thoughts and such
I was shocked today when...
a true nerd
i had a blast saturday night. rick and i met mot and kevin at kevin's house. we ordered pizza and kevin made a D&D character for mot. mot is a rogue, who is a master of disguise. i'm a druid elf, neutral good, rick is DM and a human cleric, kevin is a rogue fighter, and matt is a half-orc barbarian. after we made mot a character, mot had to leave to meet his nice friend christy and rick, kevin, and i left to go to matt's house to play. it was a lot of fun. i'm not very good and still unsure about all the dice and such, but i really like it. i think i especially like just being around other people rather than just being alone or with rick. i'm really glad mot and i are hanging out more.
fantasmic
wow. yesterday started out pretty lame, but then rick came over at about 3:30 and it got a LOT better. rick and hung out at my house for a while, then rick took me to Mot's house at about 5:30. Rick left after about ten minutes to go to work and i hung out with Mot. it was so much fun! i really had a blast. *huggles mot* ... i usually do when i'm with him, but yesterday was great. we played Puzzle Fighter on the PS2 for a while, which was cool because i LOVE that game. too bad it's like, impossible to find around here and i haven't found it yet. prolly gonna have to get it offa Ebay. anywho. so we played that for a long time and mot kept kicking my ass but it was ok. because the game is really fun. then he ordered pizza and we talked for a while about private things. his dad came home and then left to pick up our pizza, which was nice. it was great because usually i just get to talk to mot online and being able to catch up face-to-face felt good. the pizza was delicious, and then after we were finished eating (about 7:30ish), we left and went bike riding. we rode and rode, working off the pizza and prolly more, talking the whole time about different things, mostly his love and mine. we met his friend ashley at the store he lives near, and by the time we left there, it had begun pouring rain (remnants of Ivan). and it was kinda dark. this made it even more fun. i swear i haven't had that much fun in forEVER! it was awesome. so we rode home in the dark, with the rain and the wind. it felt really good. oh, and at the store i bought some flavored sparkling water and mot bought a drink that was really good, which made things nice too, other than the burping they caused. anyway this story is kind of mixed up but i'll try and tell you most of everything. we got home, soaked, and mot's dad gave me some sweatpants and a tshirt to wear and put my clothes in the dryer. ok. back to the store. tom and i found a list of items in the store (it's a grocery store). there was also a pen with it, so i kinda mocked the messy cursive writing and added some things. i added "Captain Enema," "Yeast-B-Gone," heated lube condoms, and some other crazy things. it was funny. anyway, i'll tell more later. or maybe that's enough. yeah. oh, and his friend ashley that we met is real funny. i like her a lot. ok, later. i'm off to the video store now with rick to return a pretty late video game. we bought the game so now we dont need their rental anymore :p
i've got the magic
last night, as i was cleaning a table at Mama Fu's, a woman said to me, "girl, you've got the magic!" Now, i know that doesn't mean that much really, but it meant a lot to me. and it made me think about how much i really love my job. i really do. it makes me feel
so good. because people really notice me there. i don't mean that in a conceited or selfish kind of way. i mean, people talk to me and care about what i say back. people ask me things and care about my opinion. people really care. i don't get that at home. i say something and no one knows i said anything. not because i was too quiet or anything. i try to tell someone what i think about something and it's shot down or discredited. i'm put down by my stepdad all the time and my mom doesn't give me the time of day unless it's to ask me to do laundry or dishes or vaccuum or babysit. and i don't mind doing those things, i just wish we had more of a connection than that. i wish my 1 year-old sister wasn't the only one in my family to
really notice me. sorry for the rant :(
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my foot is asleep...
i've been sitting here, with the song
Everybody Hurts by REM on repeat, updating the site for a while, while sitting cross-legged, so my left foot is now asleep. i haven't really been up to much lately. rick and i have been playing Baulder's Gate (spelling?) a lot lately, which i love. i'm a necromancer, and my favorite weapon is a scimitar, which i've upgraded a lot. awesome. we're babysitting his little sister jessie. pain in my ass. cute, but whiney. like my boyfriend, but smaller and with girl parts. hehe j/k. or am i? lol. rick is going to teach me to play Dungeons and Dragons. my mom says it's pure evil, and that i will make her look bad if i even look at the book. like i said, she's not too bright. but whatever. you might feel the same way about D&D, who knows..? i'm staying the night with my great-grandmother tonight. funstuff. well anywho, just figured i'd update. oh, and has anyone noticed the CSI marathon on Spike TV every weekday? my own personal heaven! i love CSI, and since i've nothing to do during the day (not starting college till this spring), i watch CSI from about 10am, to 3pm. doing laundry in between, of course. i cant just sit around doing nothing. but yeah. ok so i'm offa here now. hibye.
me again!
hey, just updating my diary to say hello and what-not. my birthday is a month away! i'll be 18! yay. anywho, just wanted to let you know i'm still around. hugs for caiti and mot and frances ^_^ . hibye
hola
alrighty. so, things are much better with rick. he likes my ears a little better now. i'm not even going to try to get on the computer at home. not gonna give my parents the pleasure of telling me "no," that i can't use the computer. but it isn't like i can't get on there if i want to. so he has a password blocking me from logging on? password protection isn't worth shit, if you know what you're doing. i didn't take plenty of computer classes in high school for nothing. whatever. anyway!
my sister emily had her first birthday yesterday. the party was pretty nice. frances stayed the night with me the night before. we had fun, we watched my Kurumi set, which was nice. rick and i are watching
Atlantis: Milo's Return. we watched the first Atlantis first. you know what's cool? we rented 3 DVDs, 2 VHSs, and a XBOX game for under $5. awesome, huh? anyway, i'm gonna get offa here. just thought i'd update.
here i am again
so, as i said, rick hates my earrings. he told me he didn't wanna see me again till i took them out, then he broke up with me over them. then he "took it back," and said he'd think about it. i'd rather have all my teeth pulled than put up with everything he's putting me through over my ear piercings. he wont let it go; he brings it up just about every chance he gets. i don't know if it's worth it to deal with this. i know we have potential as a couple, and i love him, and the last thing i wanna do is break up,but i don't wanna deal with this forever. i want to know i can still be myself while we're together, ya know?
also, my parents are aggrivated about me having a website, so i'm not gonna be able to update for a while. i'm gonna take down the prom page, and maybe change things elsewhere. so this is my announment of my hiatus. hibye.
PS: i get to see caiti today! *dances* i also get to hang out with tom. i durno what we're gonna do. i
really wanna go bowling, but i durno if they'll want to. not that many people like bowling *Frown*..i suck at it, but i think it's fun. anyway, see ya.
