding...
I understand the glory of love finally, after all many experiences and observations i think i finally understand why love is great...a meaning to life, maybe jus a meaning for mine.
Q.booty
08/21/03 (5:39 AM): Quick observation...
People never want to be with their bestfreind, but they always want the one they are with to be their bestfreind...:-D i guess it makes sense in its werid way...u dont wanan risk what u have but once u've taken the risk u want it to be there...take that n make some sense out of it, peace. any ideas, comments debates on this observation feel free to holla back, email me: [email protected] (kinda trying to faze this email into use), im me BMIPASSION, call me....write me a letter...sign my guestbook n drop a note...whatever makes u happy!
Q.booty
08/18/03 (1:17 AM): Memory...
1 Memory, Infinitive Meaning:
Christmas Eve, my junior year, i dont know why but i ended up at your house van...and i dont celebrate Christmas so when it came around time for Dinner i started feeling very akward...Xmass Eve dinner is usually a family event and i didnt know what i was going to do...then u're mom came to me..she didnt even know me but she came to me...she asked me to eat dinner wit you guys...she told me to stay...she made me one of the family that night....n she touched my heart...this is who Tammy Nguyen IS...this is who she always will be to me...all this time i have thought of van as a brother n her as van's mom..now i think of her as family to...
jus dont feel like deleting it yet but dont want it in my info so i moved it here....
Q.booty
08/11/03 (4:13 AM): A reminder to myself...
*****: i didn't really "cry" until you said you had almost smoked..for some reason...
*****: i dont' wanan see you do that stuff
im sorry. i was selfish. I promise you never again will i come close. [this promise i will keep for the rest of my life...u will b my reason if i ever grow weak again]
Q.booty
08/09/03 (4:28 AM):It's time...
i feel like its time to stop running n face life...thanx dave for taking the pack form me and giving it to someone else...just making me realize its time for me to face my shit...i've been through a lot of worse stuff in my life...this is jus something i gotta man up n face it...i dont think i can make it for 2 months so i gotta jus handle it...but i'll see how i feel when i wake up....everyone is asleep right now so i can't face it now...we'll see what tomorrow brings...but at least i resisted....i bought the pack but not one went between my lips....ill probably be a pussy tomorrow but for now im a man...
-Illusion-
Q.booty
PS: it was a pretty fun night...
08/07/03 (6:06 AM): A line...
Q: all expectations are too much to ask.
Q: so ill fallow my path n hopefully someone will stop me:-D
uyen: aww.
uyen: i like taht line
(3:54 AM): A response.
I feel (felt?) jus like you do...thats why i've hid the fact or tried to hide it the best i can...but what can u do when u cant hide it no more...i need to escape this delusion of happiness and seek peace of mind...forever in my heart. I dont believe in it neither (i think) but my heart does...so what do i say.
-Q
08/06/03 (6:08 AM): I man i make fire!
well i jus showered up from changing tires on ma mom/bro's cars...i got a flat 2 days ago (sunday night) right before the exit to my home...so today (first time i've seen haani since saturday afternoon...) we got to changin em...since haani's car is fucked up n wont be used again we took his two front tires (which are in great condition) and put them onto the 2 back tires of ma mom's car....but u know doing this wasnt even bad at all..working on a car(s) even if its jus changing a tire makes you feel very manily...i know its stupid...but honestily if your a guy you understand what i mean...especially if your a lil bro and your working side by side wit your older brother and getting your hands all greasey and shit...it jus makes you walk around with your head just a tad more higher then usual....its a special thing...it took probably an hour or so to do cuz soem shit was stuck on haani's tire so it took time to get it done but its done...now ma mom's car tires are cool again...so thats good...i man i make fire!
Q.booty
PS: if you have no idea what this expereince is like..well then that sux for you:-D
08/04/03 (5:41 AM): BMI
Freindships make you forget about everything...thanx for keeping me occupied all weekend so i could pretend to be alrite in everyway.
new musical relaxation: Tevin Campbell-What do I say
Q.booty
08/03/03 (5:35 AM): Crumbling...
Life has many problems...
...and i have some of em.
Life has many stresses...
...and im crumbling under some of em.
Sometimes you jus cant let life catch up to you.
I asked you to make the choice for me and you said the choice is "NO" so i will honor it...drugfree pain.
Q.booty
08/01/03 (4:49 AM): New Month
Its august so time for some cleaning...the July sectoin been moved to wel the July03 section...make sense...
Anyways the only reason i really wanted to post was someone please get soulseek n then download Immortal Techniques-Dance with the devil and listen to it with their mind so we can talk about it:-D its a awsome track...but if u really listen to it be warned its some sick stuff...very sad....
hmmm....gonna try to get a paintball gun tomorrow....or later on today i mean.
SOMEONE SIGN MY GUESTBOOK ITS GETTING LONEILY haha.
"now listen the story im tellng you is true, becuae i was their with him and i raped his mother to...now the devil fallows me everywhere i go...maybe he's one of you who go to my show..."
"IF you ever think of dancing with the devil say never, becuase a dance wit the devil mgiht last you forever"
Rerun: 7/30/03:
"There is a change coming...and my paper heart will bleed."
Q.booty