May 2003 - December 2003

Ok, so let's play catch up. I finally broke up with Joe in April/May. As absolutely cute as he was, things just weren't working. I got back into going out for a while but it kind of lost it's luster and impact as I started trying to focus much more on getting stuff done at work.

I met a guy in November who I was pretty captivated by to say the least. He was just adorable - goofy, handsome (omg, his eyes just melt me), attentive (most of the time - at first), down-to-earth, yadda yadda yadda. But that was short lived as I realize he was also a ridiculously insecure cheat who needed sex by any means from anyone (especially his exes as far back as two girlfriends ago). No wonder he was paranoid about me cheating on him. Go figure when I really try to focus on being a good girlfriend and leaving the bs behind I run into three people who either don't realize they have a good thing or don't want it.

I started doing much more volunteer work and actually teach ESL on Saturdays.

Interesting Things to Note: mostly suff about Jack b/c he's mostly what I did for a while.

• April/May - broke up with Joe (too bad, such a hottie)
  
• Nov 5 approx 3:00 pm - This guy IMs me out of the blue at work and we hit it off really well. We planned to go to this kinda fancy restaurant in Dupont Circle.
  
• Nov 7 - met Jack (he made me so warm and fuzzy inside - HEY!! mind out of the gutter no sex yet. Not quite "love" at first sight but "all of that 'like' stuff that normally takes months" at first sight I'm sure.)
  
• Thanksgiving - I went to NJ for dinner with his family. They were really sweet and welcoming to me. :) Not a traditional dinner at all - ravioli for me. The trip had it's ups and downs. We even broke up but got back together after it all. I really wanted to meet his grandmother but she wasn't around. I met his dad who I think was the most open and inviting of all of his family.
  
• Dec 7 - Jack and I spent our first month together - apart. He was with his ex!!! I did all the things I set up just for us. I gotta say I looked beautiful that night - very classy and sexy. I went out and bought a new little black dress and got really dolled up. I went to this jazz concert at the Kennedy Center - he really likes jazz. I had a really nice dinner at the Melting Pot - they were even able to get me the private table I requested. That was pretty painful to go through.
  Got back together.
• Christmas - celebrated the 12 Days of Christmas and it did NOT go well. EHHH, I love the 12 Days of Christmas. How can that go bad?!?! He was sick and I was getting over being sick.
  
• Day after Christmas - he decided that he didn't want to be with me b/c of xyz.
  Got back together.

April 2003 - early May 2003

Work is work so nothing really to report there. But alright kiddies here's the deal. I'm official with someone. Things have been quite a roller coaster ride. It's unfortunate because I liked this guy quite a bit and he really has been the only thing I've done this month. Geez, already talking in past tense. I am sticking around to see how things pan out but I've basically given up already and I don't really see him trying to give me a reason to do anything but. I think this could have been really nice but who knows now.

I'm sure the next portion of this month you'll get to hear all of the juicy details of how this once blissful relationship turned into shit in a matter of no time. Hell, I'm so on it right now I could just tell all the glorious details right now but then what would you have to look forward to? :P stay tuned for the good stuff
~Nicee~

March 2003

Oh yes, the single life yet again. Well, I am actually hanging out a lot these days. And wouldn't you know it, a friend of the asian guy is trying to hook up with me. What's up with that?!?! It takes all kinds I guess. I'm still drinking - almost every day. My collection is quite nice.

Some of the seemingly interesting candidates have lost my interest. I did meet one guy that I actually like quite a bit of course he is the only one of the group of losers that "forgot" my birthday... Forgot being used very loosely here... as I know he knows the date but he didn't bother to say or do anything. I'm re-evaluating his ranking in the food chain.

February 2003 - late

My trip went well. I discovered that T.J. had emailed me about getting together when I was in Florida. Funny how he called my mom and knew I was at her house but couldn't pick up a phone to ask me out. Don't think he really wanted to go out. Perhaps he was just testing the waters but nonetheless a stupid way of going about it.

And one of my favorite stupid ppl called me while I was in FL. Oh yes, Jordan, the not quite there not quite gone piece of man I have. This time when I actually talked to him I couldn't even muster up any excitement. It used to be fun and playful now the game is just plain worn out.

While I'm on the subject of dumbass men, let me just talk about the stupid asian guy. He decided to have a tantrum b/c I guess I wasn't giving him enough sex - well, I never... lol. I saw that one coming a mile away. The head sucked anyway so not a real loss to me.

February 2003 - early

I decided to go home for mom's birthday and take advantage of the week of vacation time I had from last year. I'll be there until Valentine's Day weekend. My guy will be off trainging for war or whatever it is they do so it won't much matter whether I'm home or not. Of course, I'm a little fed up with this guy anyway. The conflicting schedules and pressure to give up my three-year celibacy to him is becoming more than I want to deal with. Not to mention I met another guy. Sad I did so while out with my guy. But that should be a sign that he isn't there for me like he should be.

Jan 2003

So, my new year's resolution is to start drinking. Interesting... More or less it's more like enjoy life while you can. Not that I have a desire to drink rather a need to not get boxed into what I can, must or can't or shouldn't do. I'm not sure how far I'll get into it but I'm pretty sure I'll get over it soon. I'll probably stop by next year unless it's only a social thing.

I'm much more focused and organized to act than I was last year. The next few months I'm going to focus on getting my crap together and pulling myself out of the hole I dug last year.

On the relationship level - I met a guy the weekend before New Year. He's asian - guess there's a first time for everything. Not sure where this is going but his appetite for sex is a little out of line with my life and his "work" schedule drives me insane. We'll just have to wait and see.